"That is to say, I will have to arrange to marry out again soon? Why can't you let me stay at home, can you stay well? Do you have to marry me off?"

However, she also thought about whether others would accept the child and herself.

She was engaged in an ideological struggle, and she quickly disarmed and surrendered.

"Anyway, no matter how bad it is, it's not much better, right? What can it be?" Zhuang Ya persuaded herself a little, and after hesitating, she chatted with Chu Yang for a few words.

Talking about her blind date, she didn't expect anything else in her heart, but in fact, she confessed, and then she also thought about whether she wanted to fight with reason, she said that she had children and that her family was not good.

Because she felt the man's affection for her, and the obvious pity he expressed.

After saying that he wanted to go on a blind date, the man confessed that he liked it.

"In fact, these days, for me, chatting with you, every time I talk about something, I am very happy, I don't chat, or I don't reply to the letter, I am lost, I know, I also understand, I like you, hopelessly like you, what to do? Seeing you want to love others in a blink of an eye, I can't accept it in my heart, let's meet, and then be together, I really miss you, you appear in my dreams every time, I feel familiar!"

For people who haven't met, they actually say that they miss it, and Zhuang Ya is annoyed that they didn't give a photo.

Then hesitatingly, she said that she was pregnant.

Because she doesn't want to drag others down, whether she really has feelings or not, whether what she says is true or not, she doesn't want others to wait for her anymore, she feels that she is not loved.

Originally, I just talked about it, hoping to let it go in many ways, I was not good anywhere, and I was still in this small place, I should let myself fend for myself, this is Zhuang Ya's idea.

At the beginning, Chu Yang said that he didn't mind, it didn't matter what he did, it was fine.

However, after chatting for a while, you may feel that Zhuang Ya's determination and what she said is indeed the truth, and the other party's attitude has become obviously bad.

Talking dirty, and then saying, "Are you pregnant and still *hooking*, how much do you owe* grass?"

Zhuang Ya couldn't believe how this person suddenly changed his face, he originally prayed for some comfort, although he was ready, the other party was ready to put it down, but he was liked, even if he couldn't accept it, he would be somewhat relieved, especially Zhuang Ya at this time.

But such a direct refusal, as well as slander, Zhuang Ya couldn't think of it.

"It's not...... It's nothing, and he didn't say he liked it, he just chatted, why did he become a liar to him now, or even pretending to be pure!"

Zhuang Ya looked at sentence after sentence, and the words that came over were all those vulgar, Zhuang Ya felt that she couldn't stand it anymore.

Her heart was extremely shocked, and she felt that she had refreshed her outlook on life.

Originally, I hoped that I would not go out in the future, Chu Yang would help a little, and it was even possible that I didn't mind, and then I didn't have the idea of being with him, and I didn't have any thoughts, and I didn't have it at that moment.

All she felt was darkness and sadness.

Zhuang Ya couldn't stand it anymore and withdrew QQ.

But there is still information in the background, or those words that are not eye-catching.

Zhuang Ya clicked, withdrew, did not accept the information, and also wiped her recent careful thoughts.

Originally, I thought that there was an accident or something, and he cared about it.

Maybe she cherishes this kind of care very much during the special period, but the more she cherishes it, the more obvious this kind of hurt is, and it makes people sad and uncomfortable.

Zhuang Ya smiled bitterly, why is she so sad at this time, when she doesn't want to see something, she is biased.

At this time, the signal was so good, she always wanted to look twice and explain something.

However, I couldn't help but look at it and tell myself that someone else made a mistake or made a mistake, but it wasn't like that, but in a blink of an eye, it was still an unbearable word.

In the end, Zhuang Ya didn't want to explain, and then blocked it, but she was unwilling and deleted it again.

That Chuyang didn't seem to be willing to do this, and added it again, but Zhuang Ya didn't confirm it, and he wasn't his friend, but on the information added, it was still said and scolded.

I'm a *cheap* product, I'm worthless, I'm sorry for her, what's wrong with me......

There are several such information, Zhuang Ya feels that it is very indescribable.

The occurrence of that night seemed to be in front of him, and the existence of a nightmare made Zhuang Ya sad.

(1. Memories)

Actually, Zhuang Ya and Ying Hanchu quarreled with Ying Hanchu that day and hid from the rain......

