(16) Don't break up
Ling Feng's words, Su Mu listened to every word very seriously, but serious was serious, she didn't even believe a single punctuation mark in these words.
It wasn't that she hadn't thought of forgiving Ling Feng, in fact, when the incident had just happened, Su Mu had thought about forgiving him. She had given him countless excuses to try to ease the relationship between the two of them. But after that, Ling Feng's performance hardly made Su Mu feel that it was a correct decision for her to choose to forgive him. Although he asked Su Mu over and over again to ask Su Mu to give him a chance, the reality was that he was just that, and he didn't put half a word into actual action to be Zheng
This is what makes Su Mu feel the most difficult to accept, and it is because of this that Su Mu gradually loses patience and gentleness, and begins to think about the practical problems between the two of them.
When he didn't face practical problems, Su Mu always felt that what two people needed most when they were together was love, as long as there was love, nothing could separate the two people, and most of the couples who broke up because they didn't love each other so much. It wasn't until after he experienced it that Su Mu realized that in the real society, it was really more than love that maintained the relationship between two people. She didn't deny that she still liked Ling Feng and still had hope for Ling Feng, but judging from the current situation, she didn't want to be with Ling Feng for a minute. She seems to have suddenly deeply understood the phrase "it's better to forget each other in the rivers and lakes", although this sentence is not very applicable to the two of them, but she has to feel that the two of them are now together like this, and they have to quarrel because of various problems, so it is better to hide this feeling in their memories and start a new life again.
So after Ling Feng confessed affectionately, she was indifferent, and still maintained her movements, just whispered to Ling Feng:
"I'm tired, I have to get up early tomorrow and go to bed. ”
In Ling Feng's expectations, Su Mu had never reacted like this. So when he saw Su Mu so indifferent, he once suspected that he was dreaming, or that he was imagining. However, Su Mu didn't give him time to react, and after saying this, she lay down in the quilt, and then turned her back to Ling Feng, shrinking herself into a ball.
Seeing Su Mu like this, Ling Feng felt so uncomfortable that he wanted to hug Su Mu, but he was afraid that Su Mu would hide, so he could only sit where he was, looking at Su Mu's back with his heart.
This is really not the picture he wants to see, he came back this time in the hope that he can coax Su Mu back, but now it seems that he not only failed to succeed, but even seems to have made things worse. But everything he could have done had already been done, and he didn't know what else he could do.
In this way, Ling Feng kept looking at Su Mu and did not move again. And Su Mu hid in the quilt and sobbed silently.
After knowing Ling Feng for three months, she seemed to have shed all the tears that she hadn't shed for several years. She forgot where she had seen such a sentence, the person who made you laugh was not necessarily the one you loved, but the person who made you cry must be, she felt that she was in this state to explain the meaning of this sentence, but she didn't stick to it.
It's really tired, I'm tired from work, and the pressure at home is great, I can't talk to my friends about these things to relieve my mood, no, Ling Feng, the only one who is by her side, always keeps blocking her. She's not Superman, and she can solve these problems when they weigh on her alone, but when they press against her together, she really can't bear it. Her heart seemed to be in a mess now, she couldn't figure out any clue at all, and the only solution she could think of was to leave Ling Feng.
Emotional problems are the most difficult to solve, so as long as she leaves Ling Feng, her pressure will be reduced by more than half, and the rest of the problems will be solved.
Thinking of this, Su Mu bit her lip fiercely with tears in her eyes, then turned around, trying to understand her thoughts with Ling Feng, but she didn't expect that as soon as she turned around, Ling Feng spoke one step ahead of her:
"Wife, I'm sorry, I know none of this makes sense now. I've promised you these things a long time ago, but I haven't done them, and I'm always making you angry. I know it's all my fault, so if you give me another chance, I'll definitely try to do it, don't be sad anymore, I really don't know how to coax you. ”
Ling Feng didn't say anything, Su Mu had almost controlled his tears, but as soon as he finished like this, Su Mu started crying again. It's not that Su Mu really wants to cry, it's that she really can't control herself. If she could, she really didn't want to cry, after all, she had something to say, and she wouldn't have spoken at all if she cried like this. Moreover, if she did this, it would also make Ling Feng misunderstand, if he got angry and quarreled with her like before, it would be too cost-effective.
Thinking of this, Su Mu felt even more anxious, and as soon as she was in a hurry, her tears fell even more violently, and her whole person began to become flustered, and she kept wiping her tears with her hands. Soon her hands were not enough, so she didn't care about the hygiene anymore, so she buried her face in the quilt and tried to stop her tears.
Ling Feng couldn't see what Su Mu was doing, he really thought that Su Mu was even more upset, so he panicked, wanting to hug Su Mu, but he was afraid that she would refuse, so he could only walk back and forth on the bed at a loss, not even daring to get close to Su Mu for half a minute.
After about five minutes, Su Mu barely stopped his tears. This time, she was afraid that Ling Feng would take the lead again, so she kept her original movements, did not move, and did not even lift the quilt, so she said directly:
"Can you stop talking and listen to me first?"
As soon as Ling Feng heard Su Mu's voice, he immediately stopped, sat down in front of Su Mu, looked at Su Mu very obediently, and said to her:
"Yes, you can, then can you show your head first, don't always cover yourself in the quilt, don't breathe, and then suffocate you. ”
He tried to help Su Mu tear the quilt off while doing so, but this time Su Mu didn't resist and sat up very cooperatively. However, Su Mu did not approach Ling Feng, but instead sat a little farther away from him, surrounding himself with a quilt, showing a defensive posture.
