I walked away from the ghost gate, and when I think about what happened yesterday, when I think about how I am about to say goodbye to him forever, these things make me feel like a knife, I still can't breathe, I still feel very uncomfortable.

Maybe I can accept a pain in my legs, maybe I can accept this physical pain, maybe I can relieve this pain through a medical device, but my kind of mental pain can never be solved by medicine.

Maybe these are the run-ins over time, but in the long process of time, I will be executed little by little.

I've lost him, forever.

Forever and ever.

When my parents arrived at the hospital in the afternoon, my mother was very sad and wept when she looked at me, and I tried to give my father and mother an optimistic mood that I would not make them feel sad under any circumstances.

Later, the boss also came to see me in person, and he also felt some guilt about my parents, in fact, for this kind of thing, it really has nothing to do with my parents and boss, but what I said on the scene still has to be said.

"Ou Ruoxi has this incident at work, we feel very surprised and guilty, all the expenses of some medical reimbursement are borne by the company, so spending money on pension must be used, don't worry too much, we will definitely raise the strength of this company, and we will definitely treat Ou Ruoxi seriously." ”

My parents are actually reasonable people, they don't mess around in this world, and finally made such a suggestion and a proposal to the boss, and basically nodded and agreed.

The boss might be worried about my influence in this regard, so he didn't talk too long here, and then said it softly to me.

"Ou Ruoxi, you don't have to think too much about this work thing now, things at work are actually just what happens, nothing is more important than life, after we take care of this illness, we will do a big job after we get well. ”

In fact, I can already understand the meaning of the boss's words, that is to say, the boss has no insight into Fei Yan's departure from this company, and he has seen this matter very openly.

My heart is very weak and difficult, but I still want to report the situation of the day to the boss: "I'm sorry husband, I have something to talk to you about." ”

The boss shook his head as if he wanted to talk about something, and the boss knew it naturally.

"Ou Ruoxi, let me tell you, you are only responsible for recuperating during the recuperation period, don't worry about anything else, I have arranged for someone else to take over your above affairs, and now the doctor only needs you to take care of this disease, don't use anything, worry about waiting for everything to get better, I said no, I can't get over the hurdle." ”

I know that the boss is comforting me, but I am very persistent, I don't want to ask the boss not to know how to deal with it when I am there, and I don't want to let this world have a beginning and an end, so I ask my parents to leave for a while, and I have to talk to the boss.

When it was just me and my boss in this room, I said it in fits and starts.

"I'm sorry. I've already talked to the boss about this, and he doesn't want to renew the contract, and he won't renew the contract. ”

The boss's face was very solemn and nodded, it seemed that the boss had already known the whole story.

"Ok, I know all this, if you can renew the contract, of course the result is very good, if you can't renew the contract, it will cause your current panic, and then it will cause your car accident, you don't have to ask me, I know mine, I just said that everything is with fate, if there is no fate, cooperation is futile. ”

"I'm sorry boss, it's all my fault, if it wasn't for my lack of business at the time, I wouldn't have caused the ending I have today. ”

"Ou Ruoxi, you don't have to take this responsibility for yourself so deliberately, in fact, it is not entirely because of you, and it is impossible for a person to refuse such a good request to the other party, and this request has been given a higher level of requirements in the industry, I think that under the same circumstances, I can't give him such a salary. ”

The boss paused and continued.

"So don't worry too much about this matter, there are a lot of this kind of fate in life, we pay attention to a kind of cooperation, a kind of fate, I am now planning to lead another person, and the other party has agreed to this condition, this is the former competitor Zhu Long, and he only asked you to be his agent, then it can only be said that the other party is willing to choose us for the reason, then the conditions we give are not the best, but he is still willing to choose his reason, only tell me that it is because of you, he told me that he believes you can get him out of this circle, and he also feels that you have helped him in the most difficult time, he felt that the grace of a drop of water was rewarded with a spring. ”

I was surprised to hear the news, I didn't expect that Zhu Long would turn around and come to our company when he was there, and I would directly take the lead.

But at the moment I was disheartened, I always felt that I couldn't deal with the number of bodies, and I felt that I had to take responsibility for it.

I struggled to speak.

