But the phone didn't get through in the past few days, and on the fourth day, I got through the phone, but I was told that I had to wait for a few days, and what working days others didn't handle anything.

That night, Zhuang Ya was a little happy.

After waking up at night.

Pondering will.

Looking at the sky outside, she changed into slippers and walked out.

It was dark, and there was a little moonlight.

In the dark, the houses are almost the same, but Zhuang Ya lives here, naturally knows those lines, and knows how to go when she closes her eyes.

So Zhuang Ya, taking advantage of the moonlight, walked briskly, tired, rested for a few seconds, and then continued walking.

Although it felt uncomfortable to pull on the *bottom* side, Zhuang Ya still tried to go as fast as possible, and it was not until she walked out of her village that she was almost a few kilometers away from home and was far away from her village, that Zhuang Ya felt gradually more at ease.

No one knows what her insistence is?

But she was willing to do it.

Because she knew to do so, without taking a step, to get closer to him, the target in the centrifugation.

What are you doing at home?

She figured it out.

In the past few days, listening to the gossip of people nearby, Feng is uncomfortable, she also knows one thing, such a big belly, if she insists on not having children, she has to prove something, so that it is possible to get rid of the child, and the body will naturally hurt a lot.

Most likely, it will affect the next child, and she will be almost in the belly of August now.

can give birth to children.

And the possible sequelae, she doesn't understand much, but she also listens to it, and knows that this hurts the body, and some people say that it may be difficult to conceive a child in the future after getting it like this.

Zhuang Ya naturally felt what it meant for a woman to not be able to have children.

In rural areas, most wives are married for the purpose of starting a family.

And if someone else takes over, if nothing else, and most importantly, they can't accept the fact that a person can't get pregnant.

Naturally, Zhuang Ya still doesn't accept others in her heart, she looked at the coffee-colored bear in her hand, she thought "Since this is already the case, then I will accept my fate, if the child's father does not accept it, then who else will accept it?"

Regarding the money, Zhuang Ya thought more clearly, "Since you can't withdraw the money for a few days, it means that your fate with him has not been broken, so there is still a play!"

She doesn't know why, the more frustrated she gets, the more courageous she becomes!

Maybe in her heart, the man who has accepted her body no matter what, then with others, she always feels some kind of betrayal.

The tradition of the older generation, no matter what, the idea of marrying a chicken and following a chicken, Zhuang Ya naturally goes without saying, seeing more and seeing more, and imprinted in the bones.

As she walked, a little tired, she rested beside a tree stump, and looking at the way back, she smiled, laughing with tears in her eyes, and finally breathed a long sigh of relief.

No one knows or understands her thoughts, and she doesn't need anyone to understand.

"Mom and Dad, I'm sorry, if I mix well after *day*, I'll come back to shine on the lintel, if it's not good...... Then, what about the child's unfilial piety?"

Thinking of that Xiao Li, or they were thinking about something else, Zhuang Ya smiled bitterly, "I know that Xiao Li and they certainly have a good side, but like the aunt said, it's not that you have children, how can you accept it, and you still want to beat it yourself in the future, or regenerate......

Anyway, I'm already like this, (if I'm with Xiao Li, he's) treat me well I don't feel worthy, and I regret treating me badly......

No matter what happens in the future, so be it, if Han Chu and I don't have a good time, there should be no such daughter, don't blame the child for being unfilial, in the next life, and then repay it in the next life!"

She squatted down, a little difficult, but still reluctantly, knocked a few times, and said goodbye to her parents.

Then he walked a little more, tired and hungry, and rested against the wall by the door of a broken house.

I slept a little soundly this night.

It may be because you are tired, or it may be because you feel close to your dreams.

Before dawn, she woke up and walked non-stop.

It didn't matter if one or two people would look sideways, she didn't care.

When I encountered the river, I washed my face.

When she saw herself in the river, she felt that she was a little sad and aggrieved, as if she had insisted for so long, and until now, it was all disguise.

She took off her disguise, looked at her haggard self, and felt an indescribable distress.

At this moment, she felt sorry for herself, and then, drinking something clean... Well.

When the well water was pressed out, the cold she felt felt was inexplicably cold in her heart.

She told herself that she would never let herself live like this in the future.

