The day after I returned home, my grandmother died, and for the first time in my life, I was beside her, holding her cold hand, and seeing death pass by.

According to custom, firecrackers rang out in the village, because it costs a fee to bury in the ground, almost every household in the village has to collect some money, and the main family wants to invite the helper to eat to express their gratitude, set up several tables, and borrow the neighbor's tables, chairs, dishes, chopsticks, etc. At the end of the day, my cousin and I had to go door-to-door to return the money, and at the last house we could finally rest, and the old lady of the house seemed to know that we were busy for a while, and was very enthusiastic, so she insisted that we have a drink of water before leaving. She said that she was the same age as my grandmother, and I said that she could not tell, that she was in good spirits, that she was not deaf, that she was blind, that she could trot, and that she showed her white teeth when she spoke. When I left, my cousin said that this grandmother was a believer, and often went to a mountain more than ten kilometers away, there was a Christian church there, and I had an understanding of Western Christianity for the first time, at least I had faith, just looking at the current situation, this old lady seemed to be right. My cousin's casual talk, but I pondered all the way.

In the evening I stayed at my cousin's house, which they had just built last year, and I thought to myself that my cousin didn't make more money in Beijing than I did, and he showed me a sketch of my grandmother.

"It's so good, who painted it?"

"You forgot what I do, I took my grandmother to Beijing before. ”

"I don't know, I'm going to be tossed by you at such an age, but now it seems that it's worth it. ”

"Yes, she also went to school to be a model, she experienced, and I was still thinking about the word dedication to art. The old man has no regrets in his life. ”

"If there is regret, it is that I did not see the day you got married. ”

"Speaking of getting married, we are both the end of the world, but you haven't found one outside all these years?"

"I can't meet it, you know? Maybe I think of love too beautifully, and I'm afraid of disappointment, sometimes I want to live alone. ”

"Do you want to be a bachelor for the rest of your life? As long as you want to, no one can control you, in fact, every man wants to be carefree, but that's called irresponsibility. ”

"You're right, love has nothing to do with marriage, it's that I prefer love. ”

"It's not to hit you, I went to your house before, and my aunt said that you didn't make much money, and if you really made money, you would do things differently. My cousin said with a smile.

"Yes, in today's society, if you don't have money, it's difficult to ask for a daughter-in-law, and what you do when you have money is right. "I'm thinking about my experience in Guangzhou.

"Then what are your plans in the future? Why don't you go to the south, come with me to Beijing, I have rented a big house there now, I will contact the school, arrange for someone, you can go over and help me, at least you can work more freely than you." ”

"I heard you're leaving the day after tomorrow? "It occurred to me that he was going to hire me, and I was a little skeptical of that freedom.

"What are you going to prepare, do you still have to go to Guangzhou to go through the resignation procedures? Time and travel expenses are money!"

My cousin suddenly worried about my future like an elder, and I didn't like to be asked questions that I didn't want to answer. Over the years, he has grown faster than me, and after seeing the things he came back to deal with this time, he meets the standards of an adult, and I still cringe a little, but I still feel that in private, in my heart, I can compare to him, people often like to care about other people's lives, I thought of my uncle in the next room at this time, these days are also expressionless, very sad, so I changed the topic, I didn't expect my cousin's words to increase.

"Don't talk about me, what about you? I remember that you started dating in the early years, why didn't you achieve anything when you got ready? I still remember that you and your dad had a very tense relationship before, but now it's okay. ”

"I still have a blind date, I have talked about it myself, I am also changing, I also have my own views on starting a family, I also talked to my father, and he stopped urging me. He was silent for a while, and then said, "You also know about my family, I heard my grandmother tell me when I was a child, and I can forgive my mother, there is a picture of my mother in that old house, I saw it once when I was a child, and the second time I turned it over, it was already yellowing." She didn't want to get married at that time, it was her parents who married here, and then a southern businessman came to this village to sell furniture, and the two of them chatted, very speculative, and eloped, very happy, very short for a few years, and then fell off the cliff while playing in a scenic spot, can you say that her life is hard? I think it's very romantic. My grandmother's house was far away, and the two families still exchanged information in the first few years. If my mother is still alive, I will look for her, and what about my mother's family, who are also my relatives, who have the same blood in their bodies, but it doesn't matter. I resented my father for not keeping my mom all those years, but I didn't understand that he was suffering a double blow. I have to say that this has an impact on my outlook on life and love, and I have also longed for happiness, born in a harmonious family, and then formed a small family with my beloved, but I feel that I am an orphan, and the blind date is not smooth. Before, people may have looked down on me, but now I must find someone I love to match. ”

He spoke with emotion, and I probably understood what he meant, but I still didn't talk enough to tell him my true past.

