"Carrying the child to the toilet?" Xu Yu felt incredible when he heard it.

Zhuang Ya said, "I can't help it, I will cry when I put it down, my hands are sore!"

After chatting for a few words, Xu Yu said, "Then what are you going to do tomorrow, don't contact your parents, do you think you can handle it?"

Zhuang Ya felt a headache, she said, "I don't know......"

Then not long after saying that, Zhuang Ya said that she was sleepy and couldn't open her eyes, so Xu Yu had no choice but to say okay.

Xu Yu couldn't imagine what she had to do about Zhuang Ya's situation, it was a bit difficult to ride a tiger for the current situation, not simply say how to do it.

Tell your parents that it's difficult, don't say it, it's impossible to go back, it's already come to this point.

Then we can only fight on the basis of reason......

But the actual problems encountered are unimaginable.

(a,)

Zhuang Ya here didn't know when she fell asleep, she was very tired, and when she woke up again, the child was also asleep, so she gently put down the child, but when she put it down, she obviously felt that her arm was sore.

Too tired, Zhuang Ya simply washed and slept with the child.

My head was heavy, and I didn't feel like I had anything to think about.

A day of rushing, and my emotions seem to be exhausted at home!

It seemed that she hadn't slept like this for a long time, Zhuang Ya didn't think about other problems, she was tired and slept directly next to the child, covered the quilt, and then fell asleep.

It's just that Zhuang Ya in the dream is not solid and can't sleep well, and the child is also frightened by the difference and the possible fright during the day, so he sleeps heavily and wakes up many times this night.

Tossing and turning before dawn finally came.

When I woke up, my head felt very painful, but I didn't think about it yet, taking care of the child and eating outside, with dark circles under her eyes, Zhuang Ya was very tired, and she didn't have a good rest.

I don't seem to have much time to think about it.

Back at the hotel, Zhuang Ya looked at the child, locked the door, rolled her eyelids, and fell asleep again unconsciously, feeling in a daze that the child used her little hand to touch herself from time to time.

Zhuang Ya was so tired that she looked at the child several times in a daze and fell asleep again.

People are so tired that it seems to take a lot of effort to open their eyes, but they are very comfortable to close, and this long-term tiredness is the result of their own fatigue.

In this way, when he suddenly woke up again, the child also fell asleep, and he was probably too tired.

In the end, the two of them made up for sleep, and they didn't wake up until almost noon, making up for four or five hours of sleep.

When I woke up again, I was obviously in a much better mental state.

Before I got up and sat up to watch, I thought about what to do, and the child woke up, probably outside, and the child's own sense of security was not enough.

Seeing her mother wake up, she also quickly opened her squinted eyes, which became wider and wider.

I couldn't help it, I tried it, I fell asleep, but it still didn't work.

So in the end, I simply asked the child if he was hungry and took the child to eat something and came back.

Then Zhuang Ya was too tired and beckoned the child to watch the TV in the hotel room.

And she herself leaned on the *bed*hat, staring blankly at the TV in front of her, her eyes were empty and godless, she felt very broken, and she burst into tears again for some reason.

The child was watching TV intently and didn't pay much attention.

Zhuang Ya didn't cry too freely, she didn't want the child to look at her like this, and she didn't want to look like this.

Zhuang Ya comforted herself, don't cry, don't cry, crying can't solve the problem, but the tears just can't be stopped, at this time, the little guy, I don't know when I found out that my mother was crying.

"Don't cry, mom don't cry, baby is good, well-behaved!" the immature words came out of the child's mouth.

Zhuang Ya cried even louder, holding the child, in pain, "Mom is sorry for you, sorry for you!"

The child didn't understand this, just helped to touch the tears, this is almost three years old, the day has come to enter the kindergarten, but now here, Zhuang Ya has an indescribable sense of guilt for the child, and there is no sense of powerlessness.

What to do now, what to do?

After hesitating for a long time, and crying for a long time, Zhuang Ya finally figured out a lot.

Finally trembling and making a call.

Touching out the phone, looking at the contacts, and opening the contacts that had been lying in it for a long time, it was a place that Zhuang Ya never wanted to care about and didn't want to touch.

It's like a lump in my heart.

