I originally thought that my redoubled efforts would be able to win the admiration and courtesy of my father-in-law, but the ending seems to be the same: the ideal is very plump, and the reality is very skinny!

But I have always firmly believed: Zunyan, it is not someone else's charity that depends on others, it must be earned by your own efforts!

I know what I need and what I want, and I always stick to my original intention, running all the way on the bumpy and muddy road, but running too fast will ignore too many more important things.

When I took my wife and children back to my hometown to visit my parents during the May Day holiday after the Spring Festival in 2006, my mother inadvertently revealed an incident that made me feel very guilty: " In 2002, your father was excluded and suppressed, and was required to be laid off at home in advance, and the laid-off salary was only 300 yuan a month, and it was stipulated that your father was not allowed to use his skills to do a part-time job outside, and then he did a little private work to supplement the family, at that time you had just gotten married, and there was no money at home, which is why your father couldn't sleep all night, and finally the housing loan of 20,000 yuan was the reason why you paid it off, in 2005, all the money in the family was only five dimes, and after taking 50 yuan from your eldest sister to buy vegetables, he went to your uncle's house to borrow 5,000 yuan to liveI asked your father several times to call you to tell you about the situation at home, but your father snatched the phone every time and pressed it, and did not allow me to call to tell you, and said that it was not easy for my son to work hard in Kunshan, it was very hard, and we didn't prepare anything for him, so don't add any trouble and difficulties to him; fortunately, every time you go home and enter the door, you will throw a sum of money to buy vegetables for your mother, but even so, your father is not allowed to take your money!"

After listening to what my mother said, looking at the back of my father who was sitting in my room watching the basketball game, I was about to cry, in fact, my economic conditions and situation have been quite good since 05, why don't you tell me?

I can postpone buying a car for a year to help the family solve all the difficulties, my heart is full of guilt and self-blame for my parents, I did not fulfill the obligation of support for my son, although we got married and gave the unpopular father-in-law a thousand yuan for food every month, but I didn't know that my parents were so poor and difficult, although every time I returned to my hometown during a long vacation after getting married, I would give my mother 2,000 or 3,000 food expenses, and I also saw my father standing on the side and complaining to my mother:" I am already very happy when my son, daughter-in-law and grandson come back, you still have to collect their food money for so many days, what kind of system do you look like?", no wonder my mother was in a dilemma with the money in one hand, my son is incompetent!

"Mom, my son is not by your side and doesn't care enough about you, please forgive me!

I immediately understood that behind his warm smile was a sense of perseverance and hardship, and that heavy fatherly love made me choke so that I couldn't breathe!

I want you to be as proud of me as ever, and I want to work harder to surpass myself!