(26) The antique concert she was looking forward to
All day the next day, the two of them were running around against the sun.
There are many places to sign in and check in, although the route map is given, Su Mu didn't show it to Ling Feng, so there are still a lot of detours. But fortunately, Ling Feng did not express any dissatisfaction, but walked with Su Mu very patiently, accompanied her to finish the places that needed to be checked-in, and by the way, she also left a check-in souvenir, and bought Su Mu a lot of peripherals she liked.
At noon, it was just in time for the filming of a crew, and the two of them shuttled back and forth next to the crew several times because of the check-in relationship, which made Su Mu very embarrassed, but fortunately, it did not affect any shooting, but there was nothing.
Ling Feng also took a photo and posted it to Moments with some novelty, and when Su Mu looked through the window at the post office, he only felt that this was a very ordinary thing.
At that time, Su Mu didn't realize that she had begun to gradually lose interest in the outside world at this time, she looked at those strange instruments that she had never seen before, but what she thought of in her mind was the scene of a few of them getting together to make a micro-movie in college.
Speaking of which, the micro movies at that time should be the predecessor of short videos on some APPs now. So Su Mu was surprised to find that he had also kept up with the trend, and he had even written scripts, taken DV machines, and filmed these things.
Counting it, in fact, Su Mu tried a lot of new things, if she was said to be boring, she also had a basket of experiences that could be used as talking points, talking to people for three days and three nights. But speaking of which, Su Mu really hasn't made any achievements, because she has tasted everything superficially, and has not studied and studied in depth, thinking about how to do it well.
Even like coming to participate in this event, in fact, this event is not only about checking in and concerts, Su Mu also has time to finish them one by one, but she always gives up selectively, and then after giving up, she feels a little regretful.
She is a very contradictory person, who loves life but does not want to cherish it, who maintains a very high nature of all kinds of things but refuses to try them easily, who likes new things but refuses to discard the old...... She almost developed the contradiction into a necessity of life, as if without it, her life would not be complete.
Maybe Ling Feng felt that Su Mu was a person who couldn't do anything well, so Su Mu needed an existence like him to help her, so she couldn't leave him, even if she made a lot of trouble, she wouldn't leave him. He just needs to look at her coldly when she is making trouble, he doesn't have to do anything, and he just needs to wait for her to calm down.
It was true that Su Mu admitted that her abilities were limited, but Ling Feng seemed to have forgotten one thing, before meeting him, Su Mu had not relied on anyone except her parents, and she was still doing well. And more importantly, with Ling Feng's existence, it can be regarded as causing her a lot of trouble, her money has to be divided between two people to spend, and she has to consume her gentleness and understanding to grow up with him, such a life is in a way, Su Mu's biggest trouble.
Because there will be no return at all for her efforts.
Ling Feng didn't think that she had paid much to him, because he had no experience, and he didn't know how much effort it would take for Su Mu to take care of the lives of two people. He thought that life was as simple as eating, drinking, and having fun, and he had a family to back him up, so he didn't have to think about money.
But these are not for Su Mu.
Although Su Mu lives in her own home, she has a job and financial resources, and it is impossible for her to rely on her parents anymore. Before Ling Feng, her salary was completely enough for her to live alone, and there was still a surplus, but after having Ling Feng, her money would be divided into two people, which obviously made her life stretched. The most important thing was that she couldn't say this kind of thing to Ling Feng, not only because Ling Feng couldn't understand it, but also because she didn't want Ling Feng to understand in advance that all love would eventually come to reality.
She had always felt that she was actually indebted to Ling Feng in this regard. Because if Ling Feng chose to be with his peers, he could have a clean relationship without any money and interests, so Su Mu didn't want Ling Feng to bear the practical problems that all the two people needed to face, and he didn't even want him to know. To put it nicely, there is nothing wrong with letting Ling Feng face these things in advance, but is this really right? She has no ability to let Ling Feng know and admit those truths in society, even if Ling Feng is allowed to face it, what if he does it? He will not be able to help her in any way in these aspects, and even say something unpleasant, he is already thankful that he doesn't cause her trouble.
Some people have also said to Su Mu that let her pay more attention to it, and don't have to satisfy Ling Feng with everything, Su Mu also understands this truth, and she also does what she can, but the reality is there, at Su Mu's age, she really needs more than love, she needs reality, she needs to live by herself, she can support Ling Feng, and her life is not so comfortable, but she doesn't want to take care of Ling Feng's naivety and unreasonable in this situation.
She never forgot that when she was at work, she had obviously told Ling Feng that it was inconvenient to answer the phone at work, and he could keep making more than sixty phone calls, just let her answer it, and then tell her afterwards that he was just trying to prove which was more important to Su Mu, he or work.
That noon, Su Mu looked at her phone, she didn't know what to say, she didn't know if she hadn't paid enough, or Ling Feng didn't care about her feelings at all, but at that moment, she felt that the relationship between the two of them seemed to come to an end suddenly, and she couldn't go any further.
Didn't she feel sorry for Ling Feng?
Of course she has, every time she thinks about a lot of things, she thinks, maybe this is also a way for Ling Feng to express her feelings, it's just not suitable for her. She also wanted to repay him with the same level of affection, but if she reciprocated, who would take care of her feelings?
What should she do with her sadness, her grievances, everything she has endured in her work and life?