After a day's rest, my cousin and uncle hurried to Beijing, packed up the house, and locked it. He went to pursue life boldly, and although he had just lost a loved one, he seemed to be full of pride, and I lacked that kind of courage so much.

I have been living at my cousin's house for the past few days when I returned to my hometown, and when I returned to my home, I found that the house was no longer suitable for living. My family has fallen behind a lot, and there are already people in the village who have gone to the county seat to buy a house. That's when I seriously thought about this question, getting married and where I lived, it all cost money. I discussed with my father that I could renovate the two wings first, and it would not cost a few dollars, so my father began to calculate the cost of building materials and labor, and asked me when I would leave home for Guangzhou, for fear that I would delay my work, and I said that I was not in a hurry.

At this time, a few days later is a small long vacation, the date of my leave has arrived, but no one in the company urged me, but Wang Meng asked with concern, I said that the matter was dealt with, I heard him say that the factory is not very busy, so I told the leader, and then asked for a few days off, I didn't expect him to readily agreed, it seems that I am easy to be replaced, he also joked, then this month I am equivalent to saying that basically no work, no money to take, when I heard that I am ready to build a house, he also said a little redundant, you can wait ** Demolition, I said that this is a remote village, not the kind of demolition households he imagined.

This world does not have the beautiful scenery of some famous villages outside, nor is it a village on the side of the highway in the city, quiet and silent, lack of interruption, all like me, many times I can only selfishly think about my own life, in my hometown I seem to go deep into the grassroots, and there are no trivial things to make me anxious. I got rid of the pressure in the city, I can try to go to bed early and get up early, I am down-to-earth, and what I thought when I had insomnia in the early years has now come true. In addition, spending a lot of time at home has changed my life.

There is a young man named Xiaotao on the edge of the village, who has been smart and studious since he was a child, and was admitted to a key university in the province last year. One afternoon, when I was sorting out the daily necessities I had used before, he came to visit the house and said that he felt idle when he came home from this vacation.

"You haven't been back in years, haven't you?"

"No, I didn't come back for the New Year, I worked, and the tickets for the Spring Festival were too tight. I usually come back, but I'm in a hurry. ”

"Actually, there's nothing to do when you come back, except to see the people you want to see, some people who haven't returned for a long time, some ambitious people, who want to get ahead. I have a strong sense of self-esteem and want to make a name for myself before I come back. ”

"What major do you study, I feel like you're quite old-fashioned. ”

"Economics and trade majors, you may need to talk more, I'm trying, and besides, I'm not too young, if I don't go to school, I may be married." ”

"Economics and trade belong to the liberal arts, right?"

"Yes, at that time, my family also wanted me to study as a teacher, saying that it was not bad to be a teacher, and in our small place, we could also take care of the crops when we were busy with farming, but unfortunately I could only choose one. ”

I carefully observed his face again, I haven't seen him for a few years, he has become a little darker, he has grown a beard, he looks mature, and his voice is also thick when he speaks, in my impression this voice is never flamboyant, after we compared the different lives in school, he first talked about girls, saying that he still maintains regular contact with a female classmate in high school, and the two are similar to love. I don't think it's possible for him to attract girls with his voice, it must be because of his excellent grades, and it's a good opportunity for studious girls to ask him questions.

After a brief chat, I packed my things and went for a walk together on the small slope of the village. The countryside was very depressed this season, the ground was bare, and I can still remember when I was a child playing here in a yellow sneaker, and a little boy used to climb up on the high ground to look at the sky in his eyes.

