Lost (novella) Zhang Baotong

Although it was the second half of the night, Qiu Wen didn't feel sleepy at all, just like she had insomnia in the past. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info she wanted to wake Chunxia up and talk to her, but after shaking it a few times, Chunxia turned over and said, "Sleep, I'm sleepy", and fell asleep again. She immediately realized that Chunxia was not Xu Bin, and if Xu Bin was, she would pull him by the nose and wake him up, let him talk to her, or let him massage her until she fell asleep. Since she got a new job and lived with Xu Bin, her insomnia has almost been cured, but if she encounters something worrying or sleeps too late at night, the old problem will recur.

While thinking about those troublesome things, she tossed and turned in the dark, and she was afraid that she would wake up Chunxia. In this way, she stayed up until it was dawn, and then she fell asleep in a daze. When I woke up, it was already nine o'clock, and Chunxia had already gone to work when I didn't know it. Because she didn't sleep well last night, she still felt that her mind was heavy and sleepy, and her eyes couldn't open a little, so she fell asleep again. Because she came back from Guangzhou two days early, she could not go to work on these two days.

She opened her eyes, and then remembered that she had not eaten since yesterday afternoon, so she got up lazily and went out to buy a bowl of cold skin to eat. Because Chunxia was selling clothes to others at the clothing market on Rehabilitation Road, she couldn't come back at noon, so Qiu Wen could only stay alone in someone's hut. The hut was small and stuffy, and there was a fourteen-inch black-and-white TV in the room, and when I opened it, the images in it flickered and flickered, which made her eyes very uncomfortable, so she turned the TV off. Then, she found a magazine with big titles such as "Girl Crazy ** Documentary" and "The Drunken Dream and Death of Prostitutes and Selling Girls" on the cover next to her pillow, and felt that this kind of thing could arouse the sense of officialdom, so she flipped through it, but after reading it for a while, she felt that the content in it was too debauched and explicit, and it was really unbearable to read, so she threw the magazine on the bed.

It was noon, and the sun was shining brightly outside, which was very attractive. Qiu Wen felt that this room was small and stuffy, and there was a feeling of depression, so she wanted to go out to breathe and relax. However, it was too lonely and lonely to go out alone, so she remembered Yuan Hao. Yuan Hao, Qiu Wen's original boyfriend, met on the Internet and worked as a guard in a private factory. Originally, the relationship between the two was not bad, and they had to meet two or three times a week. But since she got along with Xu Bin, Qiu Wen has never contacted Yuan Hao again.

Qiu Wen was originally in charge of Batai and cashier in a Cantonese restaurant, a few years ago, the restaurant owner went back to Guangdong for the New Year, saying that he would come back to open a store on the seventh and eighth days of the new year, but Qiu Wen waited until the fifteenth day of the first month to see the boss come back. Usually, the restaurant is busy all year round, so people always look forward to the holiday and rest, but it is really a holiday to rest, Qiu Wen is not used to it, and she feels that she has nothing to do all day long, so she has to sleep. She slept until ninety o'clock in the morning, and after lunch, she went back to sleep, and slept until four or five o'clock in the afternoon. As a result, sleep is upside down, and at night it becomes insomnia and cannot sleep. It is painful to not be able to fall asleep when it is time to sleep. In order to adjust her biological clock, she hoped that someone would take her out for a walk. At that time, she was getting along with Yuan Hao, but Yuan Hao was a foreigner, and when he was the loneliest and loneliest after Qiu Wen's New Year, he returned to his hometown for the New Year, and he didn't return for a long time. She called several times in a row, and Yuan Hao said that there was something at home that she couldn't get away from for the time being, which made her feel very discouraged and lost. So, she had to buy some wool and sit on the edge of the wheat field outside the village, basking in the sun and wearing a sweater, as a way to kill the boring daytime. It was at this time that Qiu Wen met Xu Bin and became good with Xu Bin.

That afternoon, Xu Bin was idle and wanted to visit a friend who lived in the village, and when he passed by the side of the wheat road, he happened to meet Qiu Wen. Xu Bin is often invited to Cantonese restaurants for dinner, and he often invites people to Cantonese restaurants for dinner, so he is naturally very familiar with Qiu Wen. When two lonely and boring hearts collided, they naturally had a lot to say. Listening to Qiu Wen talk about her idleness and boredom, Xu Bin wanted to take Qiu Wen out for a walk. In fact, he himself has been busy for a year, and he wants to take advantage of the free time after the year to go around the scenic spots, but he feels that it is too lonely and boring to go out alone, so he did not go out. Now when I heard that Qiu Wen was worried because she was bored, she proposed to take Qiu Wen to Guilin for a tour.

Because she has been waiting to open a store to work these days, but the boss has not come back, which makes Qiu Wen's mood flustered all day long, especially at night, she always has insomnia all night, which is an extreme fear for her spirit, so when she heard that Xu Bin wanted to take her to Guilin for a tour, she immediately agreed. They took the train to Guilin, took a boat trip to the Li River, watched the caves, and went to Liu Sanjie's Garden to watch folk songs and dances, and played for nearly a week before coming back.

After returning from Guilin, because the restaurant owner had not returned, Qiu Wen and several others had no one to pay their rent, so the landlord asked Qiu Wen for money and drove them away. Qiu Wen felt that she couldn't live in the landlord's house anymore, and she couldn't find a suitable job for a while, so she had to accept Xu Bin's invitation and live in Xu Bin's house.

Xu Bin's house is in a newly built residential community on the side of Taihua Road in the northern suburbs, the house was bought three years ago, with three bedrooms, two living rooms and two bathrooms, about 150 square meters, and the house is also very high-end and elegant. Xu Bin's wife died two years ago due to a terminal illness, and Xu Bin is usually the only one in such a large house, so her arrival also made this home immediately full of that long-lost warmth and happiness. Qiu Wen has been growing up in a family lacking father's love since she was a child, and she has always been envious of a complete and happy family life.

