There are many things that have been relatively repeated, not simply fought for and given up, some things may not be ours, and they must be fought for in their imagination, and some things have been involuntarily, and if they are really cut off, it will be as difficult as cutting off their own blood.

Xue Luchuan didn't say anything more, and then left gently, I knew that he left a space for me, so that I could better understand what I should do, and I was grateful for the tolerance and understanding he gave me.

There was no news for the next few days, I couldn't even find Luo Jin's phone number, I couldn't reach him, as if he had suddenly disappeared from the world.

Speaking from the heart, I am still very scared and flustered, I am very worried about his current situation, I put his mobile phone in my hand anytime and anywhere, I don't care, he is my lover or my friend, as long as I know that he is safe and safe, I am the greatest happiness, but one day he will leave me, I am also willing, I only humble hope that he is safe.

But I really didn't receive any calls from him for three whole days, sometimes I was worried about whether my phone was turned off or out of battery, or there was no signal, I would want to see a dynamic of my phone every few minutes, but there was still no news.

It just so happens that the company's business volume during this period is not very large, and our entire sales team and business team, including the human resources team, have completely embarked on a scale, so the company agreed to give me two days off.

Of course, I was very grateful to Bingbing for such a help to me, but I refused.

"No, I don't want to stay at home, I still have things to do here, if I stay at home and I'm going to go crazy looking at my phone, I really. ”

Xue Luchuan, you looked at me and said: "Since this is the case, then the two of us will accompany you together, and we will fight the landlord together tonight, OK, let your mood be happy, and the chance to win money at this time is here." ”

"I'm really not too scared in the casino, your casino is completely a gamble that will lose, come on, come on. I want to be disappointed in love, the casino is proud, I want your belt" I rolled up my sleeves and began to fight with them, the landlord.

For this matter, I am also very grateful to them, when I am most lonely and helpless, in this way, to relieve my pressure, because people will really keep thinking about it, you will be in this very tight string, when you suddenly feel broken, you will not know, you will not know, you will feel like a wild flower and withering.

When we were studying, we often like to play a strange game here, of course, this thing is also in my words and deeds, slowly learned a game in this area, and the level of the three of us is not much different in the future, of course, my skills may be a little better than theirs, who called me a scholar type.

Sometimes we have to do a lot of crooked ways and beat them to the ground, and I think today we should be able to put one of my skills to good use.

We had a great time tonight, and deliberately let me win a lot of money, 10 and 10 dollars, and in less than half an hour, I really won hundreds of dollars, of course, I am grateful to them for such a loss to me, I also treat it as an idle, I don't seem to feel such sorrow, at least I don't want my current mood to let them see so clearly.

Who can't pretend? Who can't pretend, who can't act, that may be acting, life is like a drama all depends on acting.

Until the evening, my sleep time came again, and I immediately blasted out the two good messengers, basically I was really satisfied, because now I have thousands of dollars in pocket money, but after seeing them go, I said proudly.

"Continue tomorrow, anyway, the two of you have money, and I also rely on this thing to earn some beauty fees, okay say goodbye." ”

Xue Luchuan also directly said: "Let me tell you, tomorrow's luck is not so good, I will definitely earn back all the money I won today without hesitation, you can save it, don't lose this money, don't cry when the time comes." ”

I closed the door, but soon I answered two phone calls, it was a call from my family, saying that I wanted to go back to my hometown, as if this Xue Luchuan also knew the news, and hurriedly knocked on my door and asked if the situation was true.

"What's wrong with Ruoxi? What's going on? And is it because the uncles and aunts are not in good health, or for some reason, should I go back with you? I happen to be free during this time, I'll go back with you, otherwise I'm afraid you won't be able to cope with it then." ”

I shook my head and told him that I had this smile on my face, but that happy look was gone on my face, and I just told him a very calm truth.

"Maybe it's a good thing about this incident, my mother finally decided to divorce my father, this is a matter of what a teenager ago, and it was finally decided in this class, I feel very happy so you don't have to accompany me, I want to witness this matter myself. ”

I actually don't know what to do, because I have been encouraging the relationship between my mother and my grandfather, which is the relationship between my father who I ignored my father, is a very qualified, and has made a lot of contributions to this family, and has been conscientious in this regard, and there is no foreign language, it is completely for the whole family to devote themselves wholeheartedly, but to pay such a person, may be too powerful and a strong, sometimes the expression of feelings may not be very clear.