Originally, Zhuang Ya was still wondering why, but she didn't come to find her after that.

is still looking everywhere, and the rain seems to be "punishing" him for himself, "disrespecting" and "not paying attention to" himself.

She looked a little distressed about Ying Hanchu, especially, he suddenly appeared, Zhuang Ya was still happy in her heart, she thought, she was going to explain why she vomited vomit from other dishes.

That is, what about the meal with whom she ate, let's talk about it, I don't want Ying Hanchu to misunderstand, and what she originally chose was Ying Hanchu, when he wanted to give up, he said that.

As long as she is happy, even if it is at the expense of his happiness, it doesn't matter, he just wants her to be happy and happy.

And for Zhuang Ya, without Ying Hanchu, how can there be any happiness!

She wanted to tell him "she really loves him and loves him too!"

Naturally, she didn't want to be disappointed at the beginning of the year.

She also understands her inner desires, what experiments, what comparisons, but her heart is always biased towards him.

Zhuang Ya finally admitted to herself, so she explained, so as not to worry about Ying Hanchu, there was nothing to do.

But she wants to make it clear that eating with another person, stones, in fact, is actually talking about separation, and it is all a trick of adults.

She didn't care, and she didn't have much affection for stones.

But before she could say it, Ying Hanchu didn't want to hear it, he believed her, who could bear to disturb such an atmosphere.

In this way, they could speak, Zhuang Ya, immersed in his sweet words, and felt that the whole world was lit up, and I wished that the whole world would know his liking and love for her.

I want to declare to the world that this is the man I like, and they love each other and cannot be destroyed.

That's it, while talking, chatting, Ying Hanchu suddenly said, "This...... Well?...... The dormitory door is also closed, why don't you ......?"

Ying Hanchu looked at Zhuang Ya, Zhuang Ya was shy, "I don't know what you said?"

It is impossible to completely understand, she sees his eyes and movements, and naturally understands something, but she is a little shy and shy to refuse.

It's half a refusal, Zhuang Ya and him came to a guest house.

But I don't know why, Zhuang Ya still remembers that she was standing in front of the guest house, but she was a little hesitant.

As for why, she didn't know.

There may be some thoughts of fear that are not relaxed, and fear is in it.

Zhuang Ya thought a lot, there were the expectations of her family, the marriage with the stone, as well as the words of herself and her family, etc., and the entrustment of her family to herself, Zhuang Ya didn't know what to do?

Thinking that she might make her parents sad and disappointed, and the man in front of her, she was a little unsure.

Because after eating, the disgust and words that she Min Xing felt seemed to make sense, because of love, because she was worried about herself, etc., etc.

But there is always some unrest in my heart.

She had never seen Ying Hanchu like that, and she wasn't sure about that.

Then, when she hesitated, she finally said "this...... It's early?......"

"What's early?" Ying Hanchu was obviously unhappy.

Zhuang Ya didn't look good, Ying Hanchu's face said, "I feel, it's not very good...... This...... Let's go to the Internet café, rest for the night, and go back to the school dormitory tomorrow!"

Then Zhuang Ya suddenly turned around and walked briskly.

Ying Hanchu greeted him and caught up, "What...... You make it clear, do you not want to give it to me, or do you ......"

Ying Hanchu turned Zhuang Ya's face to himself, "Look at me and say, do you want to give to others, do you like others?"

"It's not...... I'm just ......" Zhuang Ya stuttered a little.

"What's that?" Ying Hanchu asked.

"I'm ...... Let's put it this way, there is a marriage in the family, and then ......"

Before Zhuang Ya finished speaking, Ying Hanchu said, "Okay, needless to say, you can go......" Ying Hanchu did it, and didn't want to hear it.

Zhuang Ya saw some hesitation and looked at Ying Hanchu, but her body was walking out.

Then I heard the second half of Ying Hanchudao's words: "Then don't meet again, I will be without you in the future, and you will be the same, you will be happy! Even if your happiness is not because of me!"

Zhuang Ya stopped as she spoke, thinking that she might not be able to see Ying Hanchu in the future.

I have nothing to do with him, so I am sad.

This incident happened in front of the big fat girl, so Zhuang Ya would not have thought that Ying Hanchu might or actually liked other girls, she was not the only one, at least not the only one forever.

