There is a boy, he has been very strict since he was a child, he has been arranged by his parents since he was a child, which causes the boy to feel that life is very boring and he can't do what he wants to do, so he can only study every day according to his parents' arrangement, and as long as there is a little bit that his parents feel that he is not doing well, he will be scolded.

It is precisely because the little boy is often scolded at home that he is also silent in the class after entering elementary school, and he does not communicate with others, because the so-called inferiority complex has been formed in the little boy's heart. Because he was only six or seven years old, he felt that he would be scolded for everything, so at that time, the little boy always felt wronged, and he was not recognized for doing anything because he was a child. Then the little boy became inferior, and felt that everything was bad for him, and it was his own fault that he was scolded. Since then, the little boy has not dared to do anything, he has not dared to say anything, and he has held everything in his heart, and over time, this behavior of the little boy has made him suffer from the so-called "autism", and the more he does not say it, the more he does not know what to say.

When he was eight years old, the parents of the little boy led the little boy to a relative's house, and when he arrived at the relative's house, the little boy remembered what had happened before, and he didn't dare to say anything because he was afraid that he would be scolded, and then embarrassed in front of his relatives. But this time, in exchange for a "violent beating" in front of relatives, it was a slap on the spot, mixed with scolding. The reason of the parents is: "It is rude not to speak in front of relatives". The little boy felt very helpless. Wronged, he felt that as long as he didn't do anything, didn't say anything, he wouldn't get scolded, after this incident, the little boy was even more autistic, he felt that it was not right to say, not to say it was not right, because the little boy was only eight or nine years old, he was still young, he didn't know what occasion to say, what occasion not to say, no one told him to be scolded, what was the reason for being beaten, and then the little boy became in a daze most of the time, in a stupid state, in fact, he was not demented, he just thought about what he did wrong, why he was beaten and scolded for everything。 However, he didn't dare to ask others, because he was afraid that he would be beaten and scolded. In this way, the boy spent a year of grievance and helplessness.

A year later, the little boy also started school, he went back to school because he was thinking about why he would scold, on the way to the class, he accidentally ran into a boy, the boy scolded the little boy and attracted the people around the class to watch what was going on, the little boy felt that he was wrong and apologized to the boy in front of everyone on the spot, but the boy not only did not appreciate it, but also punched and kicked the little boy, the little boy thought that he simply thought that there would always be someone to help him with so many classmates on the side, because the teacher said"Classmates should help each other" but he was wrong, the classmates present did not lend a hand, but laughed at the little boy for being incompetent and timid. The little boy fell into despair, he thought that everything was fake, he thought that he could make many friends at school, but on his first day at school, he was beaten and ridiculed. When it was time to go to school the next morning after returning home from school, the little boy and his parents said, "I don't want to go to school anymore, school is not good at all." But his parents didn't care what happened to the little boy at school, and they scolded the little boy: "What can you do if you don't go to school? These words made the little boy feel even more aggrieved when he heard him, he felt that his home was not at all different from what was played on TV, and he felt that his own home was a place to eat and sleep without cold. From then on, the little boy had no intention of studying, because his parents' sentence "no interest" The little boy was bored with studying, he began to fall into his own beautiful fantasies, he often fantasized that the warm and beautiful home in the TV was his own home, but when the test results came down, the unsatisfactory results were seen by the parents of the little boy, the little boy thought that he would be comforted, but the comfort was not, only scolding, the little boy's parents began to scold the little boy constantly, saying that he was not productive, a big scolding made the little boy come back from his fantasy, and fell into deep disappointment, just like that, the little boy with grievances, helplessness, disappointment, despair, spent his six years of primary school life。

should have been at a childlike and carefree age, but this little boy had an experience that he shouldn't have. The little boy felt that he should be happy at the age of seven or eight, but he was aggrieved and helpless. In this way, the little boy ushered in the junior high school life of his life with timidity, and the timidity was because he was afraid that he would be bullied in junior high school life as well as elementary school life.

