(10) Constant quarrels
After Su Mu tried to finish these words, the whole person was in a state of collapse, and he began to cry while hugging the quilt. Her father watched from the sidelines, kept stroking her back, and then thought for a long time before he spoke to persuade Su Mudao:
"Your mother and I are both old, and our thinking is already very old-fashioned in the eyes of you young people. It's hard to get you to be more considerate of our thoughts, and it's also hard to get us to accept your ideas. Coupled with your mother's current situation, you let her do what you want, and you know how difficult it is. Dad knows that you are wronged, but he still hopes that you can take care of your mother's mood more, after all, she is also good to you. Recently, there have been so many things at home, and your mother is under a lot of pressure, she can't control her temper, so you weigh it more. If there's something you don't want to tell your mom about, and you think your mom can't understand you, just tell dad. If you want to cry, don't always hide and cry by yourself, don't you still have your father? What are you afraid of with your father here, whoever dares to bully you will retaliate and go back, and your father will bear the burden for you. ”
"Also, don't be nagging at your dad. You and that little bunny, you really can't do it. Dad didn't have any prejudice against his age, Dad just felt that he was not good to you. How many people your dad has seen in his life, he must be more accurate than you. What can he understand as a little rabbit cub? He can't take care of you at all, and if you are with him, you are upside down. It's not that it's okay to spend money, it's normal to spend money in love, you can't let that little cub spend any money, our family is poor, but it's not bad for him, you can't let their family say you. I heard your mom say, what the fuck do you think you're getting that little bitch's money?"
As soon as he heard his father say this, Su Mu immediately raised his head and replied very firmly and strongly:
"I didn't! The two of us went out, and I spent all the money I could, and I rarely took the initiative to let him spend money! I returned everything he bought!"
"Look, I'll just say how can my girl spend his money, then haven't I been educated in vain all these years. If you don't spend his money, then we don't owe him anything, and he doesn't want to bully you. Oh yes, Dad didn't mean to look down on him, maybe he would be able to do things in the future, but, girl, have you ever thought about it, how much do you have to pay if you want to grow up with him? Your dad was also young, of course he knows the psychology of men. He can be good to you now because you are sensible, you can tolerate him, and you can give him some help that other little girls can't give him, so he doesn't care about age and the eyes of outsiders. Besides, even if an outsider points fingers at the two of you, there will be no bad words on his head, and if there is any mistake, people will have to accuse you of being sensible first. Don't believe him, don't think he's very simple, he won't have these thoughts, when this person is selfish, he doesn't know his age. If he was really good to you, he wouldn't want you to cry, and he wouldn't do anything that made you sad. Because he has you in his heart, he will always think about you and consider your feelings before doing things. You don't have to excuse him, saying that he is young and has no experience, so he must not be so thoughtful. Dad told you that this is not a young thing at all, and your little brother will not take care of you when he is young? When you go to your grandmother's house, what delicious food does your little brother not keep for you? Doesn't all the pocket money be kept for you to spend? At that time, you two didn't even go to elementary school. It's not like everyone's younger brother is like this to his sister, right? This person is different, not only himself, but also his family education. The family environment of our two families is different, this is in the past, that is, the door is not the right household, Dad is not conservative, then there is something that the ancestors said must be reasonable, why does Dad always not support you to find rich, that is Dad is afraid that you will be bullied and looked down upon. Besides, if you go to a rich family, there will be some things that you won't be able to stand in the future. We don't want money, your mother and I will have a pension when we are old and don't need you to support it, we want you to find someone who can be good to you and live with you in a down-to-earth manner. But if this kid is more kind to you, our family can't object, you see at the beginning when we knew that he was young, we didn't say anything no. Then why am I opposed, isn't it because I can always hear you crying in the middle of the night, so if he is really good to you, why can you always cry in the middle of the night? Don't say that your mother is angry, then I listen to me and I am also angry, my little ancestor who spends money for so many years, always let a little cub bully, then who looks at who is not angry, then sometimes your father and I listen to his words, I want to beat him, educate him for his family. What the hell, a little cub with no hair still wants to bully my girl. ”
Speaking of this, Su Mu's father finally stopped, he seemed to be deliberately leaving Su Mu a time to think, and for about two or three minutes, he didn't speak again.
Finally, Su Mu stopped crying, curled up and hugged the quilt, and said to her father in a weak but firm voice:
"Dad, you don't need to say it, I know all this. ”
"I know you know how sensible my girl is, and I know it very well in my heart. I also know that you have a good idea, you have a good idea since you were a child, more than your mother, I know that you have your own ideas and plans, so I have been mixing with this matter. I want to give you the time and opportunity to experience these things for yourself, and I'm sure you know how to deal with them. Although I have these thoughts, I will also respect your choices and opinions. There will be many twists and turns in people's lives, and there will always be people who experience these things, and if you are hurt because of these things, then you will know better what you want. People always have to know what they want, work hard as soon as they are clear, and don't delay anything if they are clear later. Dad just wants you to know what you want. No parent doesn't want their child to be happy, and neither do your mother. I don't want to worry about your business, but you have to know that every bit of damage you suffer, you think you can digest it, but I can't digest it with your mother. If you really honor the two of us, you don't need to spend money on us, you just need to protect yourself. ”
"yes, I see. ”
"Just know what you know, I don't mean to let you hide in your heart if you are wronged in the future, don't tell us, it's for you to protect yourself and don't let yourself suffer so many grievances. No one is born to be wronged, and kindness and soft-heartedness can not be used casually for everyone, remember?"
