Lost (novella) Zhang Baotong

She walked aimlessly along the main road, and when she came to the door of a supermarket that had just opened, she hesitated, then went inside, and after a while, she felt that the things in this store were cheaper than those in her own store, so she bought herself some snacks, cosmetics, and necessities. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 infoBecause she is going to live here in Chunxia now, she has to buy many daily necessities. Actually, there are some things that you don't have to buy, but she just wants to buy them. She felt that this would at least ease her irritability and irritation.

Seeing that her mood was still irritable, after dinner, Chunxia took her out to relieve her boredom. She followed Chunxia to the Violet Blue Cabaret. The dance hall is quite big and there are a lot of people, Chunxia took Qiu Wen to the chair on the side of the field and sat down. Qiu Wen asked the waiter for two tubes of Coke, gave Chunxia one, and then drank the drink through a straw while watching the men and women in the ballroom dance four steps together. At this time, Chunxia pointed to a young man who was dancing with a middle-aged woman in her arms and said to Qiu Wen, "Look, that person's name is Baoyu, it is Jia Baoyu's Baoyu, and he dances very well, and he can be said to be the king of dances here." ”

Qiu Wen looked in the direction pointed by Chunxia, and felt that the young man's dance was really good, not only the dance posture was standardized and elegant, but also the temperament and strength were extraordinary, and every move and style showed a unique professionalism, just like the professional dancers she saw on TV participating in international ballroom dance competitions. So, Qiu Wen asked if this person was specialized in dance. Chunxia said in an exclamatory tone, "People are migrant workers from the countryside of southern Shaanxi. used to clean the dance hall, but people were unwilling to be miserable at the moment, so they studied and practiced hard. Now, not only do I dance well, but I also sing well. Not only does he no longer have to work hard, but he can't spend all the money that those rich women give him. ”

In the past, Qiu Wen always thought that only women could do this kind of thing to make a living by dancing with others, but she didn't expect that there would be men doing this kind of thing, so she couldn't help but be more curious about that person. I don't know if it was her gaze that caught the man's attention, or if she was dressed too attractively tonight, Qiu Wen soon noticed that the young man also began to keep looking at her.

Sure enough, before the dance stopped, the young man left the woman in his arms and walked straight towards her. Qiu Wen thought that she was here to relax, and she didn't want to provoke this kind of person, so she deliberately turned her head away, not wanting to deal with strangers. However, Chunxia shouted to her in shock, "Qiu Wen, look, Baoyu is here, I want to invite you to dance." Qiu Wen was a little annoyed by Chunxia's approach, but at this moment, that Baoyu stood in front of her, looking at her with that very close daylight. The gaze was very bright and straight, without the slightest euphemism, it was completely a naked gaze with strong desire. Facing this kind of gaze from a man, Qiu Wen immediately felt flustered and at a loss.

The young man said to Chunxia very politely, "Sister Chunxia, can I ask your friend to dance?" This made Qiu Wen feel a little unhappy, as if she was a person who was attached to Chunxia and not an independent person. But Chunxia had already opened her mouth to introduce that Baoyu and said, "Baoyu, this is my best friend Qiu Wen, and she dances very well." When Baoyu heard this, he said, "Fortunately, I will be lucky," and then stretched out his hand towards Qiu Wenyi and made a gesture of invitation. Qiu Wen knew that it was rude to refuse others on such occasions, so she had no choice but to put her hand in Baoyu's hand and was obediently led to the dance floor.

Qiu Wen was also keen on dancing in the past, and she danced very well, and she was also beautiful, so as soon as she entered the dance hall, no matter whether she knew a man or not, she wanted to dance with her, but because she learned to surf the Internet, she rarely danced again. Therefore, as soon as she and Baoyu came on the stage, they immediately attracted people's attention. For a young girl, it naturally feels good to be looked at with envy and attention. Moreover, Baoyu is really worthy of being the prince in the dance, dancing gracefully and skillfully, the person is also delicate and cold, the hair is the kind of Hong Kong-style singer-style messy and orderly style, the whole person is the kind of "cool" feeling, but what makes her feel the most direct and profound is his fresh and compelling breath and the kind of youthful strength that is almost crazy and intoxicated. She was fascinated by this refreshing and intoxicating feeling, and was driven by him to spin and dance like two butterflies fluttering among the flowers, so that she felt like a Cinderella in this dance.

As the music slowed down, the lights dimmed again. In the dark, Qiu Wen was surprised to see that the men and women around her were already hugging each other tightly. Before she could think about it, that Baoyu had already held her tightly in her arms and was trying to kiss her with her lips. Although she was not used to making out and kissing a strange man so quickly, she still did not make any resistance, because she had a desire to be close and kissed.

They danced many songs in a row, and when they finished together, Baoyu offered to take her out to eat the night sky. She wanted to say hello to Chunxia, but found that Chunxia had long since disappeared. Baoyu said that Chunxia had already been taken away.