On the first day of junior high school, the little boy became a big boy, and in the class the boy made a group of good friends, and he still simply thought, "It's so good, I finally have friends." But the good times didn't last long, there were always those bad students in the class, seeing that this boy had no background and no strength, so they came to bully this boy again, but in junior high school, adolescence or something, the little boy had an idea in his heart that he couldn't be embarrassed in front of girls, this kind of thought was never an idea that the boy had never had before, and the boy tried everything he could, but he still couldn't escape from the fact that he was bullied and ridiculed. The boy had no choice, the only way he could think of was to "laugh at himself", and when others laughed at him in front of the rest of the class, he learned to respond, and the boy said to those who laughed at him and those who heard it, "I'm just stupid, if I wasn't so stupid, would I be so happy to live, if I wasn't so stupid, I didn't think about anything, how nice." Others laughed when they heard it, but in the boy's heart, in addition to happy laughter, there was more ridicule, but fortunately, he did not retain the last bit of dignity in front of the whole class, and over time, the boy gradually got used to this kind of "self-blackening", "self-deprecation" life, and others were also used to bullying his life, constantly playing pranks, and accompanied by ridicule to the little boy. Until one day, the boy was surrounded by several other boys and played a prank, at this time a girl appeared, completely broke the boy's life, the girl pushed away the other boys, and said to the boy: "You go downstairs to the store and buy me something to eat." On the way to the store, the little boy thought that this girl was the same as others to see him as a bully, let him run errands, the boy bought something and came back to the girl, he saw the girl, the boy froze, the boy was sluggish for a while and handed the things to the girl, and when he thought of going back to his seat, he found that the girl who made him look at the girl in a daze was his front seat, because he had been sitting in front of the boy, and the boy had not seen her face, so he would be stunned, the boy thought that the girl was too good-looking, probably because of puberty, the boy gradually fell in love with the girl, but the boy felt that he was so unproductive, poor and not good at studying, what qualifications did he have to like others, and from then on the boy was silently behind the girl to watch the back of the girl's study. But because of the experience when he was a child, he was still timid and afraid, and he didn't dare to say anything in his heart, so the boy looked at the girl like this, and in an instant the boy had the idea of wanting to learn, and he thought that if he studied well, he would let the girl talk to him, and since then the boy has found all kinds of reasons to talk to the girl. At this time, the boy had the idea of copying homework in his head, and every night when he borrowed his homework and the next morning when he returned his homework, this gave the boy more opportunities to talk to the girl and look at the girl. In a Chinese class, the boy was asked by the teacher by chance to answer a couplet, and the boy happened to answer correctly, and the girl looked back at the boy, only to realize that the boy was the boy who was often bullied and helped him run errands. In an instant, the boy took the initiative to study in order to be able to chat with the girl, and the boy had an unprecedented feeling in his heart, and the boy liked this feeling; But the good times didn't last long, and by chance, the boy knew that the girl already had someone he liked in his heart. The boy felt as if something was missing in his heart in an instant, and since then the boy has been willing to fall, infected with the problem of going to the Internet café to play games, and going to the Internet café when he was bullied at school, venting in the game, because no one understands him, so he was tormented, ushered in the graduation of junior high school, but until graduation, he was not able to express his thoughts to the girl, because the boy felt that it was impossible, and it was good to be friends, so he gave up this idea.

After the high school entrance examination, the boy knew that his test scores were not counted, so he was even more depraved, feeling that life was hopeless, and everyone else had a new life, and the girl in the boy's heart was no exception, the boy lost hope in life, but the boy thought of the girl's smiling face, after all, he didn't have the courage, so the boy found a person he was interested in in the society and wanted to try it, but what he didn't expect was that in this profession, he should have called him uncle and aunt, but now he has to call them brothers, call them big brothers and sisters, the boy who is not good at words is even more disappointed, even more depraved and addicted to video games all day long, he doesn't want to communicate with people, because he has low self-esteemHe didn't dare to say it, for fear that others would laugh at him, and someone told the boy: "They won't care about what happened when you were a child, and you don't have to care." Of course, the boy didn't want to care, but the psychological trauma of his childhood had been deeply imprinted in the boy's heart like a soldering iron, and there was no way to heal that kind of psychological wound. The boy thought that time would make him forget the shadow of his childhood, but the boy was wrong, the demon in his mind had devoured him, and time did not make him forget the shadow of his childhood, but brought him unprecedented loneliness and helplessness. In the eyes of the boy's parents, everything became an excuse for the boy to play games and not study well. They never could understand the boy's feelings.

This boy used to think about the consequences in everything he did, but his life was still bad, and the boy's life was different from those glamorous people, and he had done his best just to live. The boy used to think that if he said goodbye in junior high school, would it be true that he could say goodbye, and if he said that he was together, would it be true that he could be together. The boy wished he could meet someone who understood him, but all this was the boy's fantasy, and the boy couldn't help but think of a sentence in his dream: "What makes people cry and laugh is not a movie, but a life......

Youth begins because I like you, and finally I hope that the youth of all people in this world can be treated gently......