Jin Zi received a call from his father when he was sleeping in a daze in the afternoon, and his father told Jin Zi on the phone that his aunts had taken a fancy to a newly developed real estate in a new district of Wei City, and the second aunt had already booked a house there, and asked Jin Zi's father if he would like to buy a set here as well, so that everyone would "retire together" in the future. Dad asked Jin Zi to check how the city is, and the news about the new district is unreliable, because my aunt was more able to toss before, and she wanted to buy a house in several cities, and she almost bought two apartments in Beijing that were not very easy to sell, and recently Jin Zi also found out that her aunt was doing real estate sales through the circle of friends, and she couldn't help but sigh that people are really different, and my aunt is almost sixty years old, but her energy is as strong as a person in her thirties. Kaneko's father wanted to go to see the house with Kaneko's mother, but Kaneko probably knew in his heart that his mother would not go, because his mother's relatives were still in his hometown, and his mother didn't like to toss, so he would definitely not be willing to go out with his father to see the house. After calling her mother, she said that she would not go to Weishi with her father, she felt that Jin Zi also had time, so she just let Jin go with her father, and she should travel with her father.

Jin Zi was a little hesitant to go, on the one hand, she didn't want to take a plane back and forth, on the other hand, she felt embarrassed to see her aunt, because of those things that happened when she was a child, after so many years, Jin Zi can't say that she has completely forgotten it, and she is not qualified to blame anyone, so she can only put these in a small box in the dark area of her heart, Dad has also respected his sisters very much for so many years, Jin Zi is very clear, her ten words are not more important than a word from the elders, so this time when she goes out, Jin Zi always has a bad premonition.

Zhang Shi is also reluctant to go to gold, although he once went to college in Wei City, and also thinks that Wei City is a good city, a coastal city, with a pleasant environment, which is very suitable for the elderly, but he still does not worry about gold, but Jin Zi has nothing to do, so he can only go out hard, praying that this is a harmonious journey to relive family affection.

After arriving in Wei City, Jin Zi met his aunt and father, they have not seen gold for two years, they all said that gold is a lot fatter than before, the topic of meeting is mainly the house, my aunt wants my father and her sisters to buy a house here, saying that this is a new area, there are many government policies, fifteen years of free education system, and the newly developed port has also been built, the real estate development company also took them around the neighborhood, the surrounding resources are also very good, there are wetland parks and university towns, the real estate is next to the outlet mall, the house price is not very high, about 8000 square meters, a year after the fine decoration delivery, the parking space is 1: 1.5, the property is the property of Country Garden, Jin Zi also checked a lot of information, this new area is very suitable for the elderly, I am very satisfied with my father, Jin Zi did not say anything more.

On the way from the model room to the rough house, Jin Zi called his mother, and unexpectedly learned that his grandmother's health was not very good, maybe it was almost impossible in the past two days, and relatives from other places were also on the way back, and his mother said that she did not agree to buy this house, and Jin Zi looked at his father's attitude and did not say much to his mother, after all, his mother's mood was definitely not good at this time, and it was useless to say more, so Jin Zi hung up the phone in a hurry.

Jin Zi cautiously asked his father: "Grandma is not in good health, and my mother is all with her, do you know?" Father replied: "I heard your mother say that she is old and in poor health the day after she went out." Jin Zi said again: "Grandma may be dying, and they are already on their way back." Dad said, "Well, everyone has such a day, I'll call your mother later." ”

Grandma Jin Zi is over eighty years old and has not had any serious illnesses, because she lives with her uncle in the countryside all the year round, so her health has not been very good, and she often breaks a bone after a fall. Grandma has nine children, the eldest uncle left first because of cerebral hemorrhage a few years ago, usually the relationship between gold and grandparents is not very close, when I was a child, my mother basically took gold to see my grandparents once a year, and grandparents have many children and grandchildren, so Jinzi still has a deep relationship with grandparents.

