The next day, when Swei woke up, she was the only one left in the bedroom.

She went to the living room again to check, but there was no one to see.

For a while, it was impossible to determine whether Song Ju'an was really gone, so Si Wei changed into sportswear and went out.

The park is full of greenery, the stagnant water reflects the surrounding scenery, there are not many people running around, and there are some elderly people standing next to the exercise equipment, and the rhythm of the morning suddenly slows down.

Running the second lap, Si Wei's eyes inadvertently threw himself on the bench on the side of the road, and his speed slowly decreased.

After this lap, she wiped her sweat with the white towel on the back of her neck as she walked over and sat down.

Song Ju'an was still distracted, and when he noticed it, Si Wei was only a few steps away from him.

He unscrewed the cap of the bottle and handed it to the side, looking ahead: "Still running in the morning every day?"

Si Wei took a sip before replying: "Weekdays are exceptional, just occasionally run." ”

She twisted the cap of the bottle and suddenly said, "It should be last year now, I participated in that fire propaganda show, and time flies so fast." ”

Song Ju'an pondered for a moment and echoed: "It's quite fast." ”

Si Wei slowly smiled, and her voice was softer: "Do you want to go back to that time?"

"......" Song Ju'an was silent for a while, and said, "It's all just about thinking." ”

It was almost seven o'clock, and the sun still did not rise in the east, and when I looked up, I found that it was gray.

Si Wei looked at Song Ju'an for two seconds, then turned his head and removed his stiff smile at the same time.

She said: "Xiao Xu applied for a rural medical service and set off this afternoon. In a few days, I'm going to change my accommodation, do you think..."

"Let's separate. ”

This sentence was so bland that it made Si Wei's whole body cold, Xu was so cold that it couldn't arouse her emotions at all.

"Don't interrupt. It took a long time for her to hold back such a sentence, and her tone was fluttering.

"I'm serious. Song Ju'an said.

Perhaps in these days, he had already imagined the possibilities they would face each other, so that here and now, Swei was not too surprised.

But admittedly, this is bad news, and she can't accept it.

Time seemed to have passed for a long time, Si Wei was quiet for a while, and then said, "You heard it last night, didn't you?"

"Yes, but nothing to do with that. ”

Si Wei turned his head sideways and looked at him, Song Ju'an still maintained the posture of a few minutes ago, looking ahead.

He probably didn't look at her until she sat down.

"Is this your decision?" asked Swaye again.

"Yes. ”

Si Wei's eyes flashed, and she looked at him with a strange gaze, this man who seemed to be unable to afford anything, but it was the person she put in her heart.

Now, he was almost crushed by those heavy memories, and because of this, he chose to push her away.

"Your choice is so stylish. Swei said, "You made a decision, so you came to inform me?"

“……”

"I still don't understand, I told you that I don't care, why do you still think about everything so complicated?" asked Si Wei word by word, and stopped looking at him after asking.

"We don't have to get this far," she said. ”

Song Ju'an has been silent, he has his considerations.

When he gets stuck in the quagmire and can't get out, the more he wants to push everyone away, since he doesn't have all the strength on his shoulders, he always has to give up something, just think of himself as saving himself.

Si Wei said again: "Until now, you have not hesitated at all, if you insist on your choice, I will not embarrass you, but do you really not regret it?"

Song Juan seemed to think about it seriously, and this time he said: "No regrets." ”

Even if everything will develop in a good direction now, when he thinks about it in the future, he still thinks that today's choice is the right one.

Because in the future, he has his own place, and all he has on this road is his escape in the face of the unknown, and he must no longer use her life as an additional bet.

It's just that there is a little regret.

If he can work a little harder and be more open-minded, perhaps, he can successfully get through the current difficulties.

Siwei put down the water bottle and stood up.

"I see, Song Ju'an. She said, "I understand." ”

“…… I'm sorry. Only when she couldn't see it, Song Ju'an dared to set his eyes on her, and he said: "I shouldn't have made those promises to you, it's my rashness." ”

She had her back to him, and her figure was thin.

In Song Ju'an's eyes, she was alone and lonely.

