From now on, no one will dislike the smell of smoke on him, and no one will care how much he smokes, he is completely liberated.

Xi Shaoxuan didn't know if this was a good thing or a bad thing, but now, let him think it was a good thing.

A cigarette burned out quickly, Xi Shaoxuan lit another cigarette and took a hard puff, in the smoke and fog, everything was illusory, and the spirit was so relaxed, when smoking, he didn't have to think about anything, and he didn't have to worry about anything, he was really obsessed with this feeling.

In the past, he didn't smoke, but after he went bankrupt, he gradually became obsessed with the feeling of smoking.

But at that time, because of Xia Zhifei, Xia Zhifei hated the smell of smoke and didn't like Xi Shaoxuan to smoke.

Therefore, although Xi Shaoxuan is obsessed with smoking, in front of Xia Zhifei, he has never smoked, and even brushes his teeth every time he smokes, for fear that Xia Zhifei will smell the smoke on his body.

However, although Xi Shaoxuan was very confused, he never mentioned this sensitive topic, he never asked why she couldn't stand him smoking, but she could tolerate He Bin smoking in front of her, and he could tolerate He Bin kissing her with the smell of smoke all over his body, and even * her.

Xi Shaoxuan smiled self-deprecatingly, a woman is really a double-standard creature.

Xi Shaoxuan put the cigarette to his mouth again, took a puff hard, and then he slowly spit out the smoke from his mouth, the taste of the smoke really fascinated him, and even he felt that the taste of the cigarette was more fascinating than Xia Zhifei's body fragrance.

The smoky atmosphere and self-losing taste can help Xi Shaoxuan forget the troubles in his heart and forget all the troubles.

He said silently in his heart: Double standard is double standard, anyway, Lao Tzu has nothing to do with you now.

He watched the smoke burn little by little, emitting a dazzling light, the light became more and more dazzling, as if it was about to erupt flames, but suddenly, its light dimmed again, as if the fireworks just now had exhausted all its strength, and he watched the smoke dim little by little, burned to ashes, and finally its light became weaker and weaker, slowly burned out, and disappeared all the light.

After smoking two cigarettes, Xi Shaoxuan just got a moment to see that the peace was broken again, and after a while, Xi Shaoxuan couldn't help but think of Xia Zhifei, their past, and their bits and pieces.

Xi Shaoxuan became more and more irritable, he could barely suppress his restless heart, so he stood on tiptoe and took a sip of wine again.

He still didn't feel like it was enjoyable, so he drank it with a grunt, half a catty of liquor in his stomach, even if it was an iron body, he couldn't bear it, let alone Xi Shaoxuan, who was sick.

Xi Shaoxuan couldn't help but spit out a sip of wine, he wasn't drunk yet, he was still sober, but he really wanted to be drunk.

Because I am drunk, I forget many things, and if I forget those things, my heart will not hurt.

"TMD Xia Zhifei, what kind of magic do you have as a stinky woman, why does Lao Tzu always think of you?"

Xi Shaoxuan couldn't help crying, even if the second male didn't flick when he had tears, but these days, Xi Shaoxuan couldn't help but cry many times.

He couldn't help but think of his embarrassing situation.

Today's Xi Shaoxuan not only owes more than one million foreign debts, but he feels even more angry and even worse that now his wife and children are all gone.

Before, even if he knew that with his meager work, he would not be able to fill the hole of more than one million, but despite this, despite his despair, he still kept working and worked hard to fill that big hole.

Because Xi Shaoxuan didn't want to divorce Xia Zhifei, although Xia Zhifei had cheated and betrayed him. But the feelings between them can be clarified in one or two sentences, and can be explained in one or two sentences.

Xi Shaoxuan doesn't want to divorce Xia Zhifei, let alone let their family go all the way to foreign debts, besides, Xi Shaoxuan has always been a man of his word, and he has never owed money and not paid it back, he is really not an old man in other people's mouths, and he doesn't want to be an old man.

But what about now?

Xi Shaoxuan shook his head with a wry smile, he picked up the wine bottle again, poured himself a sip of wine ruthlessly, the spicy alcohol did not numb Xi Shaoxuan's consciousness, but Xi Shaoxuan had never thought that he was so sober as he was now.

He understands in his heart that now I, Xi Shaoxuan, have become an out-and-out lai! I don't pay back the money, I don't pay it back, I don't pay the credit, they can't even find my people, I don't answer my calls, I can't send me messages, I always know that it's delayed, what's the difference between me and the lai?

As soon as he said this, Xi Shaoxuan couldn't help but think that in fact, he was only thirty years old after all, and his long life had only gone through thirty years.

When he was twenty-five years old, he still remembered that he was still a hairy boy at that time, and he had not yet started a family.

At that time, he was still a fledgling child, he didn't have to work hard for firewood, rice, oil and salt, and for life, he could fight for his dreams.

But he got married, had children, and after getting married, he had to support his family, he had to live for life, the pressure of life, the eyes of his neighbors, and the unsupport of his father, and the mountains on his head weighed him down.

Xi Shaoxuan couldn't help but smile bitterly, he couldn't say it with bitterness in his heart, and who knew how anxious he was when their family couldn't make ends meet, and they couldn't even get Zijin's milk powder money, how anxious he was, and how painfully he hated himself for being useless.

When Xia Zhifei called her parents to ask for money, how bad was his heart?

These five years do not seem to be five years, but thirty-five years, and in just five years, his soul seems to have aged from twenty-five to sixty.

When people reach middle age, they can't help themselves, and Xi Shaoxuan still thought this sentence was ridiculous.

At that time, he naively thought that thirty years old and twenty-five years old were not the same? The only difference was that at the age of thirty, he would get married and have a child?

But now, when people are middle-aged, things that can't help themselves really happened to Xi Shaoxuan, and he really realized what this sentence meant, and only then did he know that this sentence was not so ridiculous, but really terrible.

Xi Shaoxuan sighed lightly, now he doesn't have to hide and hide his bankruptcy.

But he didn't want to make money to fill that sinkhole, now that he was separated from his wife and was alone, he didn't care anymore.