It is said that blessings and misfortunes depend on each other, and I don't know whether what I am encountering now is a blessing or a curse. Ah, don't blame me for being too superstitious, people always think only about how to turn over when they are in misfortune, and no one prays that they will become more miserable.

No, people want to be the luckiest person in any situation.

For an ordinary person like me, whether fortunate or unfortunate, life always has to go on.

I lived a life of no quality and got up at half past six in the morning just to sit at the convenience store and enjoy an unpleasant breakfast.

The bread was so hard that it was like a baguette, and my chewing teeth creaked, and I pinched the carton of milk and poured it down, and I couldn't get the food stuck in my throat. My aunt slapped me on the back violently, and the force was so powerful that people mistakenly thought that she had met some martial arts master, and beat me to the point that my meridians were damaged.

"See. She pushed over a note, crumpled.

A string of numbers is written on it, 15873691246. I threw the disturbing bread aside and asked Auntie, "Whose phone number?"

"Last night when it was raining heavily, a woman came and gave it, and she looked like she was in her fifties or sixties. The man didn't know how to bring an umbrella, and he came to talk in a small voice, I couldn't hear clearly, and I only figured it out after saying it three times, and she asked me if I knew you, and I said it was a coincidence, and she wrote a number. ”

She ...... Did you say anything else?"

"No, I'll leave after leaving the number, the rain is not good, she has to go, no matter how she calls, she won't look back. ”

The old woman who was about to settle the bill coughed, and my heart tightened, she seemed to ...... Been coughing yesterday......

Somehow, I ate the unfinished piece of bread again, and when I took a bite of the cream, the feeling of holding it in my mouth made me have to praise this special cream, which really showed what it means to be greasy.

I also admire myself for being able to eat it all the time. The last bite was put into my mouth, and it was like biting a stone, and it hit my teeth, and the physiological response succeeded in forcing out tears, and I couldn't help jumping to my feet in pain.

As soon as my hand was loosened, the note almost fell, and I was afraid that it would be lost, so I hurriedly opened the mobile phone address book and saved it.

I hesitated countless times about the number I had saved, and in the end, I didn't dare to make a call, so I only sent a text message.

See you in the evening. That's what I told her.

If you want to see her, it is better to find a darker place to hide her old age and emaciation. She's not what I remember, and I can't accept her now......

Anxiously waiting, waiting for her to reply to the message. The degree of stupidity is no less than waiting for Lu Xiangnan's reply back then.

However, she didn't get anxious for long, and she almost replied in seconds.

I don't know if she's the same as me, looking at her phone all the time, looking forward to it in her uneasiness.

Maybe I shouldn't have been expecting it.

When I saw her in the evening, she was still wearing workshop work clothes and holding the child she saw that day in her arms.

She smiled wryly and explained, "His grandmother is sick and can't take care of the children, so I took him with me to work today." ”

I suppressed my inexplicable anger, and the kid smirked at me.

"How old is he?"

"Five...... Five-year-old ......"

"Oh, that's enough, so I'm fifteen years behind him?"

She didn't speak, I just felt nauseous, and the bread I ate in the morning didn't seem to be digested, and now it was about to come up.

For a moment, the air fell silent. The feeling of being so quiet made me mistakenly think that I was the only one who died while the whole world was alive with laughter.

The immature and weak voice shouted, "Sister." The voice was as small as hers.

You see, I'm trying my best to get rid of everything that is not good about her, including this child, of course, where did he get the courage to call out to her fifteen-year-old sister?

I don't care about thinking, I don't care about face, the moment I stood up and yelled at the child, I guess everyone thought I was a shrew.

"Whose sister are you calling!", I repeated this sentence no less than three times.

She kept her head down, accepting my reprimands for them like a child. I took a big mouthful of chili pepper from the table, and my throat seemed to be torn out with several holes, and the water I drank leaked into the lobes of my lungs, and then I coughed violently and uncontrollably.

It took me a long time to calm myself down. To be precise, it's not to calm down, it's to control your damn temper.

I really want to ask her, remember, when I was five years old, I scored zero in math, and I was chased and scolded for being stupid, and I kept my head down, and she told me to lift my head and keep it up. Even though I didn't do it well in the days that followed, I kept her words in mind and lifted my head.

It's ironic that she's bowing to me right now. Now that she knows that she shouldn't say goodbye, she should do it as she said...... Be kind to me again...... Why do you bow your head? Why do you bow down to me?

"Say something. ”

I begged her like this, at least to say something, and she sat still like this, with a low brow and a pleasing posture, I could not stand it anymore.

"I ...... Uh-" Her long sigh made the atmosphere tense.

"Then I'll tell you. I stirred the chili peppers on the table and dipped my hand in the dark red oil.

"When you left, I was still in elementary school. I paused, a shuddering sour breath in my throat, tears streaming down my cheeks without warning. Ah, my voice choked up, and I said stubbornly: "At that time, the class would count the single-parent families in the family every semester, about three years...... As soon as I saw that statistical table, I was stunned, and I felt ashamed to put my name on it...... In order not to embarrass myself, I also ran to the office and told the teacher, I will collect the form, and I want to fill it out last...... When I finally filled it out, I found that everyone ticked nothing, only me, and it was a single parent who was ticked. ”

"Me and my dad and my brother...... We posted more than 20 missing person notices...... Where the hell have you been?"

After all, I don't have the courage to blame her anymore, in this world, only her, and only with her, can I unreservedly reveal all my inner thoughts.

I said to her what I wanted to say to her when I was eight, what I wanted to say to me when I was nine, what I wanted to say to me when I was ten, what I wanted to say to me when I was thirteen, what I wanted to say to me at the age of fifteen...... And what I want to say to her now, now at the age of twenty.

"I really miss you, Mom. ”

So don't keep your head down, don't live in a low voice, come back, come back.