"I'm sorry boss, I really think I used to be too confident, in fact, I'm not suitable for this business at all, Li Hai left, and Fei Yan didn't sign a contract anymore, I put so much energy into these two people, but the results were really so miserable, I really wasn't suitable to be this agent. ”

"Ou Ruoxi, I told you, the real responsibility for this matter does not lie with you, this is a personal problem, and you have been doing a good job in this, the whole company can see it clearly, in the end, it must be one yard to one yard, don't confuse these things, and the company also trusts you very much, you believe that you and Zhu Long have a good opportunity to cooperate. ”

The boss has already said this, I don't have to argue anymore, I don't know why, because this matter may be a different scenery when I get better, I just want to get better as soon as possible.

After the boss left, I fell into a deep sleep again, and I seemed to feel an endless and helpless sleep state, which made my whole body and mind feel very tired.

I was very tired, maybe it was because I had surgery, or maybe my heart was strained for too long, and finally it was suspended at this moment, no matter how tired and feeling like a tide!

In my daze, I felt someone holding my hand, and the palm was so warm that I didn't feel cold when I was dripping it with the potion.

I don't know who it was, but when I opened my eyes with difficulty, I realized that it was already dark in the sky, and the moon outside the window had climbed to the top of the moon early.

Looks like I've been asleep for the last five or six hours.

At this time, the lights were already on in the room, and it was Luo Jin who was sitting next to me.

He was the only one sitting there, looking at me with a very anxious eye, with a kind of heartache, with a kind of sadness, I couldn't help but feel a kind of guilt, it seems that my car accident really made too many people turn their backs.

I opened my eyes and looked at him, smiling at him as hard as I could.

"Sometimes you finally come to your senses, my uncle and aunt just now went to buy you some daily necessities at the supermarket, and they haven't eaten until noon, I let them try to relax. ”

I smiled at him, indicating that I knew about it.

"Why did you know last night? It scared me to death, when I got your call, I was so scared that I didn't know why, when I saw you lying here in a coma, I fell to the ground like an ice hole, I completely felt like I couldn't breathe, I kept thinking, I kept thinking, if you really can't wake up, I will lose you forever and ever, I may never have any happiness in my life, I can't bear the pain of losing you again. ”

With that, he pulled out a diamond ring from his purse.

This diamond ring is the kind of simple style that I like, with a broken diamond indication, set in the shape of a redbud flower?

This is the style, I once talked to him inadvertently, in Harper's Bazaar, I used to say that this model wears this ring is very beautiful, and very tired, I didn't expect him to send it here, and he bought this one directly for me?

"Ou Ruoxi, this ring is something I have already bought in Europe, I have been storing it, and I have always wanted to give it to you at a suitable time, but today I can't wait for me, I must put this ring on your hand, I don't know if you want to marry me, I can't bear it anymore, lose your courage to promise me, promise me no matter what, let me take care of you in this life." ”

I'm still very moved in my heart, I don't know if this touch is what it feels like, maybe this touch is like life and death, as if some kind of care for you makes me find a lifebuoy in the backwater.

I struggled to smile at him.

He put the ring on my little finger without hesitation, as if he must make such a decision no matter what, and take away a kind of affection and warmth.

"Ou Ruoxi, please promise me no matter what, I can't bear the pain this time, I feel that my heart has reached the limit, I really don't want to, please agree to be my wife no matter what, I swear that in the future, I will pick you up and drop you off from work, and I won't let you have any problems in the process, I promise." ”

I still smiled at him and looked at him, I didn't expect him to be so impulsive, I didn't expect him to actually put my ring on my hand.

I said with difficulty: "For a business wizard like you, and you have a Cambridge lawyer's license, isn't it too wasteful to be my driver, it's a terrible thing." ”

"I said how can this be wasted, I can only go to the world with one person in my life, I will live for you forever and forever in this life, I am willing to pay all this, and this is the blessing of my life. ”

I looked at him like that, and I felt a deep sense of loss in my heart, and I didn't know why Fei Yan left me forever.

I really felt like I was looking for a lifebuoy in a boat against the current, and I didn't know what my feelings would be for Frog Wine, but I knew that it didn't reach the point of marriage anyway.

And what I can do now is to promise him directly, I smiled and nodded, maybe those traces of pain will soon be forgotten with this perfect marriage.

I don't know why.

