There is a person living in my heart, it will be a lifetime of missing, there is a kind of love called fate, and there is a kind of love called missing a lifetime. There is always such a person, who accompanies you for a ride, but can't accompany you for a lifetime, he is the best scenery, and it does damp your heart.

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The person who was roasted by Jiao Yang was out of breath, and there was a dark fire in the air, and he inhaled it to burn his nerves.

After another busy morning, when he returned home, Min Haoran took off his clothes to squeeze out his sweat, put his clothes on the wire of the house, bare his body, his shoulders were black and shiny, and there was a layer of hard calluses, and he picked up the pu fan on the bamboo bed and fanned it wildly.

"In the afternoon, I went to Zhaojia Village to say goodbye to a classmate. After Min Haoran finished speaking, he served the rice, sandwiched two green cabbage leaves and a lump of chili sauce and sat on the threshold.

Chili sauce is his favorite, and there is a little wind at the door. Parents and grandmothers each have a pu fan, shaking and eating on the square table in the center of the hall, and the silver wisps of grandmother are full of teeth, and you can hear the sound of chewing rice on the upper and lower foreheads.

The dust returned to the ground, the sky was like washing, the leaves on the side of the road were shiny, and the people who climbed on the trees were panting and screaming, one after another, causing people to be annoyed.

Under the dazzling sun, don't sweat people along the way, Min Haoran drove towards Zhao Ruyan's house with heavy thoughts.

"Ru Yan, where are you, I'll discuss something for you." Min Haoran threw the bicycle without pedals to the earthen wall, and deliberately looked at it, a little timid, and a little hesitant and weak-hearted.

After all, going to Xinjiang is not a trivial matter, and suddenly telling Zhao Ruyan about it always feels a little abrupt, and I am afraid that Zhao Ruyan will be difficult to accept it for a while. He wanted to talk to Zhao Ruyan for a long time, but he didn't know how to speak, but when it came to the front of him, he couldn't do it if he didn't say it, he couldn't delay it any longer, he came to Zhao Ruyan's house hard, he believed that Zhao Ruyan would go with him.

Zhao Ruyan is Min Haoran's classmate from elementary school to junior high school, her academic performance is not bad or bad, she is tall and not enchanting, she always wears a ponytail, her eyebrows are in the sea, her face is properly matched horizontally and vertically, although she is thin and her cheeks are full, her skin is black and red, especially when she is shy, her cheeks are red like a ripe red Fuji, Min Haoran likes her skin color, especially her thin skin and black eyes, like two flashlights, will emit dark light, and Min Haoran's heart is itchy.

Before graduating from junior high school, Zhao Ruyan's parents let her drop out of school, saying that girls just need to learn to read and write their names, and knowledge can't be eaten. However, it is good that she can go to junior high school, most of the girls in the village have never gone to school, and at a young age they began to go to the mountains to herd cattle, cut grass and feed pigs, and only a few of them went to primary school. The girl also accepted her fate, and she was not allowed to go to school or make noise, but she was happy and played her childhood into a wave. This was also an unwritten custom in the village at that time, believing that the girl was someone else's family after all, and it was enough to take the baby to do laundry, cook and feed the pigs at home for the rest of her life. Min Haoran's family is the same, his sister has never gone to school, and his sister has only gone to the third grade, and his parents are dedicated to him and Min Haojing, two brothers, hoping that the two sons can jump out of the 'farm' and eat national food, which is the biggest dream of the people in the village.

Zhao Ruyan was washing clothes by the ancient well at the door, and was bending over and hooking her head to lift the bucket from the well with a rope, when she heard a familiar voice and suddenly got up and looked up. The face was very ripe, the leather bands were fluffy, a few strands of long hair were fluttering in the air, plus it was well developed, and it was decently uneven, seeing this scene, Min Haoran's heart jumped suddenly, and he stared at it for a long time, until Zhao Ruyan lowered her head shyly.

"Why did you come here all of a sudden, it scared me. Zhao Ruyan straightened her clothes and hair a little, waking up Min Haoran's gaffe.

Zhao Ruyan also came back from the city not long ago, her skin was whiter and tenderer, and she looked even more charming and cute. She has learned the craft of tailoring, and is planning to open a tailor shop on the edge of the township, which will open in a few days. Taking advantage of the time when she was free before the opening, Zhao Ruyan helped her parents take care of the housework at home, and wanted to finish all the housework and try to make her parents work less, so she turned out some moldy winter quilts and clothes at home, washed them, and dried them.

"I'm going to Xinjiang in a few days. Although it was summer, but I didn't know where to put my hand, Min Haoran frowned, and simply put his hand in his trouser pocket, looking extremely lame, and speaking crisply.

"Why, now is the busy time for farming, do you still have the leisure to go to Xinjiang to play?" Zhao Ruyan thought that Min Haoran wanted to go to Xinjiang to play, so she came to tell her.

