Lovers (novella) Zhang Baotong

However, after three or four years, my son was not married, and at this time, Huang Wenying asked when my son would get married, and I said that I still couldn't tell. She got really angry and gave me an ultimatum to break up. I said why. She said no, I'm afraid we won't get anything if we go on like this.

We started arguing a lot about when I was going to divorce my wife, and these arguments were very emotional. Our intimacy with each other is noticeably less than it used to be. And she doesn't love me as much as she used to do. I think there was a seven-year itch between husband and wife, but we have been deeply in love for ten years. At that time, I was only forty-five years old, and I still looked personable and good-looking. But now I'm fifty-five years old. What is the brilliance and charm of a man in his fifties? Except for marriage, I am afraid that there is nothing here that can attract her. So, I was very worried that she would leave me.

I really want to be grateful and repay her with all my power and love. I plan to use my salary or future pension to support her, and leave her a house so that she will not have to return to her rural hometown in the future. That's all I can give her, but these things can only be fulfilled and implemented after we get married.

She had no doubts about my words, but she was quite worried about whether my wife would want to divorce me. After we fell in love for ten years, she seemed to have lost her enthusiasm and hope for me, and although she still came out to date and meet me from time to time, she was always intimidating, hesitant, or even reluctant, and she was not as kind as she used to be when she saw me. And then something happened that made her completely cut off her relationship with me.

At four o'clock that afternoon, I was sitting in the living room watching TV, and she sent a message saying that she had an urgent need to see me and was waiting for me outside, asking me to go immediately. Because my phone kept ringing messages, my wife had started to look at me with alert eyes and asked me a few times who was constantly texting me. Because my wife has a very serious suspicion, I told her that it was all spam. If I told her at this time that I was going out, she would be suspicious and even lose her temper. So, I sent a message to Huang Wenying and said, it's really no good, my wife is staring at me with her eyes. But she insisted that I should find a way to come out and meet her. I really can't help it, unless I force myself to go out despite my wife's feelings. We're going to have to make a big fuss, so I don't think it's necessary. But Huang Wenying said no, let me rush over right now. In this way, until five o'clock, I went out to buy fruit on the pretext of an excuse, and called her, saying that I really can't go out, or let's go another day? But she was very angry and said, in your eyes, your wife is a hundred times more important than me, forget it, we will not see each other again. With that, he turned off his phone.

Since then, no matter how I call or text her, she ignores me and doesn't reply. I couldn't help it, so I went to the night market where she sold spicy skewers to find her. However, she didn't even look at me, and her husband was right next to me, so I couldn't talk to her. It didn't take long for them to move out. I called her and she said that business was not good and that they had changed careers to do something else. I asked them where they had moved in and wanted to see her, but she wouldn't tell me.

The lover who had given me so much love left me like this, and in the two or three months she left me, I really felt very uncomfortable, always feeling lonely and lonely. Later, however, I slowly quieted down and began to look for solace and sustenance in writing. Because of writing, I began to recall many things, from the Luohe Bridge to the present, looking for love, looking for the most precious, wonderful and beautiful love and emotion in my life. I can't forget Lin Yuqing, I can't forget Huang Wenying, I can't forget Cui Yunxiu and Ma Mingyan, and I even have to thank my wife and Guo Shuxian. They were all my lovers, and they gave me a lot of warmth and love in different periods, so that my life would not be pessimistic and depressed, so that my soul would not be lonely and lonely, so that my ideals always had an upward driving force, and my heart was full of sunshine and rain.

But what I think about the most is Lin Yuqing, without her, I am afraid that I have been sunk in the Luohe River since I was four years old, she gave me not only the grace of saving my life, she even gave me the purity and sincerity of life, as well as the yearning and pursuit of a better life. In fact, she has become a symbol of my yearning and gratitude for my lover. I was tempted to write something to express my gratitude and affection for her, and I even wrote these things as a love letter to her. Therefore, every one of my works is full of passion and love. In the end, I brought together these works, which poured my true feelings, under the title of "Spiritual Longing", and sent them to the publishing house.

When those old things flashed in front of me like a movie, my heart was always full of endless sadness and sadness, just like the soaring Luohe River flowing through my heart, and the pure and beautiful little girl in red clothes appeared in front of my eyes again, and the figure floated in my heart like a colorful cloud, making me feel the warmth and beauty of the world. I wanted to get her, to catch her, but, just like I tried to grab a wooden bridge when I fell into the water, I couldn't reach her. No matter how hard I tried, I tried my best, but I still couldn't catch it. It made me feel overwhelmed and discouraged.