Part-time work is not a big deal.

Anyone who earns money on their own deserves to be recognized.

What He Yuan didn't understand was just why Tang Duoduo came out to work part-time.

After all, everything happens for a reason.

For example, part-time jobs.

Generally speaking, people who do this are divided into two situations.

Either you need money, or you need to be affirmed.

Money, Tang Duoduo should not be lacking, not to mention the money left by Tang Lao, let's just say that He Yuan's weekly living expenses are not a small amount for a girl of her age.

So, it needs to be affirmed?

If this is the reason, He Yuan has to ponder whether there is something he has not done well these days.

Thinking about it like this, He Yuan suddenly felt a little tired.

Although he also knew before that it was not easy to be a parent.

But when He Yuan sat in this position by himself, he knew how difficult it was.

In the past, when He Yuan was a child, he occasionally thought that my parents didn't care about me, they didn't understand me, they didn't know what I wanted, and they didn't love me at all. But after changing his father's perspective, He Yuan thinks every day, what happened to Tang Duoduo, did she encounter something, why was she unhappy, why didn't she take care of me much, was she in a bad mood, or encountered any difficulties in life.

Sometimes, He Yuan also wanted to sit down with Tang Duoduo, and the two of them had a good chat. However, Tang Duoduo did not give him this opportunity at all.

Every time he said something, Tang Duoduo perfunctory him with "uh-huh-ahhh Let her say it herself, she said that she didn't have anything to do, but He Yuan could see that Tang Duoduo had something on her mind.

So He Yuan suddenly understood why some parents like to peek at their children's diaries, and even install cameras at home to secretly observe what their children are doing.

Although He Yuan did not advocate this kind of behavior, He Yuan did feel the helplessness in their hearts.

Children are reluctant to communicate with adults, and adults do not understand what children are thinking.

Not everyone has the observation ability comparable to that of a psychiatrist, and most parents are just ordinary people. Even the vast majority of parents, IQ and EQ, are only in the middle line – or even a little lower.

In that case, the child does not have to say anything, the parents can guess what the child is thinking, and everything they do is exactly what the child has in mind - in that case, just like the neighbor's child, they are someone else's parents.

He Yuan suddenly felt that he knew why most families were intergenerational.

Just like He Yuan's parents, they always felt that He Yuan's grandfather was very strict, they were not very close to him, and they were subconsciously afraid of him. He Yuan felt that grandpa was very good, whatever he wanted, grandpa would give, and even what he gave far exceeded what he wanted.

In the past, He Yuan didn't understand why Chinese grandparents always doted on their grandchildren. Now that I think about it, perhaps because of the traditional environment in China, most people are parents for the first time, and in the traditional Chinese concept, fathers must maintain their majesty in front of their children, so they are parents for the first time on the one hand, and on the other hand, they have to be constrained by traditional concepts, which will pull their relationship with their children farther and farther away.

By the time they learn how to be a good parent and how to maintain a relationship with their children, their children have grown up...... Of course, many people may not have learned how to be a good parent by the end.

But this does not prevent them from transferring the regrets they have for their children to their next generation.

It's a pity that He Yuan is such an ordinary person.

He is not the parent of "someone else's family", so he doesn't know what Tang Duoduo is thinking.

Tang Duoduo let out an "um", and then stopped talking.

She kept her head down, her eyes fixed on her toes, as if there was something on her feet.

Looking at her like this, He Yuan didn't know if he should continue.

On the one hand, He Yuan felt that the state of the two of them was a little abnormal. I want to solve this problem, but I don't know how to do it.

On the other hand, He Yuan was worried that if he pressed too hard, it would be easy to trigger Tang Duoduo's rebellious psychology. After all, adolescent children, any little stimulation, is easy to cause an uproar.

Perhaps, it's because I'm a man, so I'm a little estranged from her.

So, wouldn't it be better to communicate with her with a different woman?

He Yuan thought about this possibility in his heart.

It's a little ashamed to say, although He Yuan now treats Tang Duoduo as a sister and Tang Duoduo as a child. But, to be honest, many times it is not him who is taking care of Tang Duoduo, but Tang Duoduo who is taking care of him.

In addition to giving Tang Duoduo "pocket money" on time every week, He Yuan provided her with a stay, and for the rest, he really didn't help Tang Duoduo.

The incident at school, and the matter with her relatives are not counted, it is a special circumstance, and it is not within the scope of He Yuan's consideration.

He Yuan even felt that if Tang Duoduo was still young and couldn't go out to work, she could actually leave He Yuan aside and live independently outside.

There is nothing far from it.

This made He Yuan feel as if he had become a superfluous person.

