Su Mu, female, age 27 years old, bachelor's degree, major in normal physics, worked in ......

It took almost half an hour for Su Mu to redo her electronic version of her resume, and because she hadn't worked on the computer like this for a long time, even though it was only half an hour, her eyes felt tired and a little painful. She took off her glasses and sat on her back, her eyes closed and pinching the bridge of her nose hard, trying to relieve the pain that had been so familiar for a long time. After rubbing it for a while, she helplessly found that it didn't work, so she sighed, put her glasses back on, and began to look at the resume on the computer in a daze.

The person on the resume is himself.

The more Su Mu looked, the more she felt that her impression of herself was becoming blurred little by little, and she tried hard to piece together herself based on everything written on her resume, but no matter how she put it together, she felt as if what she had written was describing another person.

No, to be exact, she was writing about another herself.

Yes, she has shown this in recent years, sometimes gentle, but also strong, looking very understanding and very good at taking care of people. In addition, she occasionally has a little bit of humor, just right and not out of proportion, so she always has a lot of friends, and these people will always give her more than that.

But she knows that she is not like this, and even most of the time, she is the complete opposite of such a "she". She is not gentle at all, and her little temper is so big that sometimes even she feels unreasonable. She's not strong, at best she's irritable and aggressive. "Single-mindedness" has nothing to do with her at all, because she is hot about everything, and her hobbies are so wide that she knows a little about everything, but when she goes deeper, she doesn't know anything about those things. She is not gentle at all, let alone so understanding, except for the three or four friends around her, she will only pretend to be very enthusiastic on the surface, even if she has always refused other people's requests, and can help, but she almost never let anyone into her heart. She also has a great personality, the things she likes are very niche, and she is so stubborn that once she makes a decision, even if it is wrong, she never listens to persuasion.

She was curious to know why.

Why would she disguise herself in front of others.

When did this begin?

As soon as he thought of this question, Su Mu felt that his head became more painful. She started to get a little irritable, and she couldn't remember whether she had saved the papers, so she just closed the notebook, got up and went back to her room, and stuffed herself into the quilt.

She hated to think about it, and she hated it as much as she didn't like celery to the point that she would vomit when she smelled it. However, she can't avoid thinking about these issues, so at this time, she always feels bored with herself.

I'm sick of everything I've been through, and I'm sick of my existence.

is completely different from the self who often advises others to be optimistic, cheerful and confident, Su Mu himself is a person who is extremely lacking in self-confidence and is accustomed to denying himself. She never dared to accept the praise and praise of others, no matter what she did, she always thought of the worst, although some people thought that thinking of the worst results was to be ready to take a step back, but for Su Mu, she simply felt that she was not capable of doing well, or felt that she was born unlucky. But when she remembered that one of the interviewers in the morning told her that she couldn't tell what she had any plans for the future from her work experience, she felt so angry that she wanted to throw all her resume in her face.

Su Mu really wanted to debate with that high-spirited interviewer, but given that there had been many "friends" over 100 years old who had also said that she was unrealistic, she felt that she was too lazy to say a word more to this kind of person.

She really didn't think about it, it was unrealistic, and the adjective used to describe her was not entirely unreasonable. For example, three years after graduating from university, she didn't care about the role that her teaching certificate could play, nor did she consider the teacher's advice to her to take a graduate school and then become a teacher, just to find a job according to her preferences. And she didn't work for a long time in every job, and when she saved enough money, she pulled her suitcase and arranged a month to go on a trip by herself.

"Traveling all over China" is Su Mu's dream since she was a child, because her family had no money when she was a child, so despite her holidays, she almost never left the house. The only thing that can be called a tour is to follow the adults in the family to participate in the company team building. But for Su Mu, the kind of travel that takes the tourist bus like a rush is not a trip at all, what she wants is freedom, relaxation, and integration into a piece of the history of a city, and this kind of travel is meaningful to her. However, no one can understand her "literary art", including her parents, who think her ideas are weird. But fortunately, despite this, they still gave Su Mu freedom and gave Su Mu the opportunity to fulfill this "dream".

Coupled with his attempts in college, Su Mu went to many places in three years. Although she still did not learn to plan things in such a situation, and often took some wrong paths, she still felt very satisfied when she looked through the postcards, maps, and small souvenirs she had collected in various cities.

These things, along with the photos she kept on her phone, are probably the most precious things she has accumulated in the past three years. Although many of her friends and classmates have married and bought houses in the past three years, she is still alone and does not even have a job, but she is not envious at all. Occasionally, when friends talked to her about these things, she thought she hadn't heard them, and then found an opportunity to divert the topic.

Of course, she knows the good intentions of her friends, and everyone hopes that her life can be on the right track, find a formal job, preferably the kind that can support the elderly, and earn not much, and then find a suitable person to get married and have children, and live a peaceful and stable life. She doesn't deny that this is everyone's concern for her, but for her, this kind of life that seems comfortable and uneventful has never been what she wants.

And what she wants, almost never supported by anyone.