"When you call me Xi Zhan, it makes me feel alienated. ”

When I heard this, my heart ached.

When has Xi Zhan ever been so vulnerable?!

Fragile enough to clearly express their grief.

Instantly, the guilt in my heart became deeper and deeper!

I reached out and quietly held his palm, and said apologetically with red eyes: "I'm sorry, Nuan'er is all for me......"

She did it after listening to me!

Although she killed the person, it was no different from me doing it myself, just a little less guilty here in Xi Zhan!

Again, he said, "You're right. ”

Xi Zhan always said that I was not wrong.

But I've always been ashamed of him!

I really hope he blames me.

At least vent your emotions.

But he didn't!

I was at a loss and said, "Second brother, I'll accompany you." ”

I will accompany him tonight's vigil.

My physical condition was not very good, and I was a little exhausted in the second half of the night, and finally fell asleep in a daze leaning on Xi Zhan's shoulder.

I had another dream.

There was only my mother in the dream.

She looked at me with pity and was silent.

I whispered, "Mother." ”

"Sheng'er, you are a poor man. ”

I was surprised and asked, "Why did Mother say that?"

I have a man I love, a pair of children, parents, girlfriends and friends, power and money, why am I a poor person?

"Sheng'er, my mother is a poor person. ”

Why does Mother say I'm a pathetic person?!

I asked her anxiously, "What does Mother mean?"

My mother didn't answer me, her figure gradually dissipated in my dream, I suddenly opened my eyes and lay on the ground panting, seeing me like this, Xi Zhan took me into his arms, "What?"

"Second brother, I had a nightmare. ”

I called him second brother!

I call this dream of my mother a nightmare!

I've been dreaming about my mother lately!

Last time she said she was going to tell me a secret.

This time she said I was a poor person!

Why do I have such dreams?

Doesn't it portend something?

I can't help but think about it and think it's funny!

It's just a dream!

Nothing to fuss about!

The man asked gently, "What did you dream about?"

I replied truthfully, "My mother." ”

The man's voice was low, "How could you dream of this?"

I don't know, maybe I'm thinking about it.

Maybe there's been a lot going on lately!

My life has never really been at peace!

I shook my head and said, "I don't know. ”

Xi Zhan called Assistant Yin at the door, who hurriedly came in and called Mr. Xi, Xi Zhan instructed him, "Guard here for me." ”

"Yes, Mr. Xi. ”

Perhaps it was because I knelt for too long and my legs were paralyzed, Xi Zhan stood up and shook it, then bent down and took me into his arms and returned to the courtyard.

Xi Zhan put me on the bed and asked, "Are you hungry?"

I woke up and hadn't eaten dinner yet.

I drank too much tea at noon and didn't eat it!

I nodded and said, "I'm hungry." ”

Xi Zhan made a phone call, and then stood at the door and looked indifferently at the white lantern above his head, I know that he is extremely uncomfortable in his heart, but even if such a man is uncomfortable, he hides all his pain in his heart and never talks to anyone.

Not even I could make him open his heart.

Especially his mother is still because of me......

I didn't know how to comfort him.

It was Jing Yu's meal, Xi Zhan didn't eat much, I didn't eat much with my small appetite, and after eating, Xi Zhan returned to the hall, during which he didn't say a word to me.

I lay on the bed and couldn't sleep, almost early in the morning to find Xi Zhan, his eyes were already blood-red at that time, I persuaded him to rest, he shook his head and said to me, "I'll talk about it later." ”

Xi Zhan has been busy all day in the morning, and with him is Xi Nuo, but I don't know what I should do, and I seem too idle in the comparison of Xi Nuo.

I went back to the courtyard and sat on the threshold, and Jing Yu also sat on the threshold with me, and the two of them seemed to have nothing to do.

I asked him wistfully, "Am I useless?" ”

At this time, he couldn't help Xi Zhan.

Couldn't comfort him.

Jing Yu replied: "At this time, the head of the family had better not do anything, after all, the one lying in the coffin is because of ...... The head of the house is waiting for Mr. Xi here, and when he is tired and returns to the room, someone will wait for him! The head of the house, the man actually doesn't want much, it's just that little bit of warmth, and the head of the house doesn't need to worry too much. ”

The last sentence in his mouth was a little melancholy.

I was surprised and asked, "Why are you so sentimental now?"

Jing Yu: "......"

Jing Yu didn't like to pay attention to me when I said this, got up and went to the other end of the corridor to smoke, and simply held my mobile phone and scrolled Weibo.

An ID named Gen-sama sent me a message.

"I found an interesting author," he said. ”

I replied to him suspiciously, "Who?"

"Brother Tong, I followed his official account. ”

I was surprised and asked, "What do you write?"

"Internet love, write about you and your second brother, God! The head of the writing is the Tao, I suspect that he is your side, and his official account also writes about you and your second brother!"

Me: "......"

Although I knew that I shouldn't take care of Yuan You, I couldn't help the curiosity in my heart and asked, "What is the official account?"

“。 ”

I quit Weibo and searched the WeChat public account, there is indeed the official account of Brother Tong, and the above is indeed the outside of me and Xi Zhan, but what is written is a few years later, too whimsical!

But it's really an interesting author.

There is a chance to add his WeChat.

I messaged Yuan You, "How much does he WeChat?"

Yuan You replied to me, "Wait for me to investigate for a few days." ”

Yuan You didn't reply to me, I clicked on his Weibo and found that he hadn't updated recently, so I simply quit Weibo and put down my phone.

I was silent for a moment and shouted, "Thorn Troll." ”

Jing Yu snuffed out the cigarette butt and came back, "Is there something wrong with the head of the family?"

"I'm still sorry for Xi Zhan after thinking about it. ”

"The head of the family, Mr. Xi acquiesced in this matter. ”

Indeed, it was Xi Zhan who acquiesced.

Xi Zhan returned to the room in the evening, I took the initiative to take off the suit outside for him, and he suddenly hugged me and pressed me in his arms.

Xi Zhan's mood fluctuated slightly: "It's okay if I don't have a mother, it's okay, it's okay if I can't find a father, but Sheng'er, I don't want you to treat me so indifferently! ”

I really miss you today......

The last sentence should be more lingering and more lingering.

Of course, how sad and sad it is.

But I didn't treat him coldly!

My idleness and helplessness today made him misunderstand, thinking that I was still ...... because of my mother's affairs

I remembered what he said last night, "When you call me Xi Zhan, it will make me feel alienated." ”

In fact, Xi Zhan was very scared in his heart.

I'm afraid of losing anything more.

Like me.

Somehow......

Suddenly, I remembered my mother's dream again.

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