Yan Mo sat in the bathtub for a long time, and only after she figured it out did she crawl out of it. She wiped herself with a towel, then walked briskly out of the bathroom, rummaged through her phone to her room, and quickly and skillfully tapped the keyboard.

At that moment, there was a strong voice crying out in her heart, and she wanted to tell him that she missed him so much.

It's just that when she pressed the dial-out button, she paused the movement between her fingers, his phone number, it should have been changed, right? Thinking of this, Yan Mo lowered her head slightly, her eyes dimmed, she closed her phone in disappointment, and turned around to change her soaked clothes.

Yan Mo half leaned in front of the window, looking at the scenery outside the window, and sure enough, all the courage was fleeting, and then all kinds of hesitation.

Just as she was stunned, a bell rang into her ears. Yan Mo glanced at it, it was a strange phone, and she wanted to press the hang up button, but for some reason, she picked it up by surprise.

"Hello. Yan Mo spoke politely.

“...”

The other party did not respond, Yan Mo glanced at the phone number again, it was indeed unfamiliar, but she had a strong feeling that the person behind the phone must be someone she was familiar with.

Yan Mo called tentatively: "Shen Siyan?"

When the man heard her voice, he paused for a moment, and his heart stirred, obviously, he was surprised, Yan Mo would have guessed before he could speak.

And of course, Yan Mo has no way of knowing.

After a few seconds of silence on the other end of the line, he finally spoke: "Let's meet." ”

A familiar voice came into Yan Mo's ears, it was him, it was really him! Yan Mo had a little joy on his face, and asked nervously: "Go... Where to go?"

"I'm at the gate of your community, come out. ”

The other party's voice has been very flat, which made Yan Mo in a trance for a while, and after a pause, he replied, "Oh, okay." ”

Yan Mo hung up the phone, simply tidied up and went out. The weather outside was a little cold, Yan Mo subconsciously covered her coat and wrapped her body tighter.

As soon as he arrived at the gate, Yan Mo saw the familiar figure swallowing clouds and spitting fog on the side of the street, his movements were like flowing water, extremely skillful, and his heart couldn't help but tighten, when did he learn to smoke?

Yan Mo approached quickly, "I'm here." ”

He turned his head, glanced at her, then snuffed out the cigarette butt, threw it into the trash can on the side, and said lightly, "Get in the car." ”

Yan Mo sat in the back seat, watching the street scene in front of her constantly change, but there was still silence between the two. Yan Mo glanced at him, but saw his cold eyes in the rearview mirror, and his eyes were locked on her.

Yan Mo lowered her gaze, her eyes dodged a few times intentionally or unintentionally, and finally mustered up the courage to raise her eyes to look directly at him and asked, "Where are we going?"

Shen Siyan still didn't speak, and drove the car by himself. Silence hung between them, making people feel suffocated.

After a long time, Shen Siyan stopped the car somewhere, still in an indifferent tone: "Get out of the car." ”

Yan Mo got out of the car very obediently, opened her mouth, and wanted to ask something, but seeing that Shen Siyan didn't mean to speak, she swallowed all those words. In this way, the two men walked silently on the road for a long time.

Along the way, Shen Siyan always had a straight face, serious and indifferent. Yan Mo looked at his back, and there seemed to be an invisible gully between him and her, making her unable to get close. She slowly lowered her eyes, not daring to look at him again, but silently followed him, walking step by step.

"It's here. Shen Siyan said coldly.

"Where is this?" Yan Mo subconsciously asked, but the moment she looked up, she regretted asking such a stupid question. Although the change in this school in front of him is a bit big, how could Yan Mo not recognize the words of the High School Affiliated to Nanda University.

"I don't even know my high school anymore?" Shen Siyan looked sideways, and his originally serious face was a little more cold.

The appearance of the high school has changed a lot, the old school gate has already been renovated, and the words "The High School Affiliated to NTU" that have been repainted shines in the sunlight...

"Didn't come back to see it?" Shen Siyan seemed to say to her, but his gaze stopped in the distance.

Yan Mo nodded honestly, without any argument. Yan Mo thought in her heart: How dare I come back, too many memories are left in this place, I don't have the courage to face those good times in the past, how dare I, how can I?

So, the two of them were silent for a while, and walked into the school gate one after the other.

"Find a place to sit. He spoke lightly.

"Hmm. ”

Going around and around, the two came to the edge of the playground and sat down at a distance.

"Do you still have an impression here?" Shen Siyan asked as if he was careless, his eyes fell on the distance, and he didn't turn his head to look at her.

Yan Mo looked at the red plastic track, her memory seemed to return to that time, and a trace of shame flashed in her eyes: "How can you not remember? The playground is simply my nightmare! I failed every 800-meter test."

Then I would be left behind by the PE teacher for "special care", he would always let me run around the playground round and round, and if I was found to be lazy, he would punish me for running a few more laps... I'm scared when I think about it now. ”

"Yes, I remember at that time, you still swore that I would help you with special training, but you only trained for three days, and when you were asked to train later, you always found all kinds of reasons to shirk, so that after graduating from high school, you didn't pass once. Shen Siyan seemed to be reminiscing, probably the things in his memory were too good, which softened his eyes a little, with a shallow smile.

Is he laughing? Yan Mo raised his head slightly, just in time to see the curvature of the corners of his mouth. Looking at him who gradually softened, Yan Mo also slowly relaxed, no longer tightening a string, she pretended to be relaxed and said: "800 meters or something is really too difficult, it's better to chase you." ”

It's just that as soon as these words came out, the atmosphere in front of him instantly became awkward. Yan Mo silently lowered her head slightly and stopped talking.

After a long silence, he got up and walked forward. Yan Mo didn't ask much, just followed him, and after walking for about ten minutes, the two stopped in front of a low tree.

