He and I met last summer.

During the summer vacation when I met him, I would go to the school playground almost every afternoon to run, I liked the playground at dusk in the afternoon, there were few people, and the playground seemed to belong to me alone.

I usually bring an English vocabulary book or an essay book. Running and carrying at the same time, for some reason, this efficiency tends to be very high.

When you get tired of running, you stop, hide in the shade of a tree, and continue to carry on your back.

If one day I'm not happy or don't want to memorize, just put down the book and just run. I could feel the wind in my ears, I could hear my powerful heartbeat, I could feel the slow soreness in my calves and my breathing getting worse.

It's such a wonderful feeling, I don't want to think about anything, I just want to be empty, and my heart is quiet. When I sit on the lawn and rest, I can't help but wonder which city I will go to and what kind of people I will meet in the future.

Of course, I'm very shy, and I'm embarrassed to say that I'm looking forward to having a very sunny boyfriend in college. He doesn't have to be handsome, but he has to be gentle, like Bentley in Pride and Prejudice.

But I dare to write about these things only in my diary, and there is no one to tell.

I don't have any good friends, I don't have any annoying people, I have a good relationship with everyone, and it's just good. I'm also very annoyed, but I really don't know about Korean celebrities, classmates gossip or something, so I don't want to express my opinion.

I have average grades, average looks, and I am not outstanding. But it doesn't matter, it's all fine.

It wasn't until I met him that there were finally some ripples in my ordinary life.

I met him when I was running in the playground. It was a Friday afternoon, and the weather was fine, and the sun was rare and not scorching.

That day, a group of boys came to the playground to play football, and the playground quickly became lively. I looked at him and saw him. He wasn't tall, but he was thin and fair. Why did I see him at a glance, I asked myself, I didn't dare to think.

I wanted to know him, but I didn't dare.

That day, I spent more time on the playground than ever, memorizing my English post-it notes over and over until it was completely dark and I couldn't read the words at all. After playing football with his friends, he laughed and left.

I started writing postcards, and I had many, many landscape postcards, which was one of my special hobbies.

I chose a peach blossom that bloomed just right, "Today, I met him." ”

On Saturday afternoon, I arrived at the playground earlier than usual, the sun was a little bright, and it was late to dusk, and the playground was almost empty. I was a little agitated, so I started to memorize words in the shade of the tree, but I couldn't concentrate and couldn't help but look up.

I didn't see him that day.

For the next few days, I still didn't see him.

"I have to hope that he is also in this school, so that I may meet him again in the future. ”

Maybe it really worked on the postcard, and a few days later he came again in the afternoon, still with a group of friends. I was so happy that I hid under a tree and watched him secretly, and every time I looked at him, I withdrew my gaze, afraid of being discovered.

When I was running, my heart was pounding when I ran so close to them that I didn't dare to turn my head to look at him, I didn't dare to look up, I wanted to stay by his side, but I couldn't help but speed up my pace and ran away in a hurry.

Later, I saw him often. Maybe it's because the summer is almost over, and he and his friends come to the playground every two or three days to play, and I can't guess what the pattern is to when they play. Fortunately, I am there every day and I won't miss it.

I'm so happy to meet him, even if he doesn't know me. I was pleasantly surprised that he made a difference in my life, even though I sometimes had the trouble of wanting to see him, but because of him, I had something special to look forward to every day, which is great.

I think I've always liked him so silently.

Until one day, I actually talked to him.

That afternoon, I sat in the shade of a tree, having just finished memorizing an essay and rewarding myself for peeking at him for ten minutes. Only the second minute, a ball rolled at my feet.

He was the one who ran over to pick up the ball. It's really close, whether it's this ball, it's him.

I didn't know what to do, I didn't stand up, I didn't kick the ball over.

He looked at the ball and didn't move. I guess the ball is too close to me, and he can't pick it up himself. We were all silent, and my face quickly flushed for a few seconds.

I came back to my senses, got up, bent over, picked up the ball, and handed it to him. He quickly took it, breathed a sigh of relief, and smiled at me, "Thank you, classmate." ”

I nodded, trying to tug at the corners of my mouth, I don't know if I was laughing at all. It wasn't until I watched him run away that my heart seemed to react and beat non-stop.

"Tonight, I looked at myself in the mirror and tried to repeat the smile I had in the afternoon, smiling and ugly. But it doesn't matter, he actually talked to me. ”

In the days that followed, it was strange that he and his friends showed up almost every day. Sometimes it's a big group, more often it's two or three people.

So I wrote more and more postcards. Even several a day.

"It's a little strange these two days, when I sit in the shade of a tree and recite a book, I always feel an inexplicable gaze, but who will look at me? Could it be him? It's unlikely. ”

This kind of life goes on, unhurriedly. I wish I could have made time go slower so that I could miss it more.