Of course, Zhao Ruyan was very happy about Min Haoran's arrival, she couldn't see Min Haoran for a day, and her heart was as loose and tight as her hair and ears, numb and itchy, but when Min Haoran suddenly said that she was going to Xinjiang, she was very surprised, and thought that Min Haoran had just graduated, stayed at home and panicked, and wanted to go out for a walk.

"It's not playing. Min Haoran was originally ready to talk, but when he came to him, he didn't know how to say it, he was nervous, and his tone was stiff.

"What are you going to do then?" Zhao Ruyan felt that Min Haoran was a little weird today, usually talking and laughing, and being 'obscene and trivial' in front of her, doting on sticky, I don't know how today's chat is so formal and polite, polite is more ordinary than ordinary friends. Min Haoran is half the sky to her, she is more sad than him when he is sad, she doesn't want Min Haoran to be a little unhappy, seeing Min Haoran's unnatural appearance, her heart is panicked, and she is nervous for a while, it is that he is trying to escape from something.

"Go over there and work, break through. Min Haoran was worried, his soul was not in his eyes, and the words popped out of his mouth word by word.

Min Haoran knew that Zhao Ruyan didn't know much about Xinjiang, he only knew that there was such a place as Xinjiang in China, a distant place, a distant place that didn't know the east, west, north and south, and when he heard that he was going to Xinjiang, he must have reacted very strongly. Min Haoran also knew that no matter what decision he made, Zhao Ruyan would support him, but he didn't know the bottom of this decision.

"Work? Not a joke, how did you think of going to work in Xinjiang? Zhao Ruyan asked in surprise.

Zhao Ruyan thought that Min Haoran was here to help him open a tailor shop to come up with ideas, before she told Min Haoran about opening a tailor shop, seeing that Min Haoran did not squeak, she was still a little angry, no matter how she said it, she should also say something of support and encouragement to her, and make suggestions.

Hearing Min Haoran say that he was going to work in Xinjiang, there seemed to be a thunderstorm on his head, and he didn't even believe his ears, like a dream. Could it be that Min Haoran had a plan for a long time, and he never thought about living with him for the rest of his life? The former love vows were just to coax the child to play at home, otherwise he should have come to discuss with her earlier, and he would not have decided to leave before coming to say hello to her, even ordinary friends would not be in such a hurry, not to mention that she was his lover and her fiancée. Zhao Ruyan's heart was churning with oil, salt, garlic, ginger and vinegar, dizziness, and numbness in her hands and feet.

"Yes, it's far away, but I want to go there, and I received three letters from university, one from Shanghai Binhu Farm, one from a Sino-foreign joint venture in Dongguan, and one from Xinjiang. I also thought about it for a long time, but I still think that Xinjiang is more suitable for me. Zhao Ruyan couldn't hide her anger, Min Haoran saw that she must be in a very unhappy mood at this time, she couldn't feel guilty, and her firm determination was not so firm.

When he was about to graduate, many places and units had people go to the school to recruit people, and Min Haoran chose some units he was interested in to submit a cover letter, and these three places and units sent him acceptance letters. I wanted to discuss with my parents and Zhao Ruyan, but I thought that even if I discussed, what advice could my parents and Zhao Ruyan give him, it was nothing more than to ask him not to go so far, no one would support his idea, so why bother to increase his troubles, just cut through the mess quickly, and didn't tell them until time hit him.

"Why haven't I heard you say it before, so what should we do, have you thought about it?" Zhao Ruyan saw that Min Haoran was not joking, it seemed that she didn't take her to heart, she was very unhappy, like ice water, she sadly poured a basin of laundry water on Min Haoran's heels, Min Haoran bounced back a few steps, and glanced at Zhao Ruyan awkwardly.

"I'm here to discuss with you, can you go with me?" Min Haoran thought that Zhao Ruyan would definitely go with him, and he believed that the power of love was invincible. They are childhood sweethearts, two little guesses, Zhao Ruyan loves to listen to him the most, and has never objected, besides, they have also experienced some ups and downs, after all, they have built a nest of love, and he believes that Zhao Ruyan will support his dream.

"Haoran, this is a big thing, and my parents will definitely not agree to it. How could they be willing to let me go so far away because of my daughter, and besides, I don't worry about my parents when I go so far. Zhao Ruyan looked at Min Haoran blankly, struggling in pain in her heart.

In terms of emotion, of course Zhao Ruyan will follow Min Haoran, but after all, her parents only have a daughter like her, and the tutor of filial piety to her parents and heaven and earth is deeply imprinted in her heart. If she followed Min Haoran to Xinjiang, the people in the village would break the backbone of her parents, and she would not be able to raise her head in the village, and she would definitely die of sadness. The last time she left her parents for a year to learn a craft, when she came back, she saw that her parents were much older, her heart was dripping blood, hating herself for not saying goodbye, which made her parents worry and trouble, and secretly vowed to live by her parents' side for the rest of her life and never leave.

