I want to be myself

I hesitated for a long time before I answered Zhang Rixuan's phone, and my voice seemed to be lowered as usual and asked, "Are you off work?"

"Well, haven't you gotten off work yet?"

"I'm ready to leave work, too. ”

"Oh, where is your company? I'll pick you up and help you move your home today, and I'm on my mind. ”

I smiled and said, "The reason why you are so enthusiastic about helping me move is because you are afraid that I will continue to mess with you, right?"

"It's a good word to mess around...... I just asked you where the company is, and you haven't answered me. ”

I was stunned for a moment before replying: "I'll go to Zhuomei to find you, the rice noodles downstairs in Zhuomei are good, and I invite you today to thank you for working so hard for me to move." ”

"Okay, then come here, I'll wait for you at the door of the rice noodle shop. ”

I answered Zhang Rixuan, and then the two hung up the phone one after another, and I temporarily cleaned up my mood and left the company with my backpack.

......

Coming to the north gate of Zhuomei Shopping Center, Zhang Rixuan has been standing at the door of the rice noodle shop waiting for me, today she does not apply powder, but still so beautiful and moving, this is the peak of shopping, waves of people, almost subconsciously will look at her, attracted by her beauty, after all, natural beauties who do not wear makeup at all in these years are really too rare.

But I am a man who does not appreciate her beauty, from the first day we met I felt that her beauty had nothing to do with me, I always cared if she would let me stay in that house, but in the end I moved out.

If it is far-fetched, I moved out of that house is also a compromise of reality, although I have lived in that house for more than two years, and Zhang Rixuan has not been in a month, but because her name is on the real estate certificate, the last person to move out is still me, it has nothing to do with the length of time and the depth of feelings, it is a compromise under the pressure of reality.

Maybe I'm really a very idealistic person, so I will use the length of time I have lived in the house as the standard, and impose the identity of the tenant on Zhang Rixuan, and I don't think there is anything wrong with this, it is natural, and now it seems that the tenant is exactly me, and I am not even a tenant, at least Zhang Rixuan, a person with a real estate certificate, has never agreed to me to rent that house.

When I came to Zhang Rixuan, both of them looked at each other silently, as if we would not have a topic to communicate without-for-tat.

I finally asked her, "How long have you been waiting?"

"Soon, let's go, there's almost no place in there. Zhang Rixuan said and looked behind him.

I nodded, and walked to the rice noodle shop before Zhang Rixuan, the first time I was very gentlemanly to help her open the glass door, Zhang Rixuan looked at me with some surprise, but still said "thank you" very politely and then walked into the store.

Zhang Rixuan found an empty seat to sit down, and I went to order food, queued for a while, asked for two bowls of rice noodles and some other snacks, and then sat down opposite Zhang Rixuan with a small ticket and a waiting menu.

We have been eating rice noodles in this rice noodle shop for two days in a row, and I couldn't help but be bored and asked Zhang Rixuan, who was sitting opposite: "The reason why you like to eat rice noodles is because your name is Zhang Rixuan?"

Zhang Rixuan glanced at me but didn't answer, just picked up the teacup in front of him and took a sip of water, obviously unwilling to answer my boring question.

I smiled and didn't care, anyway, I was used to her uncaring attitude towards me, even though on rare occasions we were like ordinary friends.

After a while, the ordered things were delivered by the waiter, Zhang Rixuan only needed a rice noodle, and all the other snacks were pushed to me.

I pushed the chicken leg and dried tofu in front of her and said, "You'll have to help me move later, you need to eat more physical work." ”

"I'm only responsible for driving, and besides, how good are your things? The last time you moved out, I saw you dragging and dragging alone, and you moved away at once. ”

I remembered the scene when I ran away because I had no money to pay back to Zhang Rixuan, and smiled wryly, and said: "I just found an excuse to let you eat more, and then borrowed your mouth to destroy your beauty, look at what you look like after becoming fat!"

"You're really sinister! But I'm sorry to tell you, I can't get fat!"

Looking at Zhang Rixuan's slightly proud appearance when she said that she was not fat, I smiled from the bottom of my heart, although she is indifferent many times, but she still has a childlike side, and the innocence she inadvertently showed in front of me just shows that she has no guard against me, maybe all the contradictions and unhappiness between us are really just because of that room.

......

After eating, Zhang Rixuan and I went to Robben's, my things are really not much, I asked her to wait for me downstairs, but she went up with me, and helped me carry a few lighter bags as much as she could, in fact, she also has the same duplicity as most women, just in the rice noodle shop she said to me: only responsible for driving, not responsible for moving.

But such duplicity only proves that she is a kind woman, so Ban Dad only met her twice and quickly judged that she was a good girl.

When I came to the new house, I simply cleaned the room, and Zhang Rixuan helped me make the bed at the same time, which made me very upset, and remembered that soon after the first meeting, I rudely threw her quilt and blanket downstairs, although it was to vent, but the behavior of the two was slightly compared, and I was dwarfed.

After packing up everything, I went to the drink shop downstairs to buy two cups of hot juice, gave one of them to Zhang Rixuan, and moved a chair for her to sit down and rest, which made her wonder if I was going to use sugar-coated cannonballs on her again, and then repented, and cheekily asked to move back into that room again, in fact, she misunderstood, I just blamed myself for being rude to her, and now hiding it from her.

Zhang Rixuan only drank half of the juice, she put the juice on the coffee table and said to me with relief: "Your business is done, I should go." ”

"Oh, you slow down on your way. ”

"Hmm. Zhang Rixuan replied and had already picked up his handbag.

I helped her open the door and said to her: "In the future, if you live over there, if there is anything you can't handle by yourself, call me at any time, I will be on call." ”

Zhang Rixuan nodded, turned around and walked outside the house, and I said to her again: "If you want to eat home-cooked food, come to my side, I'll make it for you, anyway, it's close to your company." ”

"Got it. Zhang Rixuan didn't look back, but her tone was not so indifferent, I understood that she knew, not to deal with me, maybe one night she would really come to me to have a dinner I made myself, with porridge, rice, and a few simple home-cooked dishes.

Zhang Rixuan has gone farther and farther, looking at her back, I have mixed feelings again, maybe Mi Zhongde will soon carry out his power plot, if I still hide it, even if I tell Zhang Rixuan later, there is not much time left for her to deal with it.

Zhang Rixuan had already entered the elevator and disappeared from my sight, but the words of Ban Dad asked me to treat her well suddenly flashed in my mind, making me suffer again, in this uninterrupted torment, I finally had a feeling that I was fed up, I gritted my teeth and said to myself: I want to be myself, to be the scum in the eyes of others, but I have a bottom line and a self to stick to