I numbly hugged Tang Xi all over the place, I couldn't control Du Yuan anymore, now I just want to keep Tang Xi and not let her go.

I know that once I let go of my hand, there is really no possibility at all, but all my words are pale and weak, and I have an ambiguous relationship with Du Yuan, which is a fact.

Tang Xi pushed me away hard, but fortunately she didn't turn around and left, and I was relieved.

If I had known that Tang Xi would come to me, I would definitely keep my distance from Du Yuan, at least outside the ambiguous boundary.

"Li Da, I have been struggling in my heart for a long time, but I didn't expect that I saw it, only half a year, only half a year. Tang Xi's tone was very calm.

In such a situation, I tried to grab Tang Xi's hand, but she didn't refuse, and I kept saying I'm sorry.

"Xixi, I'm sorry, I don't want us to be different people, I can't tell her and I can't tell, anyway, it's not that far, you know, I haven't known how to refuse people. ”

"But I've seen it all, I've seen it all, you don't want to lie to me, how can you let me lie to myself?"

I looked up at the dark night sky, took a deep breath, and swallowed hard, trying to swallow my trembling voice, my hands trembling uncontrollably.

"Xixi, don't go, we will definitely be fine in the future, you go, I'm afraid I won't have the courage to go to you, you know, I didn't expect this. ”

"I didn't expect it to be like this, I put down all the burden in my heart and came to you, and I don't want to see it, you know? But I saw it, I can't forget it, and I can't pretend not to care. ”

Tang Xi began to break my hand, and I squeezed it tighter and tighter until I saw her expression of pain.

"You left me alone to be still, my mind is messed up. ”

Tang Xi turned around to leave, and I stopped in front of her.

"Get out of the way, I've seen it all, what do you want me to do?" Tang Xi's suddenly raised voice stunned me, and I let Tang Xi leave in a daze.

At this moment, it seems to drain all the strength of my body, some of the people passing by cast curious eyes, some took out their mobile phones to video, I can think of what will appear in their circle of friends in the next moment, but I don't care.

After a long time, I stood there like a fool. Du Yuan walked up to me, her head down, her restless feet with nowhere to put it, stepping on the snow on the ground.

I haven't lost my mind yet, and Du Yuan is a pitiful woman in my eyes, but who is more pitiful than me at this time.

"You go back first, I'll walk around alone, calm down. ”

Du Yuan nodded and left.

I think I deserve all this, obviously I still love Tang Xi in my heart, and I still maintain an ambiguous relationship with Du Yuan, maybe it's the kind of desire in my heart.

It seems that I don't want to let go of anything, but people can't be too greedy, and I realized that I have a place for Du Yuan in my heart.

I was walking alone on the road, looking at a tree on the side of the road, and I ran under the tree like crazy and shook the tree.

The snow on it continued to fall on me as I shook and began to melt, and the cold sensation irritated me, but I was not satisfied.

I ran to another tree, and the snow on the road that had not yet completely melted froze into ice, and I fell to the ground, lying on the ground, and I didn't feel pain, but smirked.

I knew it all had to do with my character, I was thinking that I could be a laughing fool during the day, and at night I would be like a psychopath, and I could be so ruthless that no one cared and everyone cared.

I'm conflicted, I've thought about it, but I can't change it, sometimes I just can't control my thoughts.

I have a city in my heart, and a tomb in the middle of it.

When I walked to a 24-hour convenience store, I bought a bottle of Erguotou, and I always heard others say that Erguotou was delicious, but I never drank it.

After paying, I went out and sat on the side of the road, I remembered the bits and pieces of Tang Xi and I in school, entering the student union together, taking physical education classes together, waiting for her downstairs in her dormitory every day to go out to eat together, watch movies together, go to and from class together, and go out to play together during holidays.

The girl holding the dandelion seemed to have been pulled out of my body.

Why did Tang Xi and I become what we are today, there are many reasons, we also quarreled, and then fought coldly for a few days in a row, no one paid attention to anyone, at that time I would be happy and leisurely, and I could play games with Ziming and them, chat and drink.

I opened the wine and poured it into my mouth, the hot feeling went directly into my throat, and my face began to burn, and in this night, in the cold wind, it was the wine that gave me warmth.

Half a bottle down, my brain began to be unconscious, but the pain in my heart could not be anesthetized at all. It's like a needle stinging, one at a time, intermittently.

"Hello?"

"Li Da, tomorrow you will continue to travel with Brother Hao on business. "Listen to the voice from the HR department on the phone.

"Don't go, whoever you love will go, and the fool will go. ”

I hung up the phone and cared about what it was doing.

Putting my phone down, I noticed a person sitting next to me. I squinted and shook my head to see clearly.

"Brother Yuan, why are you here? I didn't drink too much, did I?"

Brother Yuan took the wine in my hand and poured it all on the ground.

"Du Yuan asked me to come, she was worried about you, so she called me. ”

She ...... I don't have anything to do with her, why is she worried about me. ”

"Li Da, I don't know what happened, if you quarrel and she worries about you so much, you shouldn't be like this, what is there to make clear. There's no need to make a fuss. ”

"Brother Yuan, listen...... Listen to me, I don't have anything to do with Du Yuan, she just suddenly broke into my life, but I didn't refuse, but enjoyed the ambiguous feeling of being with her. ”

"You know, today my girlfriend came, although there was a big problem between us, but it was not to the point of really breaking up, today she came, she saw it, but I don't know how to explain it. ”

"Brother Yuan, why don't you speak, don't you think I'm terrible, I'm a scumbag who plays with feelings?"

Brother Yuan got up and left, went to the convenience store to buy a pack of cigarettes, and then handed it to me, I opened the cigarette, smoked one and lit it.

The dizzy and foggy feeling of drinking and smoking is really wonderful.

"Li Da, you call me brother, I didn't think this matter was so complicated, the advice I can give is to follow your heart, take advantage of the rescue you still have, and don't cause too much harm to them, you decide, your hesitation will only make the three of you uncomfortable. ”

Brother Yuan patted me on the back: "There are some things I can't manage, and I can't take care of them, no matter how I try to persuade you, then the person who was hurt is my sin." ”

I stared at the neon sign across the road, feeling the temperature in my mouth, and the cigarette had burned to the cigarette holder.

Sometimes men's possessiveness is always so domineering, always wanting to have everyone and not letting go of both.

I thought that my feelings for Tang Xi had faded during this time, but when she stood in front of me alive, I knew how could I forget her, but Du Yuan, am I abusive?

I have never taken the initiative to provoke any woman, Du Yuan, including Xu Qing who disappeared, but life sends them to you, and you can't make a choice, you can only accept it, and then face what happened, helpless?