(23) Her ideals
After eating, the two of them walked along the street, like an elderly husband and wife, and there was always a very stable and happy feeling.
In the past, Su Mu preferred to indulge in a radical attitude towards life, and she liked to add a kind of presumptuous and enthusiastic while living her life ordinary. So even though her job is ordinary, there are always all kinds of new things in her life.
There are also many people who have envied Su Mu's life, and Su Mu knows that this envy is just lip service. Because if they were really willing to put down their phones and relax in a different way, most of them could do what she did, and there was nothing to envy.
But how can people nowadays really get away from their mobile phones? Su Mu himself sometimes can't control himself, how can he be embarrassed to talk about others.
As for stability, Su Mu never thought that this word would appear in her now. Although she didn't like to make any plans for her future, there was always a rough goal, and she always felt that her crazy state would remain until she was thirty, and when she was thirty, she would consider settling down. But just now, when Ling Feng was holding her hand and walking in the crowd with the sunset, she suddenly felt as if it was a very happy thing to live with him like this. For a moment, she forgot the painful memories between the two of them, and she also forgot her determination to leave him, and even had some expectations that time could stay in this moment, the longer, the better.
Soon, this street was finished, Ling Feng had already checked the route to Eslite Bookstore when Su Mu was looking at things before, and when he came to the end of the road, when Su Mu proposed to go here, Ling Feng stopped her from wanting to open the Baidu map and started to walk towards the subway entrance according to the route he had checked before.
I have to say that for a moment, Su Mu suddenly felt that it was quite good to have someone by her side, at least for her, a person who could go backwards when looking at the map, having a boyfriend who could avoid her from taking fewer detours really saved her a lot of time and physical strength.
Regarding her road idiot, Ling Feng really admired it, and he not only admired her ability to go backwards when looking at the map, but also admired her for not using her brain at all when she was on the road. The most powerful proof of this was that once the two of them had made an appointment where they were going to meet, but Su Mu was late, so Ling Feng wanted to let her wait where she was, and he would pick her up. When he asked Su Mu where she was, Su Mu said very honestly that she was in the car, and asked her to tell me which way she was on, she didn't know at all, and when he asked what landmark buildings were around, she said, there are trees.
This is definitely a plot that can only appear on TV and in it, if it weren't for his own experience, Ling Feng would have always felt that these were all fabrications and exaggerations. He really didn't expect that his girlfriend would be a typical example, even more typical than typical, and he didn't even dare to write like her.
This is almost her greatest weakness, and other than that, almost all of her shortcomings have been changed by his persuasion. Of course, he also tried to teach her, but no matter what, Su Mu didn't seem to be able to accept it, even if he said it, she understood it, and when something went wrong, she was still the same, and there was no change at all.
So Ling Feng asked her very curiously, how was she studying geography before.
When talking about this, Su Mu smiled embarrassedly, and then told Ling Feng that if it weren't for the fact that she always failed geography, she would not have chosen science so firmly after being admitted to the science experimental class.
After all, the school she applied for at the beginning was a major in liberal arts, and she also wanted to study literature, if it weren't for the fact that geography could really kill her, she wouldn't have temporarily transferred to science, and then went all the way on this road of no return.
Although her science is actually quite poor.
Then no one thought that in the end, she chose a career related to words.
Sometimes Su Mu thinks about these life choice questions he did when he was in school, which is really a bit tortuous and complicated. Someone once said that Su Mu was irresponsible for himself by doing this, but Su Mu didn't feel anything about it. Maybe it's because she, like Ling Feng, is not old enough to know and accept these truths, or maybe it's because she has always felt that the meaning of her existence is to have fun in time.
But a long time ago, Su Mu had stopped arguing with others about these things.
This is also a habit that Su Mu only changed after two years of stepping into society, before that, Su Mu was not only stubborn, but also tried to make others agree with his views. She always thinks that her insistence is right, but later she found out that right or wrong is not so important, let alone so absolute, everyone has their own ideas, outsiders are difficult to control, and each thing is handled differently, will also get different results, and will also have different impacts. It's also hard to judge whether this kind of influence is right or wrong, so if you don't agree with each other, you can completely stop talking, and there is no need to argue about that.
So when Su Mu heard someone say what she was doing, she rarely cared about it, and if she said something to the point, she would smile back, and if it was impertinent and ugly, she would treat it as a clown who was jumping off the beam.
After all, her life is in her own hands, good or bad, she can accept it, and she doesn't need to be evaluated by others.
After all, it's already very difficult for a lifetime, and you can't manage your own family, so why bother to care about outsiders.
According to Ling Feng's memory, the two of them walked smoothly to the subway station.
Su Mu basically followed Ling Feng in a daze the whole time, she really didn't expect that Ling Feng could remember the terrain so clearly without looking at the map. She suddenly felt as if she was indeed a little silly, but she would never be able to show this kind of thought. Otherwise, Ling Feng would definitely laugh at her in the future.
According to Su Mu's original idea, she actually wanted to visit Jinji Lake at night, but she came out too late in the morning and returned to the hotel in the afternoon, so this activity could only be put on hold.
Last time, her idea didn't come to fruition, and this time it still didn't, but fortunately, the Eslite bookstore option was not abandoned, which made her barely balance.
