In 2006, just after the Qingming Festival, my mother called me to tell me that your father had a nosebleed when brushing his teeth in the morning, and I didn't say a word and immediately rushed back to my hometown to take him to Changzhou University Hospital to check and be diagnosed with nasopharyngeal cancer stage IV.

After arranging for him to live in Changzhou Cancer Hospital, in order to let his father, who has worked hard all his life, enjoy better medical care, he immediately set out to ask his friends in Shanghai to find a relationship, and asked Professor Zhang Wangwang of Shanghai Cancer Hospital& The doctoral supervisor is very authoritative and famous in this regard, so he tried to pay for Professor Zhang to rush to Changzhou Cancer Hospital to make a detailed reading and diagnosis and treatment plan for his father, only to see that the director of Changzhou Cancer Hospital was very humble in front of Professor Zhang like a student, and I knew that I had found the right person. Professor Zhang repeatedly comforted and encouraged my father and our family: nose cancer is the lightest and easiest to treat among all cancers, it is a little bigger than a serious illness, don't worry too much, keep a good mood and attitude, don't drink or smoke, and insist on regular check-ups.

The only treatment for cancer is chemotherapy and radiotherapy, and seeing his violent reaction during chemotherapy, my heart is so helpless and uncomfortable! The potion is really poisonous, and even the few drops of the potion that empty and drip on the concrete floor of the hospital can be constantly foaming, not to mention hanging into people's blood....... The whole treatment period was quite smooth, but the violent reaction of chemotherapy made him unbearable, he couldn't eat anything at all, and watched him slowly lose weight...... Seeing the clenched tooth roots when he hung up on the water, and the violent reaction to chemotherapy that followed, the whole person trembled slightly on the bed...... I really couldn't stand it anymore, and ran to the end of the corridor of the inpatient department of the hospital, and my heart was filled with bursts of the past: if it wasn't for him teaching me the truth of being a man and doing things since I was a child, and being a model for me, step by step pulling me back to the track of a normal person, maybe in my uncle's words, I really thought that you would go to prison when you grew up! Yes, who is sure what the arrangement will be tomorrow?

Tears blurred my eyes again, and scenes from the past came to mind: when I was a child, I couldn't eat enough, and you went to the edge of the mass grave after work to open up wasteland and farm; you went to the door to apologize to others for stealing fish...... I was so reluctant to see me come to Kunshan alone, I was so excited to see me humiliated by my father-in-law, and I was so aggrieved and uncomfortable to see me being beaten by my father-in-law...... No matter how much suffering there is, no matter how much difficulty there is, you are not willing to let me help you share it...... When you let go of my clenched hands and see every achievement I have achieved, you smile so brightly...... Do you know that you are the most important spiritual pillar in my heart, you are the best mentor and friend, there is no one, you know that all my efforts are to make your sonorous and powerful sentence more confident: My son will definitely be successful, because he is my son!

I know that he was forced to be excluded from his leadership position and was relegated to various ** that made him depressed, and those former subordinates jointly reported him for corruption and bribery, although there were no economic problems after being strictly reviewed by the Commission for Discipline Inspection, yes, what problems could he have?! His only problem is that he has been the head of the veterinary station and a cadre hired by the state for nearly 30 years, but he has no property or savings, and the house in the urban area is still the affordable housing that he bought as a national cadre, with a total price of 100,000 yuan and a loan of 40,000 yuan, and this is his only property and real estate...... What he has always told me the most is: Our generation is a child educated by Chairman Mao! But this incident made him haunted, after all, he treated his subordinate employees very well, and he was the first to give each employee a set of housing in the system...... It's these that caused his illness, but unfortunately I can't share a little bit of it for you.

Lying in the hospital bed, he was still worried about me to spend a lot of money on treatment, which increased the burden on us, and I held the familiar hands on the hospital bed and told him with certainty: " Dad, you don't have to worry about these things anymore, all the medical expenses and nutrition expenses during the whole treatment period are all covered by the son, and I will definitely not ask my sisters to bear a penny, I am now in a completely financial condition, the housing loan and car loan have been paid off before the end of last year, and my annual income is now more than 300,000 yuan, but my son does not have time to serve and take care of you by his side, let the third brother-in-law and the third sister work hard, there is no big problem to listen to what the old professor said, you can rest assured and relieved about the treatment！” ，

He smiled and nodded at me with tears in his eyes...... I read all the meanings of his tears!