There is a theory that there are seven stages of grief.

Shock, denial, guilt, anger, depression and loneliness, reconstruction and restoration, acceptance and hope.

The fast and firm death process did not leave Qin Li with too much time shock and denial, but it gave him a long time to feel guilty.

is so guilty that she can only live if she pretends to be there.

After the weird supermarket walk, Qin Li went to the kitchen to clean up by himself, while Lu Weibei sat restlessly on the sofa.

"Don't I have to help?" she looked at Huo Yi.

Huo Yi was cleaning up the clothes and miscellaneous items that Qin Li threw on the ground, and he didn't look back and said, "Didn't he say that he was particularly good at making beef noodles? ”

"But......" Lu Weibei said in a low voice, "...... I don't think Qin Li looks like he can make beef noodles. ”

"What do you say?" asked Huo Yi.

"I just watched him cut beef...... His beef...... Cut along the texture ......" Lu Wei said.

Huo Yi's hand paused.

He is also a person who can cook, so he naturally knows that beef muscle fibers are thicker and more difficult to chew, and generally experienced people will cut meat vertically with muscle fibers, which will be easier to bite.

He sighed, "It's nothing, you can eat it." ”

"Come on, come on, face here. Qin Li was quite elated, and beckoned the two of them to the table, "Sit down, sit down, I'll go juice the peaches, let's drink them as drinks." ”

Qin Li turned around and entered the kitchen again.

The roar of the juicer came from the closed door of the kitchen, the noodles on the table were steaming, and the beef was spread out on the soft and collapsed noodles.

Lu Weibei was even more frightened, "Is his current mood a little ......?"

Huo Yi lowered his eyes, looked at the coriander leaves with a little yellow on the edge swirling in the noodle soup, and said in a low voice, "It's okay, it will pass." ”

Lu Weibei's heart tightened, and he turned his head to look at Huo Yi.

His eyes were straight, as if he was looking at the bowl of noodles in front of him, and like he was looking at something else.

"Come on, come on, here comes the drink. Qin Li quickly took out the squeezed peach juice and sat down at the dining table, "Eat, eat, taste my craft!"

Huo Yi reacted first, picked up the bowl and took a sip of soup, and then took a chopstick noodle with an expressionless face.

Lu Wei didn't look like Huo Yi was about to have an accident for the time being, he was a little relieved, and he lowered his head and picked up a piece of rape and ate it.

…… Salty.

Like pickles.

She took a bite to go, pretending it tasted good, and ate it bite by bite.

Qin Li saw that both of them had moved, and he moved his chopsticks with satisfaction and sandwiched a piece of beef.

…… The beef can't be bitten.

"That beef may not be easy to bite, so if you two can't bite it, don't eat it." Qin Li took a sip of noodle soup while admonishing.

…… Is salt so salty?

"You two stop eating, this noodle is too salty! Qin Li hurriedly stopped.

Huo Yi and Lu Weibei glanced at each other and put down their chopsticks.

"Actually...... There's no particular ......," Huo Yi said thoughtfully.

"Okay, okay, I know what you want, don't comfort me, be calm!" Qin Li stopped Huo Yi's next words, and picked up the peach juice to relieve the saltiness.

This peach juice is not sweet, nor does it have a peach fragrance, only a little bit of crispy taste, and a cloudy texture, which barely suggests that this is indeed a cup of freshly squeezed juice.

But even this is better than nothing, and it can quench your thirst, which is a good dish on this table.

He drank all the peach juice, looked at the two people sitting opposite him with chopsticks down, and looked a little depressed, "I didn't expect that cooking is so exquisite, let's order some takeout." I'll bring the sugar gourd first and pad my stomach. ”

"Okay, I'll order takeout. Huo Yi took over the job of ordering takeout.

Qin Li nodded and went to the kitchen to get the sugar gourd.

This time, he was not so elated, quietly retrieved the sugar gourd, and quietly distributed it to Huo Yi and Lu Weibie. He didn't beckon the two of them to eat, but just took off the paper bag of his sugar gourd and started eating.

As soon as he bit down, a hawthorn wrapped in bean paste smashed straight on the table, and a drop of syrup fell at the right time, and went to bury them.

It turned out that it was too hot in the kitchen, and the sugar gourd had melted away in the time it took to cook this meal.

Qin Li stared at the endgame on the table for a long time, and suddenly felt weak, and smashed the whole string of sugar gourds on the table.

Huo Yi and Lu Wei didn't look at him in a bad mood, they didn't eat the sugar gourd when they took it, and kept staring at Qin Li. Seeing this state, Lu Weibie's eyes were a little red again.

Huo Yi gritted his teeth and said, "I especially like my mother's wontons with shepherd's cabbage." After all these years, I haven't found that taste again. ”

Hearing this, Qin Li suddenly raised his head and stared at Huo Yi with red eyes.