After Zhuang Ya dialed, she didn't make two sounds, she suddenly hesitated a little, and was about to hang up the phone.

But the other party seemed to be waiting for her call, and he didn't hesitate to see it and answered it.

There was a familiar voice that had been seen for a long time, "Yaya, Yaya, is it you?"

It was the other party who spoke first, and when he heard that "Yaya" was as money as a voice in his heart, the memories of being awakened came together.

My former companionship, my own rebellious heart, I only look at the threats, never go home, and the relationship between not recognizing it.

For that man, Zhuang Ya felt that she had worked hard, but why she was abandoned like this in the end, she really couldn't figure it out, but it was already like this, and she had no way back now.

Zhuang Ya didn't know what to say.

Zhuang Ya hesitated for a long time before saying:

"Mom...... Kid I'm sorry for you!" Before he could say anything, tears flowed down his face.

Then she opened her mouth, as if she couldn't open her mouth for a second, she didn't have the courage to say anything.

After hesitating twice, choked up, she only said "Take care of yourself, I ......"

Before I had time to say that's it, I hung up.

But the other party said, "Yaya, Yaya, how is the child, go home, go home, your dad and I are waiting for you, your dad is not easy to speak, actually"

Then I vaguely heard my mother give the phone to my father, then paused, and in a few seconds came my father's voice, "Uh, it's okay, it's okay...... Come back!"

After all, Dad was not so straightforward, a little shy, but he still said it.

At that time, Zhuang Ya burst into tears.

"I ...... I...... I'm sorry for you, I'm sorry, just be, just be, don't have this daughter......" After speaking, Zhuang Ya really couldn't control it, and hung up the phone, not wanting them to know that they were crying and crying.

In my mind, I seem to have a past self asking myself, and all the words that I used to shout have come.

What "he and I will definitely be happy!"

"We love each other from the bottom of our hearts, and he said marry me, marry me......"

"It's none of your business, that's my own business!"

"If you turn your face, you will turn your face, if you don't recognize it, you won't recognize it, who is rare"

"Why apologize, why do I want to apologize, it's not my fault, I'm right, that's right! It's you who are wrong!"

"Who said that you must have your parents' consent, if you don't have it, forget it, forget it, I'm not rare, not rare!"

"That's it, don't call in the future, it's not uncommon, rest assured, we'll be doing well, very good, at least much better than you, I don't know how many times, how many times!"

......

......

Those shouting and swearing words seemed to be in her ears, she didn't want to be like this, bowed her head, as if she was incompetent, admitting that she was useless, what she had said, as if it was like a slap on herself, she couldn't accept it, and she didn't want to admit that fragility and powerlessness.

But maybe her parents noticed something, or because of this unexpected phone call, because they had called a few times before, but they didn't get through, and now the sudden phone call, before they could say a word, hung up, parents may have found something, and within a few minutes of Zhuang Ya hanging up the phone, they immediately dialed over.

Zhuang Ya looked at the sudden ringing of the phone, and Zhuang Ya was so startled that she almost dropped her phone on the ground.

Seeing that it was the parents who clicked the phone, hesitated, hung up, dialed again, hung up again, and finally simply turned off the phone.

Zhuang Ya instinctively flinched.

Because she didn't know, she really didn't know how to respond to these things.

Since the last time we met, because of the conflict with Ying Hanchu, Zhuang Ya moved away and moved into a cheaper place after the rent pressure, and also waited for the second child, that is, this boy, and now the child in Ying's family is.

She thought that since she had survived.

After two pregnancies, and only the second confinement with the child being taken care of, the confinement is still not much better.

She didn't want to say that she was miserable and had no dignity.

The money they have saved is exhausted, and they have seen all their eyes and cold eyes.

Zhuang Ya felt like she had no dignity, just for the sake of the child in her belly to survive a little sense of existence, as if she didn't have a sense of her own existence.

If the first child is not taken care of much, and it is shabby to eat and drink, then the second child is a big fish and meat.

But the difference is that you don't have the right to refuse, because you need milk.

And I don't know how, it's just a person who doesn't have much milk, so all kinds of food and drink come.

Maybe for others, it's a good thing to have food, but it's still very sad compared to eating and drinking this kind of intensive point, because even if you don't want to eat, you can't help it.