I accompanied my father to the Civil Affairs Bureau, and after all, my father may always have a lot of unwillingness in his heart, and there is a kind of sadness, because after all, my mother and father are together, and the two of them have worked hard together for more than ten years.

And this kind of feeling is gone, there is a feeling of a unified strong man disconnected, and this relationship has long been deep into the bone marrow, sometimes deeper than the blood relationship.

When you come over, mother, I will also hold your hand tightly, and after clearing all the formalities on this hand, maybe this should be a little over, it was all for me before, the two of them did not do any separation, now that I have grown up, everyone should look for their own.

I'm very glad, and I see these things, finally have these two paragraphs, I'm very glad to see that my mother finally has a period of happiness of her own, maybe life in her later years is really important to her, and loving someone and not loving someone is actually very much affecting a good degree in your life.

A procedure for the two of them went through very quickly, just a process, both sides signed and it was completed, and I took another photo, everything was so simple, but the background suddenly became uncomfortable, and I took the difference between red and blue.

If there is no sadness, it is impossible, after all, this is a team, this is a home, this is really a home that has lived together for decades under one roof, the three of us came out without saying a word, we tried to maintain a kind of relaxation, and try to show an open-mindedness and a kind of fearlessness.

My father tried to speak to me in a relaxed language.

"Hello Ruoxi, you don't have to come back again, so today, even if our family eats a casual meal, let's find a place to eat well, maybe we will be here often in the future." ”

It's really sad to talk like this, and I really think that during this period of time, I use such patients to describe such things, and you will feel a lot of things, you will feel very embarrassed, you will feel this kind of things.

I said to my father, "No, next time, the weather is a little gloomy today, and I just got home, and there are still some reports that have not been fully processed, so let's get it next time I have a chance, and I will ask you two to have a good time next time." ”

The father looked at his mother, who was already his ex-wife, and asked with some uncertainty: "If you have anything in the future, you can still find me, and if I can help, I will still work hard to complete it." ”

Mother smiled and nodded: "Okay, if there is something, then it will trouble you." ”

Father also smiled and nodded: "Okay, let's come out to eat together if we have a chance, wait for next time, you can call me then." ”

"Good!"

In fact, I don't know what kind of attitude to describe this otherwise relationship, but even if the two people are separated in the end, there is no such poem, which makes it feel more peaceful, and everyone takes into account each other's experience, which is also good, maybe a crack at the beginning, makes people feel that it is difficult to accept his pain, and sometimes it can be healed after a period of time.

In the end, I didn't go home with my mother, because I knew that it was difficult for me to look at this with a smile in this house, and for a daughter I was fair to her heart, I was just, but I was very sad, so I didn't want to threaten me with something like "red wine" to celebrate, and it would be unfair to my father to this person.

I wanted to walk around alone, I was looking for an excuse, I wanted to talk about the surrounding classmates to have a look, go to chat and go home directly, my mother didn't do much, forced to wave goodbye to me.

On my way home, I got to the subway and realized that I had come to a place that was very close to where we had lived.

Walking on his stone road is also hazy, and the whole place is very empty, many people have left here in the bright moon, and then there are only many old people left here to live here.

It's been a long time since I've been here, and the streets here haven't changed much, as if the years have stood still, and in this old time and space, this is just a little bit of change, and I saw myself there when I was a student.

Yes, there is still a picture of the flower cloth in this old house in this place, and there are also those flower pots that have been planted, so many years have passed, these things have basically not changed, and the gray wall of the wall here is still the same, I haven't come back to do it during this time, I heard that the demolition is going to be carried out, but the years of demolition have already demolished this time, no.

What can never be demolished is the memory of the dust.

However, they will always be my relatives, and they will always have the same water and moon in this home, and we have very good memories together, in the process of more than ten years of changes, these things are irreparable, but I know that I will never have a home again.

I sat alone on the small stone bench for a while, and I actually always remembered that I could happily walk around here with a little ponytail, and I was jumping rope here, and my father and mother would happily hold me in their arms, and I felt that the sky was so blue, well.

