Chapter 207: Repression

Originally, Tao Zhongming, who was in the room, heard the movement in the living room, and came out in a hurry, looking at the two people hugging each other, Tao Zhongming was also very puzzled, I don't know what the situation is now, obviously it was all fine just now, how could this be like this for a while.

"What's the matter, what are you crying for a while!", Tao Zhongming frowned, walked to Tao Jingjing's side, looked at Wanwan and said.

The Wanwan child only kept crying silently, and did not answer Tao Zhongming's words at all, and Tao Jingjing was also only concerned about comforting the Wanwan child, although she paid attention to Tao Zhongming walking out of the room, but she didn't pay attention to what he said.

Tao Zhongming looked at the two people, one only cared about crying, and the other only cared about comforting the person who was crying, and none of them answered their questions at all, especially the children in the evening, less than two minutes, obviously they still looked innocent, happy and cute when they entered the room, why did they turn around and go out of a door, it didn't work, crying like this, which made Tao Zhongming very strange, and the two of them didn't say anything, which made Tao Zhongming, who was already a little angry, even more wrong, so Tao Zhongming pulled Tao Jingjing and Wanwan's children away looked at the two of them seriously, then pointed to the sofa next to them and said, "I haven't passed this year, what are you making trouble one by one, let me go over there honestly!"

Saying that, Tao Zhongming himself also turned around and sat on the sofa, staring at the two of them coldly, the Wanwan child who had been crying seemed to be frightened, and he didn't dare to cry and had been sobbing silently, and Tao Jingjing looked at the Wanwan child and looked at the angry grandfather, she was very helpless to herself, what did she do, let things develop to this point all of a sudden. Although she was very self-blaming, Tao Jingjing still consciously pulled the Wanwan child, silently followed behind Tao Zhongming, and sat silently in a corner of the sofa, bowing her head, waiting for Tao Zhongming's lecture.

Tao Zhongming looked at the late children who were still sobbing silently and Tao Jingjing, who was like an angry little daughter-in-law, and didn't know how to express his feelings at this moment, he looked at the two people silently for a long time, and finally just sighed deeply, and saw the two people with a headache and said: "Okay, you two don't look like you have been greatly wronged, one by one said what happened to the two of them?"

Hearing Tao Zhongming's voice, Tao Jingjing silently raised her head and glanced at the Wanwan child who was no longer crying but was stunned, and knew that this child was absolutely unreliable at a critical moment and was looking for trouble for himself, if he didn't say it at this moment, grandpa would definitely be even more angry, so Tao Jingjing silently gave herself a soothing expression in her heart, and then lowered her head this year, avoiding Tao Zhongming's gaze and said: "Grandpa, I was scared late just now, but I didn't mean to, I already apologized!" In the end, Tao Jingjing seemed to explain in a hurry, lest Tao Zhongming misunderstand.

Saying that, Tao Jingjing hurriedly said to Wanwan's children: "Yes, Wanwan, my sister didn't bully you!", as if she wanted Wanwan's children to testify, she looked at Tao Zhongming very innocently.

Tao Zhongming looked at Tao Jingjing's expression and the way he spoke, he wanted to get angry but couldn't do anything, more sadness, sadness for himself, and disappointment in himself, what's wrong with himself, what's wrong, and his own children, what's wrong, it seems that something is wrong for a long time, Tao Zhongming realized for the first time that he never realized the problem.

suddenly realized the seriousness of the problem, Tao Zhongming suddenly came from his heart, and then the tears wanted to fall down, and quickly turned his head, not wanting Tao Jingjing to see but never thought that his expression did not escape Tao Jingjing's eyes, and it was also very frightened Tao Jingjing and then inexplicably panicked, I don't know what is wrong, and hurriedly said to Tao Zhongming:" Grandpa, what's wrong with you, I really didn't bully Wanwan, don't be angry, I'm sorry, I was wrong, I didn't take good care of my sister as a sister, it's my fault, you're not too angry!"

"I'm sorry Wanwan, my sister shouldn't be angry at you, but my sister didn't mean to, my sister was just anxious, my sister ......"

