A month after I joined the company, I became a regular worker, during this time I made things to cater to the market, although I was not very happy, after all, it was what I was good at, and I tried to do it according to the company's requirements.

It was also the day after I became a regular, since that day, I haven't seen Xu Qing again, I didn't care at first, but after I didn't see her in the company for a few days, I went to inquire about her, but what I learned was that Xu Qing resigned.

I tried to get a reply from her on WeChat, but my message was like a stone in the sea, she ignored me, and fortunately did not delete me.

I was thinking that she must have had this idea after meeting me in the company, and it was very common for her to give a month in advance to quit, and I could only think that she really didn't want to see me.

In this way, I have been in the company for nearly half a year, and this half year seems to have smoothed out the last trace of emotional thoughts in my heart, but I am unwilling to give in, so I can only hide it in my heart.

Christmas and Christmas Eve are coming one after another, and it will soon be New Year's Day, I haven't called Tang Xi in the past few months, and what I said on the phone before to see her once a month has become a lie.

I don't know how Tang Xi is doing now, and I don't dare to ask Sister Xiang, I'm afraid that if I hear the bad news about Tang Xi's life, I will be uncomfortable and heartbroken, my current life, my relationship with Tang Xi, after all, is not what I imagined.

After getting off work, I felt the humidity and coldness in the air, and looked up at the sky, it was snowing, there was no strong wind, the snow was just falling quietly, and the cars coming and going on the road did not have the sound of their horns, and it seemed that in such weather, everyone slowed down.

I don't know where I got my interest, I suddenly wanted to go to Xuanwu Lake to see, I thought, that is where Sun Quan used to train soldiers, how can I go to Xuanwu Lake to dive and catch some of the things that used to be.

There is a poem that reads: The halberd Shen Sha iron has not been sold, and he will be grinding and washing to recognize the previous dynasty.

I was amused by my thoughts, but I still went to Xuanwu Lake with interest, and I didn't go in, it was already very late, and it was such a snowy day.

I came to the grass outside, and there was already a noticeable layer of snow on the ground, and I walked up, little by little, until I stepped in a straight line on it.

I like water and snow, there seems to be no difference between the two, Xu Qing's departure is painless, Du Yuan's departure is silent, and Tang Xi and I don't fight or grab, it seems that there is no intersection like this.

I remembered the plot from the movie Love Letter, which used to be my favorite movie, Japanese literary film, and I really seemed to like "Love Letter", and I fell backwards and lay on the soft snow, and I didn't sit up until I felt the chill on the back of my neck.

Tomorrow is Christmas Eve, I used to spend Christmas Eve with Tang Xi, and when I went to the city at night, the store had not yet had time to remove the decoration of Santa Claus, and some stores were being removed, and in a blink of an eye, the New Year's Day banner was hung again, and those were the best memories between me and Tang Xi.

It was slowly getting dark, I got up and stopped the car on the side of the road, looking at the snow outside the window, the sound of the wheels running over the snow was really nice in such weather, and when I arrived at the gate of the community, I bought a cup of milk tea, I didn't like to drink it before, but such days can always make people sad to recall.

When I got downstairs, I began to look for the key, at this time a black shadow hit me, scared me raised the milk tea in my hand, until this black shadow hugged me, I felt the cold on my neck and shoulders, the previous snow water was not dry, I looked at Du Yuan who was holding me, I was not sure if the person in front of me was her.

The person who had disappeared for a few months suddenly appeared in front of me, which made me a little incredible, Du Yuan was wearing a black down jacket and a scarf, and shrunk back from my shoulders, we each stared at each other, I motioned for Du Yuan to let go of me first, and then gave her the milk tea in his hand.

"Why did you come here and disappear for a few months?"

Du Yuan suddenly hugged me all over again, burying his head in my chest.

"Hold me tight. ”

I reached out to Du Yuan's back and picked her up, and she hung on top of me.

I hugged Du Yuan and turned around, and the milk tea on her mobile phone kept spilling out, splashing on the snow, as if melting into a beautiful pattern.

"Don't ask me what's going on, just let me hug you quietly for a while. ”

Du Yuan and I were in the snow like this, I cooperated without speaking, and I don't know how long this continued, and when Du Yuan looked up at me again, I found that she was crying in my arms.

Looking at the suitcase at the staircase, I carried Du Yuan upstairs, entered the house, put Du Yuan on the sofa, poured her a cup of hot water, and I opened the door again.

"Where are you going?"

"Go downstairs and bring up your suitcase, you can rest here for the night tonight, such weather, you are in such a state, I don't feel at ease when I go back." ”

When I returned to the house again, Du Yuan was holding the cup in a daze, and the sound of my door closing pulled her back from her thoughts. Putting down the box, I sat down next to her.

"Can you tell me what's going on? The illness has not healed and suddenly disappeared, and now it is like this when I come back. ”

Du Yuan put down the cup, looked up into my eyes and met mine, then lowered his head again.

"Li Da, my mom, she's gone. ”

When I heard the news, I didn't know how to comfort her, I understood that feeling, but there was no good way to comfort Du Yuan.

"When?"

"A few days after I was discharged from the hospital, my dad came to me and told me that she should not be in the hospital for a few days. ”

"You went to the United States during this time and went to meet her?"

"Hmm. ”

I patted Du Yuan on the back, I really didn't know what to say at this time, and continued to ask her, as if to stimulate her, but I didn't speak, and she didn't speak.

"Sleep first, and then get up tomorrow and talk about other things, you're in a bad state right now. ”

Du Yuan nodded, I went to the room to change the new sheets, took a new quilt, turned on the air conditioner, and called Du Yuan in.

"You go to sleep first, and get some rest tonight. ”

After saying that, I turned around and went out to make something to eat, but Du Yuan took my hand.

"When my dad went to the cemetery with her ashes that day, he knelt there for a long time, and it was also that day that he was there talking alone and crying for a long time. ”

I didn't let go of Du Yuan's hand, sat down on the edge of the bed, covered her with a quilt, and Du Yuan stared at the roof.

"I always thought he didn't love my mother, that day I saw his most dejected appearance, he had never been before, I don't know why he obviously loved my mother, why she insisted on leaving in the first place, but didn't keep it. ”

I stuffed Du Yuan's hand into the quilt and touched her head.

"Well, get some sleep, if there is anything to tell me tomorrow, I will listen carefully. ”

Du Yuan closed her eyes, I knew that she wouldn't be able to sleep for a while, so I sat on the edge of the bed, and Du Yuan's hand holding me in the quilt still didn't let go.

I looked at the snowflakes outside the window against the light, some people, some things seem to really can't go back, as if some can't survive, some things are not useful if they are retained, but they can't go back.