Chapter 40: I don't want him to blame himself

I really couldn't stand Gu Wanxin's noisy in my office, so I directly called the security guard to forcibly take Gu Wanxin out.

And during this time, Gu Wanxin was naturally restless, calling from my office to the elevator, so that the employees outside my office looked at us curiously, Gu Wanxin shouted and screamed, saying that it was useless for me to use the child to keep Zhou Huaiyan, and that Zhou Huaiyan still loves her, although they are separated by me, their hearts are still together......

Gu Wanxin's horn can be regarded as revealing the truth between me and Zhou Huaiyan and her, the girl named Xiaomei looked at me directly with her mouth wide open, and I regret it very much, I shouldn't have put Zhou Huaiyan at the door of my office for convenience.

Not wanting to be looked at like this, I just lowered the curtains and locked myself in the office.

It was at this time that Zheng Yuanqiao came in.

You can see how anxious he is, he didn't even knock on the door that he usually remembers, and just pushed the door in.

He looked panicked and admitted his mistake to me as soon as he entered the door: "I'm sorry, I didn't do a good job." ”

"Yes, you didn't do a good job. "For his confession, I didn't say anything polite to him, just said it directly.

The expression on Zheng Yuanqiao's face was even more self-reproachful.

Seeing him like this, I suddenly didn't have the intention to blame him, today to put it bluntly, what makes me unhappy is Gu Wanxin, I can't sprinkle my displeasure with the people I don't like on the people I like.

"Forget it, just pay attention in the future, Gu Wanxin's madman may come to the company to make trouble in the future, you are ready, just don't let her go crazy in the company." I waved my hand and said.

Perhaps surprised that I was so quick to dissipate, Zheng Yuanqiao's expression looked like he was stunned for a moment, and then solemnly promised me: "Got it." ”

"Hmm. I answered softly, and then remembered what I was thinking in my head just now, Gu Wanxin still succeeded in making me angry, I had to start to regret releasing her from the madhouse, in fact, I thought that Gu Wanxin could be locked up in the madhouse by me, and she was stupid, if she didn't think that pretending to be crazy could escape the catastrophe, I wouldn't have been able to put her in the madhouse for a hundred years, and I could go to her to enjoy my mood when I was in a bad mood.

But this kind of thing is too much of a coincidence, although now I know that my dad's car accident has nothing to do with us, but I still have to admit that the car accident was simply too good for me, and I solved the two enemies I wanted to kill at once, and Gu Wanxin was also cleaned up, so I really didn't have a headache, how to get revenge for the enemy I hated so much.

Now I don't have to care about Wanxin, but at least don't jump in front of me, and don't spend the money I earn.

I hugged my head and thought about it for a while, but I really couldn't think of any practical and effective methods, even if it didn't cost me money, I didn't believe that Gu Wanxin, the eldest lady, had the ability to be self-sufficient.

I sighed, my head aching, and at that moment, suddenly a voice sounded above me: "What's wrong?"

I was stunned, looked up, and found that Zheng Yuanqiao was still in my office, didn't he leave my office yet?

I just remembered that I was only thinking about my own affairs just now, and I forgot to let him out, I gave Zheng Yuanqiao so much power, and he could still obey my words, which made me feel very gratified, and I also remembered that Zheng Yuanqiao is so smart in his mind, maybe he knows what to do?

I cleared my throat, still a little embarrassed when I actually spoke, this was the first time I had asked him about a personal matter, and the question it asked felt a little unethical.

"You say," I licked my lower lip and said, "how can you make someone you particularly annoyed disappear without breaking the law?"

Zheng Yuanqiao was really stunned by my question, and he shouldn't have to think about it to know that the person I was talking about was Gu Wanxin.

I'm a little embarrassed, hey, what am I thinking?

Zheng Yuanqiao smiled and said, "It seems that making people disappear and breaking the law are connected, but I know how to make myself forget the people I hate." ”

Forget about Gu Wanxin?

It seemed unlikely, she and I seemed to be connected, and even if I wanted to split up with her, we still had half the same blood in our bodies.

However, it was rare for Zheng Yuanqiao to give me advice, so I still asked him with face: "How to do it?"

"Make yourself better," Zheng Yuanqiao couldn't help but say with pride in his tone: "When you can leave him far behind and become a person of two worlds, that little bit of annoyance will become irrelevant." ”

Make yourself better?

I just listened to Zheng Yuanqiao's tone, and I also knew that he was saying that it contained his own experience, and also, he should have had a lot of people he hated at the beginning, people who looked down on him because of his bad family, but now he is out, as he said, he and the people he was at the beginning have become people from two worlds, and they usually can't even meet each other, let alone be so angry that they feel bad when they are hated.

However, I was grateful for his advice, and after thanking him, I let him out.

What Zheng Yuanqiao said is not unreasonable, make yourself better, but how good can I be?