When Xiaotao and I were going uphill, there was a child playing alone, about seven or eight years old, with long hair and a comb. We didn't know each other, and the child looked at us both curiously, so I boldly interviewed.

"Whose child are you, what's your father's name?"

The child said his full name, and I remembered that the guy and I were classmates in elementary school many years ago, so it seemed that the two of them were really alike. The child said that he was eight years old, but despite this, my little friend was married late in the countryside, and the child had to answer all questions, and could speak well, saying that there were two teachers in their class, and said their names, oh, no, now it is one, and when Xiao Tao and I sighed, the child slipped away.

Xiao Tao said that he had never heard of the current teacher.

"Now there are fewer children in the village, if there are more like me and you, there will be even less, you see, I have calculated, when I am a few years old at work, I will consider getting married and raising children. ”

"You look at him just like I looked at you back then, hey, it's changed a lot now. You said you still have an idea of becoming a teacher?"

"Yes. ”

"Would you like to ask you to be a teacher in our village?"

"Coming to us is a kind of teaching, it's a feeling, a way of life, it's beautiful to think about, if I'm old, I want to live this life. ”

"I can't talk to you about this, because I think you study philosophy, you study economics and trade, and the first thing people think of is making money. ”

"Yes, when I was choosing a major, I thought about employment, and it must be in a big city. ”

At this moment we are standing at the top of the slope, and the village is in full view, like a small basin.

"If you've been in the big city for a long time, you'll know that we're still a little isolated here. Look at our village, has anything changed in the past few years?"

"The road connecting the two villages was repaired, and people started building houses along the road along the edge of the village. The changes are also quite big, of course, they cannot be compared with the developed coastal areas, which are all geographical advantages and national policies. ”

"Yes, there is no industry in this village, and the people of my hometown think about small results and engage in simple life for generations. ”

"I'm afraid of the cycle of generation after generation, the young people in the village are almost like this, they don't go to school and get married quickly, in fact, they are not much in a hurry to get married, but they can't bear to look at the hope and anxiety in the eyes of those relatives. Soon I had children, that kind of joy I have seen, but it is usually the beginning of a person's suffering, going out to work, usually leaving the elderly and children at home, coming back for a few days of reunion during the New Year, the money is mainly spent on the children, I feel that I have suffered from no education, and sometimes I wonder what is the use of going to school, it is enough to be able to read. ”

"Nobody said let your child try it, parents are not stupid enough not to let their children go to school in the first place. In fact, learning is limitless, and it depends mainly on society and not on school. ”

"Hmm. You also heard the noise of the little couple, but you haven't experienced it once, it's the case, there are still problems of family disharmony in our village, such as parent-child unfilial piety, mother-in-law and daughter-in-law nervousness. It may be that there are competitive people in the honest crowd, and they are also some poor people, who are suddenly consumed by the desire for profit, but in fact, they fight back and forth and lose more. Husbands and wives quarrel for their own reasons, and it is true that 'happy families are all similar, and unhappy families have their own misfortunes. ’”

"You know Tolstoy, yes! Reading a book can really affect a person's life, especially when they are teenagers. I had to learn to use my time in college, and I regretted not studying a certain subject. ”

In the evening, Xiao Tao and I went around the hill around the village for half a circle, and went to the school, where we can recall that when I was a child, the wall here was a little higher than the original, and I can still easily climb over it now, but in the eyes of children, this wall can be high, Xiao Tao said that he had escaped the teacher's eyes before, riding on the wall to show off, the courage is not small, naughty enough. Now the wooden door at the school gate has become an iron door, the door is open, Xiao Tao has to go in to see, and I follow him a little twisted and pinched, after I stepped over, I can feel as if life is prematurely drawn a circle, I used to be in awe of the word teacher, although age and seniority have no necessary relationship, but can scare some children, but at this time the school is empty, quite quiet.

The end of the conversation came from the right, and at the end of the aisle sat three people in the doorway, chattering. I know two, it is Yan Sen and an old man, and the other should be a teacher, that old man used to be the head of our village, when he saw me and Xiao Tao, he waved to this side and asked us to come to him.

"Look, these are two college students from the village." Uncle said to the teacher.

"You two, are you on vacation?"

"Yes. Xiao Tao and I nodded.