Originally, she was only living here temporarily, thinking that after finding a job, she would go out and rent a house by herself, but over time, she felt that she had become the owner of this home, and some of them couldn't leave there, and it seemed that they couldn't do without her. So, although she got a job, she still lived there.

In fact, after Yuan Hao came back from her hometown, she paged her for several days, and went to the courtyard where she lived to find her and inquire about her, but she was in love with Xu Bin, and she didn't want to pay attention to the hairy young man who didn't know how to be gentle and considerate to people at all. Therefore, he has not kept in touch with Yuan Hao anymore. But now that she thinks of Yuan Hao, she feels that Yuan Hao is young and simple, and his mind and habits have not been polluted by the dust of the years, although he is not as rich and rich as Xu Bin, at least he will not deceive her and betray her.

Of course, Yuan Hao is not the ideal man in her heart, but she also knows that the ideal man only exists in dreams, and it will not bring her any comfort and benefits. Now, all she needed was a man who could take her out for a walk and listen to her about her anguish and worries. Because one heart always needs the comfort of another heart when it is hurt.

So, she came to a small shop in the village and paged Yuan Hao. Soon, Yuan Hao called back and asked, "Who are you?" Qiu Wen deliberately said slowly, "Can't hear it?" Yuan Hao immediately became surprised and said, "You are Qiu Wen, where are you now?" Qiu Wen said in a melancholy tone, "I was in the village where I used to live." Do you have something to do now?" Yuan Hao said, "I'm at work, what's the matter with you?" Qiu Wen said, "I want you to take me out for a walk." Yuan Hao hesitated for a moment, then said, "You wait on the side of the road at the entrance of the village, and I will pick you up." ”

Qiu Wen came to the side of the road at the entrance of the village and waited for Yuan Hao. After a while, I saw Yuan Hao riding a brand-new motorcycle speeding over and stopping in front of Qiu Wen. Qiu Wen pointed to the motorcycle and asked Yuan Hao, "Who owns this car?" Yuan Hao said, "It's a friend in the factory." Qiu Wen said, "It's still Japanese." Yuan Hao said, "It is a Japanese original, 13,000 yuan." As he spoke, he asked Qiu Wen where she wanted to go. Qiu Wen said to go out casually. Yuan Hao let Qiu Wen get in the car.

The car drove out of the village, and Yuan Hao asked Qiu Wen, "Where have you been these days?" Why is it the same as being missing, no matter how many times I paged you, I didn't see you reply." I went to your landlord's house to look for you, and they said they didn't know where you had moved to. Qiu Wen made up and said, "Our boss hasn't been back since the New Year, and I have nothing to do, so I went to Shenzhen." After doing it for a while, I felt uncomfortable, and I came back. Yuan Hao complained and said, "Why don't you say a word to me, I will paging you all the time." When Qiu Wen heard this, she asked rhetorically, "Then I called so many times, why didn't you come back?" Yuan Hao said ashamedly, "Didn't I tell you, my father is sick and can't come back for a while?" Qiu Wen said angrily, "Then you still blame me for not greeting you?"

With that, the car came to the door of a net bus that Qiu Wen and Yuan Hao used to come to. For a while, Qiu Wen was fascinated by the Internet, and she would spare two or three nights a week for Yuan Hao to accompany her to chat online. Moreover, after Qiu Wen and Yuan Hao met on the Internet, the place of their first date was here. It is close to the building materials market and not far from where Qiu Wen and Yuan Hao work. This is also the main reason why Qiu Wen and Yuan Hao often come here. The room in the net bar is not too big, and there are about 20 computers in the narrow hall of forty or fifty square meters. However, there are quite a few people who come here to surf the Internet, and at first glance, most of them are high school students in their seventeens or eighteen years old and young men and women in their twenties.

Yuan Hao took Qiu Wen to the two empty seats leaning together. Qiu Wen was not in a good mood and was not interested in chatting online, so she said that she didn't want to play. Yuan Hao saw that Qiu Wen didn't want to play, so he turned on the computer and played the game of "Tomb Raider", and he kept explaining it to Qiu Wen. Qiu Wen herself is not interested in playing games, so not only is she indifferent to what Yuan Hao plays and what she says, but she feels bored and irritable, so when she sees Yuan Hao's crazy appearance when she plays games, she feels that he is like those seventeen or eighteen-year-old high school students, and he has not really grown up.

She originally wanted Yuan Hao to take her out to distract herself, but she didn't expect that this place not only made her distract and relieve her boredom, but made her feel even more irritable and depressed, so she wanted Yuan Hao to leave here together, but seeing Yuan Hao playing so focused and obsessed, she felt that it was not good to ruin his fun. So, she got up and walked to the door of the net bus and watched the pedestrians and vehicles pass by on the bright golden street. Originally, she thought that her departure would attract Yuan Hao's attention, but she stood in front of the door for a while, and she didn't see Yuan Hao glance at her, so she was really a little moved in her heart, and felt that this person didn't care about anything when he played.

This reminded her of Xu Bin, if Xu Bin, as long as she was the slightest bit unhappy or unhappy, he would immediately feel and realize it, and would try to comfort her, comfort her, and make her happy. Especially during the years after the year, she had insomnia at night and couldn't sleep, but although he was very tired and tired after a busy day, he always had to hold her in his arms so that she could sleep peacefully. If she still couldn't sleep, he began to massage her vigorously with both hands from her forehead, along her temples to the back of her head and shins, until she fell asleep sleepily. In contrast, she felt that although this Yuan Hao was also twenty-four or five years old, he was still far from a man in the real sense.