(27) An unlucky start
When Su Mu stood on the corridor of the high-speed rail, looking at the scenery whistling by outside the window, he felt very confused for a while. Her mind was empty, she didn't have a sense of direction, and she didn't even know what she was supposed to be thinking. Especially when Ling Feng stood beside her, trying to take her into his arms, this feeling of confusion came even stronger.
For a moment, Su Mu especially wanted to escape.
Su Mu felt that it would make her feel like this, probably because all the plans for this trip had almost become an ornament. All the efforts that have been made before, when taken into account, have not materialized. Although it is said that the plan has not changed quickly, there are indeed some changes that should not have occurred, and after experiencing this, Su Mu feels that the relationship between her and Ling Feng is like playing a boundless joke with each other.
She felt a little tired, or it could be said that she didn't seem to see any hope at all.
The high-speed rail has an end point, and it will be able to reach it one day, but where is the end point for the two of them?
Ling Feng didn't notice Su Mu's abnormality, his attention was on the dark clouds outside the window.
Soon, it was pouring rain outside the car.
If the previous two had planned, they should have arrived safely at the hotel by the time the rain started. But now the two of them haven't even gotten out of the car, and whether it will rain after getting off the car is a matter of two words. Although it is said that the two of them have umbrellas, but now that the rain is so heavy, it is not certain how useful this umbrella can be, so if you want not to be doused by the rain, you can only pray that the rain will stop soon.
But seeing that it was about to arrive at the station, the rain did not have a slight trend, but was getting heavier and heavier, so Ling Feng couldn't help but panic.
He was a little scared, afraid that Su Mu would blame him for such weather, accusing him of not thinking through and putting the two of them in such a situation. He really didn't expect it to rain at such a time. Although Su Mu didn't say anything on the side, and he didn't see that he was blaming him, he felt very sorry in his heart.
Maybe he already felt that he owed Su Mu when the incident happened in the hotel, but this was indeed something that could not be remedied, so he could only pray that nothing would happen again after that.
He is not stupid, he knows that there is a problem in their relationship, and he originally wanted to take this opportunity to change the relationship with the two of them, if the relationship between the two of them becomes worse because of these things, then he can't accept it anyway.
Soon, the high-speed train arrived at the station, but Su Mu had not yet escaped from the chaotic consciousness, Ling Feng thought that she was tired from standing, so he took all her luggage and wanted to help her carry it. Feeling that the backpack was taken out of her hand, Su Mu came to her senses, and she immediately took the backpack back.
"I'll take it myself, it's okay, it's not good for you to carry us on your back. ”
Ling Feng didn't expect Su Mu's reaction to be so violent, he subconsciously froze for a moment, but he didn't snatch Su Mu. Fortunately, Su Mu's face was not as bad as he imagined, and he didn't look angry at all, so he put his mind at ease.
The rain was still heavy, and there was no sign of getting smaller. Fortunately, the two of them could still take the subway at this time, so they didn't worry too much. It's just that after getting off the subway, the rain still hasn't stopped, and not only is there no drops, but there are no taxis, which makes both of them become anxious.
The metro is not far from the location of the hotel, and if the weather is good, the two of them can walk without even having to take a car. But in this kind of rain, an umbrella is not enough for the two of them, even if they take a taxi, they will definitely be poured very badly. So the two of them discussed it and wanted to wait here at the station for a while, and wait for the rain to light up.
In the anxious waiting, the time passed for a long time, coupled with the low temperature outside, Su Mu was wearing little clothes, and after a while, Su Mu was so cold that he began to shiver involuntarily. When Ling Feng saw her like this, he originally wanted to bring her a piece of clothing, but Su Mu stopped him from opening the box, so he asked if he could find the location of the hotel while walking.
When Ling Feng heard this, he knew what Su Mu wanted to do, although he didn't want to brave the rain, it was impossible to stay here all the time and wait for the rain to stop, so he nodded at Su Mu.
So the two of them didn't say anything very tacitly, raised their umbrellas, took their luggage and rushed into the rain.
The feeling of heavy rain falling on her body reminded Su Mu of the incident that day when she found out that Ling Feng had deceived her. She felt very uncomfortable in her heart, but she couldn't say anything, so she could only grit her teeth and follow Ling Feng, forcing herself not to think about those things.
The rain was too heavy, and Su Mu felt a lot of resistance when he was walking in the water with his luggage. She hit her thigh several times because she couldn't hold the suitcase, but she didn't say a word, she just hoped to get to the hotel quickly.
The road was a little longer than Ling Feng described, and the two of them took the wrong way halfway, but fortunately, in the end, the two of them could be regarded as finding their destination, but by the time they arrived at the hotel, they were already soaked.
At this time, Su Mu didn't feel anything at all, she couldn't tell whether she was happy or angry, she just let out a long sigh of relief. She thought that this was the end of the matter, and she would soon be able to go to her room to take a hot shower, but who knew that she had forgotten the password of her bank card, and after several attempts, she almost locked the card.
Fortunately, not all the passwords were misremembered, and it took ten minutes for Su Mu to finally change everything. It's just that in the past ten minutes, Su Mu felt very embarrassed, so embarrassed that his hand holding the mobile phone trembled unconsciously.
Fortunately, Ling Feng on the side helped her play the round, and while asking her if it was too cold in the rain, he held her in his arms from behind, so that the service staff kept envying the two of them for being really in love, which made Su Mu even more embarrassed.
Maybe when he saw the age of the two of them, he wouldn't think so.