And the big meat and big fish, I was *ordered* not to leave it, and I ate it all, not even a little soup left.

At first, I was flattered.

But it's always like this, and I can't stand it, and just like the hooves, there are no other condiments, at most a little salt, Zhuang Ya feels uncomfortable.

It's disgusting to look at.

But in this way, it was only considered hypocritical by her mother-in-law, and she told Ying Hanchu that she only thought that she was doing the same.

The sentence "Don't you always say that you haven't eaten it, but you have drunk it?"

And the sentence "It's really hard to serve, my mother came to take care of you, or else, don't be satisfied!"

No one knows how she feels.

Later, there was no milk, and even started to drink this soup and medicine.

She felt really bitter and unspeakable.

Maybe so, based on the fact that the child is a little older, it's okay for Zhuang Ya, and he doesn't rely much on it, and after Zhuang Ya takes care of him for two or three months, he still doesn't have much milk, and he has to get milk powder from time to time.

But I thought that in this way, my home was quiet, although Zhuang Ya was a little tired, her body did not recover, and she took care of the children, but what she didn't expect was that she took care of herself in this way, and she survived for less than two days.

There were also arguments about this and that later, as well as the fact that the other party harbored the child and refused to speak at the beginning.

No one knows, she didn't find her helplessness with the child, and at that time she thought about discussing it with her parents, but her strong self-esteem made her unable to open this mouth, just as she had been hard to say that she didn't want to continue her relationship.

Sometimes Zhuang Ya doesn't know whether she is unwilling to Ying Hanchu or because she is used to love or something else.

Zhuang Ya felt that she couldn't tell the difference.

At that time, because of Xu Yu's statement and suggestion to call the police, threats, etc., and then chatted with Ying Hanchu, and she found clues at home, that in the past, Ying Hanchu went to the house for train tickets, etc., and turned out the bills in the corner, and then finally went through hard work to find Ying Hanchu's home now.

Zhuang Ya felt so tired and tired all the way.

But actually, for hearing the concern of the parents just now, and the words "go home!".

Zhuang Ya felt the warmth she hadn't felt for a long time, but could she go back, it was already like this.

Zhuang Ya thought that she hadn't done that before, and after her daughter came out, Zhuang Ya went back like that.

It didn't matter if it was cold, which made Zhuang Ya's heart cold.

But the problem is that when I went back, I thought it was the way back, but my heart was still excited and happy, thinking about the idea of growing up with my child.

In the past, Zhuang Ya was ready to cut off everything at that time, and only took care of the idea of the child growing up, where can I see it......

But the truth is not what Zhuang Ya thinks, which is why Zhuang Ya burst into tears when she heard her parents say to go home, and she couldn't listen to it anymore.

Because of the time she came home at that time, she didn't stay for long, and the rumors put their family in some kind of predicament.

Because she was already embarrassed to go out, and this was not the main Zhuang Ya's wishes, but the parents, the main father, were afraid that there would be a lot of discussion outside, and they didn't want the child to go out, so at first they still asked why they went out.

Don't go out.

Zhuang Ya is not at ease.

I thought that these words were just ordinary concerns, and, inquiries, but it didn't take long for me to hear too much, especially when my father saw that he had not heard of them, and began to speak secretly, and turned them into explicit, and the meaning was obvious, did you want to make the family become a joke in the mouths of others, and there was no way to teach?

Dad's words, Zhuang Ya still remembers in her heart:

"You should be a vegetable garden, come and go, come and go!"

"Look at you, what are you doing, what are you going out to do*, it's not enough to be embarrassed. Isn't it enough of the old face in the seller?"

"You know how it's described out there?"

"Since they have all given birth to babies, is it appropriate here?

"I'm pinching my backbone! Pinching, you know, it's not pinching my backbone, I don't feel it, do you!"

"Why do you think you're so faceless and skinless?"

......

No one knows what kind of pressure Zhuang Ya is under, and remembers her mother persuading her, "The child can't help it, why are you saying this?

I remember my mother saying to Zhuang Ya, "It's okay, it's okay, oh, this is your home, no matter what happens, just go home, just go home!"

But when Zhuang Ya was ready to go out less and try not to go out, she thought that everything was over, but the actual fact is that Zhuang Ya still thought too much and thought simpler.