"Xiaojie hasn't been back for many years, what kind of work are you doing outside?" Although I don't go home often, my uncle still remembers my name and whose child I am.

"Now in Guangzhou, I also work as an ordinary part-timer. When the village chief asked like this, I knew that he was going out to do propaganda, but I didn't know how to answer for a while, so I could only prevaricate in the past, which is also a fact, and he will definitely listen to it as an open mind.

"In your twenties this year, you two are about the same. ”

"I'm in my thirties, much older than him. "I know we don't see very much, and he doesn't have to remember it very clearly.

"Hey, time flies so fast, when I was in my twenties, I worked as an accountant in the brigade. The old village chief laughed a few times after speaking, quite bold. I was a little ashamed, and when I chatted with Xiaotao on the slope, I also complained a little that the village cadres did not make profits for the villagers, that there was no industry in the village, and that there was no paradise for children.

Then I figured out what they were just talking about: There are obviously fewer children in the village now than in previous years, but there are fewer teachers, and there are not enough teachers; not long ago, a village teacher sent by the county to support him left his job because of something at home, and this month the new person has not been in place for a long time, and the teaching force is tight! The old village chief is well-informed and wants to invite a retired teacher from a neighboring village to come over for a while.

"You see whether these two juniors are willing or not, they can do this teaching task. The teacher looked at the two of us and said to the village chief.

"Yes? This one is in college, and the other one has a serious job out there. The uncle turned to me and Xiao Tao again, "You two walked out of this school, and you are a role model for this group of children, so you can come back to give lectures to the children more in the future." ”

Xiao Tao and I smiled and agreed, and then, the time was not early, and we dispersed.

That night I kept thinking about what had just happened in the past half day, maybe the speaker was unintentional, when I knew that the school lacked a teacher, it was as if I had been single for a long time and saw a girl who had just drifted past. I used my mobile phone to find out the news of the county's recruitment of teachers, and I met most of those conditions, and I thought about it, but how did I speak? I lay on the bed and tossed and turned and couldn't sleep, it happened to be a full moon night, I remembered the city that never sleeps, so I quietly got up and walked to the wheat field in the village, which is also like a city square when the neon lights are lit, I swayed, watched my shadow change, and heard the dogs in the village bark for a while, I just went back, and I didn't want to be misunderstood by the villagers.

The light in my mother's room came on, she called my name, and at this moment I felt like I was back when I was a child. How I wish she felt the same way, seeing me as a child and still feeling young.

"You're out again?"

"Well, I can't sleep a little bit, I'm used to going to bed late in the city. Why haven't you slept yet?"

"I often lie in bed and fall asleep when it's almost dawn. I can't sleep thinking about this, thinking about that. ”

"What is there to think, should eat and drink, I saw an old man in my grandmother's village that day, but her mental state is similar to yours, Xiaozhi said that she is a believer. ”

"Speaking of Xiao Zhi, can't you go to Beijing with Xiao Zhi, and have a companion. "My mother knew what I was talking about, but her focus was on me.

"He also mentioned it the day before yesterday, but I didn't agree. At that time, I wanted you and my father to go to the city to live for a while, why don't you go, I sometimes think more, such as my uncle's house, this time my grandmother is gone, they will also be away from home for a long time in the future, at most come back for the New Year, Xiaojie will get married and come back, clean up, and leave in a few days, this is life, do you still expect him to settle down in Beijing? That's impossible, tens of thousands, tens of thousands, that's just a square!"

"Our days are going by one day at a time, and it's useless to think about it. Sometimes it's easier to think that you might as well teach with us. Look at Fuxiang, Han is Han, and he also added a baby. You say you're smart, why are you smart?" sighed the mother.

"That's what you think?"

Mother's words are true feelings, what she wants is companionship, I am often a soft ear outside, and now I want to take this opportunity to end my wandering, but I still didn't say that I wanted to be a teacher, I thought if it really happened, give her a surprise.