After Su Mu paid the money, she suddenly had such a malicious idea.
Basically, no one will maintain a very calm mind when they know that the age gap between the two of them is so big, even if they don't have any expression, they must have some strange thoughts in their hearts.
Although he was still a little awkward at first, after a long time, Su Mu felt that this was a very normal thing. After all, the two of them are together, it is a very strange combination, and it is an instinct for people to be curious about strange things, as long as the two of them don't feel that there is a problem.
After arriving at the room, Su Mu couldn't wait to fill the bathtub with water, wanting to take a beautiful bath. As a result, as soon as Ling Feng saw her like this, he stripped himself naked and squeezed in without saying a word. Su Mu kicked him in disgust, but he was glad that both of them were very thin, so they didn't collapse the bathtub.
The two of them had enough trouble, so Ling Feng went to take a shower first, and then took out the luggage of the two of them to dry. Su Mu came out wrapped in a bath towel, stood in front of the window and looked at the Pearl of the Orient that was almost hitting the dark clouds in the sky, and suddenly felt a little trance.
She never thought that she would live in such a hotel one day, nor did she think that some of the episodes would happen to her. She couldn't tell what it was like, but she knew exactly that she didn't want it.
Although she kept clamoring for her life to get better, it was at this time that she suddenly realized that she didn't really want to be in the upper class of life. She doesn't need to have endless money, she doesn't need to hesitate when buying luxury goods, what she wants is a very ordinary life without worrying about food and clothing, having time and money, and supporting her little hobbies.
So it's because of this that she is considered unproductive by many people. I don't have such a big pursuit, and I don't want to get married and have children to make money, I just want to satisfy my meaningless hobby. Her living habits and ideas are so out of step with the mainstream, and it's no wonder that people of her parents' generation can't understand it.
There are too many people who oppose it, although her parents have never said these things in front of her, but when she is talking to their friends on the phone, Su Mu can also hear what those friends say about her, although her parents help her speak, but it doesn't play a role, they are still the same, urging her parents to help her find a job with five insurances and one housing fund, and then find an honest person to marry.
This is real life, and even if some people don't admit it, this is the status quo that most people have to face. So sometimes Su Mu also admires her courage, she can persist for so long in such a situation, and she is very happy, her parents did not urge her like others.
Although there are often quarrels over these things, most of them are just nagging and never put into action, which is why Su Mu still stays at home and works.
Just as Su Mu was thinking about this, Ling Feng suddenly hugged her from behind and put his chin on Su Mu's shoulder. Feeling this weight, Su Mu also turned his head and leaned on Ling Feng's body.
"What do you think will become of the two of us in the future?"
"In the future, you will definitely marry me. ”
Ling Feng didn't know how many times he had said this, but to be honest, Su Mu had never taken it seriously. No, to be precise, Su Mu believed that when he said this, he really wanted to marry himself, but whether he would fulfill his promise in the future is not certain.
Oaths are effective, and Su Mu knew this very well as when he was in college. So it's true that she's happy when she hears those words, but it's also true that she doesn't care.
No one is stupid, Ling Feng has deceived her so many times, and even opened his mouth to lie, how could she believe him again?
So she regretted it.
Su Mu took all the throbbing and beauty of love at the beginning, so for Ling Feng, she willingly gave up a lot of things, and even changed her simplest plan for the future. She didn't know how she could take all this seriously at that time, this was a mistake she shouldn't have made at all, sometimes she felt incredible in retrospect, if she had to choose again, she would definitely not know Ling Feng.
Yes, as long as you don't know him, all the painful experiences and lingering nightmares won't begin.
After hearing Ling Feng say this, Su Mu raised his head slightly, then broke Ling Feng's hand, turned around, and said to Ling Feng with a smile:
"Before you marry me, I think we can go and have a meal first. ”
Ling Feng didn't know why Su Mu had any reaction, he unconsciously thought that he had said something that made Su Mu unhappy, and he couldn't help but worry again, but looking at Su Mu's careful choice of place, he didn't see any unhappiness, which made him feel somewhat relieved.
originally planned to eat the hot pot, but at this time, because of the time and place, he had to choose to give up, so Ling Feng proposed to go to Xue Zhiqian's hot pot restaurant.
For Su Mu, the biggest purpose of her coming to Shanghai was for Xue Zhiqian and Hu Ge, so she chose his house for the first meal, Su Mu felt that there was no problem, so she happily changed her clothes and went out with Ling Feng.
Speaking of which, since the sophomore year, the habit of Xue Zhiqian has become a natural habit. Su Mu completely forgot when she discovered the existence of such a person, as if when she knew him, his songs had already filled her life.
She heard his voice grow low and hoarse from his sweet and clear voice all the time, and it felt as if she had used her youth to grow up with him and watch him mature. She loves the songs he sings, and in her world, listening to Xue Zhiqian's songs is like listening to a story. The story seems to be told by someone else, but in others, there seems to be her shadow. She always found a resonance in his songs, a resonance related to sadness.
This is something she has never felt in other songs, so until now, when others ask her favorite singer, her first reaction is Xue Zhiqian. There are almost no people who know Su Mu who don't know about it, because Su Mu will always tell them at the right time and in various forms that her favorite singer is this person.
This is the most important expression that Su Mu likes a person, who she likes, she will announce to the world that she likes it generously, and never hide it. So she never hid the things she was with Ling Feng, even if she knew that the two of them would break up, she never hid this relationship because of this.