Before Jin Zi went out, he felt that his father should buy this house, and his father's attitude was more resolute when he saw the scene, and the eldest aunt who was far away from his hometown also decided to book a house remotely through the introduction of the second aunt, so Jin Zi could only help his father choose a suitable location of the house and floor, not too close to the shopping mall, it would definitely be noisy on weekends, and it could not be too close, because the opposite side was a river, and the wind would be a little strong. Dad comforted Jin Zi and said, "It's okay, this place is really good, I'll tell your mother when the time comes." Kaneko knew that her mother and aunts might have some conflicts when she was young, and she had heard her mother and aunts complain to her in the process of growing up over the years, and Kaneko felt that things would not be as simple as her father thought, one was very close to her aunt and them, and the other was that buying a house also required a sum of money, so Jin Zi thought about it and asked her father: "Is our family's money enough?" Don't buy a house and run out of money, or buy a smaller one. Dad smiled and said, "It's okay, if you want to buy it, you can buy a big one, and you can work hard for two more years." After the formalities were completed, everyone returned to the hotel in the evening, and Jin Zi was still very worried about this matter, because they had not told their mother that the house had been bought, and at the same time, through the news in the family group, they also knew that Grandma must be dying, and Dad persuaded Jin Zi: " Originally, I planned to buy this house in five or six years, because I can't get rid of my work now, and I have to wait five years after retirement, and I am buying this house now, the conditions are indeed a little tight, but considering that this house price may rise in the future, I decided to buy it now, and I happen to be more optimistic about this place. Jin Zi nodded and comforted himself, it is true, who can say the house price after five years, and the current commercial houses are, buy late and there is no floor and house type location you like, Jin Zi also experienced a period of hard work before getting married, the whole city's new houses, second-hand houses were almost all over by her, and she also knew that it was not easy to meet the house that fits the eye, but now the timing is too wrong, the mother herself does not agree, grandma is still this situation, it is really difficult to do.

Jin Zi didn't go back to her hometown after thinking about it, and the real estate company also gave the ticket in advance, and Jin Zi and her father went back to her city after saying goodbye at the airport, and at the same time knew the news of her grandmother's death when the plane landed. After a few days, Jin Zi discussed with his father, and his father decided to talk to Jin Zi's aunt first, and let the aunts persuade Jin Zi's mother, and Jin Zi also felt that it was okay, so she also told her cousins about it, and her cousin felt that it was a good thing to buy a house, but her cousin felt that she had not obtained her mother's consent, and she would live with Jin Zi's aunts in the future, which she felt was a bit inappropriate. After waiting for a day, Jinzi's father asked Jinzi, did the aunts communicate with their mother, Jinzi said that she didn't know, and then she called her mother, and the mother on the other end of the phone cried as she spoke, she told Jinzi a lot of details when her grandmother left, and complained to her father, she said that Jinzi's father still went out to see the house at this time, and after coming back, he didn't care so much about grandma's affairs like no one else, saying that he would not forgive him in this life, and Jinzi also persuaded her, Dad only knew that grandma couldn't do it after seeing the house left, and he didn't mean to go out on purpose, and for so many years, Dad didn't go to visit grandma and grandpa, and rice, flour, grain, oil and meat were not less, People still have to see how they usually do it, it's useless to cry at the funeral, and when grandma and grandpa died, my mother was not so sad, after all, whose parents have a personal experience, and there are so many grandmothers, there are seven sons-in-law alone, how can Dad be sad, when it is his turn, it is also after many people, Mom thought about it and said that it was right, Jin Zi looked at it and talked about it, so he told his mother about buying a house, but he didn't expect this to detonate a time bomb.

Jinzi's mother confirmed with Jinzi that the house had been bought and then hung up Jinzi's phone, and no one answered Jinzi's phone when she called back, so Jinzi sent WeChat to her mother, but she didn't expect her mother's attitude to be very resolute, she said coldly to Jinzi: "You bought this house, you don't have this mother." Mom asked Jinzi: "Where did your father get the money to buy a house, he didn't bring him much money when he went out." The gold replied, "The aunts gave me the money." The mother was even more angry and asked Jinzi: "Do you think you don't need to borrow money? Do you think your father can make so much money in a year? I am old, I had a hard life when I was young, I don't want to pay off my debts anymore, I just want to live a stable life." Jin Zi can only say: "It is indeed a good place, much better than my hometown, my hometown is a high-incidence area of cancer, and it is not convenient to go anywhere, you need to reverse the car and then pour the high-speed rail to take the plane, every time you catch a flight with a bad time, you have to go to the airport one day in advance, and if you live in Wei City in the future, it is much more convenient to go anywhere." Jinzi's mother didn't listen to these explanations at all, and she said angrily to Jinzi: "I won't go to the best place, if you want to buy this house, I will divorce your father." Jin Zi reluctantly called his father, and his father advised Jin Zi not to worry too much, and he went to talk to his mother again.