Baoyu took Qiu Wen to a fancy café on a large motorcycle, ate some desserts, and then took Qiu Wen to her residence. It is a house of more than 10 square meters, with a large bed, a TV and a set of stereos. The light was dark red, and in the sound of low lingering music, the two unconsciously hugged each other and kissed, followed by undressing and going to bed, everything was so natural and tacit, interconnected, just like they were dancing together in the intoxicating music.

Leaving Baoyu's residence and walking on the way back, thinking about what happened to Baoyu just now, Qiu Wen didn't feel any betrayal and guilt, only felt that this was a natural intersection of feelings and desires between men and women, neither as mysterious as the books say, nor as ugly as people say, and of course it would not make her have that kind of heart-wrenching self-blame and remorse. Because she knows that when a man and a woman are in love, this kind of thing seems inevitable. This reminded her of her mother and Xu Bin. She wondered if her mother and Xu Bin were the same at that time?

In retrospect, she felt that she had many mistakes and misleading in the relationship between her mother and Xu Bin. Originally, she wanted Xu Bin to gain her mother's favor through contact with her mother, improve her mother's opinion of Xu Bin, and at the same time, let her mother go out more and change her mood. However, they didn't expect their relationship to develop to such a point. In particular, she shouldn't let her mother go on vacation with Xu Bin, and she also knew that they might live in the same room, but she just thought that between her mother and Xu Bin, one was a mother-in-law and the other was a son-in-law, how could this kind of thing happen. But I didn't expect that men and women are both animals with feelings and desires, and as long as a man and a woman live together, this kind of thing can happen. Besides, although her mother is already a half-old, she is young in appearance and gentle in temperament, so she will naturally have a lot of seductive charm for men. And Xu Bin belongs to the kind of middle-aged man with a very mature demeanor, this kind of person is easy to be pitiful and emotional to women. But she always tries her best to bring them together, how can she keep them from having an accident? If this happened to her mother and other men, or Xu Bin and other women, she might have tolerated them, but this happened to her mother and Xu Bin, and this reality made her simply unacceptable?

But these anguish and annoyance were soon diluted by a feeling of freshness and hunger. These days, her mind is always tossing and turning about Baoyu, and there is even a kind of inexplicability and extreme longing. This desire was so strong and exciting that she couldn't calm down even if she wanted to. If her lovesickness and attachment to Baoyu is a betrayal of Xu Bin, then she earnestly longs for betrayal, because this betrayal can give her a temporary fulfillment and pleasure. She thought she was captivated by him, captured, and a little overwhelmed.

As soon as she got off work, she ate something casually, began to put on makeup, changed into beautiful clothes, and didn't wait for Chunxia to come back, so she hurriedly went to the dance hall. Baoyu was waiting for her in front of the song and dance door, and when he saw her, he stepped forward and hugged her, and was about to kiss her. Qiu Wen was afraid that it would be bad for her acquaintances to see her, so she hurriedly pushed him away and whispered, "Don't let acquaintances see it." ”

The two entered the dance hall hand in hand, found a couple seat in the hall and sat down, asked for some melon seeds and drinks, and began to order songs. Baoyu first ordered "Ah, Peony", saying that it was dedicated to the young Ms. Qiuwen. This made her feel like she was being mistaken for Cinderella. Baoyu's voice is not only beautiful and magnificent, but also has a strong lyrical meaning, and he can sing easily and naturally in the difficult treble area, so in the very amateur crowd in the song hall, every song he sings is very professional, and every song he sings can win the warm applause of the audience. After singing a few songs, Baoyu ordered another "Kangding Love Song" to sing a duet with Qiu Wen. Qiu Wen felt that she didn't sing very well, and if she sang with Baoyu, she would inevitably be embarrassed, so she didn't want to sing. But Baoyu had already stuffed the microphone into Qiu Wen's hand, so that Qiu Wen couldn't stop singing. So, Qiu Wen sang along with Baoyu. However, as soon as she sang a few words, Qiu Wen felt that Baoyu sang too well and didn't dare to speak out compared to herself, so she only sang one or two sentences and didn't dare to sing again.

At this time, a woman in her thirties who was dressed up in a gorgeous and fashionable fashion jumped out of nowhere, snatched the microphone from Qiu Wen's hand without saying anything, and sang to the melody of karaoke. In fact, this woman still sings very well, although she is not as good as Baoyu, she can sing in duet with Baoyu. However, Baoyu was obviously very annoyed by the unreasonable offense of this sudden woman, and immediately stopped, and said to the woman, "Do you understand the rules?" Then, snatching the microphone from the woman's hand and stuffing it into Qiu Wen's hand. Qiu Wen said that she really wanted the woman to sing a duet with Baoyu, so she said to Baoyu, "Let's let her sing with you." Baoyu said, "I ordered a song for the two of us, why do you want her to sing it?" The woman glanced at Baoyu contemptuously, and said, "Aren't you just a singing and dancing companion, how much do you think you want?" As if insulted, Baoyu scolded, "You witch, will you go away?" and as she spoke, she flew up and kicked the woman in the face. I heard the woman scream, and she covered her face and fell to the ground. Suddenly, there was chaos in the song hall. Qiu Wen was afraid that things would get bigger, so she pulled Baoyu out of the song hall and went to Baoyu's residence together.