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Su Mu's words were too sudden, completely unexpected, so that after Ling Feng heard it, the whole person was stunned, and when he didn't react at all, he was choked by the rice that had not yet been swallowed, and began to cough violently.
Su Mu was also taken aback by Ling Feng's reaction, and immediately hurriedly tried to alleviate Ling Feng's situation. What's even more unfortunate is that the sister with the child next to her accidentally knocked over the stool where the things were put on it, and the things on the stool were scattered all over the ground, making it look like the scene of the disaster.
Because everything was scattered next to Ling Feng, Ling Feng endured his cough, got up from his seat, and began to help the mother clean up her things.
When Su Mu watched Ling Feng endure a cough while comforting that sister not to worry, she suddenly felt that this child was much kinder than she imagined, and even compared to his peers, he seemed to know how to take care of a person better. So Su Mu couldn't help but think of what he had experienced at this age, and suddenly felt that when he was so old, although he always shouted to take care of others, he didn't achieve such gentleness and consideration as him at all. In vain, she has been entangled for so long, and now that she thinks about it, she has actually begun to become indifferent at that age, and those so-called enthusiasm or innocence are just deliberately maintained by her, but she didn't know it at the time, or, she knew it but didn't want to agree.
But the person in front of him seems to be really simple.
Although his thinking logic and overall three views cannot be fully agreed with by Su Mu, in some ways, he is easily willing to believe in commitment, thinking that love is all two people are like together, but it is not a performance that a mature and scheming person will have.
Unless he is really hidden too deep, like a bottomless abyss, unpredictable.
But Su Mu knew that he would not be such a person, because his living environment was doomed, and he would not go through the process of shaping him into such a person.
At least not at his age.
With the two people tidying up, things quickly returned to their original places. Ling Feng also stopped coughing and sat back in his place. He originally wanted to continue eating, but thinking of what had just happened, he felt that he should say something, so he tilted his head to Su Mu and began to carefully look at this little woman who belonged to him for the time being.
He didn't understand why he suddenly thought of using the word "temporarily completely belonging", maybe it was because the events that happened yesterday had changed some of his minds, or maybe it was because he realized that Su Mu was actually ready to leave him at any time, and he was starting to worry a little, but for him, these were not the things he should think about now.
Because what he wanted to do most at this moment was to eat another bite of the steak she fed.
I also want to determine whether the two people can continue to date.
It's normal to say this kind of thing, although every breakup before is sad and can't get out for a long time, but when you meet the next person you like, you will still start the next relationship with full love. Therefore, in Ling Feng's understanding, every relationship can be regarded as an experience of his own. He had never looked forward to a woman he could go on with for a long time like when he was with Su Mu. Only in the process of dating Su Mu, he fantasized more than once about the days when he lived with her in the future.
Although he didn't want to admit it, in the process of this fantasy, he had an uncontrollable yearning for it. If this dream fell through, he felt that all the time spent in the past was not enough for him to heal the pain caused by this missed relationship. But he didn't dare to be sure if Su Mu would be able to go down with him, and even his performance last night made him feel that he was about to lose her. This uncertainty makes it difficult for him to give all his feelings, after all, he is also sincere, and if he knows that he can't be together, he doesn't want to pay too much to hurt himself more.
Su Mu once mentioned to him that children of their age were very selfish in her opinion. Originally, he refuted it many times, but now it seems that what Su Mu said does have a little truth.
It's just that he doesn't want to be hurt so he doesn't want to give more feelings, which doesn't seem to be different from Su Mu's theory of "abandoning others first if you don't want to be abandoned by others". In other words, in fact, Su Mu is also a selfish person, so can he also understand all this as Su Mu because he feels that he can't give her happiness and a future, so he also leaves half of his sincerity for himself to heal the pain that she will bring after the separation in the future?
So to sum up, two people are about to test each other, both want each other to pay a little more, as long as the other party shows a little more sincerity, then the other party will show more sincerity, so that the two people can go on longer.
But who wants to take the risk of going the extra mile?
No one knows the answer.
Su Mu doesn't like to be stared at by others the most, maybe because she is too inferior, she is afraid of being stared at by others for a long time, because this will make her feel that the other party will find her shortcomings, so as to stay away from her, or use these shortcomings to do something bad. Sometimes when this feeling is serious, Su Mu even feels as if he has "persecution paranoia". So when Ling Feng stared at her for a long time, she not only felt awkward, but even a nameless fire rose in her heart, wanting to get Ling Feng out of her sight immediately.
With such thoughts, Su Mu's brows furrowed unconsciously. Ling Feng had been looking at her, so he immediately noticed this subtle change in her, and immediately asked:
"What's wrong?
Su Muqiang resisted the urge to yell at Ling Feng, gritted his teeth, and explained to Ling Feng:
"No, you don't continue to eat, it always depends on what I do?
"You look good with makeup or not, because it looks good and I think it's delicious, so I don't want to eat. ”
After Ling Feng said this, Su Mu couldn't take care of those previous moods, and his face suddenly turned red again. She was a little embarrassed, turned her head and glared at Ling Feng, then looked away again, and said to Ling Feng:
"Hey, you...... You are so good at saying that, I'm afraid it's not that the girlfriends I made before were coaxed like this!"