Chapter 233: Opportunity
What weight this sentence should represent, Tsering Gesang did not become clear until a long time later.
What Yang Jin wanted to say at that time was clearly that you believe that I will not let you have an accident, are you willing to do what I say, so that we can all be freed from this terrible fate? Can you be the special case in the mouth of the Black Saintess, and use this small deviation from the Heavenly Decree to completely stir up the little gap that the reincarnation of the Wu Clan has been torn for many years, so that this big lie can be completely ended?
All the silence fermented in the years, and Tsering Gesang realized the intentions of Yang Jin after realizing it.
At that time, the girl inexplicably gave Tsering Gesang a great exception, as well as a completely unreasonable trust, and the moment she made up her mind, she had already changed the context after the story, and let everything go to the prophecy of the Black Holy Maiden.
Why did Yang Jin suddenly have great courage?
Perhaps seeing Tsering Gesang's helplessness and despair haunted by nightmares, she had already softened her heart and wanted to do something to relieve these pains for him. And the emotions that he was trying to suppress became even more uncontrollable when Yang Jin saw the mandala flower totem on Tsering Gesang's wrist. Yang Jin is really worried that the flower soul will squeeze the last vitality of the young man, and that momentary concern is enough to change a lot of things, after all, many times, people's minds are only made in an instant.
Perhaps it is because the long-term worries have been confirmed on this special night, for the once unspeakable depression, Yang Jin has long been accustomed to digesting by herself, she is the high saint of the Wu clan, representing the qi and fate of the entire tribe. If ordinary people doubt the existence of the Wu gods, they just believe in another one. But Yang Jin can't be so selfish, if she hastily terminates the sacrifice, the fate of the Wu clan will be changed, and she can't afford such a result.
So all the entanglements were pressed in her heart, and she was almost about to drive her crazy.
It wasn't until he met Tsering Gesang that Yangjin felt accompanied for the first time. In life, the most difficult thing is to understand each other, and the last thing you should covet is to empathize. But the appearance of Tsering Gesang overturned Yang Jin's original idea, and the time between the two of them was clearly very short, but the bond was much deeper than Yang Jin imagined.
Yang Jin suddenly felt that there was someone who could understand her, help her, and share these things with her, so that talking more than one word seemed like a stolen time. If one day Tsering Gesang will be lost, if ....... What should he do if he really had an accident because of the flower soul? This thought inexplicably drilled into Yang Jin's mind, making her afraid.
........ Tsering Gesang can't be allowed to have an accident.
It was a knee-jerk decision she made, and for the sake of this decision, she became so resolute that she didn't even think about the cost at all.
So that those emotions suddenly burst like a, and they became no longer controllable. Otherwise, Yang Jin would not have said what he shouldn't have said, without considering whether Tsering Gesang would understand it and believe it.
To Yang Jin's surprise, in the face of a chaotic future, Tsering Gesang actually showed the same degree of determination, he delivered his greatest trust, and without saying or asking, he decisively stood on her side.
Just as Yang Jin didn't expect that she would care about this teenager who suddenly broke into her life, when she first met her in the cabin on that snowy night, it was just an ordinary curiosity. When did Tsering Gesang start to favor her, the relationship between the two gradually fermented, and more trust and care sprouted, and Yang Jin couldn't say these things for the time being.
She only knew that what the Black Saintess said back then had always been remembered by her, and she kept chewing with too much suspicion, but she didn't have more energy to deal with it. She didn't want to, she didn't dare to confirm it, so she didn't come to any conclusions all these years, she was just a walking corpse in front of the black saint of the witch clan, and the biggest rebellion against fate was to sneak out on the eve of the sacrifice and digest too many emotions in that cabin where no one could find her.
But at this moment, Yang Jin finally made up his mind to solve some things and completely escape from the shackles left by the Wu Patriarch. Even this decision was even bolder than any she had ever imagined, because she not only fled by herself, but also wanted to take the young man she cared about so much that Tsering Gesang could also get rid of the torture left by the flower soul.
At the beginning, Tsering Gesang did not know Yangjin's plan, nor did he know how difficult the road ahead would be.
Even if he didn't know anything, the answer he gave was still certain.
Those are four words without thinking.
I believe you.
Tsering Gesang calmed down for a few moments before continuing.
"Since then, my plan with Yang Jin has begun. We have made a lot of efforts so that one day we can leave Tibet and start a new life. I can get out of the control of the nightmare brought about by the flower soul, and Yang Jin can also break free from the predetermined fate of the witch saintess, and we can do what we really want to do....... It's good to do anything, open a small shop casually, get a small job, even if it's just living incognito, it's better than living so hard and secretly as you are now. ”
Bai ignored Tsering Gesang's sudden outburst of emotion, and just added casually.