At this time, my phone rang suddenly, and it turned out to be Luo Jin calling.

He had already told me that he had returned safely, and was about to make his way to the plane, and that everything was in order, and that he would be back to our house soon.

It takes about 20 hours to fly back from here to back, and within that time, this flight is the shortest of all flights, as there are no direct flights due to the number of countries to be reached.

I was in these 20 hours, I feel like I've had a very painful and loving 20 hours in my life, it's been a really long time for me, and I found that I couldn't do anything more than sleep, but I couldn't sleep, I just waited stupidly.

Luo Jin's phone sounded very tired, and it could be seen that he should have experienced a hell in the world, because in that war-torn place, and being able to walk back so safely, is indeed a precious person.

But the phone calls he gave me were still very positive and sunny.

"Ruoxi has nothing to be afraid of, I'll be back now, okay? I'll be back soon, I'm going to get on the plane soon, I'll be on the plane in 10 minutes, the time for the two of us to meet is shortened little by little, I miss you very much, Ruoxi, Ruoxi!"

After I knew that one of his was safe, I really prayed to God, and I said it, whether he is my lover or not, whether he is my friend or not, I just hope that he will come back safely, and that is enough.

I was lying on the couch, I was tossing and turning, I couldn't sleep at all, my brain, thinking over and over again, we, once our sweet times, in fact, I know very well that when a woman is really difficult to accept a man, will have such a relationship with another woman, I am really not a saint, I am not a white lotus, I am not a green tea at all, but I know that it is difficult for me to accept this situation.

I know I need to have something else to arrange now, I know I don't need it right now, there are things to relax myself in.

The only thing I can do is shopping, I can only make myself happy by shopping, and finally I went to a lot of shopping malls, but I bought some daily necessities, some daily things, I even thought about buying a car every day, I took the driver's license for a long time, but I have not had a car of my own, I want to see that we won the lottery and tens of thousands of dollars, I should be able to have it.

Sure enough, I really didn't hesitate to run to the 4S store and chose a bus, and I even felt as if I would calm down in this way.

When I swiped the card very quickly and neatly, I drove the car to the downstairs of the dormitory, and then called Xue Luchuan.

"Xue Luchuan, do you know? I bought two pieces of paper today, and I feel okay, and I'm going to take you for a ride another day. ”

Xue Luchuan was completely wailing after knowing it, and called me, which was completely a serious greeting: "Ruoxi, I really found that a woman really can't go shopping, and she must be monitored, and especially the threshold must be managed, you actually do these things, I really obey you, I will help you if I don't support the wall." ”

I also wailed with a face, covering my face: "God I don't know if I go to the doctor, I really don't know why I'm so impulsive, this cost 100,000 yuan, my God, my year-end bonus, my driver's license, I all went into the pit!"

Xue Luchuan is very righteous: "I think for this matter, you can give this perfect ** to your father, and by the way, go back and ask your father, it should definitely be able to reimburse you, your father is a capitalist, there is no problem with this money, according to your current status to yourself, how should you drive a car of more than 500,000 yuan, don't pretend to be low-key for me, alas, yes, by the way, ask if the 4S shop can help me open more **, I just want to be reimbursed this month." ”

I looked at him speechlessly, and I totally wanted to punch and kick him.

I started the car directly: "Let's go, if you don't come down quickly, I'll take you to the beach to take a spin in the wind, so that you can experience Miss Ben's drifting technique"

This scooter is actually quite simple, of course, I don't know why I may be used to eating a luxurious meal and then making my scooter, I feel awkward, why? Because I used to usually sit on Luo Jin's kind of Humvee with tens of millions of cars, my small 100,000 yuan car really makes people feel a little big about it.

However, for my things, I don't care so much, I took Xue Luchuan directly to the top of a mountain, and we looked at the city with a very good feeling, a sense of pride and ambition, and a sense of seeing all the hills.

Xue Luchuan looked at me and asked: "I didn't expect you to find a beautiful place, I have never been here before, although I have lived in this city for many years, I didn't expect this card foot to have a unique scenery." ”

"It's the second time I've been here, and a friend brought me here, and I've been deeply intoxicated by the unique scenery here, which is called the unique scenery here. ”