With something hidden in their hearts, the two walked one after the other towards the parking place.

He Yuan is in front, and Tang Duoduo is behind.

Because the squatting was a little numb, and the legs and feet had not eased up, He Yuan walked very slowly, very slowly.

Moreover, He Yuan was also a little worried, although he had been squatting in the toilet for a long time just now, but this time he was walking fast, and he was afraid that he would "goo" and rebel again.

After walking for a while, He Yuan finally relieved himself, and his calves finally felt again. Only then did he pause and let out a long breath.

To be honest, just now his lower body was numb, as if he had become a vegetative person, and he experienced the feeling of being half-paralyzed.

It's a terrible feeling.

It's like I've become a waste.

You can't do anything, you can't do anything.

He Yuan felt that if he was really unfortunate enough to be disabled, he would definitely want to die.

Back near the community, He Yuan found the car, and was just about to get into the car, He Yuan suddenly saw Tang Duoduo who was lowering his head and kicking the stone with his foot, thought about it, and said to her: "I just found a house, do you want to go and see it?"

"What?" Tang Duoduo looked up.

He Yuan didn't explain much, took Tang Duoduo and walked directly to the community.

Tang Duoduo looked at He Yuan from behind, and for a while, she still followed behind He Yuan and followed.

He Yuan found the place according to his memory.

Since getting rid of the situation of road idiot, no matter where you go, as long as He Yuan has been there once, and then goes a second time, you will definitely find a place.

After He Yuan entered the house, he turned on the light, and in an instant, the whole room became spacious and bright.

Looking at the room in front of him, He Yuan took a breath of satisfaction.

I have to say that this kind of room is a waste of space...... However, it feels really atmospheric.

Look at this living room, at a glance, it looks like a basketball court, and there is no cover at all.

Just looking at it makes you feel good.

It's like when I was in Beijing before, the house I lived in was basically cut off.

There will be no living room in the living room, and the balcony is even less likely to have a balcony, these two places will be divided by the landlord or in the middle, and the area is often not small, similar to the master bedroom, or even larger than the master bedroom area, at least two or three thousand a month, a little better even four thousand.

After living in that kind of place for a long time, He Yuan even felt that it was normal to have no living room and no balcony.

You live where you have a living room and a balcony?

Then you are really a local tyrant, such a room, the cost of a month is not low.

I don't dare to say more, at least a month to spread it, the price of four or five thousand is still there.

It's not that He Yuan doesn't have this money, it's just that he can't say it.

He is a single man, and he doesn't take his sister home, what is he doing in such a good room.

It's better to save the money, strive to save enough savings as soon as possible, and become a house slave as soon as possible.

Tang Duoduo also followed into the house, but she didn't go far, just stood at the door.

He Yuan walked around the house, pointed to the spacious living room, and said to Tang Duoduo: "What do you think, how is this room?" ”

As if he was afraid that Tang Duoduo would not understand, He Yuan explained to her again: "There are two floors here, this floor is the living room, and there are stairs next to it, so you can go to the upper floor." Above are the bedrooms, all of which are large open rooms, and the whole room is very airy, and they have all been renovated. In addition to the first floor is not yet furnished, the second floor has been made, and you can move in directly at any time, you see, how does the house feel. ”

To be honest, He Yuan felt that Ma Rong's hand was a bit small.

This kind of large-scale decoration, He Yuan has only seen it in that kind of high-end apartment.

If you don't mention Beijing, let's talk about Chengdu, there is an apartment called Armani, which is decorated in this style. The price seems to be 100,000 square meters, designed by Hong Kong's top designers, and it is very luxurious.

He Yuan used to like this type of house very much, and always felt that the space was a little more open, and people's mood was also a little more comfortable. Especially if you live in a high-rise building, looking down from the upper floor, there will be a refreshing feeling of "being at the top".

His dream was to earn enough money to buy a house like this.

However, as he knew more things, He Yuan gradually learned that such a house type is very rare.

Generally speaking, ordinary houses will not choose such a design because it is too wasteful of space. For Gangyi, they need a large area and a large bedroom, so that the family can live together. This kind of house, the space is big enough, but the room is obviously insufficient, you can't have children in the future, after picking up the parents, everyone sleeps in a room, right?

As for the words of investors...... If they didn't just need to be a pick-up man, who would they buy this kind of house and sell it to?

Therefore, the direct result is that this kind of house type is generally only done in high-end apartments. After all, people who can afford to live in this kind of place care more about the quality of life than about the needs of those who are careful.

If that's all there is to it, then He Yuan can not care about the property rights of the apartment for only 40 years, or the high cost of commercial water and electricity. It's a pity that housing prices have risen too fast, so fast that He Yuan can only touch a tail when he tries his best.

