Zhang Shi and Jin Zi have been married for more than two years, Zhang Shi is a wooden Taurus, Jin is a changeable Gemini, so life after marriage often makes Jin Zi feel bored and boring, but Zhang Shi lives with relish, he feels that life is not like this, the two of them are plain, and they live a life of coarse tea and light rice. Jin Zi feels that life still needs a sense of ritual and surprises, although she is a person who is good at finding clues and often destroys surprises. If you want to say that there is still some "romance" when two people fall in love, then after marriage it is a discounted "wave", "wave" is not to waste the "wave" of thrift, and "slow" is the "slow" that always wants the other party to do housework.

Jin Zi will always think of those days when she was in love, she and Zhang Shi will often go to Maokong to write letters to each other, although people sit opposite, but Jin Zi feels that a lot of words are still written on the letter to each other to see more poetic, Zhang Shi will also write a lot of embarrassed words on paper, two people secretly write letters to each other, every time they are separated, they only give each other when they are separated, and then they are alone in the room with the lamp on and read slowly. Maokong took Zhang Shi to Jinzi, and Zhang Shi also felt that his world had become bigger after getting along with Jinzi, but he had no habit of exploring the world, and his only wish was to travel to Tibet by car, but this idea was also dispelled in the fright of hearing that his colleague went to Tibet after pulmonary edema was dying. Now the two of them hardly know how to write letters, only the last time they went to Wei City, Jin Zi left a postcard for Zhang Shi, and the content on it was still explained by Jin Zi orally. In fact, it's not because he's busy and doesn't have time to do these things, like the last time Zhang Shi's Fa Xiaowei came to their house to play, and the three of them also went to Maokong, only Wei Shao wrote a letter to the person he cared about with great interest, Jin Zi was in a daze on the side, Zhang Shi was sitting on the sofa opposite Wei Shao and fell asleep, maybe the two of them live together every day, and there is not so much to say, but Jin Zi still hopes that Zhang Shi can write something to her to meet her little romantic needs, but often in the end, Jin Zi comforts herself, she is actually not used to asking others to do anything, usually she does it herself and then asks others, or directly does it herself without bothering others, so that Jin Zi always felt very tired, and then finally woke up, no longer do housework alone, now Zhang Shi can also take the initiative to brush the dishes and mop the floor under a simple reminder, Jin Zi occasionally feels like raising a child, home is her haven, but also her training class.

Zhang Shi came back from work on this day in a good mood, he received a seventy-year-old couple during the day, the old man is very energetic, the voice is particularly loud, the concept of life is also very positive, both of their children have gone abroad, and they have their own families and children, the old couple in addition to the demolition of the house and the house to live, there is a pension every month, life is very comfortable, now I want to buy a car, in his later years can take his wife to go around, the grandmother is also a very kind person, not a lot, always smile and acquiesce to the old man's decision。 After Zhang Shi went home, he told Jin Zi about this pair of customers, Jin Zi was also very envious, and also realized that women should not be too strong in order to live a happy life, they should be strong and strong when they work alone, and when two people are together, they must know how to show weakness, so that they can live a labor-saving and comfortable life.

But there is one thing that can't be changed in attitude, that is, the bills from life, Jin Zi will look at the bills of Huabei, borrowing and credit cards on his mobile phone at the beginning of every month, and he has a headache, most of the time he can only tear down the east wall to make up the west wall, rich people spend the next month, and no rich people spend the next month, Jin can only mock himself like this. A large part of Zhang Shi's income is used to repay the mortgage and car loan, and the family's water, electricity, and gas bills are also the two of them are responsible for it alternately. Food, clothing, housing and transportation, the monthly expenditure is more than 5,000 yuan, the salary of gold is enough to break even when he worked before, and now he is resting at home and the monthly expenditure can only rely on the living expenses given by Jinzi's mother, but since the last time he bought a house, his mother broke up with Jinzi after breaking up with Jinzi, and Jin Zi suddenly understood why her mother strongly opposed her and Zhang Shi getting along, the economy is indeed the capital of a person's life, and it is also the confidence of whether a person can face others with his head held high, but how can there be so many people with good conditions waiting for you, there is no pie in the sky, Jin Zi still does not regret choosing Zhang Shi at the beginning, she understands herself, and likes to be arbitrary in everything, It was Zhang Shi who changed her a lot, and also made her feel the warmth outside of money, her parents' generation experienced the hardships of life because of no money, but if they were given another chance, they would still choose the same person to do it again, after all, money and feelings will not come at the same time, this is a tilted scale, the weight is a person, you can't have real feelings if you choose money, maybe there are many people who like this kind of life full of smiling faces, but gold is not, she accepts her parents' money, and she also knows that this will lose some dignity, but it is more real than late feelings or money, she hated her incompetence, and in this struggle, I have been comforted by the people around me who care about me, even if there are gains and losses, there are losses and gains, just like life, you can never break even.