"What's the matter, you stay at home for a while, maybe there's that older girl here, and I can mention one for you. ”

Speaking of which, I have less to say. My mother told me about the Yan Sen family's Fuxiang, and Fuxiang's intelligence is a bit abnormal, maybe it can be called too honest and honest, which everyone knows. Fate is so unpredictable, in the process of often going in and out of the mountains and forests, and become old friends with a mountain family, that family is also the temperament of the mountain people. People saw him as honest and honest, and his body was strong. Once, we dragged someone to our village to tell us that the girl had a strange disease when she was young, and now she is mute, but other than that, everything is normal, and she is very good. Yan Sen is even happier, and in the second year, he hugged his grandson with normal intelligence, which is enviable, and now Fuxiang and his wife run the only machine in the village---- flour grinder, and their lives are happy. It may be said that stupid people have stupid blessings. I think I'm smart, I don't know if Fuxiang remembers going up the mountain with me, it's likely that he has forgotten, this is my trouble, maybe I haven't forgotten, but I can't say it more than me, and my mother probably hasn't forgotten that one day when I was a child, I went up the mountain with Fuxiang.

"You two don't have to say a few words, in the middle of the night, Jiewa, you can pack up your things tomorrow and go to Guangzhou." Then came my father's voice.

I didn't want to argue with him, so I quietly persuaded my mother to go to bed early, after all, she had been staying up for a few days and nights.

I stopped talking, and I was still thinking about it as I lay in bed.

Father, he still wants me to go to Guangzhou, where there are many opportunities, and even prefer that the situation is unknown, and as soon as I come back, it will be revealed. He is still a little vain, he doesn't want to admit that his earlier investment failed, thinking that even if he keeps up with the times if he is not in the countryside, he would rather be coldly suspicious in the village than others say that I will come back to grow crops. And I felt that I had fought against fate, and he sowed my seed in a foreign land, but I went through the wind and sun outside to no avail. I'm going to come back sooner or later, it's not the best time, but it's the earliest, and I can't reason with him.

There are some things that I can't say, it's too embarrassing, it's not that I'm naïve and shy, it's that I'm too sophisticated. There was too much estrangement between me and my parents, and the only joy my parents could experience was when I was a child, and now that I'm grown up and have my own life experiences, even if I come back now to walk with them on the road ahead, they will feel that the world is incomplete. In the years I have been outside, I often think that I have no children in my own family, so their spirit has nothing to sustenance, this kind of thinking father must have had, in real life, I am not as good as my father, when he reached my age, he has watched his son grow up, he is hesitating whether to let his son take a shortcut, or choose a tortuous path, I often want to read my parents, but always in vain, after all, I can't rely on the study of this life. It's just that I'm not married, I'm a child in their eyes, but we don't know each other's experiences, my face used to be haggard because of worry, but also because of the proximity to nature and vitality, they are old, they don't want to go to other places, they feel down-to-earth in their hometown, and what have I experienced, work, love, friendship, all parts of life I have pursued, but none of them satisfied me, maybe I also have greed, always want to have the best of both worlds, now what? Did I come into the world just to be a witness? Among the women I have come into contact with, there are beautiful and intelligent ones, and if I bring one into the house, I can prove myself to others, but this is still only my fantasy, God did not directly disappoint me, and gave us the opportunity to sympathize with and help each other. It's not so easy to talk about girlfriends outside, I'm not a flamboyant person, and my desire to be motivated is not strong, they taught me to be honest since I was a child, and I also crave plainness when I grow up. Other children got married at the age of 20, and I didn't find it at the age of 30, so I waited for the age of 40, and it didn't really matter to me when I found it, but my parents were anxiously waiting.

Marriage and career are inseparable, and since the idea I had it, I've been hesitating, and when the holidays are over, I have to make a decision, and there have been several times when I pulled out my phone and wanted to book a ticket, or I wanted to wait another day.

I went to the school again and met the old man Yan Sen, who was an old child, and this time he successfully acted as my matchmaker.

