All I wanted from beginning to end was a sure love, holding the hand of the son and growing old with the son, but I never thought of such hardship, I have experienced too many ups and downs, grief.

I even made a choice between Gu Lanzhi and Gu Tingchen, and now I have made a choice between Gu Tingchen and Xi Zhan.

I'm always making a choice, splitting that unwavering love again and again, but how could I ever want to do this in my heart?!

Gu Lanzhi was just my young dream.

This dream woke up nine years ago.

And Gu Tingchen and I missed it in the end.

Now I only have Xi Zhan left.

When we were together, I knew that he had no intention, but even then I chose him, and gave up the bold confession of my former self, he never said that he loved me, or even said that he did not love me, but I was still with him.

I grabbed him, held him tightly.

It's like three years ago when I grabbed Gu Tingchen tightly.

I want to be happy, and I'm working hard.

Even if it doesn't work.

Facing Gu Tingchen's questioning, I grinned and said, "Xi Zhan spoils me very much, satisfies me in everything, gives me stability and support, and I never have to worry about being bullied by his side!"

Although there is no blessing of love in this.

The rain became heavier and heavier, and Gu Tingchen asked me lightly, "Then does he love you?" Sheng'er, no one knows you better than me, all you want is love, I can give it to you." ”

After all these years of running-in with Gu Tingchen, he has become the person who knows me best, and I exhaled deeply and said: "Tingchen, the love between us has existed, but we have experienced so many ...... I regret what you missed, and I am grateful that you have given your life for me, and if you have anything in the future, I can also help you with my life! But I can no longer leave my love with you, because I gave it to another man! I can't retreat back to you because he doesn't love me. ”

If that's the case, I don't even despise myself like this!

"Shi Sheng, you will definitely regret it. ”

Gu Tingchen threw down such a sentence and left.

I stood there for a long time before driving back to my apartment.

When I returned to the apartment, I cried bitterly, because of Gu Tingchen, but also because of myself! I used to love him, and when I said those words to him, I felt uncomfortable in my heart, and I was afraid that he would be sad.

But when the interruption continues, it will be chaotic.

When I cried enough, I took off my wet clothes and went to the bathroom to take a shower, and when I was taking a bath, I received a text message from Gu Tingchen.

He said: "Sheng'er, you are the most determined woman I have ever seen who loves someone, when you love someone, you can give him all you have, even without regrets! But you are also the most determined person I have ever seen who hates someone, when you hate me, you say forgiveness on the surface, but in fact, you have already drawn a clear line in your heart! In this world, it is not who has to be, just like you have chosen Xi Zhan now, many people can't understand why you fell in love with him in a blink of an eye, but I can understand, because he gave you something I don't have, firm, But I am unwilling in my heart, I still want you, I want you...... I can't afford to lose you again!"

The person who understands me in the world is Gu Tingchen.

He knew why I fell in love with Xi Zhan.

It's not groundless, it's not a whim!

I didn't reply, and after a while, he sent a text message again: "Meeting you in this life is the joy and calamity of my life, no matter who you love in your heart, I will not admit defeat! Sheng'er, wait for me to cure my illness and give me a chance to compete with Xi Zhan fairly." ”

Wait until he is cured......

He has been persistently fighting against the other personality.

I hesitated for a long time and didn't reply to Gu Tingchen's text message, thinking about what the old housekeeper said.

If it is really as he said, I am not a member of the Shi family!

So who the hell am I?!

Will he be as full of lies as Xiao Wu?

I suppressed the doubts in my heart and kept soaking in the bathtub without getting up, I suddenly felt lonely, I felt that I have a man and no man is the same nature, I took my mobile phone and logged on WeChat.

Yu Luoluo sent me a video.

It is a video of Gu Lanzhi's musical accompaniment.

And the girl he accompanied me happened to know.

Tan Yang.

Tan Yang in the video is wearing a white shirt and singing, with a very pleasant voice, she is singing a song "The Wind Rises"

She didn't sing in Chinese.

Instead, it was covered in fifteen languages.

English, Japanese, Korean, Korean, Spanish, Italian, Persian, etc., including French and Polish, with Gu Lanzhi's piano is so good to hear that it makes people tremble, she is really a treasure girl!

I listened to this song three times before sending it to Tan Yang, and she replied to me disapprerovantly: "A best friend of mine who studies music is sick and has a hoarse singing voice, she heard that I am traveling around the world and wants me to sing with her. ”

As soon as I finished reading this message, she sent another message saying: "I also met Gu Lanzhi, the real person is more handsome than the video." ”

Nonsense, Gu Lanzhi's handsomeness is beyond doubt.

It's the same as Gu Tingchen.

I replied, "You know each other, too." ”

Tan Yang replied to me: "I don't know, I went up temporarily, I haven't rehearsed, I guess he was stunned when he saw me suddenly appear on the stage, I took a plane to Poland after singing, and I plan to go to Venice, Italy after playing for a few days." ”

"Have fun. ”

Tan Yang didn't reply to me again, I didn't know what Yu Luoluo was trying to express when he sent me this video, and after thinking about it for a long time, I sent a question mark, "Why did you suddenly send me this?"

"Sister Shi Sheng, I have met this girl once, I met her last time when I was skiing in Europe, and I heard that she is still underage. ”

I replied, "What's wrong?"

Isn't it Yu Luoluo who suspects that Gu Lanzhi likes Tan Yang?

It shouldn't be so outrageous.

After all, Gu Lanzhi's eldest Tan Yang is fourteen years old.

Besides, Tan Yang also said that they didn't know each other.

"I was amazed by how she sang. ”

I hesitated for a moment and asked, "Why did you suddenly show me this?" Luoluo, do you want to say something to me?!"

Yu Luoluo replied to me after a long time: "My brother has traveled the world again, and I haven't chased him all over the world now, but I happened to see this video yesterday and felt a little envious in my heart, envious of the girl on the stage, envious of everyone who appeared beside my brother, and naturally I miss my brother a little." ”

Gu Lanzhi has only appeared in my life for two months, and has been rejected by me again and again, he understands how to enter and retreat, and now he is just returning to his former state of life.

"Travel the world and get to know the powerful. ”

I suddenly remembered what he had said.

Gu Lanzhi, an elegant and gentle man.

I thought about it, and replied to Yu Luoluo seriously: "I can understand you, but I am not Gu Lanzhi, I can't control his mind! Luoluo, if you really miss him, take advantage of the fact that the breeze is not dry now, and the sun is just right to go to see him, no matter the result." ”

Now that the storm is raging outside, where does the breeze and sunshine come from, I am nothing more than borrowing a sentence on the Internet to comfort her.

Yu Luo fell back to me, "Thank you, Sister Shi Sheng." ”

I was about to put down my phone after reading this message, when Yuan You sent me a text message, "You didn't go back to Xi's house with your second brother?"

I replied, "Well, no. ”

"It's stupid, it's just that you have a big heart. ”