In life, there are always many things that you don't want to face.

Subconsciously, people are more willing to think about something happy.

Those bad things are put out there, thinking about doing them later, and the result is more and more accumulated.

When He Yuan was on the list, he wanted to close the form countless times and throw the computer out of the window. Finally, he endured the irritability in his heart and listed these things one by one, at the cost of a layer of soot piled up in the ashtray.

Looking at the list in the electronic document, there are not many, but very heavy, He Yuan is still panicked. He suddenly understood why he was willing to be in Beijing before, because when he was in Beijing, he really "belonged" to himself.

Don't think about anything, don't worry about anything, just bury your head in your work, work hard to improve yourself, do more performance, get a better salary, and move up to a higher position. Instead of having a lot of bonds like now, there are a lot of people to consider.

He Yuan suddenly felt tired.

He reached for the cigarette case again, and when he took it, it felt a little light.

Glancing inside the box, the box was empty, and a box of cigarettes had been smoked.

He Yuan casually threw the cigarette case into the trash, picked up the teacup, and wanted to take a sip of tea, but found that the cup had bottomed out. I took the kettle again and found that the kettle was also empty.

How long have I been sitting here?

He Yuan slumped in the chair and scratched his hair, feeling very irritable in his heart.

He took the kettle and went to fetch a jug of water, and when he came back, he put it on a plate and boiled it.

While waiting for the water, He Yuan stood at the window, looking at the warm sunlight outside the house, and was stunned.

Obviously, I am less than thirty years old, but why do I feel that my soul is like an old man in his fifties and sixties?

I wasn't like that before.

At that time, I was young, vigorous, and full of edges and corners.

can't get used to others framing his colleagues, He Yuan can directly tear it up.

When the leader hesitates in the face of change, He Yuan will directly choose to change jobs - even if the company promises millions of equity, He Yuan doesn't care.

His goal is very clear, that is, to study hard, improve himself, and do more performance, instead of wasting time, staying in a lifeless position, and engaging in office struggles for a little power, a little profit.

He Yuan disdainful.

He felt that he was young and that his time should be spent on improving himself.

And not to waste it on those salted fish who are only forty or fifty years old, have no passion, and eat and wait to die.

But, why did you change?

It seems that since experiencing that incident, after knowing that he was about to die, He Yuan was instantly defeated.

He suddenly felt that his efforts were meaningless.

Even if you get money and a house later, even the brain tumor has improved.

But He Yuan has collapsed.

It's as if a person has lost his faith and has since become a walking dead.

He Yuan was shocked, and he suddenly realized what he was missing.

It is the passion for things, the motivation to want to do things, and the mission to accomplish something.

These things that used to be qualities in him disappeared unconsciously.

When you go to school, rigor, discipline, and persistence are the criteria for students. And when it comes to work, many people can't even do the most basic point of not being late.

When a person is unfettered, he is greeted not necessarily by a broader future, but by the fact that he may not know what he himself is going to do.

After figuring this out, He Yuan suddenly came to his senses.

Yes, he has been too idle in the past few months.

Although He Yuan said that he likes this salted fish-like life.

But is it because he likes it, or is it because he simply doesn't know what he wants to do?

Or, after going through those things, in fact, he has been smoothed out - anyway, no matter how hard I try, no matter how much I improve myself, it doesn't make any sense, what you try your best to get, others can get it by hooking their fingers.

However, this kind of gloomy thought could not have appeared on him before.

He Yuan felt a little cold in his body.

Even though the sun shone through the window, he still felt cold.

He Yuan didn't know how long he had been in a daze.

It wasn't until the pot boiled and there was a buzzing sound that He Yuan came back to his senses.

Pouring hot water into the cup, He Yuan raised the teacup and took a sip.

The tea is a bit light, and after brewing a few times, the tea has lost its taste.

However, He Yuan didn't care about this, his eyes were empty, and he didn't know what he was thinking.

After a while, He Yuan put down the cup with a cautious expression.