Jin Zi also understands that the romantic life she wants can't rely on anyone, so she can only find a way to arrange it. Zhang Shi's favorite thing every time he rests is to sit in the sofa and watch the NBA with melon seeds, and he will arrange for himself to play with his colleagues every week, Jin Zi knows that he is not so busy that he has no time, but he will not think of spending all this time on her, even Zhang Shi does not know what the number is during the Qixi Festival, and the gifts are all named by Jinzi, of course, the price will not be too high, or a bouquet of flowers, or an affordable dinner, Jin Zi is also tired of waiting for gifts and surprises, so he simply cashed these out. Remembering when she was a child, she would find a way to give gifts to her mother and father every time she was on various holidays, and the most often she gave was the cup she bought in the supermarket, at that time Jin Zi liked to go to a newly opened supermarket to buy some cheap gadgets, the cup would be packed by her and sent to the car station, and the driver would bring it to her mother on Mother's Day, and on Mother's Day, she would ask her grandparents for money to buy carnations and canned yellow peaches to give to her mother, and sometimes she would write letters to her father, write postcards, and her father would also write a long letter to Jinzi, but this kind of ritualistic behavior did not heat up in exchange for feelings, but was too ceremonial because of the distance and seemed cold。 When he grew up, Jin Zi felt from Zhang Shi's family that the family didn't need to be so cautious about getting along, the closer the people were, the more casual they were, and the sense of ritual only occasionally appeared, such a family relationship really made Jin extremely envious, and some people lived very happily and really had nothing to do with material.

Zhang Shi could also feel that the gold was slowly changing, as if an untouchable white rose was gradually transforming into a fragrant white rice. Jin Zi's temper is not as irritable and irritable as before he got married, and he doesn't feel so high and difficult to touch, he knows that Jin likes to have a quality of life, and his food and clothing are all above average, but he also knows that the cost of gold is not random, and they have one thing in common is that they both pursue "cost performance" high things, so although he knows that he spends a lot of money every month, he never says that gold spends money indiscriminately, he can only silently work harder, sell more cars to make more money, and try to make everyone less anxious when paying off the bills, he actually knows everything in his heart, the popular TV series "Thirty Only" some time ago I don't understand the romantic Chen Yangyu, Jin Zi said that Zhang Shi is the Chen Yangyu in real life, but he doesn't raise fish and only watches basketball, Zhang Shi also recognizes, and when Jin complains about his various things, he also uses this reason to prevaricate, making Jin cry and laugh.

Zhang Shi often just silently pretended that he didn't know, because before he tried to change the status quo, any communication would be more troublesome, he could see Jin Zi eating a lot of pills every day, and he could also see Jin Zi distressed because of the side effects caused by the new antidepressants, what was the use of saying more and more good words? He could only work a little harder, work harder, and give Jin Zi what she wanted, at least while she was still in this world. He didn't agree with Jin Zi signing a letter of intent to donate her body and organs, but Jin still signed it, Jin Zi wanted the world to think that she was still useful, although Zhang Shi was angry, but he couldn't answer when Jin Zi asked where he would bury her in the future if he didn't donate, he couldn't bury the gold in his vegetable patch like his grandfather, and he couldn't put the gold in the small compartment where the ashes were stored in the public, so he could only be silent about this question that had no answer at the moment.

They all try not to envy other people's lives, because when you always look up at others, you will have no time to take care of your own life, and after a long time, your neck will be sore, you will not be able to lower it, there will be a lot of quarrels and complaints, and if you complain too much, you will not be happy in life, it seems to be an endless cycle. Maybe the quality of life of the whole society is hierarchical, everyone has their own corresponding layer of small grids, you can occasionally look up in your own grid, occasionally bow your head, and then continue to tidy up your own small grid, live your own small life, so that you will not lose your way in the grid of activities, in order to slowly become better and happier again.

Yiyi was sent home by Jin Zi two days before the start of school, she can make Zhang Shi feel more at ease by Jinzi's side, and sometimes giving can also make people feel better, Jin Zi will arrange a lot of activities for Yiyi, such as going to the supermarket together, taking Yiyi to the trampoline park, eating desserts together, preparing ingredients to make a delicious meal. Kaneko likes to give, she feels that giving is more reassuring than gaining, and one by one can also soothe the lack of love because of the birth of her brother by Kaneko's side, she is very sensible, and she also likes her brother, there are not many teenage girls who can balance their emotions like this. Jin Zi is distressed one by one, so he wants to be doubly good to her, just like her back then, if such a person appeared around to take care of her, maybe gold would be different today, but how can there be so many ifs in the world, if it is only if, it is always rarely realized.

Orange is about to get married, Jin Zi is going back to her hometown to attend her wedding, there are many relatives and friends who get married in the second half of the year, and there is also a cousin of Jin Zi, and Zhang Shi's hair is small, I hope their lives are all white rice grains, not a lot of white roses.

Today's dream: Jin Zi dreamed that her parents quarreled, and her father threw a lot of her mother's things in the garbage dump near her aunt's dormitory, Jin happened to pass by, and saw a new YSL gift box, a complete set of Lancôme skin care products, and happily took all the bags to fill them, but the more she picked them up, the more she felt that something was wrong, because she looked at these things like her mother's, and then she took the bag and packed those things up the same, and walked forward after packing, there was a barber shop in front of which Jin Zi often went to school, and there were also mother's things that Dad threw away at the door, and Jin Zi hurriedly picked up all the things and put them in the bag, and the mother was very aggrieved in the distance and was arguing with her fatherShe stood there and watched, did not step forward, and then continued to silently pack up those things.