But Zhuang Ya didn't know at that time, what she saw and heard was that the people who loved him loved her, and she didn't want her to be sad, and she didn't know before, those sweet words still remembered in her ears.

Zhuang Ya suddenly felt that she was very cruel.

She asked herself, "Do you want to accept a marriage from someone you don't love so much?"

"Do you want to have children with a wooden stake for the rest of your life?"

"Can't I even fight for my own happiness!?"

"How am I going to live without him?"

Zhuang Ya couldn't imagine life without him, and she seemed to be used to this way unconsciously.

So she asked herself, "Do you want to marry him?"

"Why do you want to get married, but you don't want to give it to yourself? What if we are happy in the future? Am I going to miss it!" Zhuang Ya thought a lot.

I don't know where the courage is, Zhuang Ya ran over and hugged Ying Hanchu twice.

But when she was about to agree to go, she thought of her mother, and what she said about self-esteem and self-love, and those words, and choking.

Zhuang Ya hesitated again.

Ying Hanchu was obviously impatient, "Do you still like others, needless to say!" But Ying Hanchu was not like that, he said something impassionedly like just now.

But when Zhuang Ya didn't pay attention, he inadvertently took something out of his pocket, and then covered Zhuang Ya's mouth and nose.

What happened next, Zhuang Ya doesn't remember, it seems to be a fragment of drinking.

She didn't have an impression, she just remembered that she had just spoken well, how much guilt she felt, but no, Zhuang Ya felt uncomfortable in her head and wanted to sleep.

All she remembered was a splitting headache for a moment.

Then there is waking up as if I had slept for a while.

It's like a dream.

It's as simple as that, but the content of the dream is chaotic, as if someone has pulled on him, and his body is uncomfortable......

When I woke up, I realized that it didn't seem to be a dream.

Then the bloody thing is that something happened.

I actually slept next to a person, looking at myself in the quilt, no one can describe the feeling of being a film and television clip happening to me.

It's not the kind that wants to scream, or everyone feels different and makes different choices, for Zhuang Ya it is all at once, biting her mouth and stealing her teeth.

I want to cry and laugh, she feels that life is really a tragedy or a comedy, I don't know, but her heart is very sad.

She didn't know what to do all of a sudden, what to do with her parents, that family, and that family, etc.?

It was as if this sudden "dream" was about to interrupt everything.

She couldn't take it and didn't know what to do!

She covered herself with the quilt, tried to cover herself, then couldn't see anything, closed her eyes, and then realized, "Oh, it's a dream, it's a dream!"

However, she still opened her eyes again, and it was still the same environment, and her physical condition, she suddenly woke up and fell asleep repeatedly like a child, and it was still the same.

She was a little sad, and her emotions were extreme.

She pulled her big * leg hard.

The leg hurts, the heart hurts! It hurts more.

She looked at her surroundings and tried to remember what had happened, but she still couldn't think of anything and didn't remember anything.

She breathed a sigh of relief.

Then he looked around speechlessly, as if he was watching a drama with an expressionless face, and looked at the person lying next to him.

It's as if there is drama all around, and only I am a real living *body*!

It's just that she hasn't had time to look at her face yet.

The man seemed to wake up and moved.

Zhuang Ya hurriedly covered the quilt, turned her back to the past, pretending not to see anything, and found out.

She still didn't know how to deal with it.

Although I think about it, I seem to be innocent, how can I be so afraid and worried about the guilty party!

Although she felt that something was wrong, as well as the generosity she should have, and something wrong with the character, Zhuang Ya still couldn't do anything all of a sudden.

It seems that I was more confused and helpless at that time!

She could feel the man's movements, as well as moving his body, supporting his waist, and even feeling the other party's burning eyes on her, but Zhuang Ya still pretended to be asleep.

She doesn't want to face it, or does she feel embarrassed?

She couldn't say it herself. But the mixed feelings are probably yes.

He felt the shift in his gaze, less hot, and then the sound and movements of getting out of bed*, and then taking two steps, etc., were especially magnified and striking at the moment, and noticeable, but soon she realized that something was wrong.

Her heart, which had just relaxed, was tugging again.

He turned as if he had come to himself.

I'm looking at myself at the moment.

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