He didn't notice that the hand on his lap was clenched into a fist as he spoke.

Si Wei froze in place, her body trembling slightly, she tried her best to hold back, slowly turned around, her slightly reddened eyes suppressed sadness, and she was still calm when she spoke.

"It's you who started to set up, admit that it's me who likes it, it's me who says you want to be together, and it's you who proposes to break up. Our relationship has come to this point, it's not that I didn't work hard, it's your self-righteousness, and you pushed me away first. ”

Leaving this sentence, she resolutely left.

When the wind picks up, she walks faster, not dragging the mud at all.

Song Ju'an lowered his head, released his fist, and slowly breathed a sigh of relief.

He had a feeling that in the future, there would only be strangers between them.

Back in the team, Song Ju'an went directly to the political and educational building.

Luo Qingqiang was not there, he was waiting in the office, his eyes falling on a document on the desktop.

Xu Heyan came back in the morning to pack his things, and when he left, the house naturally had to be returned.

Siwei was helping to fold the clothes next to her, quieter than usual.

Sensing that something was wrong, Xu Heyan pressed her movements and pretended to joke: "Weiwei, I'll leave for a year, so I'm reluctant?"

Swei glanced at her, then lowered her head and folded it again.

"It doesn't seem that I am reluctant, but ...... Captain Song messed with you?"

"We broke up. ”

Si Wei deserves to be fast, but Xu Heyan choked.

For a moment, Xu Heyan's heart moved slightly, "Firefighters have a lot of difficulties, they have to face and bear, we can't share them, all we can do is support and comfort, but some things can't be resolved by understanding support." ”

After a pause for a few seconds, Xu Heyan got up and stood by the window: "Although I don't know what their mood was when they wrote their suicide note, the last sentence Zheng Zhi left me was that what he promised me was something he really wanted to achieve, and it was true that he wanted to work together for a lifetime, and it was true that many things were unexpected." ”

"So slightly. She looked back.

Swaye looked at her.

The sun shines through the clouds, and the sun enters the house, warm and bright.

Xu Heyan looked at her directly, with a smile on his face: "If the memory is good, keep it in the memory, but we have to move forward, calmly and optimistically." ”

——

Office.

"What do you have to say about waiting here?" Luo Qingqiang asked.

Song Ju'an: "I applied for transfer to Jishan. ”

Luo Qingqiang was surprised, "Transferring from the squadron is not a trivial matter, why did you suddenly mention this?"

Song Ju'an looked at the documents on the table and raised his head again: "I saw the notice of personnel transfer two days ago, since there is no assignment, then I want to apply to go through the training." ”

Luo Qingqiang did not refuse, after all, in his opinion, with Song Ju'an's current situation, it would be the best choice to go to a remote and peaceful place like Jishan.

"I can't come back for a year, have you thought about it?"

Song Ju'an's face was serious: "I have taken care of all the private matters, as long as the corps approves it, I can leave at any time." ”

Luo Qingqiang squinted his eyes, vaguely understanding something, but he didn't ask.

"Okay, I'll arrange it as soon as possible. ”

"Thank you, Instructor. ”

After receiving the reply, Song Juan left the chair and walked out of the office.

In the afternoon, Siwei sent Xu Heyan to the airport, the taxi stopped, and as soon as they got off the bus, a man came over.

When Xu Heyan saw the other party, he was also surprised.

Si Wei fixed her eyes to see it, and she couldn't tell if she had seen it before, until Xu Heyan called "Doctor Xu", she had some impressions.

The two chatted for a while, and learned that Xu Yi was here to send friends, and they happened to run into them as soon as they came out.

recalled the look on the other party when he just got out of the car, and Si Wei was surprised, but he didn't point it out.

With Xu Heyan's departure, Siwei also began to deal with various matters before moving - packing his luggage and looking at the house.

About a week later, the house was settled, and if you take the subway, you will have to go one stop further than your current residence, the price will increase a little, and the house will be more spacious.

On Saturday afternoon, Siwei put everything away, and this time she cleaned up, and also turned out a few things that did not belong to her.