"Aim~"

Yan Mo followed the sound, and there was a big fat cat lying on the branch of the low tree, yawning lazily. Memory and reality are intertwined and overlapping in this moment.

Perhaps it was this familiar scene that made Yan Mo gradually take off all her guards, a little less restrained, and a little more natural.

She pointed to the short-necked tree and recalled with a smile: "Shen Siyan, do you remember this tree? That day, a kitten got stuck in the tree, I climbed up to save it, and... And then...."accidentally fell into your arms. It's just that she didn't say the latter words.

Shen Siyan didn't answer, but the smile in his eyes deepened a little, and the whole person no longer looked gloomy and dull. The atmosphere seems to be gradually getting better, Yan Mo thought.

The two of them walked forward for a distance, Shen Siyan stopped on a tree-lined path, Yan Mo thought about something else, and bumped into his broad back without paying attention.

"Do you still know each other?"

Yan Mo took a few steps back, rubbed her forehead, and looked around, beside the boulevard, beside the stream, this was the place where they first met, how could she not know? But she didn't speak, just nodded heavily.

"Remember what happened here?"

Yan Mo fell into the memory, and subconsciously said: "Of course, that day was the day of the new student registration, I was wandering around the campus, and then you came out of nowhere, I just crashed into your arms, and stared at you for a long time..."

The corners of Shen Siyan's mouth rose slightly, outlining a graceful arc. He turned around, with a long-lost warmth in his eyes, making it impossible to take his eyes off it.

And Yan Mo, as at the beginning, looked at him in front of him stupidly, everything seemed to have returned to the original point, starting from the first encounter, rewriting different chapters.

"How long are you going to look like this?"

Ahh Yan Mo lowered her head a little embarrassedly, and suppressed her expression, and her cheeks turned red, and she was stained with a red glow.

"Let's start over. Shen Siyan said in a calm tone after thinking about the film.

"Huh?" Yan Mo raised her head suddenly, looking at him blankly, obviously at this time, she was still a little unclear.

Shen Siyan paused for a moment, and spoke again with a somewhat soliciting tone: "Shall we start again?" No matter what the reason was at the beginning, now, I only ask you now, can you come back to me?"

"Back to you?" Yan Mo looked at him in astonishment, and there was silence all around, so quiet that she could clearly hear the sound of her heart beating violently.

"If it wasn't for my dad..."Shen Siyan paused for a moment, then continued with a forced composure: "We may all be fine, and I don't plan to waste too much time on the emotional side, so... Let's start over. ”

Sure enough, he still knew something, Yan Mo half-lowered his eyes, and his sentence Let's start again, after all, made her heart ripple.

Seeing that Yan Mo didn't answer, Shen Siyan was distraught and took out a cigarette and a lighter from his pocket, trying to use it to numb his mind. The smoke instantly dispersed around him, enveloping the expression on his face, making Yan Mo unable to see his true emotions clearly.

"Shen Siyan, when did you learn to smoke?" When this sentence was asked, Yan Mo realized that she really couldn't chat, and she tightened the corner of her clothes with some annoyance.

"When we first separated. Shen Siyan's eyes shone with a little light, and there was a bit of loss in his voice.

Yan Mo looked at him in a daze, in his impression, what a self-disciplined person, always with a bit of arrogance on his face, shining dazzling in the crowd.

In front of him, he looked so lonely, completely missing the confident appearance he had at the beginning. It turns out that in the world of love, no matter who it is, there will be times when he is not confident, and at this moment Yan Mo deeply realized that he would also be afraid, weak, and cautious...

He turned around gloomily, as if he was hiding something, and said in a steady: "I went to the United States in discouragement, the United States is very big, and the streets are full of people, but you, completely disappeared from my eyes."

After you left, I learned to smoke and drink, and at that time I found that smoking and alcohol were really a good thing, which allowed me to escape from reality for a short time, and it became the medicine for my survival, and I spent every day in a half-dream, and I don't think I would have survived if it weren't for it.

Sometimes I think if I had never met you, if I had never fallen in love with you, maybe I wouldn't be in as much pain as I am now..."

The smoke burned out between Shen Siyan's fingers, the smoke gradually dissipated, Yan Mo clearly felt the sadness in Shen Siyan's words, that kind of him, Yan Mo's heart ached faintly, and instinctively hugged Shen Siyan from behind, so as to give him a trace of warmth.

"Momo, why did you leave me?" Shen Siyan's voice was choked, and he asked Yan Mo behind him in a low voice.

"I'm sorry, please forgive me for being selfish, I didn't mean to hurt you. You must know that leaving is my last resort.

I don't want to be a burden to you, and I don't want you to give up a great future for me. You deserve a better future, you've been excellent since you were a child, and I'm very ordinary, I just want you to be good..."

Yan Mo finally expressed her heart bravely at this moment, held back her tears, and said something that she hadn't said for four years.

"But the world without you is not good at all. Shen Siyan turned around and wrapped Yan Mo in his arms: "Let's not be separated again in the future, okay?"

"Hmm. ”

"While you can still love, while he is still there, some happiness needs to be chased bravely, don't let yourself leave regrets. The words that Chen Xi had told him at the beginning echoed in his ears. This time, Yan Mo finally didn't flinch anymore and responded positively to him.

After hearing Yan Mo's affirmative answer, his heart seemed to be filled all at once, he looked down at her gently, his eyes were like stars in the dark night at that moment, and finally, there was starlight in his eyes again, just because of her.

Slowly, slowly, he approached Yan Mo little by little, his warm lips had been attached before she could react, kissing her shallowly.

At this time, Yan Mo forgot to think, slowly closed her eyes, responded to him softly and gently, and instinctively hugged him, tighter, tighter, afraid that this was just a sweet dream.