I said I came over to play, and he was very warm to me and talked about some things about the school. Now there are dozens of students and teachers, and our village is still relatively large in the surrounding area, and the children in the neighborhood also come to school, and those whose family conditions are slightly better are sent to the town to study. There is an aunt who specializes in cooking rice, making steamed porridge in the morning and evening, and stir-frying a large pot of vegetables, rice or noodles at noon, mainly for students and teachers from other places. These tiled houses were also newly built, as the teacher's office and dormitory, the one next to the door was lived by Yan Sen, who was watching the school, and he also took me to the room where no one lived for the time being, with a wire in the middle, a curtain as a partition, and a desk by the window in front, paved with transparent glass and newspapers, with several stacks of homework books on it, and a bed behind the curtain. I suddenly remembered that this kind of life was what I longed to have during the time when I didn't work in Guizhou, and I had the urge to write something again.

He is so simple, I should not hide it anymore, and I am also responsible for myself.

"What do you think I'm teaching?"

"Of course!"

"Jeffeva, are you here to play, or do you really want to come, if you really want to come, I will talk to the principal and the village chief in a while, it shouldn't be a big problem. ”

"Well, just ask. ”

The village committee is doing its best to help the school, and the "employers" are also very efficient. At lunch the next day, there were three distinguished guests in the house, Yan Sen, the old man, the uncle, and the current village chief, all of whom were admired in the village, and it was the first time to come to our house together, my father told me to pour tea, this house was a little shabby, they first talked to my father about building a house, and then said that I am not too young, and it is time to become a family, and building a house is to plant a plane tree. And then to the point, for my business, my parents were still in the dark, and I became the protagonist of this conversation.

They have already communicated with the principal and the education department above, and they can definitely do it, and they will slowly become formal, and they will be short of a qualification certificate and can take the make-up exam. I will pay my salary, and the village will also give my family a certain subsidy.

Father and mother slowly understood, father was less repulsive, and the village chief's words made him feel that this was also a meritorious thing. On my mother's side, it seems that there is more hope, being a teacher has a greater impact, and it is easier to start a family.

After they left, I made a settlement with my parents, and although I could make money outside, I couldn't leave a few behind. In that world of flowers, I can't eat well, I don't sleep quietly, there are a lot of people, it's hard to make close friends, and I'm really afraid that I will go out for another three or five years and still be the same. Since they don't want to go with me to the city, I'd better come back. I also said something that I thought was very profound, this time my grandmother's death touched me a lot, this time I came back not only to see so many children's unfamiliar faces, but also to see the old people in the village. If this thing is not done well, my retreat is Beijing Xiaozhi.

My future was thus decided, but thankfully I didn't book a ticket. Then I thought about how to explain to Guangzhou, of course, I can't say that I am a teacher in school, I said panicked on the phone, said that I encountered some tricky things, may have to take a long vacation, not good for both parties, can only resign, the leader said that since I decided there is no way, resignation to go through a normal formalities, afraid of finding a job in the future, and then considering that I am indeed far away from home, I discussed with the personnel department to send each other the form, fill in the form. I also sent the key to the rental house to Wang Meng, asked him to take pictures, mailed me some of my things of some value, and negotiated with the landlord.

The village leaders hired me, this grid is big enough, I am a little weak-minded, I always feel that the country's education policy has been poked into a loophole for me to get into, but this is something I really like, I should be competent.

In the first two days, I moved a stool to sit at the back of the classroom and observed the lessons of several other teachers, who elaborated on the textbooks in detail, gradually deepened, added vivid language, and constantly interacted with the students, so that each student participated, and I was deeply impressed by the children's reading and memorization and dictation to solve problems. I've sat in every classroom, and the kids know what it's all about.

My career as a teacher officially began, when I stepped on the bell and walked into the classroom, the children ran into the classroom, the messy sound disappeared immediately, a little boy saw me a few days ago, and now after he wrote a few words in the homework book, he raised his head and grimaced at me, I also smiled at him, and raised my hand and touched his head, before I could think of what to say, a voice sounded behind me, "Who fought with whom just now?" "Ah?

The classroom was chaotic again, and they were yelling and pointing. There were two little ones who stood out, and the seats were still next to each other, chattering and a little shy and irritated. I slapped the table twice, calmed the scene, and distracted them by copying two sentences on the blackboard like a judge.

