"Shi Jing, you come with me, okay?" Si Qi didn't dare to pull him, so he could only ask him softly, while trying to increase the strength to pull him, and if he continued to stalemate, the wound would be frozen, and his whole person would probably be choked by the cold, "It's okay, I'll accompany you, you go with me, okay, let's go back to the room, it's too cold, you have to go back and get dressed, otherwise you will get frostbitten." ”

I don't know if her voice finally reached Shi Jing's ears, I saw him raise his eyes to look at her very slowly, and his eyes were about to be scattered on her face, the eyes were too sad and desperate to look at, his lips trembled for a long time, and then he seemed to say to himself: "I should save her, I should save her, she is only in her second year of high school, life has just begun, I should save her, but I didn't save her, I watched her jump down, jumping down from such a high place, I didn't save her, I should save her." ”

His voice was low, too weak, intermittent by the wind, like a cry.

After Si Qi tried her best to listen attentively, her eyes turned red, and those nervousness and helplessness turned into sadness that she couldn't tell and couldn't cry, she suddenly stepped forward and hugged Shi Jing's waist, hugged his waist, pressed her cheek tightly to his thin chest, and comforted him incoherently: "It's not your fault, it's her own choice, it has nothing to do with you, you don't have to blame yourself, it's not your fault." ”

Shi Jing didn't need her comfort and answer, and still muttered to himself: "My fault, it's all my fault, I should save her..." It's not my fault, I don't want to be like this, I don't know if she's going to jump off a building, I don't know anything, why did this to me, why did this to me, what was wrong with me, why did I live. ”

Si Qi wanted to step forward, but she didn't expect her legs to be weak, so she knelt directly on the ground, not bothering to rub her knees, she rushed over and grabbed Shi Jing's shoulders hard, "Shi Jing, wake up, you wake up, it has nothing to do with you, you don't have to blame yourself, Shi Jing, did you hear it, wake up quickly......"

Shi Jing trembled, his face was almost terrifyingly white, and even his lips turned into panicked white, he was like a dying person trapped in a cage, his soul had been exhausted by darkness and despair, and his only remaining body was gradually devoured in the darkness, he struggled desperately, squeezing the balcony, as if he wanted to stuff his whole person into the wall, so as to seek some kind of relief and redemption.

"Why, why me, why me, I'm unwilling, I can't save her at all, it's not my fault, why..." His voice trembled, holding his head almost crazy, probably to the extreme, he kept hitting the wall of the balcony with the back of his head, his handsome cheeks became distorted, and the miserable white turned into iron blue.

"Shi Jing, listen to me, Shi Jing..." Si Qi hurriedly fixed his cheek firmly with his hand, staring straight into his eyes, but just a glance, she was silent, there was no emotion in these eyes full of depression and pain, only darkness and gloom, so intense black, overwhelmingly swept over, enough to swallow everything, making people irresistibly immersed in it, and finally turned into a part of the darkness.

"Shi Jing, you listen to me, you listen to me, this matter has nothing to do with you, you are not wrong, I will accompany you. Si Qi was in a panic, so he could only subconsciously lean up and kiss the corner of his cold mouth, "Believe me, you're not wrong, let's go back to the room first, let's go back and talk about it, okay?"

Shi Jing stared at her for a long time, making her can't help but have the illusion of being stared at by the abyss, as if the shadowy darkness also spread.

"It's okay, believe me, okay, don't worry, I will accompany you, I will always be with you. Si Qi gently rubbed the corners of his eyes, her eyes couldn't help but be full of tears, she choked up and said: "Shi Jing, let's go back, okay, if you go on like this, you will get sick, I will accompany you, you will not be alone, you will not be alone in the future, okay, believe me, I will not leave you, never." ”

Shi Jing's eyes were blended with a dim light, which contrasted with the thick darkness and consumed each other, like a lone star in the night.

Si Qi took his cold hand instead, trying to pull him up.

With her perseverance, Shi Jing finally reluctantly stood up, moved his steps, and was dragged back to the third floor by her like a marionette, and moved his room step by step.

The quilt was thrown in front of the bed, the pillow ran to the end of the bed, Si Qi held her breath and placed Shi Jing on the bed*, grabbed the quilt indiscriminately and wrapped his whole person, the biting cold made her whole person tremble, she desperately rubbed Shi Jing's hands and feet, and ran back to the corridor to take the thermos cup back, forcibly fed him hot water with a small sip of the cup lid, poured the remaining hot water on a paper towel, wiped his feet for him, and kept wiping until his feet were slowly warm.

His pajamas were almost wet, and the quilt was also stained with moisture, Si Qi hesitated for a moment, but turned his head to the cloakroom and turned out a set of pajamas, half-squinted and stripped the out-of-body person of his clothes, and then changed into clean pajamas, fortunately, Shi Jing's face was expressionless, her eyes were frozen, and she didn't notice her offense, she blushed and thought she was dreaming, anyway, she didn't subjectively want to do such a thing.