Having said that, if Su Mu wants to do something, then her biggest idea is to open a book bar, if her idea is unrealistic, then open a small stationery store, she is very satisfied. Eslite Bookstore is really her ideal store, but she is also self-aware and knows that she can't reach this height, so every time she comes to Eslite Bookstore, she is very happy and satisfied, even if she doesn't buy anything.
In addition, Su Mu likes these things very much, so after entering, Su Mu is like the grandmother Liu who entered the Grand View Garden for the first time, looking left and right, she wants to walk everywhere, and she wants to see any novel gadgets.
Although Ling Feng was also quite interested in these things, he was not as exaggerated as Su Mu behaved, and sometimes he felt helpless when he looked at her, and he really doubted that this girlfriend of his was really twenty-eight years old.
It's not that Ling Feng is exaggerating, the attitude and thoughts that Su Mu sometimes shows are really completely different from what he imagined to be twenty-eight years old. He thought that twenty-eight years old was mature and steady, but where did Su Mu have a little maturity, it was just self-righteous maturity. She is like a child, almost unable to take care of herself, so forget it, just think that she has been pampered since she was a child, and she doesn't have to take care of herself, but she still has problems in dealing with people, which is a little too much, right?
This situation has happened more than once, not to mention that Su Mu and him often have problems getting along, even if she usually gets along with customers and colleagues, she will also have all kinds of problems. It can even be said that there are always some problems and mistakes in the relationship between her people except for the family members, is it still their fault that everyone she comes into contact with? Isn't it her problem that everyone she comes into contact with will have problems? Why does she always feel that it is not her fault? He can tolerate her, but it does not mean that everyone can tolerate her, why does she never understand this?
Ling Feng had never figured this out, and he had tried to talk to Su Mu about these issues, but Su Mu had never been willing to accept his opinion, she always had reasons to refute him, and in the end, she always acted like a victim, crying and blaming him, and pushing all the problems onto him.
He admits some mistakes, because he knows that he is wrong, and he can't refute them, but his admission of mistakes does not mean that all the problems are on him, many times he just simply hopes that she will stop arguing, he is really annoyed by her.
Su Mu definitely didn't know that Ling Feng had actually thought about breaking up with her eight hundred times in his heart. And the reason why he hasn't said it is not because of how reluctant he is to her, but because he is reluctant to let her be good to him. After all, what Su Mu showed before, no one really could do it, and it was really difficult to find a girl like him for a while.
Instead of starting a relationship again, it is better to make do with it like this, although there are always quarrels, but it is better than re-cultivating the relationship.
Besides, he also fell in love with Su Mu at first sight, and if he wants him to be emotionally like this again, I'm afraid it won't happen again for a long time.
Although Su Mu didn't want to go out after entering this bookstore, because Ling Feng was still interested, the two of them were still very harmonious, and Ling Feng was not in a hurry to leave, and when Su Mu said that she wanted to buy a fountain pen with water, he didn't object, which made Su Mu happy for a long time.
Seeing Su Mu happily bouncing around with the pen, Ling Feng suddenly remembered the word "childish" in his head, and then for the first time, a feeling of disgust actually appeared.
Ling Feng was taken aback by this thought of his own.
This is really incredible, he would have a naked and undisguised disgust for Su Mu. This was really a situation that had never happened before, he had always felt that he liked Su Mu, every time Su Mu said that he was impatient, he just listened to it, and didn't care about it at all, until this moment, Ling Feng seemed to understand Su Mu's feelings at that time.
He suddenly began to be a little scared, afraid that what Su Mu said was true, if he really had this kind of disgust for Su Mu, then what would the two of them do in the future? Is it really going to break up? If he said that he didn't want to break up, would Su Mu believe it? Will he believe it himself?
Ling Feng suddenly had no answer.
Fortunately, this kind of question didn't affect Ling Feng for long, and soon, his attention was shifted to books.
He forbade Su Mu to buy books, because Su Mu's books were so many that she couldn't read them at all, and buying books had no effect on her at all, so she could only keep them as decorations. Su Mu didn't insist too much after hearing it, and said that if he didn't buy it, he wouldn't buy it. What she didn't expect was that Ling Feng actually stopped here, picking and choosing a place, wanting to buy two books to read back.
Although it wasn't the first time Ling Feng had bought a book, this time, he really took it very seriously, and Su Mu was embarrassed to ask him not to buy it when he saw him like this.
After all, the two of them were playing outside, and it was always bad to cut off his interest. And he lets him watch it if he wants to see it, so that he doesn't have to watch those boring women play side balls in the video.
In this way, it is still very cost-effective.
In the end, with the joint efforts of the two of them, Ling Feng chose two books. It just so happened that Su Mu was also more interested in these two books, and thought that he could lend them to her after Ling Feng finished reading them. But then she found that she was thinking a little too much, because Ling Feng didn't turn a few pages of this book at all, so she kept it here for her, and she, even more so didn't turn a few pages, she was almost waiting for it to pick up dust there.
To be honest, Su Mu really has no interest in Japanese culture, even if there is, the popularity can only be maintained for a while, and when this period passes, she is the same as Ling Feng, things are thrown aside, if she is unlucky, then this book will probably not be turned over again by Su Mu in her life.
Speaking of which, it's actually because Su Mu is not interested in Japanese culture. Su Mu herself can't say what's going on, there have been countless people who have recommended books written by Japanese authors to her, but she really has very few works, and even few can read them all. There were many times when Su Mu forced herself to let herself watch more, even if it was to complete the task, but even so, she couldn't stand it.