The things that have happened and the words that have been spoken, in the process of forgetting on their own side, have long been forgotten, especially the resentment towards relatives, in fact, it is only temporary, and the love for relatives is the longest. So in the back, the two people depend on each other and accompany each other When the time comes, Tao Zhongming slowly let go of all the knots in his heart, as well as those attachments to the past, what is in front of him is the most important, whether it is people or things, it is the most important thing to be with him, everyone is looking at money, so he let himself look forward, and constantly persuaded this granddaughter who has been immersed in the pain of the past since then, this granddaughter who has been forgiven, also look forward, they all look forward, so that life can continue, so that life can go on, so that life can go on。

Over the long years, time has gradually worn away everyone's edges and corners, as well as stubbornness about everything.

Tao Zhongming actually thought that he had learned to forgive, forgive the world's unfairness to himself, the unfairness to his family, forgive those relatives who he once treated with his heart and lungs, the unfairness to himself, the unfairness to his family, forgive those who have already decided to repay their grievances with virtue, and those who insist on hurting themselves...... But later I found out that the world is so unfair, so the people who are good to them, try to forgive those who are wrong, and never feel that they have hurt others, hurt other people's feelings, and hurt their families. Tao Zhongming has always been depressed, suppressing his emotions, suppressing all the problems, all the emotions, at this moment, he shouted at Tao Jingjing, I don't know if this moment is his venting, but Tao Jingjing feels liberated, as if her grandparents heard her grandfather say, I hope she dies, in this way, she is finally liberated, in fact, she also thinks about how good it is to die, yes, how good it is to die, it will be a hundred when you die, dead, everything does not have to think about death, then no matter how much sadness this world brings to you, then it has nothing to do with yourself, and you don't have to bear those so-called responsibilities, as well as the deep sorrow and self-blame in my heart.

......

"Actually, I also think that I should have died a long time ago, how good it is to die, so that everyone is liberated, right, grandpa?"

After listening to Tao Zhongming's words, Tao Jingjing suddenly smiled very sadly, but suddenly seemed to be relieved, as if she heard what she wanted to hear, she smiled and said to Tao Zhongming with tears in her eyes. But Tao Zhong is clearly different, he already regretted it after he said that he let Tao Jingjing die, and he already regretted it as soon as the words came out, the two of them had already talked about each other's emotions, and now his sudden outburst made Tao Zhongming at a loss, he looked at Tao Jingjing's bleak smile, wanted to reach out and touch Tao Jingjing's hair, wanted to comfort her, but he didn't make a move, and he didn't know what to do to redeem what he had just said.

"Huahua, I'm ......", Tao Zhongming wanted to say it, but he didn't know what to say, but he didn't say anything after all.

"Actually, I know that you all hate me, hate me for bringing so many things, hate me for being disobedient, hate me for making the family that didn't buy it fall apart......"

"All of you, grandpa, aunt and even Yu Xiang, Ziyu and Zhuo Yan, all of you people, all these people, I know it's all my fault, it has brought all kinds of regrets and sorrows to you people, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I've tried to do everything well, try not to disappoint all of you, try to make everyone feel that life is worth it, but I've done my best, I've really tried my best, I don't know how to do next? Or how to do it, so that you can all be satisfied, you all think that what I did is good, you all don't think you hate me, I really don't know what to do, grandpa, you tell me, how can I do you be satisfied?

This Tao Jingjing's emotions were also out of control, she stood up, regardless of whether there were Wanwan children around her, whether it would scare her, and even at that moment, she didn't notice the existence of Wanwan's children, at this moment, because of Tao Zhongming's words, because of Tao Zhongming's expression, Tao's originally tense nerves were broken all of a sudden, and then they were no longer controllable. The emotions that had been suppressed for such a long time, and the sea of hearts filled with self-blame and remorse, suddenly surged, and then all the sea water gushed out uncontrollably.

