(19) Compromise
This kind of love story can be seen for the first time in Su Mu's eyes in the past nearly a month. Su Mu stared at this message for a long time, but still couldn't believe it, this was a message from Ling Feng.
Seeing Su Mu sitting there holding her mobile phone in a trance, Le Duo thought that she felt lost because she didn't receive Ling Feng's news, so she put down the water cup and came to Su Mu's side, wanting to persuade her to open it a little. But before she could speak, she saw the message from Ling Feng.
"Oh, I'll go, this cub is quite conversational, no wonder you can like him, this love story is sweet, dare to love is really the type you like." ”
Le Duo didn't know Ling Feng very well all along, and because of her work, she usually couldn't meet Su Mu, let alone see the usual state of the two of them, so at first Le Duo really thought that Su Mu was fascinated by ghosts, so he was so interested in Ling Feng, a child who didn't know anything. However, now it seems that this is obviously not the case, this kid really has some ability, and he happens to master Su Mu's favorite skill, which gives him the opportunity to go to Su Mu's side and have the ability to hurt Su Mu.
Co-authoring, this is really an opportunity for Su Mu to give his own family.
"It used to be, when I first met him, it was really like the feeling I was expecting. ”
Maybe it's because he has been immersed in his own world and hasn't been distracted so much from the outside world, so Su Mu naturally followed Le Duo's words without any unusual feelings. It was rare for Le Duo to talk to Su Mu about these things calmly, and the two of them chatted like this.
"But how can a child be so sensible, except for causing you trouble, he won't do anything. ”
"I didn't really think that way at first, and I even felt like I was happy when he caused me trouble, and why, it was like saying that he cared more about me. This kind of care only makes me confused, but I probably just want this feeling of being cared for. ”
"Then don't you have any doubts? Do you think you love him, or do you love the way he gives you? If you just like the feeling of being loved, you can change anyone, and there will be someone better than him. ”
When Le Duo asked this question, Su Mu felt as if she had been forced to follow a thunderbolt, she held the phone fiercely, and her strength was so strong that the joints in her hands began to turn slightly white, but despite this, she still felt that she had no way to bear the shock that this question brought her.
Asking this kind of question at such a time is simply a big test for Su Mulai. Because the first time she heard this question, she found that she was actually more inclined to the second answer.
This discovery was undoubtedly ridiculous and fatal, because it was enough to destroy all of Su Mu's persistence for so long, and all the promises that could have allowed her to live, turned into lies. Su Mu felt that she couldn't afford such a consequence, she had no way to bear the infamy of playing with her feelings, and she had no way to bear her betrayal of this relationship, she would rather believe that Ling Feng had just chosen her driven by curiosity, than that she had only given Ling Feng the opportunity to be with her because she coveted the feeling of being loved.
In other words, she can accept that the end of the relationship between the two people is because of Ling Feng's mistake, that is, it is absolutely unacceptable, the separation of the two of them is her problem.
This can be understood as Su Mu being strict with himself, of course, to be more precise, this can only show that Su Mu is selfish. In this relationship, when she was good, she wanted to preserve Ling Feng's love for her, and when she was bad, she wanted to maintain her image of being victimized, and her doing so was undoubtedly a manifestation of shirking responsibility, and there was no difference from Ling Feng at some times.
Su Mu couldn't accept himself like this.
In front of everyone else, Su Mu has always maintained a great degree, The image of a good old man with good words, everything she does is decent, and people can't find any faults, neither can let others push the problem on her, but also won't cause others to rebel against Fu Su Mu has always maintained such an image, but now, when Su Mu put these things clearly in front of her, she suddenly realized that she was not as innocent as she imagined, and there were many things that did not have anything to do with her at all as they thought in Leduo.
Leduo didn't feel the change in Su Mu at first, and he kept waiting for Su Mu's answer. But after a while, she found that Su Mu was silent, which made her think that she had said something she shouldn't have said, which made Su Mu unhappy. But because of that sentence, she didn't come up for a while, so she could only hurriedly start to comfort Su Mulai.
Su Mu, who was immersed in his own world, didn't notice what Leduo was doing at this time, so when Su Mu calmed down, her words actually didn't have any effect at all, and even, Su Mu didn't hear what she was doing at all. And the reason why she was able to recover was also because Ling Feng called Su Mu at this time, wanting to see what she was doing and why she hadn't replied to his message for so long, and it was precisely because of this that Su Mu finally broke free from his thoughts.
When answering Ling Feng's question, Su Mu was still a little trembling, and his voice was also very soft, perfectly embodying a feeling of "powerless". Ling Feng also thought that it was because Su Mu was too tired to climb the mountain and chat, and after finishing, he also comforted Su Mu a few words, which meant that she should pay more attention to her body, don't be reckless, she must write when she is tired, don't insist, and then suffer herself. At this time, Su Mu was in no mood to listen to these things, so she kept replying "mmmmmmmm
It wasn't until Su Mu hung up the phone that Leduo, who had always been a little worried about self-blame, came over and wanted to ask Su Mu what was going on. Before this, she had even done a good job, compromised once, as long as she could comfort Su Mu at this time, but she didn't expect Su Mu to calm down because of this phone call.