If you say that your previous self, with nothing, was a complete failure. Heaven gave him time and money, which was equivalent to giving him a chance to start over.

He Yuan felt that he should not give up this opportunity.

He wants to finish what he hasn't done before, he has to do what he hasn't done before, and he can't go on like this anymore.

If you really go like this one day, when that time comes, won't you regret it again, regret that you left a bunch of regrets?

He Yuan re-adjusted the list and read it again.

This time, his mentality was much calmer.

After ticking off all the important things, He Yuan arranged the order of things, and then printed them out with a printer, and after sorting them out, He Yuan collected them.

After doing all this, He Yuan took out his mobile phone and looked at the news.

Senior sister didn't send a message there, and Peng Peng did too, after thinking about it, He Yuan took the initiative to send a message to senior sister for the first time. Soon, there was a reply from there.

"What's wrong?" asked the senior sister.

"It's okay, I just want to know, what's going on with that?"

"In a hurry?"

"It's a little, after all, this kind of thing is very annoying to drag on all the time. He Yuan replied.

The senior sister didn't say it, but after a while, she sent a message over: "Then you can come over." ”

"To the store?"

"Come to my house. ”

Seeing this news, He Yuan scratched his head.

He knew about his senior sister's family, and when he sent his senior sister back before, He Yuan went there once.

After replying with an "OK" expression, He Yuan cleaned up and drove directly to his senior sister's house.

Although he hadn't been here for a while, He Yuan still remembered that place.

It is also strange to say that when He Yuan was a child, he had a very peculiar road dementia, that is, he could not find which building other people lived in.

Especially every time he wants to go out to visit relatives during the Chinese New Year, He Yuan always admits his mistakes.

It's not the first time he's been to that place, he can find it, and he remembers how many floors the other party lives in, but he just can't tell the number of buildings, which is very strange.

But when he grows up, He Yuan's problem is inexplicable.

I don't know if it's because he's been outside for a long time, forcing him to recognize the way, in short, now He Yuan, no matter where he goes, as long as he has been there once, he will never admit his mistake the second time.

After He Yuan found his senior sister's house, he knocked on the door, and after a while, the senior sister came over and opened the door.

"Come in. Senior Sister stood inside and waved her hand at He Yuan.

She was dressed quite casually today, with a pullover sweater underneath and a pair of jeans underneath. The hair was combed and a ponytail was tied at the back of the head, which looked fresh and capable.

"Do you have shoe covers, I'll change them. He Yuan looked at the wooden floor inside, then looked at the shoe cabinet on the side, and said to his senior sister.

"No, just come in, it's not that troublesome. Senior Sister looked indifferent.

"Let's put it on it, it's dirty, and it's going to be dragged again, how troublesome. He Yuandao.

The senior sister shook her head, walked over and opened the shoe cabinet, bent down and rummaged inside, and after a while, took out a blue sleeve and handed it to He Yuan.

He Yuan took the shoe cover and put it on his feet. To be honest, he doesn't like to wear these shoe covers, it feels like a layer of paper has been glued to it. But compared to wearing shoe covers, He Yuan doesn't like to take off his shoes even more, and he always feels weird, as if he will leave some smell.

After He Yuan changed into shoe covers, the senior sister led the way in front.

Last time, because it was too late, He Yuan didn't look carefully.

This time the light was brighter, and He Yuan could see the interior decoration of his sister's house.

Although it is in the decoration industry, the senior sister's house is not very exquisitely decorated. Her house has a certain number of years, and it should be ten years. The area is quite large, but the furniture inside looks a little old. And there are some graffiti on the walls, like children's graffiti.

"By the way, what about your child?"

Seeing these pictures, He Yuan suddenly remembered that his senior sister still had a child.

"Her grandmother took her out to play. Senior sister's voice came from the direction of the kitchen.

He Yuan glanced at the kitchen, and saw that the senior sister took out a cup from the cupboard, put it in the sink and rinsed it, then took the cup to the living room, took out a pot of tea from under the water dispenser, put a little in it, and washed it away with hot water.