But I don't think I'm as good as Gu Wanxin, her family background and knowledge are all packaged, and it's useless to her now, and in my opinion, Gu Wanxin can't compare to me in addition.

But Zhou Huaiyan has to let Zhou Huaiyan know, he must know that I am much better than Gu Wanxin.

And what Zhou Huaiyan cares about most now is that I am now pregnant with his child.

After learning that I was pregnant at the beginning, the first thought that came to my mind was not to give birth to it or what, I was just happy to be able to prove my innocence to Zhou Huaiyan, Gu Wanxin slandered my ex-boyfriend countless times I couldn't find anything else to say except a no, but that time, he could see it clearly, I was the first time.

Then this child seems to have no other use, and at this moment, a crazy idea formed in my mind, which I had never thought of before, but now that I had this thought, I felt that it was not impossible.

I almost immediately wanted to go to the hospital, but before I did something so big, I still wanted to talk to someone.

But I have no father and mother for a long time, and I don't have any relatives and friends around me, and after looking for a circle, in the end, only Shen Changying can be found.

For so many years, he was also like my brother.

I told Shen Changying what I thought. His tone was unexpectedly brisk, "Go ahead, it's small now, and it won't hurt you much." ”

His tone made me a little unhappy, and it gave me the feeling that he didn't take it seriously at all.

"Anyway, he doesn't plan to admit it, does he?" Shen Changying lightly knocked my dissatisfaction back.

"Or do you think he will change his mind when you are born?" Shen Changying chuckled lightly on the other end of the phone and said, "Then your Zhou Huaiyan is just a soft egg that will be easily tied up by a woman with a child." ”

Shen Changying's tone was even more excessive, and I couldn't help but call his name heavily on the phone.

"You think about what you want to do, but I advise you in advance, if you really want to fight, remember to leave a sample, you and Zhou Huaiyan haven't done a paternity test yet, haven't you? ”

Shen Changying's words made me even more unhappy, and I was also a little sad, sample? I naturally knew that he was talking about the child in my womb, it was really pitiful, even the basic shape had not yet grown, and it was going to be made into a sample, which was too pitiful.

"No," I sniffed, holding back the sudden sadness, "He has already admitted in front of me that it was his child, and if he doesn't admit it just because he died without proof, it only means that such a man is not worthy of my love." ”

If Zhou Huaiyan really began to doubt the origin of this child after I beat him, it also means that he still doesn't believe that I love him, and I have worked hard for so long, if he doesn't even believe this, then I may not have the need to work hard.

But what can I do if I don't love him?

I lay on the operating table with such questions, because the month is still young, in fact, it is very easy to do, it was done in less than an afternoon, and I went back to the company and waited for Zhou Huaiyan to come back.

Zhou Huaiyan came back a little late, when he came back, there was no one in the company, I asked his colleagues, they said that he had something else to delay for a while and did not come back with them, Zhou Huaiyan took advantage of the work time to do what I didn't ask him, as long as he came back to me.

He seemed a little startled when he saw me, and then asked me, "Why haven't you left yet?"

"I'm waiting for you. I said, stood up, and said, "Let's go." I paused, looked at him with his bag, and said, "You shouldn't have anything to work overtime, right?"

Zhou Huaiyan's face changed slightly, because he really didn't have any work to deal with overtime, and I didn't want to continue to wait for him, I had been waiting for a long time.

Zhou Huaiyan followed me away with a bad face, and after seeing me press the elevator going up, he had to ask me curiously: "What are you doing upstairs?"

I looked at him and said, "You'll know when you get there." ”

went all the way up to Gu's top floor, and when he saw the helicopter parked on the tarmac on the top floor, Zhou Huaiyan understood what I wanted to do, and then immediately refused: "Gu Wanqing, where do you want to take me?"

Zhou Huaiyan's reaction was unexpected, I smiled and said, "You don't have to be so nervous, your parents have already asked the assistant to inform them, and they already know that you are going to follow me to a small island in the sea for a vacation." ”

"Vacation?" Zhou Huaiyan was already frowning, and when he heard me say this, his brows furrowed even tighter: "When did I say that I was going on vacation? No, didn't you tell me when you were going on vacation?"

When?

"Just today," I said, "I haven't been to see my father's private island for Gu Wanxin's vacation, and I've heard that the environment is good and suitable for recuperation." ”

"Recuperate, recuperate what, aren't you fine?"

I was a little surprised that Zhou Huaiyan could immediately focus on this, wasn't he angry that I took advantage of Gu Wanxin's things?

I smiled, I hadn't intended to tell him about it so soon, but since he asked, I'll tell him.

"I had a miscarriage, to be exact, I went for an abortion in the afternoon," I looked him in the eye and said, "You don't have to worry about this child anymore." ”

When my voice fell, Zhou Huaiyan's face still changed, but fortunately he was not indifferent.

“......”

"So I'm going to go on vacation for the next half a month, I asked Wang's mother to pack up my daily necessities, and she also followed me, but to take care of me, she alone may not be enough, and then it will trouble you. I said again.