Maybe it's because of his results that I can finally play, maybe I'm in the thought of life and death, and it makes me understand that there are many things that I can't refrain from, not the two people I said sincerely, just like these on the one side, maybe it shouldn't be what I get, I will never get it, and I shouldn't have been so greedy in the first place.

Just like my feelings for Fei Yan, all of this is like this greed, and finally I lost him forever.

Luo Jin is actually relatively very good, very, very good, so I think it is a very good experience to be able to share this life with him, which can be regarded as a blessing for me.

I couldn't help but look out the window at the sky, today the sky is starry, tomorrow it will still be a sunny sky, but the brightest star in my sky has left me hot, because the bright star in the sky does not belong to anyone.

The impression I had had has long been shattered in this reality.

He put this on my finger, and my finger is now due to surgery, maybe it will only be suitable until my finger is swollen.

He laughs.

"You see that you are my lady now, I have this ring on your finger now, you can't be at this time, you think it's an escape, you've been my fault all your life, and I've been signed with such a ring for the rest of my life. “

I looked at his childish appearance, and I really wanted to laugh, because my finger is very solemn now, in fact, this ring is worn on my finger, and it can only be worn on a small thumb, and there is no way to put it on it.

"As you once said, there were nine hundred and ninety-nine roses under a window in our house, playing guitars and loudly courting me. ”

"When you are good, I will definitely buy nine thousand nine hundred and ninety-nine roses to put under the front door of your house, and there are many more flowers, and I am reluctant to fill your yard, and when the time comes, I will also invite a professional band, and I will propose to you in the dance of Elvis. ”

I couldn't help but want to laugh, and I really felt that his humor made me feel very sad in this life, and I didn't love him.

What is the difference between loving and not loving? There are many choices in life, and there are also passive choices.

And now that I have reached this situation in my heart, maybe all a relationship can be cultivated slowly, no matter what, today is a continuation of tomorrow.

That's right, I actually know very well in my heart, there is a kind of sky in my heart that has fallen out of the sky, and a piece of that starry sky has been missing, and it will never be the same as before, this heart is only known to me, and that is the most important part of my life, and I can't have it anymore.

Rather than saying this, let these things become an eternity of your own, a secret of your heart, and never let anyone inquire about it again.

The brightest star in my mind had flashed like a meteor, but it had drawn a brilliant trace in my sky, and I made it disappear in a hurry.

But anyway, that meteor was in my life.

When I was lying in the hospital, time passed very slowly, the doctor said that it would take 100 days to break my muscles and bones, it seems that the boss was really generous to me, not only arranged a top ward for me, but also invited a special nurse to help me My parents, I didn't want to work for the reason, they looked at me all day long and sighed, I drove them back early.

It took me about a month to recover, and the recovery was fast, and the doctors were very happy with my recovery.

In the end, the doctor also agreed to discharge me from the hospital at my strong request.

"Ou Ruoxi, when you are sick, you must go back to the hospital regularly for a physiotherapy, and regularly do an X-ray shooting, your foot has been hit with a closed nail. After about a month, you'll have to come back and remove the screw again. ”

When I heard this, I couldn't help but joke, and Luo Jin happened to be next to me.

"The doctor said the same thing, I have so many screws in my foot, how do I feel that this walk is very stiff, I seem to have felt like I am a robot like Optimus Prime. ”

Luo Jin looked at me very happily, for my current situation, he has been accompanying me every day, except for commuting to and from work, basically with a great kind of care.

"It seems that your mood should be very good, it seems that you will be able to devote yourself to work soon, some time ago I saw that you were completely crippled like a doubles, and there was no state at all, and I feel very fortunate to see the way it is now. ”

I looked at the doctor and Luo Jin with a slight smile, in fact, there are many things that only I know best in my heart.

Physical injuries may be healed over time, and a full medical effect can be achieved slowly through high technology.

But the pain hidden in the depths of my heart, when will I take a photo with you to help him smooth it out, I don't know, I only have time to tell me all this.

I insisted on these quick recoveries, and I believe that everything can be like psychological damage, and slowly in a certain year and a certain month, everything will be relieved.

I am very grateful to these doctors for helping me, and I am also grateful to Luo Jin for the support and courage he gave me during my most difficult time.

During the last week of treatment, I am now fully able to walk on crutches.