The bank card and passbook should be returned now.

After much thought, Swei decided to take the time to send him over.

With an idea, early the next morning, she went out.

The matter of the application was approved within a few days, and on Sunday morning, Song Ju'an stepped on the train to Jishan.

The night before, he informed Da Jiang about his departure, but did not inform the others, in order to leave quietly and save the boys some sensational scenes.

As a result, Brother Jiang Liu and several people squatted outside the train station early.

Song Ju'an got out of the car on the side of the road, and saw three or five people gathering there from afar, there was a kind of speculation at that time, and then at a glance, Da Jiang's black and strong body was waving at him, so there was no need to doubt it.

Da Jiang hooked Brother Liu's neck, and narrowed the distance in three steps and two steps.

Seeing this, Song Ju'an put down his bag on the spot, and waited for them to come over with both hands.

Looking at this scene, I suddenly felt very wonderful, a year ago he left the team to recuperate due to a recurrence of an old injury, and it was Zheng Zhi who accompanied him back, and after getting off the train, he was greeted by Zheng Yan and Hou Guang.

At the time, the four of them were still joking together.

In the blink of an eye, he will embark on a long journey again, and personnel will change drastically.

Wounded, sacrificed, discharged, all scattered.

"Captain, you left quietly like this, and the brothers didn't agree. As soon as Da Jiang came up, he blocked his eyes.

Song Ju'an looked at him with a smile: "If you don't agree, can you stop me?" After speaking, he gestured to his lap.

Da Jiang dodged and laughed.

In comparison, Brother Liu was more serious: "Da Jiang told everyone about your departure last night, we understand your thoughts, but we still have to see you off." As he spoke, he bent down and lifted the bag.

Song Ju'an took the bag and smiled: "Maybe I'll come back next year, a year seems to be a long time, but when I leave, you are busy with police training every day, so you don't have time to think about anything else." Also, tell the others on my behalf that I should be self-disciplined when I am not there, and if there is no new squadron leader transferred, Da Jiang, you will help the instructor to bring the team well, and don't lose the five-star honor of our squadron here with you. ”

When Da Jiang heard this, he immediately straightened up, leaned on his feet, and echoed "Yes!" sonorously.

Song Ju'an walked happily, waved his hand, and left only a "gone".

Be as chic as you are.

This journey he was going north, to be honest, he hadn't been to such a far place for so many years, but when he stepped on the train, his psychology was unexpectedly quiet.

He left everything behind and ran into the distance, seemingly evasive, but he was not looking for an answer, an answer that could untie all the shackles.

Whether the answer is a long time or a peaceful time, he has to go to that strange place and re-examine himself.

……

Outside the camp, Si Wei handed over the passbook and bank card to Luo Qingqiang.

Luo Qingqiang didn't ask much about the reason, but said: "He went back to Jishan this time, and it may take a year to come back." ”

Swei said "um".

Luo Qingqiang cleared his throat: "Song Ju'an has something he has to face, maybe the way he chooses, you can't understand, but it will be better than accepting psychological counseling and letting him get out of the shadows by himself." ”

Si Wei's nose was sour, and he changed his voice a little as he spoke: "Do you believe him?"

"Believe!" replied firmly, "Weiwei, no matter what happens between you, Uncle hopes that you can also start over, and this is what he wants." ”

Siwei nodded: "I will." ”

Walking on the road, she recalled many things, from reunion to confirming the relationship, how did she get to where she is today?

has witnessed the life and death of others, or struggled on the edge of life and death, he has fought hard, and he has also stood up, and in the final analysis, the sacrifice of his comrades-in-arms really forced him to retreat.

When I think of this, I seem to be able to understand his pressure and despair, but I can't seem to understand it.

She said so many times that she could stand behind him forever, but he still resolutely made a selfish decision - if he couldn't protect it, he would let it go.

That's a man's deal!

The train headed north, leaving the scenery far behind.

Song Ju'an pulled the curtain and slowly leaned on the back of the seat, looking very tired.

Because I can't protect it,

So he hugged and walked away.

Once a lot of tenderness,

Like you,

Not anymore.