Le Duo didn't mean anything else, she was just worried that Su Mu wouldn't be able to think about it at this time, and she would make some irreparable decisions. Those other messy problems had nothing to do with her at all, she was only worried about whether Su Mu was alive or not, so when Su Mu calmed down, she exhaled fiercely, as if she had saved a lot of loss by herself.
In fact, for Su Mu, this matter has not been completely resolved. Ling Feng's sudden call actually just served as a buffer, allowing her to temporarily withdraw from this unanswered question. Su Mu herself knows very well that this problem has had a great impact on her heart, don't solve it for a while, even if the two of them broke up, it is estimated that she will not be able to get the answer to this question. It's not that there is no answer, but before that, she probably won't allow herself to think about it anymore.
People themselves have an instinct to seek advantages and avoid disadvantages, even if it is a person like Su Mu who finds a problem and must find a way to solve it, there are always problems that he is unwilling to face. Obviously, for Su Mulai, this problem is the last thing she wants to face. So even if she knew that as long as she solved this problem, it would change the relationship between the two of them, she was unwilling to face it.
She was afraid of getting the answer to this question, and more importantly, she was actually afraid of both answers. Whether the answer is good or bad, it doesn't seem to be a good thing for her, and even if the answer is confirmed, it won't do anything good for her.
At this time, Leduo didn't know what a serious question she had raised, she was actually just casually talking, and she didn't think about it that much at all. If she knew that this question would have such a big impact on Su Mu, she might not give up pursuing this question because she was worried at this time, and she might even continue to ask Su Mu that she must give an answer.
Because these answers that made Su Mu feel frightened, they were a good evidence for Le Duolai, as long as she was sure that Su Mu just liked that feeling, then she would be sure to change Su Mu's mind and let her take the initiative to give up Lin Feng.
However, it was useless for her to just think so, after Su Mu hung up the phone, she immediately began to pack her backpack, and then rejoined the flow of people climbing the mountain, so fast that even Leduo was a little unresponsive, and almost didn't keep up with her pace.
The process of descending the mountain is much more boring.
Because the attractions have been walked all over the place, their physical strength has long been exhausted, so if they want to go down the mountain, the only option is to take the cable car down. Although there is a feeling of "being at the top of the mountain and seeing the mountains" in the process, this feeling is still not as good as the feeling of climbing down from the top of the mountain.
After climbing to the foot of the mountain, the two of them went back directly as fast as possible, and the hotel didn't even eat dinner. After Su Mu arrived at the hotel, he sent a message to Weiyang, reported her location, and then fell asleep directly.
By the time Weiyang came, Le Duo had already woken up from his sleep, but Su Mu had been asleep, and there was no sign of waking up, and the two of them discussed at first whether to wake up Su Mu first, eat some dinner, replenish his strength and then continue to sleep. Later, seeing that Su Mu was sleeping too deeply, he couldn't bear to interrupt her sleep, so the two of them ordered two takeouts, barely made do with them, and then left one for Su Mu to make do with it to ensure that she had something to eat when she woke up.
After dinner, when Le Duo was chatting with Weiyang, he mentioned what happened today. And at this time, Le Duo had her own guess in her heart, she really couldn't help this feeling, so she had to come out and share it with Weiyang, and at the same time hoped that Weiyang could give her some advice, and the two of them discussed to see how to help Su Mu.
When Le Duo finished describing what happened today to her, Weiyang actually had the answer in his heart, and he also knew why Su Mu was like this. But she didn't know how to mention it to Ledo.
Although she, like Le Duo, hopes that Su Mu can be happy, her style of acting is not the same as Le Duo, and it can even be completely different. She respects Su Mu's own choice more, even if she knows that this matter is wrong, but if Su Mu wants to do it, she may just remind Su Mu that this matter is not right, but she will not reject Su Mu's idea in person.
Because she knew that Su Mu herself knew right and wrong in many things, and when she placed a bet, she also knew that the winning rate might be pitifully low. Weiyang felt that no matter when, what Su Mu wanted most was to have someone who understood her to accompany her, to stand in front of all opponents, and to prove that she was right. So even if she loses, then she loses willingly.
So prompted by this idea, Weiyang didn't think about solving any problems with Leduo, but tried to change Leduo's thinking.
Except for Ling Feng, there are only the two of them left, and she, because she is in Xi'an all the year round, can't be by her side, so relatively speaking, Le Duo is the closest person to Su Mu among them. At this time, if the tree needs comfort and support, then it can only be asked from Leduo, if Leduo is still like this, although he will be very worried about Su Mu, he can't bear so many blows alone, and something else will happen.
In order to avoid this from happening, Weiyang unreservedly listened to the thoughts in his heart, and even listed many kinds of bad effects that this practice might cause. At the beginning, when Weiyang was all this, he was still a little unhappy, and even felt that Weiyang was just worried, and such a thing would not happen at all. But the more she heard about it, the more scared she became, so much so that before Weiyang finished these things, she had already given up her original idea and honestly joined Weiyang's camp.
No matter what, she hopes that Su Mu can be happy. If you can't wake her up, you might as well go crazy with her. In this way, even if Su Mu lost everything else, she didn't lose her in the end.