Ling Feng had once told Su Mu not to use her thoughts to maliciously speculate on Ling Feng's thoughts, her thoughts were so despicable, it didn't mean that he was the same. When she heard Ling Feng say this for the first time, Su Mu was so angry that she couldn't help but want to laugh, she wanted to ask her where her thoughts were despicable, but she felt that it didn't make any sense.

What Ling Feng was thinking in his heart, only he knew in his heart. Whether what he said was true or not, only he could understand. Although Su Mu didn't know this, she still knew very well what the things he did could make her think of.

The two of them being together was originally a process of running in with each other and adapting to each other, Su Mu had also thought that maybe after she slowly understood Ling Feng's habits in her life, she would be able to figure out his thoughts. But the things she found could only make her feel that he was not a qualified boyfriend. It's not that she has a problem, because she used to think so, maybe she was thinking too much or something, but when she asked a few male friends around her, those people without exception, all of them were accusing Ling Feng's behavior, and there was even one person who asked her in a tone of hatred:

"He must have done more than that, it's all like this, and you're still trying to explain and cover it up for him, is it necessary?"

God knows how turbulent Su Mu's tears were when she heard this, but she couldn't cry loudly, and she had to try her best to save the face she lost because she chose the wrong person.

This is the reason why Su Mu is reluctant to complain to others, because although everyone will sound like they will think that the problem is with Ling Feng, but this also means that Su Mu's vision is not good, if he finds such a person, or someone will think about it, Su Mu does not listen to persuasion, he must be with Ling Feng, this is self-inflicted and cannot live, there is nothing worthy of sympathy at all, and I don't know how Su Mu has the face to say it.

Su Muke couldn't stand such a blow, she was already uncomfortable enough, if she heard others say this, she might be angry to death, and instead of being angry with them, she might as well digest the negative emotions by herself and save herself from being scolded twice.

After the trip to Suzhou, the two of them went straight to Hangzhou, ready to participate in the 817 Rice Festival.

Since 15 years, Su Mu has been thinking about wanting to participate in a rice festival. When I was 17 years old, I originally planned to go to Changbai Mountain, but because of the offline commemoration of the fifth anniversary of the Manchu and Han Dynasty banquets, it was delayed, and in 18 years, I was delayed because I went to Hangzhou with my mother, and I finally survived until 19 years, and finally had a chance, this time, she didn't want to give up anymore.

However, because he had been focusing on check-in activities before, and there was not so much scheduled time, Su Mu did not pay attention to other activities. As a result, when they arrived in Hangzhou, Su Mu found that at the time they arrived, there was a meeting with the third uncle, which made her regret it so much that she almost wanted to jump to the West Lake.

For Su Mu, the third uncle not only brought her an iron triangle story, but also supported her to continue to go down in her very difficult time in the past. She just watched the little update of the third uncle in the official account every day to give herself courage, if there was no third uncle during that time, Su Mu didn't know how she would survive.

Everyone's feelings and ability to tolerate pain are different, because that person grew up in a different environment and experienced different things. Maybe a person who has been going well all his life will lose love once and make him feel painful, and people who have escaped death will feel that it is just a loss of love once, and it is not a big deal. So in fact, Su Mu would be very annoyed by others telling her "What's the big deal" and "Isn't it just this little thing", every time she hears it, her sadness and pain may multiply tenfold in an instant.

Fortunately, when this kind of thing happened, Ling Feng didn't say anything, he just quietly stayed by Su Mu's side, letting her lose her temper, and when she had vented enough, he would come over to help her wipe her tears, or deal with the follow-up matters. Occasionally, if Su Mu had to drag him, he would not express his opinion, and wait until Su Mu calmed down before discussing these things with her.

Ling Feng had always felt that as long as Su Mu calmed down, then everything would be easy to say, so when he quarreled, he had been implementing this policy. As long as there is a quarrel, he will choose to be silent, let Su Mu keep talking about him there, and when she stops talking, the next day, he will act as if nothing happened. He always thought that Su Mu would only say those words and make that decision when he was excited, but in fact, Su Mu and him were not the same kind of people.

Su Mu likes to make things clear at that time, she hates procrastination the most, but Ling Feng can never explain things at the time, it will only make Su Mu more and more angry. Su Mu didn't understand a little bit, why the person who would prove to be wrong in the end was Ling Feng, but Ling Feng always had to quibble, always find various reasons to try to escape his mistakes, quarrel with Su Mu for a long time, and finally apologize to Su Mu.

Was it because he didn't feel that there was something wrong with his approach in the first place? If this was really the case, then did Su Mu want to re-establish three views for Ling Feng?

She wasn't sure he loved her with all his heart, what could she do?

He was kind to her, but he didn't delay his care for others. He said that he loved her, but he did not delay him from talking sweetly to others. He said he wanted to marry her, but he didn't even have a viable idea...... So, what is she going to do to believe that he loves her?

Isn't that what a strong man can do?

With a person who deliberately conceals her existence, if she wants the future, will she be wronged all the time?

Is he really thinking that Su Mu is a fool?

Because it was not early when they arrived at the hotel, although the two of them lived not very far from the West Lake, they did not go to the West Lake. Instead, I went to the shops where there was an event.