After Zhang Shi returned home in the evening, Jin Zi received a call from his mother again, and Jin Zi's mother angrily questioned Jin Zi: "Is it your decision to buy a house? You don't pay for it, what kind of effort do you have to get involved! Don't you know that I hate your aunts the most? Didn't you push me into the fire pit?" Jin Zi was also angry and retorted: "If you don't want to live in the house, you can sell it later, so you won't lose money if you sell it? This house will not be lived in by me in the future, and I will not do any good, why should I do this?" I just want you and Dad to live in a better environment when we get old!" Jinzi's mother hung up the phone, leaving Jinzi curled up on the sofa and whimpering. Zhang Shi also complained beside him: "What is going on?" ”

The next day, Jin Zi got up listlessly and heard her aunt send a WeChat message saying that her mother and father were going to divorce because of this matter. Jin Zi replied weakly, if she really divorced, she hoped that her mother could live well, not just the house in her hometown and some money, she would support her mother's decision, after all, they are all adults. Jin Zi remembered that she had basically not participated in any major events in the family for so many years, even her parents were sick, she only found out after they were sick, and her parents always felt that Jin Zi was far away and didn't want her to worry, but she didn't know that this had made Jin Zi gradually lose her sense of existence in this family. Kaneko remembered that when she was a child when she was accompanied by her mother, in that rented house with only one window, Kaneko saw her parents fight, it was probably the only time they fought, the reason was very small, it was not a big deal, Kaneko hid in the bathroom in fear, she didn't know whether she should go out or not, she could only quietly open a crack in the door, and saw her parents fighting, and then she quickly closed the door, until her father opened the door with a hula, came in and got a towel, and the battle was over. Maybe since then, Jin Zi began to feel that she had no conscience, and she was a little bit of a wreck, maybe she was another girl, and she would have rushed out to help her mother, but she locked herself in the bathroom, as if the outside had nothing to do with her, Jin Zi regretted it more than once, if she rushed out to help her mother that year, would the relationship between the two be different from now.

Jin Zi received a series of scolding from her aunt at noon, and Jin Zi could feel the appearance of the two aunts pointing at her through the screen, and the aunt scolded her for being a white-eyed wolf, saying: "Do you think that the divorce of your father and your mother is a good thing! You have no conscience, how can a daughter not be in a group with her mother, your father divorces your mother on the front foot, and you can take other women's families on the back foot." "You must have played a key role in this! You think you can live in that house, you stinky shameless." Kaneko listened to one voice that was worse than the other, and the hand holding the phone trembled, and she could only calm down and reply: "If you really know me, you should know that I am not the kind of person you say, I don't think it's really necessary to make such a fuss for the sake of a house." ”

Years of whitewashing the peace of the family affection is as embarrassing as being torn off the fig leaf in an instant, and Jin Zi finally realizes that there are aunts standing behind her father, and aunts standing behind her mother, only she, when she encounters anything family-related, is always isolated, and her family is never three people. Blood is really a double-edged sword, it sometimes hurts you under the banner of family affection, and on the other hand, it can also allow you to receive a lot of material benefits through family affection, Jin Zi only hopes that the family affairs will never be related to her in the future, she knows her status, and only wants a superficial peace.

Aunt Jin Zi also comforted Jin Zi after knowing the situation, and asked Jin Zi if she had suffered a lot of grievances, Jin Zi still knew in her heart, she knew that if it wasn't for Aunt Zhang Luo to buy a house, their family would not have caused such an uproar, Jin Zi said to her aunt: "It's okay, Mom is emotionally unstable now, and it will be fine after a while." The aunt also complained to Jin Zi that Jin Zi's mother was short-sighted, and Jin Zi still defended her mother, saying that her mother didn't want to leave her hometown because she didn't want to leave her relatives at home, after all, there were still grandfathers and so many aunts and uncles in her hometown, and her aunt praised Jin Zi for being sensible and able to do great things, Jin Zi smiled, and the two didn't talk anymore after a few words of greeting.