This kind of stealing*stealing*touching*touching, lingering, without human appearance and dignity.

"No matter how bitter it will be in the future, it has nothing to do with them, nothing to do with it, but I still hope that my parents are well, I, heh, it's like a joke! No one knows, I want to die a few times, but touching my stomach, I think, I have to be strong, no matter what, at least, I'm not alone, I still have ta (referring to the baby) with me! I'm not alone, no!"

"Mom, I'm leaving, keep walking, just walk a little, it's fine, I'm in town, I'm taking a taxi!" Touching his stomach, he held the little bear in one hand and the little money in his pocket, which was given to him by his mother.

Zhuang Ya felt ridiculous, looking at the money, "I didn't expect that in the end, it was she who really helped herself, although she didn't like me, but there is no doubt that she also helped herself!"

The confidence given by money is so obvious at this moment.

Unexpectedly, looking at the short distance and walking, Wu'er was so laborious, Zhuang Ya reluctantly squeezed a smile and cheered herself up.

Stumbled along, got to town, bought breakfast, and waited for the car.

Eating a hot breakfast, I feel full of vitality, and my body seems to be charged with power, a steady stream of power.

I also understood the sentence, "People are iron, rice is steel, if you don't eat, you will be hungry!"

Then wait for the bus and take the bus.

Under the bumps in the car, Zhuang Ya felt a little fulfilled and satisfied as never before.

Thinking in her heart, how many more ways and how many steps there were before she could see them......

……

In a blink of an eye, stuffed a few sips of steamed buns, drank water, and looked at the bear in the plastic bag, Zhuang Ya came to the school again, and the feeling of revisiting the old place has a different meaning.

However, full of hope, the next second, I couldn't see that familiar face.

"You mean to leave, where are you going, why didn't you go to school, why?" Zhuang Ya asked a classmate.

"I don't know, I don't know!" replied the classmate impatiently.

Zhuang Ya was a little lost, but she heard the familiar voice before, it was not Ying Hanchu, it was his friend before, and Zhuang Ya was still a little impressed by that face.

"Hey, sister-in-law, why are you here again?"

"Needless to say, my brother didn't serve well!"

"Do you want me to come?"

"It's not as delicious as dumplings, what's not as good as sister-in-law in the next sentence!"

Coaxed laughter, and then one of them asked a few sincere questions, and then said, "Drop out, it seems to have changed schools!"

"When?" Zhuang Ya listened intently to what this man said, ignoring anything else.

"About three or four days ago, they all moved away!"

"What ...... dormitory?" Zhuang Ya suddenly thought and asked.

"Hmm!" the others replied affirmatively.

Zhuang Ya's heart was so cold that she turned around and left without waiting for anyone to finish speaking.

"Why is this man like this, he doesn't even say thank you!" whispered behind the man!

Zhuang Ya walked on the road without looking back.

But my heart is extremely sour.

"I have come to your city, walked the way you came, and imagined how lonely you would be without me......

Will you suddenly show up, in the coffee shop around the corner I will wave with a smile on my face, sit and chat with you, how I want to meet you, see how you have changed recently, no longer say hello to you, say to you, just say a word, long time no see"

At this time, she inadvertently remembered the song "Long Time No See".

But it was so cold in my heart that I squatted behind a large green plant in a city flower bed, squatting and crying.

When he was tired, he leaned on and wept silently.

Too much insistence, and all the grievances at this time, came over and surrounded her.

"Why, I didn't do anything wrong, no, but it's still so difficult, it's always been difficult, it's not smooth, why?"

"What should I do? Where are you, where are you, where are you, why are you doing this to me, why? Why?"

There was a hissing voice in her heart that was roaring angrily, unforgiven and unanswered.

Silently thinking about everything, silently crying, silently, asleep.

In a daze, she had messy dreams, and everyone in the dream said that she was wrong, that she was not worthy of love, that she was very decadent, covering her ears, but she was still not understood, still talking, scolding, and yelling.

Those appearances made Zhuang Ya inexplicably very aggrieved, "Obviously I am very aggrieved and sad, why, do you still want to talk about me like this, why?"

She roared in her heart, and woke up crying, only to know that it was a dream, but looking around, some people's eyes, Zhuang Ya hid her face and cried bitterly.