"Today is a day to remember. Not to mention that I definitely didn't believe it a few days ago, but now I don't believe it, but he actually smiled at me! When I was running today, he suddenly waved at me and smiled at me, and at that moment, it was as if the peach blossoms on the tree were blooming. ”

"Today is also a day to remember. Today he was the only one, and he started running. He also greeted me today, and when I passed by him, I smelled laundry detergent. ”

"Today, he spoke to me. He said that he had been paying attention to me for a long time. ”

"Today, we ran together. ”

"Today, we sat together in the shade and chatted. ”

"Today, we talked about Pride and Prejudice, and he's like a Bentley. ”

"Today, we went to eat rice noodles together. ”

"Today, he confessed to me. ”

"Today, he took my hand. ”

It was as if the peach blossoms all over the mountain were in full bloom, and there were many butterflies flying.

"Today, school starts. He used to be in the second class, but why did he pretend not to know me?"

"Today, when he was playing football, I plucked up the courage to deliver water, and he was heckled by his classmates around him, and he didn't answer. ”

"Today, I'm a little angry. He coaxed me. ”

"Today, I wrote him a postcard. He didn't reply to me. ”

"It's the weekend and we're going to the amusement park together. ”

"Today, he secretly kissed me. ”

"Today, the results of the monthly exam are out. His grades dropped, I texted, and he didn't reply. ”

"Today, he broke up, and I came back and cried for a long time. ”

"Today, the mood is finally getting better. I could have been fine without him. ”

"Today, I can't understand him anymore. A week after he mentioned the breakup, he reversed himself. ”

"Today, he offered to want me, I refused, and he was a little angry. ”

Today, he broke up again. ”

"Today, we are reconciled again. ”

"Today, I'm so tired, why did I become like this with him. He doesn't like me at all. ”

"Today, I made up my mind, I want to break up with him. I've become less like me. ”

Today, he did not agree to break up. He coaxed me, and we were still together. ”

"Today, he told me about his ex-girlfriend, and I was a little sad. ”

"Today, when we were together, there was no talk to us, and he was a little impatient. ”

"Today, I promised, I gave it to him. I was so scared and in pain, he told me to go to the pharmacy to buy medicine, and the medicine was so bitter. ”

"Today, he was very nice to me, and we went to eat rice noodles together. ”

"Today, he asked me again, and I refused"

"Today, I want to break up. ”

"Today, we broke up completely. ”

"I was sad after the breakup, but my life was slowly getting back on track. ”

"Today, I saw him doing radio gymnastics, and he was still laughing with his friends and smiling happily. ”

"Today, I don't pay attention to him anymore. Live your life. ”

"Today I saw him walking with a girl, and he didn't even look at me when I passed by. ”

"Start over, forget about him. ”

"I'm so happy that my monthly exam score has gone up this time. ”

"I started to read books again, this time I read "Ordinary World"

"Mom called and said that the semester is over, and she and Dad can come back for the Spring Festival, so I'm looking forward to it. ”

"I went to the park with my grandmother today, and my grandmother's health is much better than in the previous two months. ”

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"I haven't had my period for two months and I'm so scared. ”

"My stomach hurts so much today and I'm sweating. ”

"I asked the teacher for leave in physical education class today, and my stomach hurts. ”

"Teacher Kobayashi came to talk to me today, should I tell her that I have been really tormented recently, I am scared every day, my body has been so strange recently. ”

"I went to the supermarket today, I smelled fishy and wanted to vomit. ”

"Today, I checked on the Internet, and the doctor said that I was pregnant. ”

"Today, I had a night of insomnia and cried all night under the covers. I'm so scared, I'm really scared. ”

"Today, I'm going to look for him. Tell him I'm pregnant, but he doesn't believe me. ”

"Today he handed me a pregnancy test and asked me to test it. Two bars, he fled in the wilderness. ”

"I want to die. I don't feel like I have a future. ”

"I hate him so much. ”

"Mom called today and I cried for a long time. I wanted to tell her, but I didn't dare. I'm afraid she doesn't want me anymore. ”

"I don't like writing anymore, I don't like postcards, I don't like reading anymore, I want to go to a distant place and escape it all completely. ”

"Today, he came to me. He told me to buy medicine and get rid of it. ”

"Today I went to the clinic to get the medicine for the abortion, but I didn't get it, and a female doctor was so angry that I scolded me, this is going to die. ”

"I don't really know what to do anymore, I don't have a future. ”

"Today I went to him again, he pushed me away, he wanted to run. ”

"Today, Mr. Kobayashi hugged me. I haven't been hugged in a long time. ”

"Today, I decided to ask Mr. Kobayashi for help. ”

"If Mr. Kobayashi can't help me, then forget it. She's done enough. ”

"Good luck, if there is no good luck, then the afterlife. The peach blossoms all over the mountain should be adjusted to zero, and there are no butterflies. ”