In fact, hearing this, Zhou Huaiyan should have heard it, saying that it is a fake to recuperate, even if it is a crowd to recuperate, it is not impossible to be at home, and there is no need to deliberately go to such a far away and inaccessible island, to put it bluntly, I just want to kidnap Zhou Huaiyan alone, in short, it is impossible to leave him alone, so that Gu Wanxin has a chance.

Zhou Huaiyan's face was still not very good-looking, I couldn't help but feel a little uncomfortable, I thought that he could at least feel something about me beating the child, but I didn't expect that he didn't say a word.

"Alright, let's go. "I was a little disappointed, so I walked straight ahead.

Yes, I still need to say something, this child was an accident for him, and now it doesn't hurt to have it, but I don't want him to feel any guilt about me because of this, I didn't do it to kidnap him.

But at this time, when I said, "Don't you care, it's just an accident anyway, I didn't want to keep it in the first place, because I'm not ready to be a mother", I really couldn't open my mouth, so I simply fell silent.

Waiting for the plane to take off, full of noise, I heard Zhou Huaiyan complain: "Two days ago, I wished everyone knew that you were pregnant with my child, and today I secretly beat it again, Gu Wanqing, are you too uncertain?"

This did make me stunned, because he was right, I did this deliberately at his welcome party the other day, and only a few days later, I changed my mind again.

I do change the hexagram a bit a lot of times, and even I am surprised how I can think so much about one out is one play, and I can always think of the other side from one side, and how much of a twist has to happen.

I glanced at Zhou Huaiyan, yes, how did he know, if it weren't for the fact that he didn't love me, how could I be so cranky, and I wouldn't do anything else except think about him all day long.

A few hours later, Zhou Huaiyan and I arrived at the island where Gu Sizhen bought Gu Wanxin's birthday gift, which was completely privately owned, and in order to please Gu Wanxin, Gu Sizhen also hired a special person to take care of the island, I heard Zheng Yuanqiao mention before, the climate here is suitable, very suitable for vacation, I have never thought of coming to take a look, there is no other reason, it is too far away from Zhou Huaiyan, I am afraid that I will not be able to see him for a day, so he will run away.

When I got off the plane, it was Wang's mother who helped me, and she only found out this afternoon that I went to have a baby, and saw that I was still a little uncomfortable at this time, so I couldn't help but complain: "Ouch, Miss you said that you didn't tell us in advance, where did you go to the child without saying a word, where can this child be a trivial matter, you don't know how distressed I am when you called me this afternoon and said that you had a child, if this happened in my family, I would definitely have to scold my son to death......

"Okay, Mom, don't say it. ”

I saw that the more Wang Ma said that Zhou Huaiyan's face was more and more ugly, I hurriedly stopped her, I did this, not to make Zhou Huaiyan blame himself, and on the way just now, I was also thinking about whether it was better for me not to tell Zhou Huaiyan that I was pregnant, although after I became pregnant, the contact between us seemed to increase, but there seemed to be no good direction of contact, maybe it was also because of this child in the middle.

I don't want Zhou Huaiyan to become the man I tied up with my child, nor do I want him to blame myself for beating the child, this child has been my will from beginning to end, and it has nothing to do with him.

"I'll go find someone first. ”

But Zhou Huaiyan seemed to be affected by Wang's mother's words, and pulled me and his luggage and walked forward, I knew that he was going to find the manager of this small island, we were in a hurry, and we only had time to inform them before leaving, hoping that they could clean up the room.

"Wang Ma, don't say such things in the future," while Zhou Huaiyan was away, I told Wang Ma that I would stay here for a long time in the future, lest Wang Ma say such things again in the future, I would directly explain to her," This child was completely unexpected, neither I nor he expected this child to come, so whether it was for him or for me, it was more surprise than joy, I know, you feel sorry for me, but the decision to abort was made by me alone, and I don't want to make him feel guilty because of this, so don't deliberately say such things in front of him in the future, okay?"

Wang Ma blushed when I said it, and sure enough, as I thought, she deliberately said such things in front of Zhou Huaiyan, wanting to increase the guilt in his heart, she said, "I know...... But Mr. This time it was really too much, you had a miscarriage, he didn't care a word, Miss, I didn't say you, such a man is not worthy of your love. ”

Not worth it?

This somewhat familiar sentence made me stunned, what is worthy? Because he is good, because others are good, is he worthy of my love? So what do I love him, or is he good?

No, I don't want to love him because he is good to me, and I also know that from the beginning, I didn't love Zhou Huaiyan because he was good to me, and I have always been at ease with Zhou Huaiyan's character, and I have known that he is a gentle big brother since I was a child.

When Mother Wang walked me to the villa on the island, Zhou Huaiyan had already ordered someone to turn on all the lights in the house, so at a glance, the layout of this house was a bit similar to the pattern of the Gu family.