"So there's that B&B?"
Tsering Gesang was slightly stunned, and glanced at Bai a little strangely, really frightened by his insight.
Most of the time, this man just listened quietly to Tsering Gesang's confession, he was so careless, even his attitude could be called contemptuous, probably with a little indifference. It is precisely this kind of casualness that often gives people the illusion that even if they hide something in the process, or tell some innocuous little lies, they will not be discovered.
But in fact, illusions are just illusions.
Bai knew everything about the affairs between Tsering Gesang and Yang Jin, and the one or two sentences he uttered quietly often directly pointed out the most hidden things that were hidden by Tsering Gesang, so that he instantly sent a chill down his spine.
As more and more secrets were revealed, Tsering Gesang became more and more convinced that it was meaningless to hide it in front of Bai.
Maybe it's really like what this man said at the beginning, when he found him, he was already destined to the inevitable result of cooperation and the subsequent context of things, the so-called confession is just the difference between taking the initiative to show sincerity and being forced to confess his heart, secrecy cannot change the subsequent development of the situation, and he really does not have any initiative at all.
After a brief hesitation, Tsering Gesang nodded.
The conversation on that snowy night became an opportunity for Tsering Gesang and Yang Jin to confess to each other, and it also made the relationship between the two people completely different after that. If it was originally just Tsering Gesang's unilateral dependence and proximity, and Yang Jin's inexplicable closeness and curiosity, everything else was just to the point, one would not say more, and the other would not want to ask more. But since that day, although no one has broken the relationship between them, the trust between them has become especially deep, and those plans for the future have begun little by little.
"Since then, Yang Jin and I have continued to meet in the cabin regularly, but the day of meeting has changed from a random appointment to the fifteenth day of every month. I don't know if it's some kind of inexplicable psychological comfort, or if as a witch saintess, Yang Jin does carry the power to reassure me. In short, the nightmare that had haunted me for many years gradually subsided a lot after having Yang Jin by my side. ”
"Calmed down?" Bai tilted his head slightly, "Didn't you dream of that sacrifice again?"
"No, I still dream of that sacrifice, and I still can't get rid of the picture of the sacrifice of the ancient kingdom of Loulan in my dream. But I don't have to experience the pain of being torn to pieces all the time. I will not repeat countless deaths, nor will I start a new life in one place, which is undoubtedly the greatest relief for me, and this is the relief that Yang Jin has given me. ”
The faint moonlight sprinkled down, and Tsering Gesang's expression was almost gentle for a moment.
This is a unique exception, or every time Yang Jin is mentioned, Tsering Gesang inevitably has mood swings.
The thoughts he usually conceals will unconsciously leak out a few cracks, so that those gentleness and softness can no longer hide.
Tsering Gesang has always been accustomed to hiding, his heart is cold, he has always been the only one who calculates others, but others can't see his thoughts, but in front of Yang Jin, Tsering Gesang has never concealed himself, and what he shows is the most real side. Those who are hesitant and helpless, restless and vulnerable, they exchange their weaknesses with each other, accompany each other through the most difficult days, and become each other's armor through this layer of determination that must protect each other.
"In a way, I was lucky to have met Yangjin. ”
"You mean you have psychological sustenance?"
"Yes, and not only. Tsering Gesang lowered his eyes slightly, and his voice was also slower, "Didn't I tell you that she saved me twice, the first time was the first meeting in the snow mountain, and the meeting that lasted for many years after that was the second time I wanted to say." If I hadn't met Yang Jin, I would have been tormented by dreams and gone crazy, and I wouldn't have been able to persevere until now. ”
"Perhaps. ”
Shiro's fingers pressed against the edge of the dilapidated car, and he tapped it lightly, like some kind of point, just like his next sentence, which instantly tore apart the harmonious and beautiful atmosphere of the conversation at this moment.
"However, you finally gave up on her, the poor witch saint paid so much for you, accompanied you through the most difficult years, and finally became a victim of the tribe because of your cowardice, how pitiful it is. ”
"No....... It's not that I gave up on her, you don't talk nonsense!"
As Bai's voice fell, Tsering Gesang was like a cat that had been stepped on its tail, and suddenly exploded all over his body. His eyes were fixed on Shiro's body, as if he wanted to demonstrate, showing his anger. But this kind of strength was too much to cover up, and in the end he only saw his panic and loss of control from the moonlit car window.
However, in just a few seconds of confrontation, Tsering Gesang was quickly defeated, leaving only a sigh at the end.
"It's Yangjin...... She didn't believe in me enough, she didn't give me a choice. ”