Huo Yi looked sad, "Qin Li, they are gone, and they will never come back." ”

Qin Li's whole person was tense and even trembling a little, but he had to admit that Huo Yi didn't say anything wrong.

Mianmian will never come back.

Whether he starved himself to the point of stomach pain, or scolded Fang Yu in the kitchen, Mianmian would never come back.

No matter what his life becomes, it has nothing to do with her.

And her life has nothing to do with him.

She vanished.

The warm light that had been waiting for him in the room was gone.

The sugar gourd by the balcony is gone.

The world's best beef noodles and peach juice are gone.

A part of his life is gone.

"Mian Mian ...... The day before her surgery, she said that she wanted to buy sugar gourds to eat, but I didn't promise her. I thought that after she recovered, she would be able to eat less and eat before the operation, in case her blood sugar was not well controlled, it would be too dangerous. ”

When Qin Li spoke again, his voice was already hoarse and smelled of blood, "The condemned prisoner can still have a severed head meal, Mianmian didn't even eat the candy gourd." ”

Lu Wei couldn't hold back anymore and cried.

She couldn't imagine what kind of mood Mianmian was in to spend the last day and a half of her life. She must still have nostalgia, she must have regrets, but she endured them all.

She must not only want to say goodbye to this world cleanly and with dignity, but also want Qin Li to feel better.

But Mianmian, how can he feel better? You're gone......

Huo Yi was also stabbed in the heart by these words.

Thirteen years.

He would always eat fresh meat dumplings, when he ate the wontons with shepherd's cabbage, and when he ate every dish he thought his family would love to eat, regretting why they didn't have the opportunity to taste it again.

Even if he has slowly learned to go out the door and slowly learn to accept the happy and energetic side of life, this kind of regret will still appear often, so that he can taste the happiness from life with another meaning.

The grief of a loved one's departure does not begin at the moment of departure.

It starts with every second of life.

Every time you think it's about to subside, a new beginning will come.

From now on, you will no longer be able to eat without distractions, discuss the Spring Festival arrangements with a smile, or look forward to a family reunion.

After a long, long time, you think it's all over, but in fact, you're just used to the pain.

Huo Yi took a deep breath and said, "Do you have wine at home?"

Qin Li pointed to the kitchen, "Refrigerator." ”

Huo Yi nodded and got up to get the wine. At this time, the takeaway also arrived, and Lu Wei didn't get up to pick it up.

Huo Yi came back with the wine, poured himself a glass, and drank the wine one by one.

Lu Wei was not afraid that he would drink stomach bleeding, so he grabbed a flower roll and stuffed it on his plate.

Qin Li also poured a glass of wine and drank it all.

He immediately poured himself another glass and said to himself, "Mianmian hates that I'm drunk the most, but she won't care about me now." ”

Lu Weibei put another flower roll on Qin Li's plate, and quietly moved the beer bottle away from him by the way.

Qin Li was drunk, unaware, and said to himself, "Two days ago, I came to see Mianmian's photos...... And guess what? There are so few photos, and they're all ugly. You say...... Why is she such a beautiful little girl such a fool as me?"

Lu Weibei looked around at Qin Li's living room, and there were a lot of photos of Xue Mianmian, large and small, each of which was very good-looking.

She thought about it, but still held back and didn't speak.

Huo Yi nodded sympathetically, and said with red eyes, "Yes, I think my dad is the most handsome when he is playing Tai Chi in the small courtyard, and my mom is the most beautiful when she is reading on the balcony." Where are the people who are out there who are beautiful at home? But such a beautiful person doesn't even have a picture left. ”

Lu Weibei reacted at this time, the photos of Xue Mianmian placed outside were all posed tourist photos, the scenery was very good, and the people were beautiful, but it was indeed not her usual appearance.

How ridiculous people are? You only remember to pick up your camera when you're traveling.

Everyday fireworks often make people forget how precious they are, and when you lose it, you can't even find a photo to help you remember.

How precious can those fake smiles left in the beautiful scenery be, how can they compare to the beads of sweat on the forehead in the helplessness of life?

But at the time, who knew?

"Where are you miserable with me? You were young at the time, and you stayed at home all the time, and you looked at me a few more times than me. Qin Lidao.

Huo Yi took a sip of wine and said with a wry smile, "Where is there a child who stays at home when he has nothing to do?

Qin Li suddenly had a spirit.

He raised his head and looked at Huo Yi, "Huo Yi...... Do you remember what they looked like?"

Huo Yi paused for a long time and drank all the wine in the cup, "I remember a little bit." Only...... A couple of scenes, like the photos. But if they move, I can't remember their faces. ”

"I'll ...... too. I'll forget about the way it looks, too...... Isn't that right?" Qin Li said in despair.

Huo Yi did not answer.

"Stretch...... She's going to be mad at me. Qin Li said sadly, the more he thought about it, the more anxious he became, "I haven't said goodbye to her properly, she is already angry with me." If I forgot what she looked like again...... If I forgot what she looked like again......"

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