When he realized that no matter how hard he tried, he could only make a down payment, He Yuan extinguished those messy thoughts. Instead, I began to think about where and what kind of house to buy, which can afford the down payment, and also the marriage house, as well as the future work situation and the education of children.

After all, people have to return to reality.

Ma Rong's house made He Yuan very satisfied.

The only pity is that this house is not in Beijing, Shanghai and Guangzhou, and it is not a high-rise house.

Even He Yuan stood at the window and looked down, and could clearly see the cars parked downstairs, as well as the people coming in and out of the community.

There is no such pleasure as "seeing the mountains at all".

It can be said that in the midst of satisfaction, there is a little regret.

Tang Duoduo's gaze swept around the room for a while, and after a while, she nodded expressionlessly: "It's not bad." ”

Her casual appearance made He Yuan frown, but she quickly stretched out again.

"You go up and have a look, and if you like, the upper floor will make you a bedroom. He Yuandao.

"Do you want to drive me away?" Tang Duoduo unconsciously stood up straight, staring at He Yuan with two eyes.

"I'm not going to drive you away, I'm going to come with you. He Yuan explained.

Hearing this, Tang Duoduo's body relaxed slightly, but soon she frowned and said, "You want to move?"

"Hmm. ”

"Okay, why move. ”

"You have to go to school, live below, live, travel, it's not convenient. He Yuandao.

Although the bus stop near the old house is quite close to them, just a few minutes walk every day. However, the interval between each bus is very long, basically about half an hour.

Even if it takes a long time, the bus has to go around a big circle, and it has to go through a lot of fields, communities, the road is relatively long, and the personnel are more complicated. Especially at night, the old house is surrounded by black lights, and there are fewer people, although there is no danger, but in general it is still very inconvenient.

Although for He Yuan, these are not things, but Tang Duoduo is different from He Yuan after all. He Yuan felt that it was a very inhumane thing to force others to live the same life as himself when conditions permitted.

At least in the hometown of this place, if you tell others about the road situation, out of ten people, nine people will suggest renting a house near the school, and the remaining one will directly propose to live in the school.

"No, I think it's good to live down there. Tang Duoduo refused.

He Yuan smiled and said, "That house is going to be taken out to be a homestay, you see, I don't have a job now, so I have to earn some extra money to support you." ”

He Yuan made a joke.

"If you're just going to make money, you don't have to change it. Tang Duoduo said, "You save the money from renting a house, and I will support you with the rest." ”

He Yuan subconsciously glanced at Tang Duoduo.

Then I saw Tang Duoduo's eyes staring at him.

There is no dodge.

That look is exactly the same as He Yuan's eyes when he was a child, when his mother joked with him, saying that in the future, when the old man was no one to support him, he replied, "I will raise you".

Originally, if he wanted to export, he couldn't get out in an instant, He Yuan was silent for a while, and said: "The life below is a little too inconvenient, if you move here, whether it is the living environment or travel life, it will be much more convenient." And, don't you like such a big house?"

He Yuan changed his mind and used the method of dialogue with adults to talk to Tang Duoduo on an equal footing.

He realized that Tang Duoduo was not the kind of child who was full of childishness and didn't understand anything, and he couldn't bear to treat her the way he treated a child, it was too unfair to her.

"No, here, it feels too cold. Tang Duoduo glanced at the room again, then lowered his head and said.

Too cold?

He Yuan followed Tang Duoduo's gaze and glanced at the empty hall, with thoughtful thoughts in his eyes.

The house is really empty, lots of space, and the décor is all in cool tones.

Although for He Yuan, this is a style, a cold style, and a simple style, but for children, it does seem relatively cold, and there is no such warm color decoration that looks comfortable.

After thinking about it for a while, He Yuan said tentatively: "Why don't we paint the wall again?"

When this sentence came out, He Yuan felt a little distressed.

To be honest, he thinks this style of decoration is already very good.

In terms of his aesthetics, he can score at least about eight points...... This is already very high, and the old house he renovated himself has only scored a six, which is a passing score.

The main thing is that although He Yuan has worked hard, he is decorating for the first time after all, and he is not studying graphic design.

What I have in mind is one set, and the specific decoration is another.

Therefore, there is a specialization in the art industry, and sometimes professional things should be handed over to professional people to do, don't think how powerful you are, you want to intervene in everything, thankless.

Tang Duoduo stopped talking again.

He Yuan could see that she was not in a good mood.

“…… Let's go back first. He clapped his hands and said to Tang Duoduo.

Turning off the lights and coming out of the house, the two found the car again and sat down.

