Also known as "Marriage is the Grave of Love" Zhang Baotong 2016.7.4

After the wound healed, Abelard paid a sum of money to the abbey and sent Eloise to the abbey of Argenteuil again. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 info Heartbroken, Eloise became a nun again. Last time, Eloise's entry into the convent was temporary, without the need to wear a veil, and with slightly more relaxed freedom than others. However, this time she was sincere and completely and completely began to be a real nun. So, not only did she put on a nun's robe, but she also put on a veil and intended to dedicate her life to God.

During the baptismal ceremony, when the priest held the statue of Jesus to Eloise and asked her to kiss her, Eloise leaned her head on the throne. Looking at the stunned priest, Eloise explained, "A woman like me is not worthy to kiss God's toes. After receiving the statue of Jesus in the priest's hand, she recited in her heart: "I no longer give my loyalty to you, but at the moment of kissing the base, I dedicate my vows to my faith------ eternal love!"

When Eloise, dressed in a nun's black robe and veiled, sent Abelard out of the convent, he sat in the carriage and wept bitterly. Because of his arrogance and conceit, he ruined himself and his lover. Let her dedicate her life of vivid beauty to her fearful and terrible monastic life. This is her sorrow, and it is his sorrow.

In order not to become a eunuch philosopher, after sending off Eloise, Abelard, who had no choice, also entered the abbey of Saint-Denis, put on the cloak of sanctity, and became a monk. It is not so much a sincere conversion to God as it is sadness and remorse. There is no greater mourning than death. Abelard's heart seemed to be dead, and he not only wanted Eloise to honor his wish to become a nun, but also gave him no comfort to Eloise, who had entered the monastery before him. In this way, the lovers put on monk's robes and fled to the convent, when Abelard was 40 years old and Eloise was only 19 years old.

The Abbey of Saint-Denis is located in the department of Saint-Denis, north of Paris, but belongs to a large abbey of the Diocese of Paris, because in 630 AD, people buried the body of the first bishop of Paris, Saint Denis, so the abbey was named the Abbey of Saint-Denis.

The subversive and intense shame of the pain did not convert Abelard into a passion for religious life, but drove him to seek to live that life of seclusion in the monastery. He was indeed deeply repentant of his actions and sought to become a true Christian monastic. In fact, his injuries have not fully recovered, and the pastor has tried countless times to persuade him to continue his cultivation and recovery. However, he approached the abbot and said earnestly, "I have come here to study because of pain and reputation, and since God has called me here, I should turn the only love of my heart to God." ”

The abbot said, "People of your age have always toiled for the rich, and since you have come here, you should teach for the poor." So he placed Abelard in a monastery to teach.

Life in the monastery made him feel how God's hand was touching him, and he began to concentrate on the study of freedom, that is, to withdraw from the temptations of the flesh and the chaos of the world. Therefore, he realized that he should believe in God more than become a philosopher in this world.

On that day, he went to the abbey of Argenteuil to visit Eloise. Because the bishop had blessed her, she lifted the veil that was hidden from her. Although she is full of lust and love for Arral in her heart, full of good memories of their past. But when she saw him, he seemed so calm and peaceful, as if he had changed completely. It's like a good friend of his, not his lover and wife. They sat in front of a statue of God and a cross with solemn expressions and peaceful expressions. There was not a trace of the passion and impulse that used to be the way they used to every time they met.

Yes, every time they met, she used to throw herself into his arms desperately, kissing and loving him like crazy, but now, her heart was like water, and she was completely like a nun. Although he still had the blame in his heart for blaming her for tempting him to sin, he did love her and loved her sincerely. I haven't seen her for two months, but she is still so young and beautiful, and she seems more mature and sensible. He really wanted to touch her and kiss her, but he couldn't, because they were no longer mortals and had to obey God's will. Moreover, Eloise is already an official nun. The official nuns are sworn to be poor and to renounce all material property in the world, to be chaste to be free from lust and lust, to be celibate, to refrain from and to refrain from all pleasures, and to be obedient and completely obedient to any reasonable or unreasonable demands of the abbot. Even if she had taken the oath, it meant that their marriage had been declared null and void. Therefore, although she is still a lover and wife in his mind, in fact, there is no longer such a relationship.

He told her that he had entered the Abbey of St. Denis to become a monk in theology. Eloise was both resentful and pitiful to him, because he had asked her to enter the convent. In this regard, she had no choice but to obey.

She told him how she had adapted to life in the convent and how she had been with the other sisters. She said she had come to love life in the convent. In the past, she had lived in the monastery, where she had regarded it as a terrible hell, but now she loved it. It took a short time to take the oath and become a full nun. However, from an intern nun to becoming a full nun, the average person has to go through many internships such as learning to adapt to the canon and praying, and it takes at least half a year to a year or two. And it took her less than two months. Hearing these words, he didn't know whether to feel relieved or sad.

The abbot was very fond of Eloise, and she said to Abelard, "When Eloise is about to take the vow to become a full nun." The sisters thought that she was so young, beautiful, and talented, and they tried to dissuade her from tying her fresh youth to the shackles of an unbearable monastic life, but she was unable to stop her, and her determination and desire were so strong. She said it was her husband's wish and she had to obey. ”

Speaking of this, Sister Cornelia next to her cried and preached to him, "Poor Eloise, she sees you as her everything, her God. Then she sang the lament that Eloise often sang:

"Oh, husband, the noblest of all in my heart,

Who can share my bed! What a great treasure?

To hurt his noble heart? Then why did I get married?

Accept my sorrow just because of your calamity?

I'm willing to accept that price. ”

Listening to this sad song, Abelard couldn't help but sob. Eloise held back her tears, but tears poured out like a spring. But to his relief, Eloise seemed to be very competitive, intelligent, sensible, and maintained a very good relationship with the upper and lower levels of the monastery. The bishop loved her like a daughter, the abbot treated her like a sister, the other sisters were close to her, and to the believers she was like a mother. All were envious of her piety, prudence, and the incomparable gentleness and patience that she possessed at all times.

Knowing that everything was fine with Eloise, Abelard was relieved. He thought he could devote his whole body and soul to his hermitage.