Chapter 30: The Heart Matters

Cheng Siyu was waiting for him, sitting back and forth on the merry-go-round, only to see him burying his head in searching. He finally took out a camera from the car that looked at least ninety percent new, ran over with a smile, and said to her with a smile: "Look, I have a camera here that can help you take pictures!"

Cheng Siyu almost laughed out loud, thinking that he was going to give her some mysterious gift, but it turned out to be a camera, in order to help her take pictures. She sat on the horse, her eyes looked at Shen Lingfeng, there seemed to be no focus in her eyes, her eyes were hazy, she looked at him in a circle back and forth, looking at him who was fiddling with the camera and taking pictures of her seriously, she seemed to have a strong feeling of loss and recovery, the feeling of possession was unreal, very illusory, she thought about it, but unconsciously shed tears.

The Trojan horse that was spinning around finally stopped, Cheng Siyu cautiously walked down from the horse and slowly approached Shen Lingfeng, "No matter what, I still thank you today for giving me such beautiful fireworks, such a fantastic amusement park, and the merry-go-round that made me find my innocence..."

"There's more..."Shen Lingfeng clasped his hands on her shoulders and stared at her with pleading eyes, "There will be more, as long as you nod, you ask your heart, do you still care about me..."

Cheng Siyu hesitated and hesitated, she unconsciously lowered her head. In front of this bright merry-go-round, Shen Lingfeng held her face with both hands and tried to make her look up at him, he picked up the camera in his hand, pointed the lens in the direction of himself and Cheng Siyu, he adjusted the light and timing, and said to her: "Look how beautiful this merry-go-round is, since you like it, we will leave our first group photo here today." As he spoke, he hugged Cheng Siyu's shoulders and put his head on her, Cheng Siyu also smiled happily, aimed at the camera, he pressed the camera button, and a few photos were frozen in the film.

Shen Lingfeng naturally took Cheng Siyu's hand, as if he held her hand when he first met in a night bar, he took her hand and ran all the way, she looked at his hands, her heart was both chaotic and sweet, her face was red again, like a minor girl who replied shyly, and the little bird ran behind him.

The Ferris wheel spins up and down the night sky, and some say that if couples can kiss on the Ferris wheel, their love can be eternal.

Cheng Siyu and Shen Lingfeng walked on the Ferris wheel together, as it rose higher and higher, Cheng Siyu looked at the sky through the windowpane, and a piercing and heart-wrenching pain broke into her mind, making her suddenly exhale deeply, take a deep breath vigorously, and then slowly exhale out.

"What's wrong?" Shen Lingfeng grabbed her hands and asked with concern.

Cheng Siyu subconsciously shrank her hand, she thought that she still had a gap in her heart, and she couldn't be completely mentally prepared, "I'm a little afraid of heights, and I'll be fine in a while." ”

"Why didn't you say it earlier, I wouldn't have brought you up if you said it earlier. ”

"I know, you can bring up any woman who is enthusiastic and sensible and does not have any trouble with me. ”

Both of them were a little vindictive, and they were silent all of a sudden.

After about five or six minutes, Shen Lingfeng took the initiative to break the deadlock and said, "How can you be angry, am I not sincere enough to do this today? ”

"It's not a matter of getting angry, it's that I don't have confidence that we can go on, we often quarrel, you start a temper and ignore me, that feeling is really uncomfortable, I'm afraid that this worry and anxiety will never end. Cheng Siyu said faintly.

"Do you mean I have too many women?"

"You ask knowingly. You know I can't stand this, and I don't have any confidence that you'll change for me. ”

"If you believe in me again, give me another chance, I am really slowly changing, I have never compromised for anyone, maybe you think I am not accommodating enough for you, but you should understand that my identity and personality are really changing more and more for you. Shen Lingfeng looked at Cheng Siyu reverently.

Cheng Siyu looked out the window of the Ferris wheel, she was silent, observing the bottomless night sky, dotted with shining stars, the whole galaxy map was presented in front of her, she looked at it and marveled and walked across the opposite side and leaned over the window, looking into the distance, she sighed: "It's so beautiful." ”

Shen Lingfeng hugged her from behind and said softly, "Just like you're beautiful." ”

Cheng Siyu turned his head to him behind him, and he said deeply, seriously, seriously: "I am serious. I used to think that it was because you didn't follow me all the way, because you were challenging, because you were special, because you were disobedient, because you were pure, so I had that different feeling about you, I thought it was just a little more like than a good feeling, so I was not afraid to break up, when I left the day at the door of your community, I thought I didn't care, but after that day, I began to think of you, I missed your innocent and innocent smile, missed your kindness, missed your innocence, missed your face, missed everything about you, I knew that I really liked you, you are more and more important in my heart, I don't want to end up with you like this。 ”

Cheng Siyu listened to his heartfelt words and affectionate confession, and was moved, her eyes were unconsciously filled with tears, and her eyes were misty with tears, and she couldn't even see Shen Lingfeng's face in front of her.