Jin Zi has also known for so many years that his aunt's side is more interested in family affection, and his aunt's side is more interested in fame and fortune. Like Jin Zi has a cousin of the third aunt's family, the conditions of the third aunt's family are good, and the cousin is also a graduate of Fudan University, every time they meet after a long time, the aunts will treat the cousin with a little more enthusiasm than the contact with the gold that is slightly more, and the gold has felt since then that some people's lives are relatively smooth, and what you want to get with great effort is easily obtained by others, so many times, adjusting your mentality is the most important thing. In his aunt's house, Jin Zi never had this feeling, because his uncle is an open person, his purpose is: people do not have high and low, noble and low, etc., his mantra is: eat up and spend all your health! Gold is often infected by his attitude of seeing through the red dust, but since this incident, Jin Zi has also tried to keep a distance from his aunt's family, she is not like other children, Jin Zi's heart has a scar, and the relationship has a pimple, so it is not so natural, Jin Zi feels that this is also a good thing, and finally does not have to over-disguise his own life.

Jin Zi had stopped taking medicine for a period of time before, and after this incident, Jin Zi went to a psychiatric hospital again, and the doctor prescribed medicine for a month, and Jin Zi finally announced the news that she had depression in the circle of friends, except for a few people who are not often in contact with him to comment, Jin Zi did not receive the care of his family, maybe they don't often look at the circle of friends, and Jin Zi can only comfort himself like this.

For a long time, Jin Zi didn't have a close connection with his mother, but occasionally there was something, such as his aunt's birthday, Jin Zi would send a message to the past saying that he would go to his aunt's house for dinner today to celebrate his aunt's birthday, and there was usually no reply, and his mother also once sent Jin Zi a screenshot of two clothes to ask if Jin Zi wanted it, and Jin Zi tactfully replied that he didn't need it. My father, as before, would call once a week to talk about some of the new construction of the house, and Kaneko would end the conversation when he felt that there was nothing to talk about. Jin Zi also knew that the warming of her relationship with her parents before was because Jin Zi's parents gave her and Zhang Shi a lot of financial subsidies, and Jin Zi did not dare to disobey them, for fear of accidentally breaking this withdrawal channel. Jin Zi also feels that she is a white-eyed wolf, so many years she is used to measuring her various feelings, whether it is family, friendship or love, it can only be said that the latter two are her own choice, but in fact, she is extremely eager to have feelings without weighing the pros and cons, to be able to do whatever she wants, Jin Zi is not very good at expressing her feelings, and the only way she is good at caring about people is to buy things for people. In fact, Jin Zi has been trying to change himself for so long, thanks to Zhang Shi, whose personality has more or less influenced Jin Zi, making Jin no longer so much like a "chameleon".

Kaneko describes herself as an animal called a chameleon, and she doesn't choose a hedgehog because she doesn't want to stab others. The chameleon will change its color according to the surrounding environment, so that it can protect itself, and Kaneko will also decide what she becomes to respond to the other party according to what others think of her, for example, if someone thinks Kaneko is a kind person, she will treat him with kindness, on the contrary, if someone thinks Kaneko is an indifferent person, she will treat him with indifference, a bit like treating people with thousands of faces.

No one asked Kaneko if she was so tired, and Kaneko often felt sorry for treating people who treated her sincerely, "But I'm sorry, I can only keep my original color to myself." Jin Zi said silently.

Kaneko has watched an interview with a celebrity, and the star said: "I don't sympathize with the kind of old people who are driven by their sons and daughters-in-law to the street and pull their hair and quarrel every day, is that the child like that when he was first born? ”

Jin Zi agrees with this sentence, because she knows that she was not born a "white-eyed wolf", but a "chameleon", which can only be said to be those seemingly inconspicuous bits and pieces of life that have turned her into a person that she doesn't even like but is used to.

"I really just want to live quietly, please let me go. ”

Today's dream: Kaneko has been waking up between two and four o'clock in the morning for a month, her dreams are always intermittent, and often forget them all at dawn, Kaneko misses the feeling of dreaming a little, nothing is impossible in dreams, and in dreams it is always possible to achieve those things that cannot be achieved in reality, and those that are funny and scary, thank you people for dreams, I hope I can remember my dreams next time, Kaneko said religiously.