Lovers (novella) Zhang Baotong

Originally, I thought it was just talking, but I didn't want to, Wang Jiezhen took me to Xu Chunli's house. Her family and Wang Jie's family are both in a railway workshop in the northern suburbs of Xi'an. These workshops were all bungalows built in the fifties and sixties, and there were only one or two rooms per household, and the kitchens were built in the open space in front of the houses, which was very crowded. We came to Xu Chunli's house, where she was rolling noodles in the kitchen. Wang Jie said to her, sister, I brought a friend, do you know each other? Of course Xu Chunli doesn't know. Wang Jie said that he used to work with me, then went to university, and now teaches in middle school. I said I've been out of the station for three or four years. Xu Chunli said that she was only transferred from the locomotive depot to the station the year before last.

Wang Jie and I sat next to her, watching her roll out the dough and talking to her. I told her that the "Yingshan Red" you sang is very good, and she is not professionally trained. I was deliberately complimenting her to please her, but in fact what I really envied was not the songs she sang, but her beauty. When she heard that I was praising her, she became interested, saying that I used to just love singing, but I had never been trained, but when I went to the countryside, the studio came to Huayin County to recruit actors, and people took a fancy to me, but my father said that actors were actors and didn't let me go, so I missed the opportunity. As he spoke, he sighed helplessly.

After a while, her mother came back from outside and entered the kitchen, and Wang Jie introduced me to her mother. Her mom sat next to us and started asking me how old I was, where I worked, and if I had any partners. I said that I had just graduated from college, taught at Elite High School, and had not yet found a partner. Her mother said that my girl knows how to sing and dance in a day, and she doesn't know how old she is to find a partner for herself. When I heard this, my heart rejoiced. Wang Jie next to her said to her mother, then tell Xu Chunli to me, this guy, I think they are talented and beautiful, and they are a pair of heaven and earth. Her mother said that my words didn't count, and that she had to do it if she wanted to.

The next evening, I boldly came to Xu Chunli's house, and in order to give myself a justifiable reason, I bought a book of "Vocal Singing Skills" as a gift for her. I think she wouldn't refuse the book even if she didn't like me, and if she gave something else, it would be easy for someone to reject it. That would be very embarrassing and embarrassing.

She happened to be rolling noodles again, and she didn't look a little unhappy about my arrival, and talked to me about some things when I went to the countryside. I think she had accepted me, otherwise she wouldn't have been so polite to me. After a while, her parents also returned, and they insisted on keeping me for dinner. During the meal, her father asked me many more questions. After dinner, we also walked to the overpass to see the night view of the train station.

The third day was Sunday, and she called me in the morning and asked me to go to Xingqing Park. We took a boat ride, ate, played, and didn't go back to her house until the afternoon. That night, I wrote a letter to Ma Mingyan, saying that my parents were going to transfer me back to Hunan, so I was ready to go back to Hunan, and I apologized deeply to her for this. It's the stupidest and most hurtful thing I've ever done in my life. So, for many years, I have been feeling remorse and sorrow for this.

Our relationship grew quickly and we got married in less than three months. At that time, I could say that I had nothing, except for a set of bedding and a wooden box that I had brought with me from Hunan when I joined the work, and these things were the same things that I had always carried with me when I went to the countryside. Because I never buy anything, and I have never bought anything, I have sent all the money home except for the living expenses of more than 10 yuan left on my monthly salary. Also, we were in a hurry to get married, and when our family knew I was going to get married, they didn't even have time to make furniture and buy things for us. As I've already said, I've had little or no other than dealing with books every day, and I don't know much about anything else, so I've had some books and really nothing. Our marriage was also very simple, their family came to clean up my dormitory, and then, I spent 20 yuan to rent a minibus, pulled her and her family to a small restaurant, and invited a few good friends, and chartered two tables of dinner, even if it was married.

Looking back on my life, I feel as if I am living half in the world and half in ideals, perhaps my body lives in reality and my mind lives in ideals. Therefore, my memories of life are always hazy, like waking up from a dream, as if I am still staying in the desolate and eternal time and space by the Luohe Bridge. My requirements for life are very casual and simple, and I am very focused and persistent in the flying of ideas. Therefore, my concept and impression of marriage is mostly the purity, romance and beauty of the red sleeves and the Cowherd and Weaver Girl. Moreover, I always thought that others would feel the same way and sympathize with each other as I did.

Soon, however, cracks began to appear in our marriage. Within a year, we had a child, and after having a child, she has been living with her parents, and during this time she has been able to spend a lot of time with her sisters and some of her classmates. Seeing what other people's families want, and their parents still sponsor them, and I don't have anything, my parents not only don't give us financial support, but I often have to send them money. In fact, she had been talking to a classmate whose father was a commissioner before she met me, but she was making slow progress, suffering from gains and losses, and hesitating. But after seeing me, I felt that I was young and handsome, talented, and a college graduate, and her parents had a very good impression of me, hoping that she would marry me. That's why the balance of her feelings suddenly tilted in my favor. However, after getting married, I found that I had nothing but handsomeness and talent, and handsomeness and talent could not directly produce and transform into practical economic benefits. Therefore, at this time, the director's son happened to launch another round of fierce emotional offensive against her, and her worldview and values suddenly underwent a huge change, and she regretted being emotional for a while and marrying me, a poor bastard.

This also reminds me of Guo Shuxian again, she may really love me and love me, but she still resolutely left me. Because she knew that someone like me could not bring her material vanity and satisfaction. They know that emotional love will gradually age with time, and that material vanity and pleasure are eternal needs. Therefore, they are unwilling to give up material pleasures and pursuits for love. Their mentality will be vain because of their beauty. In their bones, they should be admired and envied, and they should be richer and superior than others in terms of life and style. Therefore, for them, marriage is their capital for vanity and pleasure, and love is only an accessory to their marriage. Guo Shuxian is definitely such a woman, but I didn't expect Xu Chunli to be such a woman.