(28) Drink cocktails at Starbucks
The two of them took advantage of the rain to take a taxi and went to the nearest Xue Zhiqian's hot pot restaurant.
Because it was already very late when they arrived at the store, and there was still more than an hour before they got off work at the mall, the two of them ate quickly, and Su Mu even gave up the idea of taking pictures and only cared about eating. Ling Feng had never seen Su Mu look like this, and he only felt very incredible. He didn't expect that Su Mu could also make people not have to worry about it at all when it came to eating. The power of the original idol could be so strong, if it weren't for the fact that he couldn't live here, Ling Feng would have been eager to bring Su Mu here every day.
As long as she can eat more and gain weight quickly.
This was not the first time he had noticed that Su Mu's weight was decreasing, and if he guessed correctly, Su Mu's weight should be declining constantly. He didn't know what caused this, but Su Mu was really too thin, with a height of one meter six and a hundred pounds, he had to be at least ninety pounds, but no matter how Su Mu looked at it, he looked like he was skinny and bone-ty, and it was a question whether he could have eighty pounds.
But when it came to that, seeing Su Mu eating so fast, he felt that he was afraid that she would be hungry before, so the desserts that he hurriedly ran out to buy seemed a bit redundant, so it was better to wait for them to go together after eating, so that it could be regarded as a walk after dinner.
When they finished eating and were about to settle the bill, they happened to see that there was a place at the door where they could leave notes, Ling Feng knew that Su Mu would definitely write something, so he took the initiative to bring Su Mu a pen and paper after settling the bill. Su Mu bit his lower lip and thought about it, and finally wrote two sentences.
"If the breakup is too complicated, the wandering singer will put down the guitar. ”
Xue Zhiqian's lyrics, Su Mu can almost recite a rough idea, and she can usually say one or two sentences, but at this moment, there is only this one sentence hovering in her mind.
She was suddenly a little sad, but Ling Feng hummed alongside her. Although he has been singing in tune, Su Mu already has the melody of the whole song in her mind, and she wants to cry, but she doesn't know what she wants to cry.
Is it really simple to give up a person?
Those who say it is simple, have they really loved someone seriously?
But is it so complicated to break up? A goodbye, a turn, maybe never goodbye.
Ling Feng had been paying attention to the matter itself, and had not thought about why Su Mu had written these words, nor had he noticed if there had been any change in Su Mu. He was just busy taking pictures and fiddling with these, until he got these and was ready to paste them on the wall, he asked Su Mu where he wanted to paste them.
When she helped Ling Feng do this before, Su Mu was in a trance, and it wasn't until Ling Feng opened her mouth to ask her that she came to her senses. But at this time, she was not in the mood to pay attention to these things, so she found a random spot and posted what she had written.
After pasting it, Ling Feng put away his one and took Su Mu back to the hotel.
After being tired all day and drenching heavily for a long time, after getting into the quilt and blowing up the air conditioner, Su Mu felt very tired, so he went to bed early, and didn't notice when Ling Feng slept.
When they got up the next morning, because they had to change the hotel, none of them were lazy, and after choosing the hotel, they went directly to the hotel that had been booked, just to save a little time. But this back and forth, a morning's time was still wasted, so the route set at the beginning had to be changed.
Originally, Su Mu was not a person who liked to make plans, she would see wherever she went, and there was no delay, but when she was with Ling Feng, she couldn't get over this hurdle, and she always felt that Ling Feng had no planned relationship.
Of course, she didn't say these thoughts, because to say it would mean to quarrel, and she didn't want to quarrel.
In the past, Su Mu felt that quarreling was to solve problems, and it was also a way of communication. She hopes that after the emotions are vented, the two of them can calm down and analyze the problem. But after they have been together for so long, she finds that her ideas do not fit their relationship.
There are too many contradictions between the two of them, and the most critical problem that causes these contradictions is the age gap between the two of them, and there is no way to make up for this.
Some people say that there is no way to use age as an excuse, Su Mu didn't think so before, but the longer he spent with Ling Feng, the more Su Mu felt that this statement was sometimes quite reasonable.
Being young, ignorant, and not having the ability to distinguish between right and wrong is understandable and acceptable, but everything can be learned, and all concepts can be affected by the surrounding environment. When Su Mu explained those truths to Ling Feng three times and twice, Ling Feng never had the idea of wanting to change, thinking that the fault was not his own, and he also tried to put these responsibilities on Su Mu, which could not make Su Mu feel that he loved her at all. Of course, Ling Feng also explained afterwards, saying that the reason why he did this was that he felt that Su Mu had wronged him, and he didn't do these things. Su Mu felt angry at first, and then he only felt helpless for a while.
The three views are a very important reason why two people can be together, and as far as the two of them are concerned, they really have too many irreconcilable contradictions in the three views. Su Mu had tried to get Ling Feng to accept her point of view, hoping that he could get better, but then she felt that if her thoughts were imposed on Ling Feng and made him no different from her ideal appearance, then the person she loved was still him?
She has never had a criteria for choosing a mate, all she wants is feelings, so why did she develop like this? Why did she feel that she wanted to give him a chance and want to be with him at first, but now she only feels that he is not doing anything right, that she is not satisfied with anything, and always wants him to become what she says he is?
When did she set such a standard in her heart?
Is it because she feels that she has given too much but has not received the same return, and she feels unbalanced in her heart?
Or did she just lose her freshness and use up all her patience to become like this?
Su Mu didn't know the answer.
Or, they don't want or need to know the answer anymore.