It wasn't until more than five o'clock in the morning that Shi Jing was stuffed back into the quilt by her, seeing that he seemed to be asleep, Si Qi was really relieved, and the breath that was holding her was also vented suddenly, she sat down on the edge of the bed and exhaled deeply, and after the heart that was always beating violently barely returned to normal, she stared at Shi Jing's sleeping face again, his face was too white, and his forehead almost showed green tendons, which made her think involuntarily.

What kind of past does this person have?

She gently stretched out her hand and rubbed the corners of his eyes, how did the darkness of these eyes appear after all, and what happened to make him accumulate such a strong darkness.

I don't know how long it took, the person on the bed* seemed to be really calm, Si Qi barely stood up on the edge of the bed, went back to the room to change his clothes, and went to the first floor to boil a kettle of hot water and bring it up, Shi Jing's situation was too weird, she was really a little worried, anyway, it was almost dawn, and she couldn't sleep, so she simply went to look at him, so as not to have another accident.

"I didn't... I really didn't... No... It's not me..."

As soon as Si Qi went up to the second floor, she heard a hoarse voice from Shi Jing's room from a distance, she was startled, and Saya rushed into the room, Shi Jing, who had just fallen asleep, seemed to be being disturbed by nightmares, and kept talking in his mouth, his expression was helpless and sad.

"It's not me... I didn't... I didn't... Why me... I don't want to..."Shi Jing lay motionless on the bed*, but he was crying with his eyes open, transparent tears continued to slide from the corners of his eyes, and soon lost the pillow, he kept tossing and turning and saying words with unknown meanings, and he couldn't hear why, but his voice was very frightened and sad, and his whole sleeping face was shrouded in huge darkness and sorrow.

Si Qi couldn't help but stepped forward to wipe his tears, gently rubbed his forehead and eyes, and whispered: "Don't cry, I'm here, I'm here with you, don't be sad." ”

Shi Jing's eyes were too sad, his expression was too desperate, he kept crying in his sleep, and he didn't have the appearance of warmth and shyness during the day, which only made people feel worried for no reason.

Si Qi cautiously lowered her head and kissed him on the forehead.

The kiss as light as a little water made Shi Jing freeze suddenly, and even the whispers in his dream froze instantly, as if he had never been kissed in his life.

So Si Qi couldn't hold back and kissed the corner of his eye again.

Under her comfort over and over again, he finally fell into a deep sleep again, and even unconsciously reached out his hand, clutching her wrist tightly, almost scratching up a blue purple on her skin.

At this moment, she really realized that Shi Jing was a patient with social phobia, and she thought of the post-traumatic stress disorder that Wang Jing had mentioned, and she was more sure of her guess.

Could it be that this is how Shi Jing has come over all these years?

She quietly uncovered the quilt and looked at Shi Jing's right hand and arm, probably old, those wounds had disappeared, unless she looked carefully, she could faintly see a trace of it, and the light-colored long traces were staggered, allowing her to faintly see the eighteen years that Shi Jing had spent in the dark through these scars.

Perhaps, it was the schoolgirl who jumped off the building in the afternoon that affected him, so that he finally got out of the villa, and retracted back into the cold and oppressive "villa" overnight, for some people, the cage is a shackle, but it is also a refuge, it can isolate everything, whether it is hope or despair.

Thinking of this, she quickly took out the mobile phone she had just taken back to the room from her pocket, flipped directly to Mo Wenlan's mobile phone number and dialed it, now at this time, she thought that Mo Wenlan might not hear the ringtone, and she was ready to find no one and swear not to give up.

Unexpectedly, as soon as the phone rang twice, Mo Wenlan picked it up, she didn't say hello, and quickly talked about what happened from yesterday afternoon to now, mainly because she needed to know how to face Shi Jing tomorrow.

Mo Wenlan listened silently, and although he didn't speak, his gradually heavy breathing still leaked his shock and nervousness.

At the end, Si Qi asked directly: "Now that he is asleep, I have also bandaged his wounds, but when he wakes up tomorrow morning, he will definitely ask about the wounds and pajamas, what should I do?"

Mo Wenlan was silent for a moment, and suddenly asked, "Aren't you afraid?"

Si Qi was stunned, to be honest, in addition to being nervous and worried, she really didn't feel particularly afraid, probably before deciding to meet Shi Jing, she had made the worst predictions and plans for Shi Jing's situation, or maybe her good impression of Shi Jing during this time had surpassed everything, and now although things were a little unexpected to her, she didn't notice any fear, maybe the time was too tight, she didn't know if she hadn't looked back yet.

"Can you tell me the truth?" Si Qi was silent and said, "I don't mean to blame anyone, and I don't want to know about the past that he doesn't want to talk about, I just want to know what I can do to help him, and I don't want to see this happen tonight." ”

"Yes, but it's been too long ago for me to tell you in person. Mo Wenlan also said very simply: "I will return to Jincheng in three days, I don't know if you can stay in the villa to accompany him in the next few days." ”

"That's fine. Si Qi said, "It's convenient for me to ask for leave, but can't you come back tomorrow?"

Mo Wenlan sighed: "He hasn't had this situation for many years, I need to go to Yungang to talk to my teacher about the treatment plan, otherwise I won't be of any use when I go back except to prescribe medicine to him." ”