Tao Zhongming was asked by Tao Jingjing for a moment, all along, he knew that his granddaughter was very self-blaming and remorseful, but he had tried not to think about the previous things, not to mention the previous things, he let his mind be calm, let himself look forward, and he was also trying to make his behavior show that he was indeed looking forward, and wanted to tell his granddaughter that after he had experienced all the things during that period, he had let go, he was also looking forward, and he also let his granddaughter look forward, but he always knew that things were not as simple as he thought, and the self-blame and remorse in his granddaughter's heartAt this moment, Tao Zhongming suddenly regretted that he had the urge to slap himself, why couldn't he control his emotions? Why did he say those words!

"Huahua, you heard grandpa say that it's not what you think, just now grandpa was emotionally out of control, what grandpa said was angry, not your true thoughts, you also know that grandpa told you, grandpa did get angry with you, especially when your dad had an accident, grandpa was really angry, there was really a moment really wanted you to die for your dad, but then grandpa also figured it out, just like grandpa told you, the people who accompany you are important, and all things are caused by things many years ago, there must be cause and effect, grandpa watched these things happen little by little, in the process of these things happening, More or less grandpa has a reason, even at the beginning of the matter, grandpa is also an elder, and grandpa also has to pay the main responsibility, but grandpa didn't care, didn't fulfill the responsibility of an elder, and let things happen, so that these juniors, even your generation will be implicated, really, Huahua, you have to believe grandpa, grandpa is absolutely telling the truth now. From the beginning, grandpa hopes that you can grow up without any twists and turns, and then start a family and have children, have a happy future, have a husband who loves you, and have a well-behaved child, this is really grandpa's biggest wish since you went to high school, even if it is your grandmother's grandmother, the biggest wish is to see you be able to start a family, but then a lot of things that happen are controlled by us, grandpa can now say that what grandpa just said is not sincere, grandpa apologizes to you. ”

Tao Zhongming said at this moment is sincere, but also really the expression of feelings, in fact, all things are a parent's mentality of looking at the child, dissatisfied with the child, dissatisfied with the child's doing, dissatisfied with the child's own growth, and dissatisfaction with those things that he interfered in was only at this moment suddenly erupted, but after all, parents still love their children, or hope that their children can have a very happy future, at this moment for Tao Zhongming, what he wants most is that Tao Jingjing can start a family, have a gentle husband, and a well-behaved child, but Tao Zhongming also knows that some harm is not on the surface, he is in his heart, He slowly eroded your flesh and bones in the long years in the past, so at this moment, he apologized for his impulsiveness, and also apologized for himself for cutting Tao Jingjing's heart hard.

"Uh-huh...... Hahaha......"

Tao Jingjing's emotions couldn't be controlled, at first she sneered, and then she laughed, and Tao Zhongming, who saw that the emotion was very wrong, frowned even more, and was able to kill mosquitoes, and Tao Jingjing suddenly stood up, and then staggered to the room, Tao Zhongming wanted to stand up and hold Tao Jingjing, but the outstretched hand could only reach Tao Jingjing's sleeve, and then looked at Tao Jingjing's background, and walked into his room full of sadness, Tao Jingjing never came out of the room that night, and Tao Zhongming also sat in the living room, looking at Tao Jingjing's room until dawn, and looked at Tao Jingjing's room intently, motionless, as if able to penetrate the door of a room, but unable to see anything, hear nothing, and not know exactly what to say.

When something is said, it will always be much better than saying everything and then silently stuffing it in your heart, especially for people like Tao Jingjing who have been suppressing their inner emotions, it may be even more so, but venting it, if you don't really face it but continue to escape, the problem will not be solved, just like the current Tao Jingjing and Tao Zhongming, obviously both of them care about each other, obviously a lot of words are also emotional venting, they are not sincere, but the two of them are avoiding all this like this, and the problem cannot be solved after all。 And then there is the shadow that has been left in the hearts of both people.

That night, Tao Jingjing sat alone in the room, didn't think about anything, didn't do anything, just looked out the window, watched the light outside the window dim little by little from the brilliant lights to the back, and then to the silence, and then it was the arrival of another new tomorrow, watching the morning sun that was showing its face little by little in the thick clouds in winter.