Because there were still many friends who asked Su Mu to help bring some of the surrounding back, so in the shop, Su Mu and the two of them were delayed for a long time. Ling Feng and Su Mu both picked out some of their favorite gadgets, and when it came time to check out, Su Mu was quite surprised that Ling Feng would actually support her to buy these things.

Su Mu likes these things, just looking for a psychological sustenance. She has a lot of similar merchandise, and although she doesn't need any of them, she just likes to keep them, as if to prove that she has done these things. It wasn't once or twice that she had done this kind of thing, and she was even ready for Ling Feng to say that she was wasting money, however, instead of saying this, Ling Feng helped her pay for it.

Therefore, sure enough, sometimes her behavior is very naïve, so Ling Feng will have a full understanding of her. So does this also prove from the side that Ling Feng is actually just as naïve?

This question had never been mentioned to Ling Feng, because she knew very well that no matter what she said, Ling Feng had countless reasons to refute her, he had always been a person who could argue unreasonably, and sometimes Su Mu had to admire this. However, she didn't admire Ling Feng's ability, but admired him for using this skill on Su Mu's body.

Yes, all his good-natured Su Mu didn't feel it, on the contrary, all his friends thought he was a very gentle and considerate man. So this led to Su Mu's previous worries, worried that everyone would speak to Ling Feng.

After all, Ling Feng behaved really well in front of others, in the case that no one came into contact with Su Mu's normal life, just looking at Ling Feng's performance like this, they would definitely think that if Ling Feng was not wrong, the wrong person was Su Mu.

Just enduring Ling Feng already made her feel very difficult, and if she had to endure this any longer, Su Mu was afraid that she would go crazy again.

The next morning, the two of them got up early and began to follow the prompts step by step.

Hangzhou in August is the hottest in Su Mu's memory. She had never been so hot as to suffer from heat stroke before, but when she came to West Lake for the first time, Su Mu almost died on the hand-cranked boat she was sitting on.

Since then, Su Mu has been very afraid of running around in the hot weather, so in the summer, Su Mu either carried food on her back in the class, or put a bottle of water, because she was afraid that when she encountered this situation again, she would not have time to buy these things.

Speaking of Su Mu's physical fitness when she was in college, it really dropped a lot, and in retrospect, when she was in college, she could still get up early to exercise and run 1,500 meters, and then she could go to breakfast normally, and she was also in class. But now, let alone less than 500 meters, let her run five meters, she may be too tired to work.

Not only that, in the past few years, Su Mu obviously feels that her physical strength is depleting faster and faster, sometimes doing the work that she used to be able to do easily, she is a little out of breath when she is busy, if she stays up late, then the next day Su Mu's mental state is very poor, so bad that it will make people suspect that she may be ten years old all of a sudden. On top of that, she's also very snooze. If the quality of her sleep was not good the first night, then the next day she would feel drowsy, and she would have been without energy all day, and by the afternoon, he would have basically been ready to sleep.

But if it is changed to normal sleep time, Su Mu's sleep time will become very small, on average, sometimes she can't even sleep for five hours a day.

This can't help but make her worry all the time about whether there is really something wrong with her body.

Although Su Mu is not a person who cherishes her life, it is impossible for her to watch herself get sick and accept the fact that she is sick. She wants to live better than everyone else, and even if she dies, she must not die in front of her parents.

That's why she didn't put self-harm on the agenda.

She had tried to hurt herself, when she couldn't find an outlet for her psychological pain. The feeling of relief was no less than being reborn, but every time she saw those scars afterwards, she would feel a sense of fear.

If this continues, what if I really can't bear it one day?

When people are desperate to a certain extent, they actually want to save themselves. It's just that some people are lucky enough to find a way, and some people don't get the same treatment. Su Mu is considered to be the lucky one, but sometimes she also wonders if those who choose to leave have the courage to choose to leave, which is also a kind of luck.

Some people say that Su Mu is young, there is really no need to think about these things, and to be honest, Su Mu really has no need to be sad. From childhood to adulthood, although she didn't grow up with a golden spoon in her mouth, she didn't say that she experienced any winds and waves, ups and downs, and compared to others, they were all trivial. Although it may be like this in her life, there will be no big ups and downs, so it is destined that the range of pain she can bear is so large, but then again, this is really an unnecessary thing, especially for a man.

She can be sad because she didn't do all her best to study, let herself have more choices, make her life fuller, etc., but she really doesn't have to, for the sake of an outsider, make herself like this. It is even possible to comment like this, she has her original life trajectory and life plan, in her plan, there should be no Ling Feng's existence at all, she has a better life, she has the right to be happier, she should not allow Ling Feng to destroy them like this.

To put it bluntly, this person has nothing to do with the creation of her life, nor is it the meaning of her existence, and it is really not worth it to become like this for such a person.

This passage is simply a representative of awakening in love, and for Su Mu, who has lived for the rest of his life, it is already very good to think of this. She has always been glad that she was able to wake up earlier and did not do anything more excessive, otherwise, even if she wanted to regret it, she would not have a chance to regret it.

There are many things in this world that can be repeated, but some things are only once. The choice is yours, of course, but that doesn't mean that you can sometimes make your own choices. People live in this world, there is no possibility of being completely chic, just as movement is absolute, stillness is relative, fairness and freedom, are relative, this is the shackles that everyone will carry, and the length of time, or personal experience, has nothing to do with it.

It's something that you have to endure as a human being.

So many times, some people really don't deserve to be called human.