When he said this, Su Mu's father patted Su Mu's head gently, just like the comfort that his father gave them when other children needed comfort. Although Su Mu felt that she was not too young, and her father did this as if she was still a child, she had to admit that she instantly felt a great sense of comfort, and the whole person felt a lot more relaxed. So she wiped away her tears, and then said to her father with tears:
"I know, I'll think about it carefully, you go to bed quickly, or my mom will lose her temper again. ”
"Okay, then you can think for yourself. ”
Su Mu's father got up and prepared to go back to his room, but as soon as he walked out two steps, he turned his head and asked Su Mudao:
"Is your face okay? I'll boil you an egg and put it on you? Touch it yourself and see if it's swollen. ”
Hearing her father's reminder, Su Mu subconsciously touched her face with her hand, and at this time she felt that her face began to hurt hotly, but she didn't plan to be honest with her father, so when she just shook her head, she replied to him in a very soft voice:
"It's okay, you go to sleep quickly. ”
"Okay, you also hurry up and go to bed, don't contact that little cub so late, don't be angry with your mother, talk to your mother tomorrow. ”
"I see. ”
After making sure that her father was leaving, Su Mu lay on the bed for a long time before taking out his mobile phone.
The mobile phone showed a few messages from Ling Feng, and there were a few missed calls, Su Mu looked at the display on the phone, and for a while, she couldn't even tell what kind of mood she was in.
She suddenly felt so tired from being with Ling Feng, but if she wanted her to break up, she didn't seem to have the means to say it. She didn't understand what the reason she couldn't say, what kind of reasons were love, unwillingness, reluctance, not wanting to break her oath, unbearable and so on, she didn't think it was either, but if she wanted her to give a reason, she couldn't say it at all.
However, she couldn't understand this matter, but there was one thing she was very sure of, that is, whether she called back now, or Ling Feng called again later, the two of them would inevitably quarrel again. Ling Feng would definitely not worry about whether something had happened to her, his focus would only be on why she didn't answer his calls and didn't reply to his messages.
And she didn't want to talk to Ling Feng about these grievances at all.
At the beginning, she felt that she shouldn't always talk to Ling Feng about work matters, because after all, Ling Feng had no experience, and he didn't know how to deal with many things, she was happy to say it, but it might cause Ling Feng a lot of trouble, she didn't want to be a drag on Ling Feng, and always gave him the impression that she was very troublesome and couldn't handle anything well. But later, when Su Mu realized that whether she said it or not, Ling Feng's attitude towards her was very bad, she felt that she had no need to say it anymore. He wasn't interested in listening to happy things when he told him, so he was even less likely to like these bad things when he told him, and if he had to quarrel when he said it, it was better not to say it. It's not that there is no one else who can listen to her, and there is no need to find herself unhappy.
However, her doing so did not ease the relationship between the two of them, and when Ling Feng found out that she was preoccupied, he would keep asking Su Mu what had happened. Every time Su Mu didn't want to say it, he would definitely quarrel with Su Mu and accuse Su Mu of not saying anything to him, but Su Mu knew in her heart that even if she said it, the result would not be much better, and she would not get any comfort except for his self-righteous preaching.
And what she needs most is comfort.
So at this moment, Su Mu was holding his mobile phone, always feeling as if he was holding a time bomb. She hesitated for a long time whether to turn it off directly, but when she thought that if she didn't solve this matter tonight, the problem would definitely become more difficult to solve until tomorrow morning. So she shrunk into the quilt and clutched her phone tightly, and then kept asking herself, if what happened was the same as what she thought, then she should just break up with Ling Feng.
Sure enough, it didn't take long for Ling Feng to call over once, and almost all of the things that happened after Su Mu picked up the phone were within her expectations.
"Why didn't you answer my phone?"
"Something happened at home. ”
"Then why don't you talk to me when you're off work?"
"There is something in the store that delays the end of work, and I am afraid that I will come home too late and be in a hurry, so I don't bother to send you a message. ”
"Who is important, is work more important than me? ”
"So in your eyes, my mistakes are very important, and then what happened to me doesn't matter, right? Why do you ignore everything I said in every word that I had a problem here, and only focus on why I made a mistake? Ling Feng, do you really take me to heart? Is it more important to find fault with me than to care about what happened to me?"
Although he had known that this would be the case for a long time, Ling Feng's tone and rhetoric still made Su Mu's mind, which had been so difficult to stabilize, deteriorate again. This time, she didn't control herself anymore, nor did she think about understanding Ling Feng anymore, so she directly said everything she wanted to say.
Ling Feng didn't expect Su Mu to be so strong that he would be able to discuss these things with him in this situation. But he was used to Su Mu being weak and weak every time he was slaughtered, so he really couldn't let himself turn his attention from Su Mu's rebellion against him to what happened to Su Mu about her. So he pretended to be even more aggressive, and yelled at Su Mu:
"Then you say, if you don't say how do I know? One day I pretended to be wronged, who knows what happened to you, I can know that you are wronged?
"Did you let me say it? Did you give me a chance to say it? I started to get in a constant situation before I got off work, and when I got home, I had a big fight, and you started to accuse me without asking a word when the phone called, and I told you that you were still accusing me, so what should I tell you? Isn't the effect the same whether you say it or not? Is there a difference?"