In the face of this group of children, in the course of teaching, I told them about the places they had been, they had no concept of the countryside and the city, they all stared at a pair of big eyes, listened attentively, and looked reverent, although I knew that this was not a great thing, just because it was facing them, I also knew that the children were ashamed and sensible and could easily surpass me, and in the end they didn't know what kind of attitude they had towards me. Every time I was emotional, I also reminded myself of a certain episode, as long as I was good at expressing what I saw and heard, it was inevitable that there was a little oil and vinegar between the words, and they all thought it was a great experience, maybe I was depressed at the time, but now it has become a relief. Some bold children directly said that the teacher wrote good blackboard characters, and also said that my voice was not loud enough, so that I knew my image in the hearts of these children, and had a direction to work towards. It's easy to gain the trust and respect of these children, follow these children's train of thought, correct them when needed, everyone is different, and it is impossible to be the same. I encourage them to write their lives boldly when they are sensible.

The hope of my hometown is in these teenagers, there are no gifted children here, and the children's hearts are an unknown territory, and I hope that through my efforts, I can go to farming. If there is nothing special, they will spend five years here, and whether it matters or not varies from person to person. I took them to the fields to teach them about nature and taught them to pick some wild vegetables, trying to find their superiority over the city children. My parents and I were the same age, and we couldn't sing nursery rhymes anymore at that time, so I taught them to sing "The Crooked Moon". There is no playground, the children have a physical education class once a week, which is to play table tennis and do exercises, which is when they are most excited, there is a storage room with some sports equipment, and on a good day, I got a few adults to help me set up a basketball hoop.

Yan Sen is here to watch the school, and his other duty is to ring the bell for class. He wore an electronic watch in his hand and set an alarm clock on the table, and he didn't dare to be sloppy about his work, maybe he would not have thought of such a serious word as work, he had served the village all his life. As soon as the bell rang for class, the children immediately gathered up and jumped around, and this distant bell often reminded me of my childhood memories, and I used to wonder what the difference between this sound and the temple bell was, was it the rhythm? Ah, the bell, how sacred! How solemn! This ancient sound was also the first note that the children came into contact with.

This grandfather told me about the hardships he endured in the old society, but now, it takes courage to survive. In his eyes, I will always be a child, silent and shy.

"I've never been to the outside world, but I know it's not easy to do anything. When I went to your house the other day, your mother was very worried, and you should listen to what I said. Xiaojie, sometimes you can see anxiety and grief in your eyes, but in fact, there is no need to worry about life at all. Your parents have also suffered a lot, and some people have made irresponsible remarks. ”

I know that since I became a teacher, in the discussion of the people in the village, I seem to be able to hear that I am more than one after dinner and before going to bed, which can be regarded as a burden of life, if we have an element of mutual contempt, it is because I have not yet been able to follow the local customs.

During the Spring Festival, I saw Xiao Tao again. He was also amazed at what I had done and praised me for my courage. I gave him an example, it costs money during the New Year, it is very troublesome to go to relatives and friends, some people will complain about who invented the New Year, and I also know that most people just say casually, the New Year naturally has the value of existence, but there are indeed a few people who do not like the New Year. There are also people in the city who complain, "It's better to go back to my hometown", and I'm really back now.

Xiao Tao said that he would definitely be going to graduate school in the future, and I suggested that he didn't need to think so far, whether it was the general trend or really wanted to improve himself. I also think about how much knowledge a person needs to live the life he wants, it seems that I am really old? In addition to the spiritual level is material, this society will not be able to move an inch without money, I also think of working outside, the boss wants to create benefits, or the most direct is a small business, and what I worry about every day is how to buy and sell products and make a difference. Now that the problem of food and clothing has been solved, I want to design a product ----- write about my experience, which is more meaningful than their lives. This is my child when other young people are holding their children, and I know that I am walking a different path.

There have been several times when I wanted to give up, so I went out and walked around the fields, thinking about the road under my feet for a while, thinking about sowing and harvesting for a while, and then picking up the pen again, or these words are all accumulated by time, and I have been in school longer than at home. Life is an attempt, I have seen primary school students go through exams again and again, and I also need to summarize, need to focus, and strive to complete it as soon as possible.

These two meaningful things may determine my future life, one of which is already known to the public, and the other may be that I am self-inflicted, and may not be of much value to others, but I do enrich my life, and I still have to pursue a little in the following days.