Although looking at Su Mu like this, Ling Feng still felt a little uncomfortable in his heart, but now that Su Muken communicated with him, it was better than being unwilling to talk to him, so he respected Su Mu's choice very much and did not approach her again.
Seeing that Ling Feng didn't make any moves, Su Mu let out a long breath as if he was relieved, and then said to Ling Feng:
"I don't know which of your words is true and which is false, but to be honest, I can't believe you at all. I don't know why you've been like this, why you've suddenly become so bad at me, we've communicated about it before, but you didn't give me the reason. I don't want to know why now, because you've given me enough space to think about it, so I can't believe whatever you're doing now, I'm just going to believe what I'm thinking. ”
"I need a sense of security, security is not just my self-confidence, you know I need it, but you don't do anything, not only that, but you have to keep destroying my remaining safety and well-being, how can I talk to you, you tell me, what else can I do to make you notice my needs? I don't want to be cranky every time, I don't want to quarrel every time. ”
Su Mu's words sounded like she was complaining, but her tone was very soft, without a hint of temper, as if she was coquettish with Ling Feng. It's been a long time since she's talked to Ling Feng like this, and after careful calculation, throughout March, the two of them had a conversation with almost a smell of gunpowder, whoever did it a little bit off, the two Rao's tempers were like bombs, and they would definitely explode in an instant. This level of frequency had almost made Ling Feng forget that Su Mu also had times when she was gentle and vulnerable, even when she was crying, she had a kind of strength, and she was always trying to find a loophole in Ling Feng's words, so as to refute him.
He really hated her for being so strong.
In his perception, maturity and strength are not two words that can be used interchangeably. The maturity of Su Mu that he likes is her gentleness, her tolerance, and her understanding. But after being together, she showed more of her strength, forcefully demanding that he do something, and had all kinds of requirements for him, as long as he did something wrong, he would definitely be blamed by her. Although he understands that there is a gap between himself and Su Mu, so sometimes he may not be able to satisfy some of Su Mu's desires for love, but he is really trying to learn to take care of Su Mu. It takes time to learn and grow, and it is impossible to become a fat man in one bite, why doesn't Su Mu give him a little more time to learn? He has confidence in himself, as long as Su Mu is willing to give him time, he will definitely learn to love her the way Su Mu likes.
But now not only is there not enough time, Su Mu doesn't understand him either, and forces him step by step, he really doesn't know what else he can do.
If it weren't for that, what happened after that wouldn't have happened.
So why couldn't Su Mu think about what she was doing wrong? If she wasn't so strong, didn't put all her attention on herself, and was willing to think about her own problems, he believed that the two of them wouldn't have developed to this extent.
Ling Feng thought so in his heart, but he hadn't mentioned these things to Su Mu, although Su Mu had repeated them with him many times, the most important thing for the two of them to be together was to communicate, and if there was any problem, it must come out, but every time these words came to his lips, Ling Feng would choose to endure it.
It's not that he doesn't want to, but he knows what kind of character Su Mu is, when these words come out, the two of them will definitely have a disagreement, not only will it not solve the problem, but it may even aggravate the problem. Su Mu always felt that the problem could be solved as long as it came out, but in fact, every problem she came out of was not solved, but after a quarrel, it was left behind, and in the end, the problems found would only become a catalyst for the quarrel, so that even in the current situation, Ling Feng didn't want to argue with Su Mu about these things.
Of course, he also hoped that Su Mu would be able to figure it out by himself, but he also knew very well that Su Mu would never be able to figure it out by himself in this kind of thing.
Just like he couldn't figure out the problem of his existence in Su Musu.
So for Su Mu's question, Ling Feng didn't respond, he just hung his head and didn't make any other moves. Su Mu waited for a long time and didn't wait for Ling Feng to speak, her anger that had finally calmed down couldn't help but rush up again, she wanted to ask Ling Feng out loud why he didn't speak, but at the moment when she wanted to get up, she still changed her decision.
It seems that there is no need to question him about anything, after all, the decision to break up has been made, even if she gets an answer, what can she do? She decided that she wanted to break up, and she has been repeating it many times, does she have to relent, and continue to repeat the previous pain?
It used to be like this, and now it has to be like this, so how many times will it have to be repeated again before it can be truly liberated?
Thinking of this, Su Mu's whole body was depressed, she sat back down, lowered her head, and didn't say a word.
The two of them were silent like this, and time went forward without looking back from this quietness, and after a long time, Ling Feng sighed, and then said to Su Mu:
"It's late, you still have to go to work, go to bed early. ”
He tried to take the quilt from Su Mu's hand. Originally, he thought that Su Mu would resist, so his movements were relatively light, but he didn't expect Su Mu to be very obedient and directly handed him the quilt, and then lay down. He took the quilt and covered Su Mu, and then lay down himself, and habitually hugged Su Mu into his arms as before. Immediately afterwards, as if he was afraid that Su Mu would struggle out, he pressed Su Mu with the quilt again, and then said to Su Mu:
"I didn't come back to break up with you, if I wanted to break up, I would be direct on the phone at that time, and I wouldn't have to spend a week's pocket money to come back. Also, as you have before, quarrels are used to find out problems and solve problems, not to break up. So now we're arguing and arguing, and we're making trouble, so let's stop breaking up, okay. ”
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