He Yuan drove the car, and Tang Duoduo sat next to her.

Along the way, Tang Duoduo didn't speak, and the atmosphere seemed a little silent.

He Yuan's eyes kept staring at the road, occasionally glancing at Tang Duoduo.

There was no expression on his face, but many thoughts flashed through his heart.

After a long time, He Yuan sighed in his heart and said, "You...... What's going on lately?"

Tang Duoduo seemed to be in a daze, and when she heard this, she raised her head and looked at He Yuan, a little dazed in her eyes.

He Yuan organized his words in his heart and said, "I feel that you seem to have something on your mind and don't want to tell me. If something happens to you, tell you directly, and if you don't tell me, I don't know the situation. ”

After Tang Duoduo listened, she didn't react, she lowered her head and played with her nails. It took a long time for her to whisper: "No, it's nothing." ”

"Say, what's the matter, just say it directly, can't you believe me?" He Yuan tried to slow down his tone, so as not to make Tang Duoduo think that he was questioning her, "Is it a problem with study, or a problem with life?" I see that you come out to work part-time, do you have no money, you lack money...... Are you going to buy something?"

"There is no shortage. Tang Duoduo said, turning his head and looking out the window.

After a while, Tang Duoduo said in a low voice: "He Yuan, do you want to get rid of me." ”

He Yuan's driving hand paused, he turned his head to look at Tang Duoduo, his face was a little surprised: "Shake you off, why do you think so?"

"If you didn't want to get rid of me, then why did you let me go to the Foreign Chinese Academy, and why did you move to a new house. Do you think I'm a nuisance, don't you think I'm a drag bottle, don't you think I'm ...... I have a life, no one wants it, you're like them, and you don't want me. Tang Duoduo's voice was a little hoarse.

The bangs on her forehead fell, covering her eyes.

Only then did He Yuan know that Tang Duoduo had made so many assumptions based on his behavior.

"He Yuan, if you hate me, just tell me. You don't want to act like you're kind to me and get rid of me at the same time. Tang Duoduo raised his head, tears flowed out of his eyes, soaking his sweater, "I beg you, don't do this, I really can't stand it, I can't stand it." ”

Sting.

He Yuan shook the head of the car and stopped the car on the side of the road.

He holds the steering wheel with both hands, his eyes fixed on the front.

Tang Duoduo sat next to him, tears slipping down his cheeks.

The subtle sound, through the air, reached He Yuan's eardrums, making his heart feel like a stone.

It's heavy.

For a long time, He Yuan rolled the window and breathed in the outside air.

The cold wind blew in through the car window, freezing his cheeks red.

He Yuan took out a cigarette, lit one for himself, and squinted out the window.

At this time, he should have hugged Tang Duoduo and comforted her, no, how could I do this, I didn't dislike you, let alone leave you.

But He is far from it.

He smoked cigarettes, puff after puff.

Tang Duoduo next to him lowered his head, and tears kept falling.

For a long time, He Yuan looked out the window and opened his mouth: "You, why are you so similar to me." ”

Tang Duoduo raised his head and looked at He Yuan.

He Yuan shook his head with a smile, he turned his head to look at Tang Duoduo, especially her red eyes, and her stubborn expression that bit her lower lip tightly and didn't say a word, her face became even softer.

"It's like. He Yuan stretched out his hand and touched Tang Duoduo's head.

Under Tang Duoduo's gaze, He Yuan withdrew his hand, put it on the steering wheel, looked into the distance, and said quietly: "We are all the same people, so I tell you directly, I don't dislike you, and I won't leave you, you will still feel uneasy in your heart." ”

"I used to be like that, for example, if I greeted someone and they didn't respond, I wondered if they didn't notice me, or if they had some opinion about me and didn't like me. Or, if I send a message to someone and they don't reply to me right away, I wonder if he's busy right now and doesn't notice, or if he's not satisfied with what I'm doing and is angry and ignores me. ”

"When I was sent to live with relatives when I was a child, I always wondered if it was because I was disobedient or if something wasn't good enough, my family didn't want me anymore. ”

"So whenever a relative jokes with me that my family has left me to someone else and doesn't want me, I will hide in the corner and cry secretly while saying that my dad won't be like this. So every time I go back, when I hear my relatives say that I was a crying dragon bag (crybaby) when I was a child, I panic, because at that time, I really felt that they didn't want me anymore, so they would foster me outside. ”

"You, just like I did back then, are full of sensitivity and uneasiness. Because, we are all highly sensitive personalities. ”

He Yuan turned his head and looked at Tang Duoduo, the more he looked, the more he felt that Tang Duoduo was the same as himself.