Although she has not experienced it personally, Su Mu chased stars when she was a teenager, from China to South Korea to Japan, from singers to actors to all-rounders, she shouted that she liked not hundreds but also seventy or eighty, so what concerts, meet-and-greets, Su Mu has watched too much on the Internet. In addition, although she admitted that she liked listening to Lin Junjie's songs very much, she really hadn't paid attention to Lin Junjie for a long time, so she didn't feel very excited at first, but she didn't want to sweep Ling Feng's nature and didn't show it.

However, Su Mu's mentality was not maintained all the time, because when Su Mu entered the stadium, looked around next to the stands, and found that all sides were full of people, she somehow suddenly felt a very excited mood from the bottom of her heart.

She suddenly remembered the time when she was crazy about chasing stars in junior high school.

At that time, Lin Junzhuo happened to have the album "No. 89757", and almost everyone on campus was listening to his songs, and even "A Thousand Years Later" was often played on the radio station during lunch breaks. Mp3 was just popular at that time, and Su Mu's family conditions did not allow her to have such a thing, so she saved up her own money to buy a cassette tape, held her clumsy Walkman, and hid in the bed every night to play it on a loop over and over again.

It was Su Mu's most carefree days, and for her, there was hardly any pressure and trouble, so she couldn't understand the meaning of the lyrics, nor would she have any empathy for it, let alone like now, when she heard a song that could touch her, she would think of a lot of things, and occasionally write something to express her feelings.

But even so, Su Mu still likes to listen to Lin Junjie's songs, every album he releases, every magazine he has been in, Su Mu has to buy and collect, and even in English class, when the teacher asked everyone to introduce their favorite stars, she also worked hard to write an article about Lin Junjie in English. Although she later went to high school, she never paid much attention to Lin Junjie's news because of the pressure of studying, but his songs were still a necessity for her to study every day until she went to college.

Of course, she also thought about watching a concert of Lin Junjie, a long time ago, it was her dream to be able to watch a concert of Lin Junjie. But time has really passed too long, so long that she hasn't thought about it for many years, and even the person she likes has changed, if it weren't for Ling Feng, maybe she would never have come to see his concert.

But no matter what, when she helped Ling Feng fulfill his dream, her dream when she was young came true in a daze. In this way, between her and Ling Feng, there can be regarded as some particularly important and memorable things. In this way, even if they are separated in the future, the memories of the two people will not be all those tiresome trivial things, and they can't find anything special to recall.

When Su Mu was thinking about this, Ling Feng had already started to take pictures, Su Mu thought for a while, and also turned on the camera, but she didn't shoot the audience like Ling Feng, but patted herself, and took two photos with Ling Feng.

For the clockwork circle of friends.

Su Mu and Ling Feng said earlier that she was a little mindful of Ling Feng opening up the relationship between the two of them in the circle of friends or QQ space. One is because she thinks that she is much older than Ling Feng, she can withstand the pressure of public opinion around her, but it doesn't mean that Ling Feng can also withstand it, if others gossip with him, she is very worried that Ling Feng will be affected, which will affect the relationship between the two of them. What's more, in fact, she also knows how easy it is to break this relationship, and those very sweet things will turn into a ridiculous mockery when they break up in the end.

There are not so many outsiders in this world who know how to write the word "pity", and what they care more about is the word "ridiculous".

Su Mu didn't want to become a joke.

Even if countless people reminded her that he didn't give her enough security, and if he didn't let him show the relationship between the two of them in front of everyone, there would be more people who would take advantage of the situation, and she didn't really force Ling Feng to post these things.

There is only one exception.

At that time, the relationship between the two of them had not yet become like this, at least at that time, Su Mu still had the idea of wanting to redeem it, so for a while, although Ling Feng still had little patience for Su Mu, she still wanted to stick to him. But during that time, Ling Feng always went out with her friends, and she always had to go out to play on Saturday nights, and she couldn't accompany her, so she had no way to stop her, so she thought of ways to threaten him, such as sending a message about her in the circle of friends every time she went out to play, such as contacting every hour when he went out, such as explaining who he was going out with, what he was going to do, when he would go out, and when he would probably come back.

But despite this, she still didn't stop Ling Feng from wanting to play, but instead had something more. Ling Feng said that she was managing too much, that she was not confident and insecure, and when she heard this, she felt that everything was so ridiculous.

It turned out that what she thought was in love, the things that the two people basically had to do were not so important in Ling Feng's eyes at all, these things were all used by Ling Feng to restrain Su Mu, not Su Mu and him to restrain themselves.

Almost since then, these things have become an excuse for Su Mu to quarrel.

After posting the circle of friends, Su Mu sat there quietly and prepared to wait for the concert to start. And Ling Feng on the side had been fiddling with his mobile phone, which couldn't help but make Su Mu curious.

She didn't like Ling Feng to always play with her phone when she was with her, because it would delay the communication between the two of them. She had talked to Ling Feng about this, so all along, Ling Feng had been quite concerned, unless it was two people playing together, otherwise, she would definitely not ignore Su Mu because of playing with her mobile phone. So his current appearance was really a bit abnormal, so Su Mu couldn't help but lean his head over, wondering what he was doing.