Tao Jingjing thought it was because she made Wanwan cry, looking at Tao Zhongming's appearance, she quickly apologized constantly, apologized to Tao Zhongming, apologized to Wanwan's children, but she didn't know what she said anymore, what she said was incoherent, she always thought that she had done something wrong, everyone's bad mood was because of her own reasons, she always wanted to take care of everyone's emotions, so that everyone could be very happy, without any burden and thinking about meeting all the expectations of the people around her, so in the end, Tao Jingjing didn't know what she should do, or what was rightis the one who will not disappoint others.

And looking at Tao Jingjing like this, Tao Zhongming is even more sad, this moment is to determine the idea in his heart, and this idea makes Tao Zhongming very sad, he always thinks that his family has done a good job, and he is trying his best to do his best but ignoring the so-called good of his own family, which may be a burden, for the burden of the people around him, especially seeing Tao Jingjing, who casually stops all his mistakes and keeps apologizing, makes Tao Zhongming very sad, he hurt people in the name of love after all, and this person is still his favorite and dearest person。

"Grandpa, I'm sorry, I ......"

"You're not wrong, you're not wrong, what are you sorry for, who taught you to admit that you were wrong casually, and keep apologizing when you talk about it, did your father and I teach you like this, how to teach you, I forgot it, what to do, the reason is not clear, to convince people, these are forgotten......"

Tao Zhongming finally said and spoke, all crying, and his emotions couldn't be controlled.

Tao Jingjing, who was still lowering her head, thinking about apologizing, and thinking about asking her grandfather not to be so sad, was suddenly shocked by Tao Zhongming's words, raised her head suddenly, and looked at Tao Zhongming with surprise and didn't know what to say.

"What kind of expression do you look at me, am I not right, your father and I have worked so hard to teach you, to apologize at every turn, to put all the mistakes on yourself without saying a word, to teach you to discern right and wrong is all nonsense? The truth that teaches you is bullshit? What about your own thoughts, your own understanding, you have read all these years in vain......"

Tao Zhongming asked Tao Jingjing's heart to fluctuate word by word, what is right and wrong, and what is right and wrong...... In fact, Tao Jingjing feels that it is too far away for herself, she can do it without disappointing the people around her, no matter what reason it is, what is non-judgment, these are bullshit, don't you know, but how do people do it, people are not in accordance with the rules, not they live well, and life is very good even better than their own life. And I have never had my own ideas, since I was a child, my own ideas have never been important, and my own decisions have never been seen, only once, after all, I was still made by my own little thoughts, I don't have any ideas, as long as everyone's ideas are good, and as long as I do what everyone thinks, it's good, it's good......

"That's so disappointing to me, you've really read books in vain all these years, I knew that I would lock you up in my hometown like this, and I won't let you come out, you ......"

"Grandpa, what are you disappointed about, disappointed that I didn't satisfy you? disappointed that I didn't take good care of my sister, or disappointed that I didn't do everything you said?"

At this moment, Tao Jingjing didn't know if she was stimulated by the words in Tao Zhongming's words, and suddenly said to Tao Zhongming very hard, "Then grandpa should have locked me up at home a long time ago, or shouldn't have let me be born, so that everyone is fine, so that grandpa doesn't have to be so tired, right? Grandpa said that he was disappointed in me, did he wish I had died, did he think that I was a waste of food when I lived, was it ......?"

"Tao Jingjing ......", Tao Zhongming's face turned pale and looked at Tao Jingjing more and more, and he couldn't help yelling at Tao Jingjing, "Yes, I've been thinking about why you don't die, why don't you die early!"

"Look, this is what you really think, you have long wished that my scourge would have died a long time ago, and then there would be nothing left!", Tao Jingjing said very sadly, depressed like a dark cloud that had been suppressed for several quarters.

In fact, Tao Zhongming had already talked to Tao Jingjing when he had a thorough conversation with Ms. Tao Liyun after the accident, his thoughts on Tao Jingjing, to be precise, should be after her father's accident, there was a period of time about her thoughts, Tao Zhongming at that time said that if there was no resentment, he would not believe it himself, the fact is that he resented his granddaughter, and was willing to hate this granddaughter, everything he had done, and the heart he had broken, especially the sudden death of the son who was given his high hopes, made Tao Zhongming unable to accept the blow all of a sudden, and saw this granddaughter who he had bothered to raise for so long again, I still don't listen to anything, or I feel that what I heard and saw before is not wrong...... But later, time dissolved everything, especially the long years, watching the days pass like flowing day by day, Tao Zhongming finally realized that the talent by his side is the most important.