She was hot-headed, her whole person felt hazy, she couldn't think for a while, she couldn't speak, she just felt her lips hot, and there was a soft and hot marshmallow-like thing sticking to her lips, making her nervous, making her crazy, making her compromise, making her submissive, letting her, sweet and sweet, feel tender and sweet.

After a hot kiss, Cheng Siyu leaned against the window, leaning against the misty night scene through the glass, she smiled calmly, and said emotionally and poetically: "What is love, what is pain, since I am entangled in love, why can't I escape the prison of love, and I can't get rid of the pain of love." I love you sadly, and I can't put aside all principles and self-esteem to love you, but I am stubborn and persistent, and I can't forget you, let alone reject you completely, my reason tells me not to fall in love with you, but I strongly desire you emotionally, what's wrong with me, am I being cheap?" She said that she felt ashamed and distressed, and covered her face with her hands.

Shen Lingfeng put down Cheng Siyu's hands, took a deep breath, and stared at Cheng Siyu, " It's not your fault, really, I know I'm not a good person, I won't be a good lover, I'm chic, I don't care about others, I'm selfish, I'm selfish, I'm selfish, I'm casual, I can do whatever I want, I'm even a very bad boyfriend, I don't care enough about you, I'm not good enough for you, I'm hot and cold to you, I'm kind of leaving you, because I don't know my mind at all, I'm afraid I'm afraid I'm trapped, I'm afraid I'll lose my freedom, I'm afraid that I may have lost the ability to love. As he spoke, he held Cheng Siyu's hands, held them tighter, and said deeply: "Only you can let me change slowly, only you can save me, I am asking you for help, please help me, please let me regain the ability of love that I have lost for a long time, please give me a little more tolerance and patience, I am willing to learn love and tolerance with you in the years to come, okay?"

"Okay, of course it's good, everything you did to me today, set off such beautiful fireworks for me, and chartered a whole playground for me, if I wasn't moved, then I must never have loved you!" Cheng Siyu shed tears and said with a sob: " If I can't forgive you, then I think I will regret it in the future, I'm afraid that I will regret it, if you love me, how can I lose someone who loves me like this, I forgive you, I am willing to get along with you slowly in the future, learn the true meaning of love, I will change my impulses, I will definitely try to run in with you slowly, we will get better. ”

Shen Lingfeng smiled movingly, hugged Cheng Siyu, and let her forehead rest on his shoulder.

"By the way, how did you know that I was a teacher at Xinying Tutorial School, I remember that I never told you!"

Shen Lingfeng smiled proudly, "Hmph, who am I, will I not know what I want to know!"

"Get carried away!" Cheng Siyu sneered.

Cheng Siyu's position in his mind is getting heavier and heavier, that kind of weight is accumulated over time, inadvertently, even he didn't notice it, this little girl was so stupid and stunned, jumping into his heart, that innocent and scheming face, that pair of black and tearful eyes, I saw pity, deeply burned into his heart, reflected in his mind, made him defenseless, broke through his defense.

In the next few days, Shen Lingfeng was really different to Cheng Siyu, he would call Cheng Siyu every day, and send text messages to her every day to say good morning and good night, Cheng Siyu would receive a bouquet of flowers sent by Shen Lingfeng every day when he worked in a cram school, including red roses, yellow roses, white roses, blue roses, and purple roses, and he knew that she liked roses very much. Every time Cheng Siyu picked up the flowers in his hands with relief, the teachers and students of the cram school would cast envious eyes and coax, and sometimes even joked, "It seems that our social flower is about to get married, everyone should prepare the gift money!" Whenever this time, Cheng Siyu blushed and whispered embarrassedly: "Don't talk nonsense!" It's just that no one found out, only Cheng Siyu was sensitively aware, whenever he happened to meet Du Yifan to pick up Zhizhi, his eyes came into contact with the warm scene of Cheng Siyu holding the beautiful bouquet of roses in his hand, his eyes were a little lonely, a trace of loneliness, she found his strangeness, but she didn't dare to think nonsense, she thought, she was too sensitive, this should be her sixth sense wrong, she shouldn't think about it, it's all nothing, no.