Ling Feng sensed Su Mu's gaze, and immediately put the phone in front of her, explaining to her:

"I finally came to see a concert, I want to commemorate it, it just so happened that you posted a circle of friends with the two of us, so I will save it and send one. ”

Su Mu didn't expect Ling Feng to take the initiative to do such a thing, she felt that she should be happy, because Ling Feng took the initiative to post something about her in the circle of friends, which was definitely a great improvement for him, but I don't know why, Su Mu didn't feel happy at all, but felt stuffy in his heart, and even had a feeling of pain that seemed to be suffocating. So she didn't say anything, just nodded, and then continued to rest her head on Ling Feng's shoulder, waiting for the concert to start.

Soon it was time for the concert to start, and at this time it was not completely dark, so that Su Mu didn't react at the beginning, if it wasn't for the sudden cheers around him, Su Mu even thought that the stage effect was just being tested. After that, before she could recognize the situation, she was dragged up by Ling Feng, followed by a group of people who suddenly appeared on the stage with bewildered expressions.

Good guy, her eyes are really not enough, and she should be the last person sitting in the infield to find that the protagonist has taken the stage.

However, Su Mu's embarrassment did not last long, probably because the atmosphere of the scene was so good, she quickly blended into such an atmosphere, waving glow sticks while humming those melodies and lyrics that she had already known by heart. She recalled many things in this familiar voice, and each one of them was a testament to her existence. She had once wanted to find the meaning of her existence, and even lost herself in this search, but now, it seemed that she had finally found the answer she had been so desperately looking for.

Although her life is full of many regrets, it is these regrets that complete her life. She has also experienced pain, but these pains have also given her the courage to face life, so that she can support all the way to the present without giving up.

It's not that she didn't think about death, and she used to be firm in this idea, but before every implementation, her mind would think of her parents and the old people in the family. If she did just leave, it would be hard for them to withstand such a blow. Thinking that they would be sad, Su Mu had to give up such an idea and force himself to live. The optimism and positivity she expressed was more of a deception to herself, because if she didn't, the pain she would have to endure would have become even greater.

She couldn't afford it.

And it wasn't until Su Mu began to follow the doctor's advice and use medication to assist her that she really realized something.

Depression is a mental illness that can be treated with medication, but some people's grievances and resentment towards this society are not a disease at all, they are ignorant, and they are accustomed to blaming all the sources of grief and anger on society, and refuse to admit their problems, but this does not mean that everyone is as ignorant as them.

After a concert, Su Mu, the foil, was even more excited than Ling Feng, the protagonist. Ling Feng didn't make much noise in order to record the whole process, but Su Mu sang and shouted along, and the glow stick in his hand never stopped, and several songs were patronized and excited, but they were not recorded. When she came out on the stage, she regretted it when she thought of these things, even if Ling Feng had already recorded it, she felt that it was not recorded by herself, it was still different.

Ling Feng really couldn't accept her idea, but he also knew that she was just excited for a while, and it would be good to wait until she calmed down, so he didn't say anything. Sure enough, after a while, Su Mu's attention shifted to other things, and pulled him over to discuss with him:

"If he hadn't said that it was someone secretly shooting, I would have thought it was specially prepared to record the whole concert. ”

Seeing Su Mu's small eyes and innocently asking him this question, Ling Feng didn't have the feeling that Su Mu was naïve and immature before, on the contrary, he suddenly had the illusion that Su Mu seemed to be very dependent on him, so he immediately started to talk to Su Mu about it very patiently.

"It's normal, you can do anything to make money. ”

"But this is piracy, it's a candid photograph, is this not responsible?"

"There are so many pirated copies, how can you take care of them. ”

"So, it's caused by people's greed for cheapness. If it weren't for the greed for cheapness, these people would have no business to do. ”

"If you can't say that, it's really possible that others can't afford the cost of the genuine version. ”

"That's not right, how much money you have, how much ability you have, just do what meets his conditions. Copyright is a very important thing, I wrote it myself, I know this feeling too well, I see someone pirating and plagiarizing, I am so angry. Copyright is like a child for every author. Aren't you uncomfortable for others to make money with your hard work?"

"That's because you make less, you see that one makes more, and he doesn't care about piracy. ”

"Hey, hey, it doesn't matter how much you earn. It's awareness! It's awareness! It's copyright awareness! It's important. You see the clothes and jewelry I like, they all attach great importance to copyright, but it's because some people don't understand what copyright awareness is, some think that it's nothing to learn from plagiarism, as long as it's popular to make money, and some think that he spends money to be an uncle, how he wants to wear, what he wants to buy is his freedom, and he can't do a lot of it. What kind of robber theory is this, they don't have a sense of copyright, they are happy, and then all the losses are borne by the original creator himself, and they say that the copyright is all the original creator himself to strive for maintenance, and it has nothing to do with them. Ah, really, are you angry? The original defends his rights every day, does so much and so much work, and then you say that it has nothing to do with you, and then you turn around and buy pirated copies, which fuels the arrogance of piracy, and piracy is profitable, how can it be eradicated!"

"That person may also be deceived or something, you see, there are a lot of scammers on some second-hand platforms now, and someone will be fooled if they don't keep it right, you can't block other people's platforms because of this, right? Do you know that when you say this now, it will also make people feel that you are standing on the moral high ground to educate and accuse others? They will come up with all kinds of theories to attack your ideas, and then you will find that they do not agree with this kind of thinking, and there is no way to get them to admit that what you said is right, you will feel powerless, and then you will be silent, and then they will think that they have won. ”