"Do you also feel that the world is full of malice towards us? ”

As soon as he heard this, Ye Tian's entire body straightened violently like a spring, his pupils unconsciously dilated, and his whole body was upside down.

How can it be?

How did Li Feng know about his situation?

And it's only recently that he's felt that way.

He hadn't told anyone about it?

And why use it, Li Feng also felt it?

"What do you mean?" Ye Tian controlled the fluctuations in his heart and asked in a deep voice.

Li Feng didn't answer, but asked rhetorically, "Do you know how my eyes fell out of blindness? Do you know how my hands are useless?"

Ye Tian didn't say anything, because he knew that Li Feng would say it himself.

I only heard Li Feng continue: "I picked out my eyes by myself, and the injuries on my hands were bitten by myself. ”

The expression on Ye Tian's face became strange, revealing a trace of uncontrollable surprise.

Because he never thought that the answer would be this, the injuries on Li Feng's eyes and arms turned out to be caused by himself.

Looking at those empty eyes, as well as those hands that trembled from time to time, why did you be so cruel to yourself?

Without eyes, people like them who rely on their skills are basically wasted, and if they waste their hands, they will be all wasted.

I'd rather be a wasted person, making this kind of determination is not something ordinary people can make, for many people, this is more uncomfortable than death, especially those who have their own skills.

"Why are you doing this?" Ye Tian asked with some confusion.

He had also recently felt malice from an unknown enemy, the enemy was not yet known, and he was now guessing that it was an organization, but now Li Feng's words made him return to his previous guess.

He did have this feeling at that time, that kind of physical instinct, although it was nonsense, but the moment after encountering danger, he really felt that the world was not safe anywhere, and that feeling was extremely clear.

Li Feng still didn't answer directly, but said again: "I left Huaguo at the age of 18, in fact, it wasn't because I wanted to leave, No. 3, do you know that my learning ability is very strong?"

"Hmm. Ye Tian responded, the memories of his childhood, as well as the records on Li Feng's materials, all showed that Li Feng had a super learning ability, and he also had it.

"I did pass the psychometric test that year, but I actually cheated. With a hint of remembrance on his face, Li Feng said: " In fact, back then, when I was rescued, I really thought that life had been liberated, the darkness had finally passed, the light had finally come, I liked Huaguo very much, the people there were really good, they cared about you, they treated you sincerely, and their comrades-in-arms treated you as a brother, for more than two years, I felt unprecedented care, I thought I belonged there all my life, but I don't know why, my psychotherapy has not made much progress, so I was anxious, I secretly taught myself all kinds of psychology, through various aspects to achieve self-treatment, at the beginning it was indeed reduced, at that time I thought I could treat myself, there was no problem at all, so when I tested, using professional knowledge, easily passed the test. ”

Li Feng's voice became low, with a complicated look on his face that was difficult to hide, more of a look of grief," But that mission, my mental illness suddenly broke out, the alleviation was just an illusion, the outbreak became much more serious than the original, that day, I watched the object of protection and teammates die in front of me, there was a trace of pleasure in my heart, obviously my teammates trusted me so much, they died in front of me, looking at me with an incredible, with regret and incomprehension, I came back to my senses, regretted, I was extremely flustered, killed the enemy who attacked, and finally chose to escape, and once I left, I will never forget the way my teammates looked at me before they died。 ”

Ye Tian suddenly realized that there was no detailed description of this mission in the tracking report, so the details were not explained, and it turned out that it was like this from beginning to end.

Indeed, learning psychology is actually easy to circumvent psychological tests because you know what the other person wants to know.

In fact, the most difficult thing to treat is the mental illness of psychologists, because they themselves are more vigilant, because they know the rules, and their own psychological defense mechanism will be more difficult to break through.

"With this guilt and remorse, I became a mercenary, formed a mercenary squad, immersed in killing, hovering between life and death countless times, and because of my indulgence, although my heart was soothed, but at the same time, at the same time, my mental illness was more serious, and when I reacted, it was already very late, I began to study like crazy, and made up all kinds of knowledge, whether it was proven, or in the theoretical stage, my learning talent was exerted to the extreme, and I found that when I locked myself up, I limited my range of activities, and that state had little effect on me, so in the end I thought of a way, that is, through the healing of children, the nature of children is very innocent, because I made a lot of money as a mercenary, so I adopted war orphans everywhere, as well as wandering people, because of the tie, my heart did get a temporary haven. ”

Speaking of this, Li Feng's eyes became weird, and he continued to say loudly: "At this time, I found out that something was wrong, or something was wrong for a long time, but many times I forgot that when reason is replaced by killing, people will always ignore many details, and when people are involved, after worrying, reason replaces killing, and it will feel very weird." ”

Ye Tian frowned, he was trying his best to understand Li Feng's words, combined with his experience, but the key point had not yet come out, and he couldn't speculate on Li Feng's psychological state at this time.

"My individual combat ability is very strong, it is a commanding combat soldier, super learning ability, the protrusion of smell and hearing, so that I can not be disadvantageous in team battles many times, but many times my eyes seem to have problems, I will see many fantasies, and there is always a anger in my heart, which makes me want to rush up and fight with the enemy hand-to-hand, even if I am injured, even if I die, I don't mind, I didn't mind, but then with the children, I actually had this situation for a long time, and wanted to directly destroy the children in front of me, I originally thought it was my own violent tendency, but after careful analysis, it was not, it's like... It seems to be a death mentality, as if someone killed me and was relieved, but because I was strong, I survived. ”

Li Feng was caught in his own thoughts and couldn't extricate himself, with a hint of incredulity on his face, with a look of horror, he muttered to himself: "Do you understand that feeling? It was as if I was no longer myself, so strange, and then I left my children and led the team on a mission again, and I found that on the battlefield, this state of mine was even more serious, thinking about the previous more than a year, it was really luck to survive from the brink of death many times, I began to try to let reason replace my impulse, trying to suppress that feeling, at that time I was like fighting against the whole world, each time, it became more and more difficult. ”