Crying, regardless of other people's eyes, she made a phone call, but still no one answered.

But the phone rang again.

Then after hesitating, Zhuang Ya turned off the phone.

Silently in a daze, silently crying.

Then I was tired of crying, but I still saw people looking at me, and there were more people.

"What to see, what to see, I haven't seen anyone cry, I haven't seen it, I haven't seen it?" Zhuang Ya roared.

I was extremely sad in my heart, and when I shouted out, it seemed to be some kind of release, which made Zhuang Ya feel a little easier.

Zhuang Ya breathed a sigh of relief.

In response, one or two people gossiped, and some people said, "Neurotic, pregnant and hypocritical here!"

There was also a person who was concerned and stepped forward to pull her, but she rejected the person's hand and yelled at another person, "Do you know what I've been through? What's wrong with you, really, there's something wrong!"

Then Zhuang Ya scolded and said a few swear words, which inexplicably seemed to be relieved, but the sadness was not less at all.

She got up and went to the places she had walked before, as well as the restaurants and snack bars she had visited.

Inexplicably looking forward to a possible encounter, a glimpse around the corner.

But no, I thought of what the school had said, and the whereabouts of the unknown.

Zhuang Ya was very sad in her heart.

"Do you need to hide from me like this? Or do you really hate me so much that you need to do this to me?"

"Where are you, where are you?"

"I'm back, do you know, or are you peeking around in a corner and snickering?"

"I'm so sad, so sad!"

turned on the phone, saw the missed calls, Zhuang Ya ignored them, but Ying's mother's phone still couldn't get through.

After playing a few, Zhuang Ya's heart was very gloomy.

I thought a lot, and even thought, that all this was not premeditated.

Did God deliberately punish her, because she didn't study well, because she was too simple.

Because she secretly tasted the "forbidden fruit", but Adam and Eve were different from herself, she was confused and fearful, and she was not ready to take this step, she refused, she ......

How......

She didn't know or understand why, those people who used to be hot and said love, in the blink of an eye, were indifferent, thinking of Ying Mu and Ying Hanchu in the hotel together.

Should be cold at the beginning of the indifference.

"Isn't it, this drove me away, and now I don't show up, you are also accompanied, recognized, isn't it? You, you don't love me that much, no, but I, but I tried my best, moved myself, but I couldn't move you!"

Zhuang Ya smiled bitterly.

But tirelessly, like a missing person notice asking, have they ever seen a man of height and appearance, may they appear here, have they seen it!?

No one knows that this is the situation in the TV series that used to look stupid, but now it is playing out by his side or on himself.

Her personal experience made her understand the sadness of those people better, and she was frustrated every time she didn't ask, and then asked the person who was full of hope before she spoke.

It's too torturous, it's too uncomfortable.

But she didn't have a clue what to do.

Like a headless fly, asking everywhere, disappointed, and hopeful......

"Where are you, where are you, I'm coming, and you're ?......"

When she was disappointed many times, when she saw the missed calls and text messages, Zhuang Ya didn't click on it.

No courage.

But I thought inexplicably.

"Why don't you go home?"

"It's a big deal, scolding, beating, and now that I have children, why won't my family go too far, right?"

"But, it's easy to go back? How do you explain coming out this time?"

"Then, I will definitely look more strictly when I go back, and next time I think of it, I'm afraid it will be even harder!"

"Well, what is to be done!

Thinking about the ruins before he came, he fought against the water.

How can you give up halfway now?

She felt disgraced and went back, don't laugh and gossip so much.

Zhuang Ya felt like a knife in her heart.

This feeling is different from the feeling of being looked at sideways and gossip by strangers and less familiar people now.

Especially the closer the person, if their uncertainty, as well as insult * scolding, etc., make people feel more uncomfortable, every cell in the heart, as if being scrutinized, seen through, and *stripped naked* clothes of the kind of prying *.

It's even more uncomfortable and painful, not to mention that it is even more uncomfortable to say that it is even more uncomfortable with torture!

"Die, die, what can I do? It's a big deal, it's still bitter, it's a beating, that's it, what else can I do, what can I do if I sleep in a broken house again, what can I do? Where can a butterfly come from without breaking the cocoon?"

Zhuang Ya cheered herself up and asked the next passerby.