Also known as "Marriage is the Grave of Love" Zhang Baotong 2016.7.4

Abelard lay on the grass, feeling that he had no strength in his body, and his heart was beating more and more slowly, as if it was about to stop. Pen Fun Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 info only has a faint breath in his feelings, silently reciting the poem that has been hidden in his heart for a long time:

"May a beautiful tomb reunite these two unfortunate names,

Forever connect my love with your fame!

As time passes, all my sorrows will end,

and my restless heart shall no longer beat;

If a couple of lovers happen to roam here,

Seeing the white walls and the silver springs of this place,

In front of the pale tombstones, they will hug each other,

Both shed tears,

With emotion and sympathy, I said sadly:

But pray that our love will never be the same as theirs!"

Soon, Abelard fell asleep. It was not until after noon, sometime in the afternoon, that a local farmer passed by him, saw that he was so ill, and gave him some water, that he slowly woke up. The peasants sent him to a local church. He rested there for a while before continuing on his way. However, when he insisted on coming to the Abbey of Cluny a few days later, he could no longer walk, so he had to stop at the Abbey of Cluny, wanting to rest for a few days before continuing on his journey.

The abbot of Cluny was Peter, known as the "Venerable One", who was a good friend of Abelard and had helped Abelard and Eloise on several occasions. He had learned of what had happened to Abelard, was very sympathetic and concerned about him, and received him warmly. Dean Peter had his belongings put in place, his room to be tidied up, and then, calling him into the dean's room, he asked, "What are you going to do with your situation?"

"I want to rest in your monastery for a few days," said Abelard, "until I have recovered from my illness and my strength has recovered, and then I can continue on my journey." ”

Peter said, "You are frail and sickly, and you have no one with you, and you have a long way to Rome, and the weather is hot, and you are afraid that if you do not reach Rome, you will not be able to do it." In my opinion, you should not go to Rome. ”

When Abelard heard this, he asked, "Why not? If I don't tell the Pope the truth, their verdict will make me never come out." ”

Peter nodded slightly, and said, "Yes, if you don't go, you may never come out." But have you thought about it? What will happen if you just go? Do you think that if you go to Rome and tell the truth to the Pope, the Pope will change the verdict?"

Abelard said, "The Pope, who is God's appointed supreme leader throughout Christendom, as Jesus' earthly representative and to exercise his responsibility to teach all nations, will administer justice and justice." ”

Abbot Peter frowned, and said, "But they have listed six crimes against Christ, and if Pope Innocent II had seen them, he would have been unhappy with you." Moreover, you should also think carefully that the Pope will never make a decision against Bernard. So, I advise you not to go to Rome, your age and body really don't allow you to make such a long trip anymore. ”

Abelard felt that Peter's words were true, and that he was thinking about him. But he did not give up, he still had illusions about the pope, and decided to go to Rome to meet the pope.

After resting for two or three days at the Abbey of Cluny, Abelard felt better and began to walk and sightsee around the monastery. Cluny Abbey is a Gothic building located on the banks of the beautiful Var River. On this side of the river is a vast expanse of green meadows. On the other side of the river are large areas of vineyards. The sun is shining brightly and the sky is clear. August in France is the season for the grape harvest. You can see many people picking grapes in baskets in the vineyard. He could even smell the scent of grapes blowing in the wind from the other side of the river.

Walking along the soft grass by the river, looking at the beautiful scenery and the scene of the grape harvest, Abelard did not feel the slightest sweetness and relaxation, because in his heart, there was still a large stone weighing a thousand pounds. He was still thinking about the pilgrimage, how to present and explain his theories and ideas to the pope.

After a while, someone ran up to him and shouted at him, "Mr. Abelard." ”

He stopped, saw that it was a monk from the monastery, waited for him to come to him, and asked, "Is there something wrong?"

The monk said to him, "Please go back at once, Abbot Peter has something to tell you." ”

Abelard hurried back to the monastery and into the abbot's room. However, he did not wait for him to ask. Dean Peter handed him a document. This is a document issued by the Pope to the churches of France, in which Pope Innocent II issued an order endorsing the decision of the Council of Sens, banning Abelard from making any speech for life and imprisoning him in a monastery.

After reading the document, Abelard immediately felt a wave of dizziness. He read the papers twice in a row, and then sat down on the couch in despair. After a while, he said to Abbot Peter, "I am not reconciled, I must see the Pope and explain the matter to him." Otherwise, I'll die blindly. ”

When Dean Peter heard this, he couldn't help but be shocked, because he knew Abelard's stubbornness and persistence. He feared that Abelard, who was already terminally ill, would die on his way to Rome. He then said to him in a earnest tone, "Dear Monsieur Abelard, I have repeatedly made it clear to you that the Pope will never make a decision against Bernard. Now that the documents are in your hands, you should recognize that. Given your age and your body, you don't want to go on this pointless trip anymore. What you should really care about right now is your body and health. ”

Considering his exhaustion and old age, Abelard finally gave in, and he decided to abandon his trip to Rome and resigned himself to his fate. He promised Abbot Peter not to go to Rome to meet the Pope and to stay in peace in the Abbey of Cluny. As a result, he became a monk of Cluny, hiding in the wall penance and its religious rituals. He touched his disciples with piety, silence, and prayer.

A few days later, he wrote a letter to Eloise, whom he had not seen for many years, confessing the doctrine of his faith, and although he had very mixed feelings, and missed her very much, he felt that he had fallen so far and that his future was hopeless, and he felt that he owed her too much in this life, but he could not repay it, so he had to attach a poem to express his pity and love for her. This is an elegy he wrote in the past, called "Mourning", and I think Eloise will understand the strings when she sees this poem:

"If you can sleep in the tomb with you,

Willing to die,

The treasures that the world loves,

What a grace than this!

If you are gone and I live,

It is also like death;

Half a soul and half a breath,

It's not all to be a ghost!

I put the harp and don't play it again,

Bitter tears and sighs!

My finger is sore and painful for a long time,

The throat is weak, and it is miserable. ”?