After changing the hotel, the two of them decided which restaurant they were going to eat at according to the map they bought before, and where they were going to go and what they were going to do in the future, even if they made a new plan. However, it may be because she is a little tired after tossing all morning, Su Mu does not have much appetite, although the food looks delicious, but she does not eat much. Ling Feng himself didn't have much appetite, and he didn't persuade Su Mu this time, and after he ate all the things he could eat, he took Su Mu to a Starbucks that Su Mu had always wanted to go to.
Speaking of this, Su Mucai barely cheered up a little, but when she arrived at the place, she regretted it a little.
When Su Mu was in Suzhou, she found that whether it was a shopping mall or a subway, the air conditioning was very full, and for her, it was hot to death outside and freezing to death inside the house. When she arrived in Shanghai, she thought that the situation would improve, but she didn't expect that it would be the same here.
Maybe it's because she is a northerner and doesn't adapt to the southern climate very well, so she feels like this, but this also makes her confirm one thing from the side, that is, southerners are really harder than northerners. She can't even accept the air conditioning of the southerners, and it is estimated that the winter in the south may be a fatal blow to her.
Because the tea in this Starbucks is different from other stores, Su Mu usually drinks it, but this store does not. However, it was originally for the difference of his family, and if he ordered the same as before, it would not be interesting, so Su Muxuan came and ordered a cocktail.
Ling Feng had already been ready to drink this kind of thing, so when Su Mu asked for his opinion, he didn't object, just told her to order whatever she wanted. So Su Mu hesitated for a moment, and then ordered a cup that looked pink and tender.
Su Mu always has a big misunderstanding about these drinks because of the color, for example, every time she drinks Pu'er tea, she always thinks it will be very sweet, just like brown sugar water, although she has drunk it countless times and verified countless times that it does not taste this way at all, but when she sees it again, she still feels like this. So when she was elected for this, she knew that she couldn't accept the taste of the wine, but looking at the pink and tender color, she still felt that it would be very sweet.
About this, basically everyone who knows her has a terrible headache. It's really fatal for her to get sick like this, and what's even worse is that she can't control her mouth, and she wants to taste those things that look good and can be eaten, even if it's medicine. The most typical example is that once her colleague took a bag of enzymes that looked very good-looking, saying that she could lose weight by eating them, Su Mu looked really good-looking, so she couldn't help it, and asked her colleague for a pill to eat. Fortunately, it turned out that this thing was not very useful, otherwise, it is estimated that Su Mu would not be able to come out of the bathroom that day.
Although this kind of experience is not once or twice, Su Mu has never been able to control this problem. Ling Feng also knew that her problem really couldn't be changed, so she had to pray silently that her body was enough for her to be a scourge.
Sometimes when Su Mu thinks about these things, she actually feels very happy. Because after all, not everyone would be willing to accompany her to do such a thing, Ling Feng could accompany her to do this, it was indeed not easy, and she was also very grateful. Even she occasionally felt that Ling Feng was doing this as a sign of love for her, and she should be happy.
It is true that Ling Feng did perform very well in some things, but there were some things that were really a drop in the bucket for Su Mu. If those things hadn't happened between them, Su Mu might have been moved by such details and paid more, but some injuries were really difficult for Su Mu to bear, and there was really no way to smooth them off with such fragmentary feelings. Even if Ling Feng tried his best to want Su Mu to come back, and even if he could put down his face for Su Mu, Su Mu chose to give up.
In fact, feelings are really time-sensitive, and every relationship has undergone processing and reprocessing, over and over again, to prolong its timeliness. If a period of time has passed, then no matter what, it is maintaining a relationship that has deteriorated, and there is no way to go back to the past, and there is no way to start over.
In the past, Su Mu didn't understand, and she had never thought about this problem, until she and Ling Feng decided to start a second relationship, and she had no way to accept him anymore, that she realized that from the first time she had the idea of breaking up, their relationship had been broken.
The smell of alcohol had never surprised Su Mu at all, so when Su Mu picked up the wine glass and smelled the familiar smell, she could already imagine the feeling when she entered the mouth. But even though she was really tired of the taste, she finally lost to the pink face and took a sip gently.
The spicy taste rushed straight to Su Mu's head the moment the drink was entered, and she kept the same motion as she drank it for several seconds before she could barely swallow it. Ling Feng couldn't help but want to laugh when he looked at her like this, but reason told him that with Su Mu's appearance, he must not agree to let her go to a drinking party alone, otherwise, he was afraid that he would regret it for the rest of his life.
He believed that Su Mu was measured, but he didn't know if some men were measured.
Thinking of this, Ling Feng's anger burst out inexplicably. He snatched the cup from Su Mu's hand with some violence, and then forbade Su Mu to drink this kind of thing.
Originally, Su Mu had already decided not to drink this taste, but as soon as Ling Feng said this, she naturally put down her cup and drank her coffee honestly.
Throughout the afternoon, Ling Feng's whole person seemed to be as hot as a fever because of this glass of wine, and his face was not good, and he always needed Su Mu to cool him down physically. And Su Mu was so cold that he couldn't do it, and he kept regretting why he didn't bring two more clothes, why he was greedy for the cold, and came here in shorts.
In the end, when there was still a little bit left, Su Mu saw that Ling Feng was really not good, so he didn't let Ling Feng drink it anymore. Ling Feng didn't insist, Su Mu didn't let him, he put down the cup and left here with Su Mu.
After the sun outside, Ling Feng felt as if he was about to faint. However, Su Mu was still by his side, and he always looked like he had drunk too much, which made him feel very unbalanced, so he insisted on taking Su Mu to the store he had already chosen to have Hong Kong-style afternoon tea.