Bringing the teacup to the table, the senior sister sat down on the sofa next to He Yuan, and stroked her hair: "I remember, you weren't in such a hurry before, but today you suddenly came over, something happened." ”

He Yuan picked up the teacup and took a sip of tea.

Today, he ran several times, and each time the other party had to make him a cup of tea, which was the third cup he had drunk.

Putting down the teacup, He Yuan organized the language in his heart, and then told his senior sister about Tang Duoduo. Of course, there is also the situation of Donald, and the group of white-eyed wolf-like relatives.

At the end, He Yuan added: "The children are about to take the high school entrance examination, and I am worried that they will go to school to make trouble." This matter has been dragging on, and I am worried that it will affect her studies. ”

He Yuan ignored it before.

Tang Duoduo is not her, how can she not be affected.

When he was blocked from school, he was in a state of fear every day for several weeks. Even if the matter was finally solved through Lin Tao, He Yuan was still greatly affected, so much so that every time he left school, he had to carefully observe his surroundings, for fear that a group of people would suddenly come out around him and surround him in a corner and beat him.

Especially after a few incidents of knife wounding, He Yuan was even more panicked, if anyone had a twitch in his brain and felt that He Yuan's walking posture was too draggy, and he suddenly rushed up and stabbed him in the stomach, He Yuan would have no place to cry.

There is no way, after experiencing this kind of thing, it is impossible to say that it is not affected. He Yuan only hoped that after he reacted, he could solve this matter as soon as possible and reduce the impact on Tang Duoduo.

"This kind of thing, it's really a bit troublesome, mainly because ......" Senior Sister pursed her lips and said, "That's it, I'll call him over directly, and the two of you will have a good chat between you." ”

"Is it okay?" He Yuan was stunned for a moment.

The last time he met his senior sister, he just remembered this, so he casually mentioned it. In He Yuan's opinion, Senior Sister's ex-husband is not a good thing, just like those white-eyed wolves.

She can solve such things, and it is not difficult to solve a few white-eyed wolves.

He thought about solving this matter by giving some money through his senior sister, and he didn't think about getting in touch with the other party. After experiencing his father's incident, He Yuan is still relatively taboo about these things.

The senior sister directly took out the phone, dialed a number, and after a while, the phone on the other side was picked up, so I listened to the senior sister chatting with the other party on the phone for a while, and then hung up the phone.

Putting the mobile phone on the table, the senior sister said to He Yuan: "He is in the city, come over soon." ”

After saying this, the senior sister stopped talking.

He Yuan drank tea, and he didn't know what to say for a while, and the atmosphere became a little awkward.

Thinking of the woman beside him, who had shown so much meaning to himself before, He Yuan was a little restless.

If it had been when he was in Beijing before, He Yuan would not have been so entangled, everyone took what they needed, and after going to bed, the rest would have been talked about later.

But it's different back home.

Everyone looks up and doesn't look down, and some things, once they are punctured, it will be very embarrassing to meet again.

Unlike in Beijing, which is such a big city, if it is not deliberate, the two of them basically can't see each other - this is why He Yuan never looked for peers before.

If after 419, I went to talk about business the next day, and suddenly found that the girl in front of me was the woman who slept in the same bed with me last night, how embarrassing the scene would be.

It's scary to think about.

"What are you shaking?" said the senior sister suddenly.

"What?" He Yuan held the cup, but he didn't react for a moment.

"I said, your legs, shaking something. Senior sister's eyes lowered, He Yuan followed her gaze, and then realized that he had been shaking his legs just now.

"I'm sorry. He Yuan hurriedly stretched out his hand and pressed it on his knee.

Every time I get nervous, I will involuntarily shake my legs, which has been the case since I was a child, and I can't change it.

What's more, it's winter now, and every time it comes to winter, He Yuan's leg shaking is even more serious. If you don't shake, sometimes you suddenly change from sitting to standing, and you can't use any strength in your knees.

"Are you afraid of me?" Senior Sister looked at He Yuan's eyes and said suddenly.