There's nothing wrong with her being able to bear all this, but she's also a person, isn't she? she also needs care and love, and she also needs someone to listen to her heart, she can't expect Ling Feng to help her in these things, so can he not come and trouble her?
Life was already difficult, why had she told Ling Feng so many times, but he never understood her, and he had to make her situation worse?
Was this also a sign of his love for her?
If that's the case, then she really can't afford it.
For a whole day, the two of them were running around on the road, and when everything was over, when the two of them sat on the boat, Su Mu felt as if he had fallen apart.
Originally, Su Mu was thinking of taking a hand-cranked boat with Ling Feng, taking advantage of the clear weather in the afternoon, sitting on the boat, slowly rocking on the lake, following the fan fan, chatting, and listening to a favorite song by the way, such a scene felt very pleasant just thinking about it, but it was a pity that I missed it when I was in Suzhou, and I didn't have so much time here, so I could only sit on this and barely make it up.
However, the air conditioning on this ship is very full, and after a day of tiredness, the two of them also feel very enjoyable and always very satisfied in such a cool environment, if it is not because the air conditioning is too much, and then they all start to feel cold, it will be more perfect.
After disembarking from the ship, a wave of heat hit and nearly forced the two men back onto the ship. Su Mu sighed that the weather in Jiangnan was really not something that she, a northerner, could bear, and even at dusk, it seemed to be hotter than the hottest time at home. While listening to Su Mu's words, Ling Feng tried hard to find the next place to go, and after finally determining the direction, he dragged Su Mu to the direction of the venue, and at the same time wanted to sew Su Mu's mouth shut.
This Su Mu can really speak, and it really seems that nothing can stop her mouth, even when she eats, she has to say a lot, as if she can kill her if she closes her mouth.
Ling Feng sometimes felt that Su Mu was very cute like this, sometimes he felt very irritable, sometimes he could catch up with a sentence or two, and sometimes he just wanted Su Mu to shut up. In fact, he didn't understand himself well, whether he really liked Su Mu or not. Even about anything related to Su Mu, he didn't have a definite attitude.
I didn't have dinner, but I ate late in the afternoon, so the two of them bought some snacks at the entrance and the like, even if it was dinner.
Speaking of "Notes on Tomb Robbery", in fact, Ling Feng was not interested in this at all, he had never been interested in these things, if it weren't for Su Mu being in the middle, not to mention that he wouldn't come today, even if everything related to this, he wouldn't buy it.
Sometimes he actually admires the author very much, to put it bluntly, in fact, everyone is from writing online articles, they can be so successful, but they have no achievements at all, so they feel very uncomfortable.
She didn't care about the money, she never cared about these things, and she didn't even seriously calculate the commission between colleagues, and she was even less likely to care about this kind of thing. What she cares about is her grades and the recognition of others.
That's what she's focused on, and that's why she chose to quit her job.
The boss didn't approve of her work.
Su Mu didn't know where she had a problem that made her boss have such a bad impression of her, and with her very good relationship with all her colleagues, she didn't know where she didn't do it right at all, so that her boss would have such an understanding of her. Of course, she tried to change her boss's opinion of her, but once she had a first impression of some things, it was difficult to change the impression later, so in the end, Su Mu chose to resign.
But Su Mu had never mentioned this matter to any ninja, and even Ling Feng didn't know why Su Mu would do this series of things. He only knew that there was a problem between her and the boss, and there was something wrong with the family, but he never knew where the problem was.
Therefore, sometimes Ling Feng felt that he was far, far away from Su Mu's heart, although her person was by his side, he never knew what she wanted to do, how could he rely on Su Mu to get closer.
It's a pity that he used the wrong way to express his thoughts, giving Su Mu countless space for imagination and making her have all kinds of bad guesses, so the two of them went farther and farther, almost going against each other, but they didn't know it.
But now is not the time to discuss these things, at this moment, all Su Mu's attention is focused on the stage.
There are so many people she likes here, except for the concert that Manhan Quanxi held in Nanjing that year, this is the first and only event that can bring all her favorite singers together at once.
After the whole concert, Ling Feng was just listening to the songs, picking out a few good songs and adding them to his song list. And Su Mu was beside him and kept screaming for a whole night, almost deafening Ling Feng's ears.
After the concert ended, Su Mu began to happily talk to Ling Feng about these things, introducing him to the stars who had just come on the stage, what roles they played in them, and then those singers, what attracted her attention.
To tell the truth, Ling Feng was not interested in this matter at all, and he didn't want to hear it at all, but he couldn't make Su Mu shut his mouth, so he could only pretend that he was listening very seriously, and then while listening, he kept looking for a way to get it back.
There are too many people, and they can't take a taxi at all, even if they use taxi software, they have to wait for more than half an hour, but Su Mu doesn't seem to care at all, and he is still there to review his experience just now. Seeing this, Ling Feng could only let her go.
After finally getting into the car, Ling Feng let out a sigh of relief. Although they are still stuck in place and motionless, at least this can be regarded as a guarantee, no matter what Su Mu says or says, it will not affect the problem of the two of them going back.
In such an awkward confined space compared to the outside world, Su Mu could keenly feel the change in the other party's attitude, she realized that Ling Feng was not interested in what she said at all, and even put on an obviously perfunctory appearance, so she immediately stopped.
And Ling Feng didn't ask a word about Su Mu's abnormal performance, as if nothing had happened.