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When Su Mu said this, the idea of wanting to break up was not completely eliminated. Perhaps because she has been a teacher, she is always used to making some educational remarks when facing young children, but when she speaks, she often deviates from the main topic. So that sometimes when she is talking, she doesn't know how far away from the original theme she wants to express, and she can't even figure it out most of the time, let alone whether the other party can understand it. In the days that followed, Ling Feng would often be misunderstood by Su Mu's mistakes, and he couldn't understand her thoughts or purpose at all, so there was always a deviation from what Su Mu expected in his heart in terms of understanding and action, which made the two of them quarrel more frequently.
Su Mu knew that she had this problem, although she sometimes felt very troubled, but for a small part of the time, she was also a little lucky. Because although she couldn't win a quarrel with Ling Feng, when she was reasoning with others, basically no one could talk to her. Ling Feng had seen Su Mu quarrel with others in the game, and the final experience was that Su Mu was simply an unreasonable person who had to argue three points, and the speed of speech and hand speed also accounted for most of the advantages, plus the words she might have said when they quarreled basically didn't go through her brain, and after saying three or two sentences, the other party's train of thought had all been interrupted by her, and it was really a bit difficult to win the quarrel.
As for why Ling Feng always could win, this was a question that had always plagued Su Mu.
Therefore, when Su Mu said these words, she originally thought that if Ling Feng accepted the breakup, then she would immediately let him disappear from her sight. After all, trust this kind of thing, after it has broken once, it is difficult to trust 100%, and she doesn't want to live in endless suspicion in the future and make herself uncomfortable. But as she spoke, the meaning she expressed became that she still wanted to continue to walk with Ling Feng, and in the end, even she realized the problem, but if she wanted to break up again, she couldn't say anything.
Too late.
Sometimes Su Mu also thinks that if the story ends here, will all the pain after that be gone. Of course, this is certain, but if it ends now, then the happiness after that will disappear as well as the pain. Those happy memories are too precious for Su Mu, and it is because of the existence of these happiness that Su Mu has never given up. So speaking of which, if it takes a painful price to collect these happiness, she is actually willing.
Ling Feng didn't like others to educate him the most, but this time, he listened to what Su Mu said word for word. He originally thought that Su Mu was talking about breaking up with him so seriously, and he was ready to chase her again. As a result, he didn't expect that in the end, the meaning of Su Mu's words turned out to be exactly the opposite of what he expected. He didn't even dare to believe his ears, and after looking at Su Mu for a long time, and after making sure that her expression was indeed very serious, he almost couldn't suppress his urge to laugh out loud.
"Wife, believe me, I will definitely not make such a mistake again, so don't you get angry?"
Ling Feng looked at Su Mu with a smile, and his whole expression looked like a boy with little love in his eyes in the comics. Su Mu couldn't resist such an expression the most, so she forced herself to lower her head and continued to say to him in a very stern voice:
"Of course I'm angry, why don't I get angry? My man doesn't even remember my own hobbies, but he remembers other women's first, how can you make me angry?"
As Su Mu spoke, he turned his head and mistook Ling Feng's kiss. Ling Feng was not angry because his idea did not succeed, he knew that it was not suitable to force Su Mu now, so he took advantage of the situation to bury his head in Su Mu's chest, hugged her tightly, and said to her:
"Wife, you see, we've only known each other for less than a month, and it's really a bit short, so I can't be forgiven for not remembering all your hobbies, right? In the future, no matter what you like, I'll try to satisfy you, okay?"
When Ling Feng said this, he said this with a very coquettish tone, poking at Su Mu's biggest weakness. Su Mu knew that he would definitely not be able to escape this time, so he couldn't help but sigh, and then replied to Ling Feng:
"You don't have to promise me anything, I told you that I can buy whatever I want. You don't have to think about spending money on me all the time, because you don't make money now, you spend it all your parents'. If you use this money to please me, it will definitely only have the opposite effect. Besides, I'm not someone who can chase me with gifts and money alone, you just need to take me to heart and think about my feelings before doing things, so that I can feel that you care about me and love me, and I will be satisfied. ”
There was a hint of melancholy in Su Mu's voice, as if he had foreseen something bad in the future, but he was powerless to turn around. Ling Feng's attention was on what Su Mu said, and he didn't notice her tone at all, thinking that she was just teaching him how to be nice to her. He felt that as long as Su Mu said this, he must have forgiven him, so after Su Mu finished speaking, he hugged Su Mu's arms and added a little more strength, as if he wanted to rub Su Mu into his bones and blood.
Su Mu let Ling Feng hold him like this, without responding or refusing. Because what she was thinking about at the moment had nothing to do with Ling Feng, what had been hovering in her mind was a fact that she had just realized - she seemed to have broken through her bottom line of principle once again because of this man.
It's not a good sign, at least not at all for her. Because this meant that she had accepted Ling Feng, but in fact, she didn't feel that she could really accept this matter. It was hard for her to imagine what kind of consequences would come in the future if she forgave Ling Feng so simply, would he feel that there was no price to pay for hurting her, so he would even worsen?
It's not impossible, but it's too late to regret it now. Thinking of this, a sense of powerlessness suddenly rose in Su Mu's heart, and for a moment, she even felt that the breathing and temperature coming from her chest seemed to become illusory.
She felt a little sad and a little pathetic.
But it was too late to say anything now, and the only thing she could say was to believe that Ling Feng really understood what she wanted to express, and would not make the same mistake again, as he himself said.