Zhao Ruyan's parents are honest villagers, and because they have no son, they are bullied everywhere in the village, and they dare not speak out. Fortunately, her parents have some skills, her mother can grind tofu, her father can make rice noodles, and the husband and wife run the family workshop while you move to me. There is an unwritten rule in the village that only the red ding (boys) will give the land, and the girls will not be able to share the land, so there is not much land at home. Every day, my father carried rice noodles in a bamboo basket, and my mother carried tofu in a bamboo basket to sell them in the streets and alleys. At that time, rural people had little spare money, and generally exchanged rice for tofu or rice noodles, and some exchanged scrap copper and rotten iron for scrap copper and rotten iron or something, in exchange for scrap copper and rotten iron and then sold in scrap stores, so Zhao Ruyan's father's shoulders were heavy burdens all day long, and his back became more and more rickety. I wanted to provide Zhao Ruyan with a good school, let her be a city person, and stretch her brows with a long face. But when she was in junior high school, she saw Xiong Zhihao pestering her every day, and her parents were worried that they wouldn't let her go if there was a mistake.

"Think about it yourself, if you want to go with me, and then discuss it with your parents, I would love to have you go with me. Min Haoran had a command in his tone, and in love, he seemed selfish and naïve, and his thoughts were pure and self-righteous.

"Where you go, I'll go too, I'm your man. But my parents are old, and when I leave, my parents have no one to take care of, they will definitely not agree, what do you tell me to do, you empathize with my feelings. Zhao Ruyan pouted, looking sad.

Zhao Ruyan knew that his parents would definitely not agree, and he was deeply upset that Min Haoran suddenly proposed to go to Xinjiang, where to go is not good, he has to go to Xinjiang, why can't he consider his situation and feelings.

"That...... Zhihao, how is he?" Min Haoran saw that Zhao Ruyan was a little unhappy, and the jealousy came up again, he thought that Zhao Ruyan couldn't let go of not only his parents, but also Xiong Zhihao.

Xiong Zhihao has not given up since the 'decisive battle' with him, and he is still chasing after Zhao Ruyan, vowing to win a match with Min Haoran. Xiong Zhihao's way of chasing Zhao Ruyan is very special, and he uses all his resources to attack Zhao Ruyan's parents, not only with rhetoric, but also with help inside and out, so as to please the elders. He knew that Zhao Ruyan was a filial girl, obedient to her parents, as long as she took down her parents, Zhao Ruyan would not be able to refuse. The rod does not blame the gift-giver, and the person who does not punish the helper, for Xiong Zhihao's pursuit of twists and turns, Zhao Ruyan stared dryly, and there was nothing to do.

"He sometimes comes to my house to help, and my parents have no objections, but Haoran, you know, what I like is you, I only have affection for him, you don't have no feelings for him, don't tell him every time it's good or not, it's annoying. ”

Zhao Ruyan was afraid that Min Haoran would mention Xiong Zhihao every time, but Min Haoran didn't open which pot to mention, how many times she explained, Min Haoran still minded. Zhao Ruyan couldn't figure out why a man was smaller than a woman's heart, like a needle's nose, and there was no capacity in his stomach at all.

"I know, what if your parents don't let you go with me?" Min Haoran knew that Zhao Ruyan loved him, but when he thought of Xiong Zhihao, he was inexplicably stunned. What he thinks about is that he and Zhao Ruyan will fly away, and there will be no endless entanglement with Xiong Zhihao.

"You tell me to think about it. Zhao Ruyan didn't know what to do, she was entangled, and lowered her head and played with her fingers.

On one side is a lover, and on the other side is a parent, both of whom are dearest and beloved people, but now there are two parallel lines in front of them, there is no intersection, and Zhao Ruyan is difficult to play.

Min Haoran swept around from the corner of his eyes, and the villagers at this time all went to work in the fields. He walked up to Zhao Ruyan and hugged Zhao Ruyan. For a long time, Min Haoran held Zhao Ruyan's cheeks with both hands and stared at her eyes: "I'll wait for your news." Then, the broken bicycle was pushed away, leaving Zhao Ruyan with teary eyes.

When Min Haoran asked Zhao Ruyan to discuss going to Xinjiang, Zhao Ruyan's tailor shop was about to open, and with the opposition of Zhao Ruyan's parents, Min Haoran could only go to Xinjiang alone for the time being. Min Haoran wanted to wait until he settled down in Xinjiang before picking up Zhao Ruyan.

Since Min Haoran 'disappeared', in Zhao Ruyan's heart, those loves carved in stone are like flowers on cement, which can't withstand wind and rain. She felt that Min Haoran was like a kite, but there was an invisible love tethered, and as soon as she let go, she would fly away, and she didn't want to have such a fearful and uneasy love.

Human hands are so big, there are too many things that can't be grasped. The sand that can't be held is better than raising it, Zhao Ruyan can't bear it, and she really wants to let go.